Bully me, baby! Part 9.

I do not own Naruto, I already have too much story's lying around to work on...

Warnings: Sasunaru, Yaoi, Shounen-ai, language, lemon, masochism, sadism, violence, etc.
Enjoy!

Recap:

"My parents aren't home right now. If you come with me I'll give you all the answers you want." Naruto says as he sighs and Sasuke silently thinks it over.

"Fine." He says as they step outside and Naruto inwardly smiles to himself, already long glad that his bully no longer ignores him.

End recap.

Reason.

"Well then." Naruto says as he sits on his bed cross-legged. Sasuke sits next to him and takes his time looking around the room, wondering if he will be here a lot more often in the future. "Why don't you start. You said you didn't care if I died… So why?"

"Idiot." Sasuke just answers as he searches for the words to reply. "You really think I'd wish to be a murderer? It would be way to troublesome." Naruto looks down at that, thinking Sasuke's words over.

"Then why did you pay for the surgery?" Naruto asks and it stays quit for a while.

"I didn't intend to go so far…" Sasuke replies softly as he looks down. "I just had a really bad day. You were just at the wrong place at the wrong time…"

"So if it had been someone else walking there at that time, you would have taken it out on them?" Naruto concludes on which Sasuke shakes his head. "Then why me? Why do you always wish to hurt me..?" Naruto asks. He knows it's not fair to ask that question since he is mostly the one who wishes to be hurt by Sasuke, but he just needs to know if there is more to it than that. Sasuke sighs before stroking his hand through his hair, ever avoiding the blondes blue eyes.

"You… You are- Tss… I- I'm…" Sasuke sighs between every word that he can't start a sentence from and Naruto notices how Sasuke struggles with this. "It's just complicated…"

"You can tell me, ya know…" Naruto says as he looks away again but then grins. "I mean, who would I tell right? It's not like I have any friends to tell after all…" Sasuke grins sarcastically at that.

"Why don't you hate me then? You could've easily sold me out to your parents. You could even have dragged me to court… But instead you keep quiet and lie about it…" Sasuke mentions and notices how Naruto looks away while scratching the back of his head. "Does this have to do with that question you asked me? Why you didn't defend yourself as if you actually wished to die..?"

A silence falls and Naruto sighs a couple of times as he tries to think of an answer. The entire conversation goes difficult at both ends and now that Sasuke turned the tables it seems he is the one who has to come clean first. Better get it over with then… Naruto thinks and he sighs one more time before properly answering Sasuke's question.

"Earlier that night I had a fight with my parents…" Naruto admits, not looking at Sasuke. "A pretty bad one… It never had gone that far before…"

"What happened?" Sasuke asks after another short silence, genuinely interested while at the same time trying to hide that he is. Naruto is surprised by Sasuke's sudden interest in him, but doesn't mention it as he swallows before answering.

"Just… I just don't have that good a bond with my parents… It used to be but… I dunno…" Naruto shrugs. "They don't accept me for who I am anymore… They just blame me for being different. Well sorry, mom and dad that I can't be the perfect son you had in mind!" Naruto says agitated as he feels that anger of that night again. Sasuke had never seen this side of Naruto and though he wouldn't admit it, anger makes Naruto look rather sexy. "I mean, it's not like I can help it. They are the ones who keep mentioning it. As if they suddenly don't trust me anymore… I-I thought that they wouldn't care anymore if something happened to me… So in that fight I told them I didn't care about them either…" Naruto doesn't dare to look up as he notices Sasuke stiffening.

"You total moron!" Sasuke shouts agitated, not wanting to keep this outburst in. "You're freaking out of your mind?!" Sasuke pushes Naruto down, holding his shirt while making the blond look at him. "You don't have the fucking right to say something like that! You fucking don't even deserve parents if you could seriously say something like that!"

"S-Sasuke…" Naruto says softly as he can see that sheer anger in his eyes again but this time also a lot of pain. "Y-you lost yours..?" Sasuke's eyes widen at the sudden but right assumption of the blond and he quickly backs of.

"S-shut up…" Sasuke replies as he looks away, folding his hands while trying to keep the images of the past away. He seems to calm down a bit when he feels Naruto's hand around his.

"I regretted those words the moment I had said them. The moment my father had hit me for the very first time, which he had never intended to… But I know now that I deserved it…" Naruto says, shoving closer to Sasuke while looking down as he realizes that those words must have dealt a lot of pain to his parents as well. "I'm sorry… I didn't mean to pry or reopen old wounds…"

A silence falls in which both boys are lost in their own thoughts. The ticking of the clock is the only sound in the room while outside the sun is setting. Neither one cares about that now though. For both of them know that this conversation isn't over. No matter how painful it is to talk about it.

"I was seven…" Sasuke softly says and Naruto knows he shouldn't interrupt him until he's told him the whole story. "My parents… My father was the leader of this company called 'Sharingan'. He and my mother worked often so they didn't have much time for my brother and me. So my brother, Itachi, took care of me mostly… They went on this business trip together… To Japan…" Sasuke doesn't dare to look at the blond who caresses his hand as he folds it tighter. "An earthquake followed by a Tsunami…"

Naruto is shocked to hear this and he notices how Sasuke starts to tremble a bit. The blond can remember that time all too well. They still had family living there which they would visit every once a year. Naruto doesn't remember them well so the loss wasn't too great. All he remembers, from hearing that is, that he cried because his godfather wouldn't be capable of buying him Ramen anymore. So this is why Sasuke hates me so much… I remind him of the country that took his parents from him… Naruto thinks as he understands Sasuke's actions now.

