Run to the other side of reality…
'please let me go
let me run to my memories
please let me hide in my dreams
I don't want to feel this pain anymore!
My body is bursting from hatred and sadness
Please let me dream
Let me fly to happiness on the other side of reality
Where joy awaits me
Where the people love me
Please let me run to the other side of reality...'
'Posted by: Kyurami'
Kimaru says:
"Hey it's been a while since you posted something pall! Though I totally understand now why… Holdin up okay?"
Kyurami says:
"Hey Kimaru… I guess I'm holding up okay… somehow…"
Kimaru says:
"Wanna talk about it? You know I got the biggest ears and they can listen well!"
Kyurami says:
"Do you also have big eyes so that you can read well enough too? Cuss those ears will not do you any good now, so far apart."
Kiramu says:
"Ghahaha, yeah true. They work well enough. And a good pair of big sharp teeth to tear apart any who dare to hurt you!"
Kyurami says:
"Gheh. Then you must have eaten my grandma to huh?"
Kimaru says:
"Nah, she wouldn't be my taste. To female. Gheheheh."
Kyurami says:
"Uhhuh…"
Kimaru says:
"…"
Kimaru says:
"… …. …."
Kimaru says:
"… … … …. …. . . . . . ."
Kimaru says:
"Dotto dotto dotto dotto dotto."
Kyurami says:
"Okay what?!"
Kimaru says:
"Let me guess, it has something to do with your parents."
Kyurami says:
"Something like that… But it's more than that…"
Kimaru says:
"Tell me."
Kyurami says:
"No."
Kimaru says:
"Ah come on. Please? I just want to help you. If I can."
Kyurami says:
"You can't… Not this time buddy…"
Kimaru says:
"You bet I can! You know what, if you don't want to talk about it I will have to just come to you to fix whatever problems you're dealing with. And ya know that means a lot coming from me!"
Kyurami says:
"You? You, willing to leave your room? Ghah, yeah right!"
Kimaru says:
"Damn, right I mean it! Any idea how long it has been since I left my room?! Not to mention my house! I could use talkin and having some fun with a friend to you know! And I think we could both use it."
Kyurami says:
"You mean it? You'll come here?"
Kimaru says:
"Yeah it aint not that far. Four hours or so. Think you can hold out till next weekend?"
Kyurami says:
"Okay. I'll sure try!" But you better keep your word… I don't think I can survive losing the last person that I still trust as well…
Damn, it still hurts… Sasuke thinks as he holds his right upper arm. It's Saturday early afternoon. Sasuke had just had his first lesson in material arts. Though his teacher was quite strict with him and often used Sasuke as an example because the Uchiha would lose his temper easily, Sasuke did enjoy this first lesson and he has the feeling he had actually learned something. Itachi will be proud of me… I hope. Tomorrow we will do something together. The theater this time. To some show called 'Hades'. Whatever it may be about, I don't care. As long as I'm going with Nii-san I know it will be a great day. Sasuke thinks as he lets go of his arm to shove both hands in his pockets. Walking past a poster on the wall announcing a card convention for next week, Sasuke is reminded of a certain blond. I hope Naruto is doing okay. He didn't look well lately… Sasuke's uplifted mood suddenly drops a lot as he walks on in thought. It's like I can still hear his uplifting voice when he's enthusiastic about something… A strong longing overtakes the raven and for just a moment he stands still. Letting wave after wave of desire, longing and a tearing pain of loss flow over him. Wait a second. That voice is not a memory! It's here! Sasuke quickly opens his eyes and looks around. He quickly hides behind a tree when he spots his blond dobe. But he is not alone. And never had Sasuke seen him so cheerful since they went apart. A raging jealousy courses through him at the sight of the brunette who makes his dobe, his Naruto, laugh whit so much joy as if he had no care in the world and as if he had forgotten about Sasuke completely.
"So ever since that day, I made sure to clean up Akamaru's droppings. Me stepping into it, I can handle that, I mean it's my own fault and like I told you, I have clean eyes so I can avoid them easily. But when my sister steps into it, She'll make sure I'd be the first one to know!"
"Ghahaha. I can't believe she has put his droppings in your bed! I mean that's just disgusting!"