"The days after were the worst…" Sasuke continues, ignoring how strange it feels to be capable of talking about this now. As if he needs to speak the truth about it now. "Waiting… Hoping to get a call that they were alive. Injured maybe, but at least alive… But we never got to hear that news…" Sasuke sighs as he fights against his tears while Naruto shoves closer to him and lays his head on the raven's shoulder. "One week is all we got. After it was made sure that our parents were dead… my brother had to take my father's place as head of the company." Sasuke grins sarcastically at the next sentence. "What's worse is that for me it was the end of the school year. We had tests and because of this I dropped out of school… I had to do the year over…"

"So that's why you're older than the rest of our class…" Naruto mentions, but as he thinks about it it doesn't add up completely. "Did you have to skip multiple years?"

"Ghn." Sasuke replies softly. "That's because of what happened a couple of years later…."

Naruto notices how Sasuke has started to tremble some more and knows that he's fighting against his tears as Sasuke quickly tries to wipe a few away that had managed to escape.

"It's alright…" Naruto whispers, laying both arms around Sasuke's neck so the raven can cry on his shoulder without showing his tears. As Sasuke turns a bit so both of them get some more comfortable, he forces Naruto to place his hands behind him to lean on in order not to fall backwards. The blond refuses to let the raven in his arms go so they both fall on the bed. Naruto strokes his hands over Sasuke's back and through his hair to calm him. Sasuke has a hard time getting a hold of himself again, wishing those images would leave his mind already, but eventually he manages to get a hold of his voice again. He knows though that his eyes are all red from crying so he keeps laying down. Whispering the words into Naruto's ear with a voice that trembles every now and then.

"T-the first year of high school… I did something I really shouldn't have…" Sasuke swallows to clear his throat. "Itachi had protected me from the media, especially news and papers. But one day, while looking things up on internet I saw a picture of Japan. Not really all that much a special one, just a sky view picture of how the country looked like after… You know…" Naruto nods silently, not wanting to interrupt Sasuke. "But it did make me curious to more images… I don't know why really… Maybe I just still hoped to find my parents wandering between those citizens… But that's not what I found…" Sasuke bites his lip. "O-one of those… I recognized the blouse Itachi and I had bought for our mother the year before…" Sasuke's breath hitches, not being able to tell Naruto what else he saw on that picture.

"God, Sasuke…" Naruto says with a pained face. Knowing how much Sasuke much have been in pain discovering images like that.

"It brought it all back…" Sasuke continues. "The pain, the loneliness… Itachi was too busy so for a long time I dealt with it on my own… I had lost all interest in school all over again… Having no energy for anything, no motivation as the images kept hunting me at night… Blaming me…"

"Blaming you?" Naruto asks carefully, not understanding what Sasuke means with that.

"On that image I recognized painting supplies… The symbol on it was from our family…" Sasuke's breath hitches as he holds on to the blond tighter. "They were there for me..! My birthday would have been a few weeks after they came back… They were there, in that village, for me…"

He much have studied that picture quite a bit in order to find something so detailed… Naruto thinks holding Sasuke closer while burying his nose in black locks. Not having anyone to talk to either… Sasuke… You really must have been scarred by that for life…

"What saved you?" Naruto silently asks.

"Gheh… What do you think?" Sasuke replies, nuzzling against Naruto's shoulder while trying to dry his eyes as well. "They found out of course. Itachi… The school…" Sasuke sighs deeply, remembering all too well the disappointment in their eyes. "They made me go to some therapist for quite some time… Multiple ones as I told none of them what I had discovered. Instead they eventually came to a therapist who focused on the present and made sure my brother and I had some more time together… It was around that time that I started to work for Sharingan a bit as well, which gave me more motivation for everything."

"I see…" Naruto replies and it stays quit again for some time. Sasuke has his eyes closed laying close to the blond in his arms realizing that he hasn't felt this warm in a long time. For so long he had to keep up a facade so no one would ever notice the pain and grief he's dealing with. For the first time in many years he feels like he doesn't have to hide his true self. "I understand now…" Naruto softly says. "Why you hate me so much…"

Sasuke can feel his heart skip a beat and a slight pain in his chest. Those words hit him harder than he thought they would. Naruto has turned his head to the side, feeling the tears burn behind his eyes. He wished he could tell Sasuke about his feelings. But knowing that just his presence alone reminds the raven of the death of his parents, there is just no way they will ever be together. If I had died Sasuke wouldn't be reminded of his painful past every time we cross each other's path's. Naruto thinks and a tear rolls down his face on Sasuke's hand which he had on Naruto's cheek.

Naruto keeps his eyes closed as Sasuke leans up a bit and shoves Naruto's head some more into his direction. Naruto is surprised to feel soft lips on his own and doesn't dare to open his eyes, fearing it might all be over if he does so.

To be continued…

So... Now you all know Sasuke's reasons. ^.^

Thanks for the comments on the last part and the very handy feedback! ^.^
It's not like I enjoy makin Sasuke hurt poor Naru. But that's the setting this fanfic was put in when I adopted it. And as ya all now know, Sasuke did have his reasons... sort of... :P

Anyway, comments are highly appreciated!

And a warning for next part; Lots and lots of smexy stuff. :3 (Is to much possible? I gotta make up for past parts right? ^/ / / ^)

Next part: Sexual attention is still attention