About a week before his first kiss with Sasuke Naruto had found a site for only gay people. One could poste things there like art, story's, thoughts or poems. Other members could comment on this and there was a private chat box. On this site Naruto, under the name Kyurami, had met Kimaru, his real name being Kiba Inuzuka. Naruto had found in him a good listening and trustworthy friend. Ever since Naruto had started to deepen his relationship with Sasuke, which contained mainly make outs, Naruto had contacted the brunette less and less. Now that things were over between him and his crush, Naruto sought for the comfort of his good friend again.
"Ah, do you think you could come again next week? There is this card convention that I'm going to." Naruto says as he had spotted a poster nearby and was reminded of it.
"I'll see if I can make it. No promises but if I can, sure I'll tag along!" Kiba grins as they walk on towards the park. As they near the bridge where Naruto and Sasuke broke up, the blonds mood drops a lot.
"You know, You shouldn't let that bastard hurt you any more than he already has. Get him out of your mind cuss he's so not worth worrying about." Kiba says, not knowing that a couple of trees away, someone is spying on them and is sending death glares to the brunette.
"I know… But that's a lot easier said than done…" Naruto replies as he slowly continues to walk the bridge by.
"You know what I do when I'm angry with someone?"
"Shout at them?"
"Could work but no." Kiba answers while grinning devilishly. "I imagine a toy of Akamaru to be him as Akamaru plays with it." Naruto chuckles on this.
"I'm really glad you came over. Feels good to break through the dark mood I got myself in to." Naruto says as they leave the park behind.
"Well that's what friends are for! And you can pay me back by treating me to some ice cream!" Kiba bellows, his voice getting fainter as the Uchiha remains at the park's entrance.
He's… Really getting over me... The raven thinks as he watches them walk away till they turn a corner. Sasuke turns around and decides to head back towards his home. Though I'm glad he looks no longer so depressed… Sasuke thinks and he starts to walk faster as he passes the bridge. When he passes the place where he had nearly beaten his blond to death Sasuke starts to run. As he passes a couple in love, he starts to sprint as tears burn in his eyes. Why that stupid brunette?! Why did I have to make such a point out of it and did I not hear him out or explain things better?! How could I have been so stupid to let him go?! I should have..! If only I had..! Tsk- With every beat of his heart a tearing pain bursts through his chest. And now it is to late! Now I've lost him to someone else! No matter how many regrets, I've lost him now for good even before it really started!
"Tadayma." Naruto says as he closes the door of his home, having just said his goodbye to Kiba as they parted ways in front of Naruto's house.
"Naruto where have you been all day? Any idea how worried I was when you were not in bed this morning?" Kushina asks as she enters the hallway to greet her son.
"Relax mom…" Naruto sighs as he takes his shoes off. "I was just out for a bit with a friend."
"Not someone that could hurt you right? How do you know him?"
"You really think I'd let myself get hurt that easily?! He's just a friend, mom. We met on this site where-"
"An internet site?! Oh, Naruto, honey, why can't you be more careful when you choose your friends?" Kushina sighs disappointedly as she puts her hands on her hips. "Do you have any idea how dangerous it can be to meet up with a person you have never seen before? On the internet people can pretend to be everyone but who they really are. You didn't tell him you were gay right?"
"That…" Naruto says between gritted teeth as his anger is boiling inside of him. "I know whom I can trust! I chose my friends! I already gave up on one because you two told me so! I know I can trust Kiba, or do you want to interrogate everyone whom I befriend, just like how you interrogate me?!" Naruto shouts angrily.
"Naruto, you got hurt before! We don't want men like that Sasuke to use you again!" Kushina shouts back as Naruto has passed her and she follows him till the bottom of the stairs. "We just don't want to see our beloved son get hurt again! We're trying to protect you, Naruto!"
"Then the best way for your 'beloved' son to be protected is that he should not have any friends at all!" Naruto shouts as he rushes to his room, slamming the door with a loud bang behind him.
They are suffocating me! Naruto thinks. I hate them! Just shut up! Just leave me alone! Kiba is just a friend anyway. We aren't each other's type at all, that is why we can talk so freely to each other! Naruto smashes the wall with his fist, causing his knuckles to bleed, but he doesn't even notice it. If you would just listen to me instead of always, ALWAYS, judge me! I would have told you about Kiba, about my great day. But you just have to ruin it all with your homophobic judgment and suffocating overprotectiveness! Naruto lets himself fall on his bed and he lets out a desperate and enraged cry into his pillow. Why do you have to take everything away from me?! Tears start to spill. The love of my life, my best friend, my home and even the great bond I had with my parents!
Sasuke wipes his tears away as he closes the door of his house behind him. He sniffs as he takes of his shoes and walks towards his bedroom. There he lets himself fall on his bed with a tired sigh. I should actually sketch some more for that fantasy festival… But I really don't feel like it. Sasuke inhales deeply before slowly breathing out again, letting his muscles relax. Maybe I can relax for a bit… That is- tsk- What the hell am I lying on? Sasuke thinks as he feels something hard pointing in his side. As he picks up the object that causes him such irritation, he frowns at what he finds. What. The. Fuck? Sasuke stares at the bleu box in his hand and his eyes widen in surprise, that soon turns into frustration as he realizes what it is. A note was pasted to the back side of the box.
Please do not finish this box too quickly.
For the next one you have to buy yourself.
Choose your partner wisely, Sasuke.
For I know how perverted and naïf my cute little brother can be.
I-taaa-chiii….." Sasuke says annoyed at the teasing message his brother had left him along with the box of condoms. He sighs, but then smiles as he puts the box away in a drawer of his nightstand, having mixed feelings about Itachi's present.
Yeah I was gonna relax for a bit, but I don't feel like sleeping anymore. Sasuke thinks as he stands up and stretches for a bit, feeling the sore spots of his material arts training. He then walks to the bathroom where he turns on the bath. While the bath fills he goes back to his room to get himself some clean underwear. As he opens the drawer to his boxers though, he finds another present.
Before engaging in any more certain activities,
You should really do some research.
You are the male in the relationship,
Which means you have a responsibility.
But if you'd ever feel like playing the other role,
Know that your brother will always love and support you.
Sasuke's cheeks are bright read as he reads the message that Itachi left him along with the gay playboy magazine. As if I- That's- Who the hell does he think- "Damn it Itachi! Stop mocking me!" Sasuke growls angrily as he smashes the drawer close after taking a clean boxer out of it. He puts the magazine with the condoms before dashing off to the bathroom where he locks the door behind him.
"Stupid Nii-san making fun of me… I'll teach him. Stupid, stupid Nii-san…" Sasuke keeps grumbling and complaining about Itachi as he undresses himself. As he's about to take a towel of the shelf, he frowns at the color of one of them. Pink? Sasuke thinks as he takes the towel out from the rest. We both despise pink. Why would- Sasuke's eyes widen in horror as he finds his initials in the most girly way written embroidered in a corner on the towel. Another note falls to the ground.
A clean body is mostly preferred, you owe that to any possible partner.
I know you despise pink, but let this be a warning, dear brother.
If you don't clean yourself every day,
It will not be only your towels that are pink…
I always thought the color rather suited you.
Or do you prefer rainbow colors?
I could easily arrange that for you
Cuss, as you know, I'm always there for you.
"Always there for me, my ass!" Sasuke growls and flinches at his own choice of words. "Since when is showering every two days not enough anymore, anyway? Stupid, stupid brother. I really need to teach him a lesson about boundaries!" Sasuke grumps as he slowly lowers himself in the warm water of the bathtub and soon the warm water causes his muscles to relax and his eyes to close, getting him on the edge of dozing off and being awake.
To be continued…
Yeahy another part uploaded! Don't you all just love Itachi's teasing? :3
Also, the poem at the beginning of this chapter was written by me during the days that I got badly bullied. I thought it was fitting to add this in Naruto's situation.
Also to explain the names Kyurami and Kimaru. Kyu (Kyuubi) ram (Kurama) i (Kyuubi) and Ki (kiba) maru (Akamaru). ^.^
Thank you guys for sticking around with this story. I know it's hard to contunue after that breakup they had, but I wanted to do something diffrent from all those sasunaru fanfics out there. But, rest assured, I could no longer call myself Sasunaruneechan if I were to just let them end like this right? Just stick around for a little longer, things will change soon enough. For, as a writer, I do love teasing you, my dear readers. Let me hear your reactions, being it with love or hate, let me know how the feels of this story hit you, or not. :P
Next part: Renewed hope.
PS: I give my special thanks to another awesome writer; XOmarX. To all I'd like to recommend, while waiting for the next update, this story of hers called; "Cursed love" s/7228019/1/Cursed-by-Love . It was really catchy and a one of a kind story, as far as I've read sasunaru fanfics. :P