Walls break when disaster strikes

He's running. Running through the streets, hardly noticing it when people are shoved out of his way. The sun, shining so brightly and would normally recall to him the hair colour of a certain blonde, yet now it seems to bright, blindingly so. Each step echoing through his head, his feet feel like lead, dragging him through the street too slowly while at the same time everything seems to blur around him as if he were going too fast. To fast, everything goes to fast! His thought follow up so quickly that he can't even put words to them. Blurring the line from where one thought ends and another starts, getting all mixed up with memories of the past and dreams and fears for the future. His breath is coming rigidly as if there is not enough oxygen in the air while also chocking on unspilled emotions. Only by share will and knowing the way home by heart has lead Sasuke towards he driving lane of his own home. He stumbles once more on the steps of his home before getting up and throwing himself against the front door. His hands tremble tremendously as he fumbles with the keys and he misses the keyhole a couple of times before he manages to unlock the door and quickly end up inside.

"Please. Please, please, please, please, please…" Sasuke had not even noticed when he had started pleading. Pleading for his brother to be alive, for all of this to be not true, a dream, for some miracle or just something. Just something, anything but this! He wipes a few tears away as he takes his phone out of his pocket and while searching for his brother's name. As soon as he has pressed the green button he walks towards the low table where he takes the remote to turn on the tv, quickly putting on the news channel. The images he sees behind the reporter remind him so strongly of the ones that he has seen years ago and when his phone instantly goes to a woman's voice without going over, stating that the number is out of reach or does not exist, Sasuke drops himself to his knees and he can't push the tears away anymore. The pain in his chest is unbearable and he wishes he could pass out from hyperventilation so he wouldn't feel the pain, the fear and dread. So he could wake up tomorrow and pretend this all never happened. So he would not have to wait in anxiety again for so long to finally hear news. The thoughts in his mind, the tears flowing down his cheeks, he hardly notices them as he stares ahead of him into nothingness. He focusses on that. Yearning to feel nothing else. Only the nothing emptiness.

It is how Naruto found him when he opened the door further, the door not having been totally closed. Sasuke sits with his back against the back of the couch, arms folded around his knees, head leaning on it while the traces of tears are still on his cheeks and his eyes look dulled. Naruto's heart aches for his friend as he sees him in such pain like that. He knows he will never forget this moment for the rest of his life.
When Sasuke had dropped the pot with water, the raven had quickly staggered to look at Suigetsu's screen, the three colleagues sitting completely still as they realize what this news means for Sasuke. Naruto remembers how his eyes had widen and it had seemed as if the raven had intended to say something, but he then quickly turned around and fled, more than just striding away, out of the office. Naruto had called out to him but the raven hadn't heard it and the elevator doors had just closed when he reached it, on which he had quickly dashed of down the stairs. By then his friend had already left the building and Naruto could only hope he had gone to his home as he rushes in that direction as well.
Naruto sighs in relief as he closes the door behind him, being glad that Sasuke safely managed to get home despite the panic he must have felt. Naruto doesn't know what to say as he takes some steps closer, noticing how Sasuke doesn't even react to his presence.

He looks so broken… Naruto thinks sadly as he silently takes up the remote to turn the television off.

"His phone didn't even ring…" Sasuke says brokenly in a soft voice while not even moving and Naruto can't do anything else but to drop by him and embrace the one he feels so strongly for.

"Sasuke…" Naruto says softly, wanting to say more, so much more. Comforting words that could make him feel better. He wants to tell him everything would be alright and that he isn't alone and that they would get through this together. But Naruto can't seem to find the words or the voice to say it. Because it will not be alright. His presence alone will not be enough for Sasuke to not feel alone. Nor does he think Sasuke will be able to get through this and still be the same person. His brother meant everything to him. Naruto can understand that no words can dampen the agonizing pain of this loss.

"Hgnm…" Naruto moans softly, taken by surprise as Sasuke suddenly kisses his neck. "Wh- S-Sasuke?!" He asks in confusion as his raven suddenly pushes him over so he lies on top of his blonde.

Sasuke doesn't reply as he attacks Naruto's neck again. Why… He thinks. Why does everyone I ever care for always leave me? He pushes Naruto's hands above his head, placing his legs between the ones of the one he has been yearning for for so long, agonisingly long. Eventually he will leave to, so why would I hold back. I'm better off not caring or being cared for anyway. Better enjoy this while I can.

Damn it! Naruto thinks as he tries to free his hands. He knows that Sasuke would normally not act this way. "Sasuke, stop it! Hng… I-." As Sasuke lowers himself on his blonde, Naruto can feel how turned on the raven is for him and he can't stop the moan that escapes him as their members are getting squeezed together.

"Why would I?" The raven finally replies with a dark, low and husky voice close to the blonde's ears, making Naruto shiver in anticipation. "You've been wanting this too. There is no… denying that now. In the end you would just leave me too. You… did so be-fore… Hng.."

"N-No. I-I-ah!" Naruto gasps as Sasuke starts to grind against him. Damn my body for giving me away like this! He thinks as he has a really hard time not bucking his hips up to meet his seme in his grinding. "I don't want you like this! S-Sasuke! Stop!" With that he bangs his head hard against the raven above him who hisses as he leans back a bit. Naruto backs away from him a bit and they both catch their breath.

"I think you should leave." Sasuke says darkly while holding his head and looking away, his tone not being one to be questioned.

Naruto scrambles to his legs and he has made a few steps towards the door when he stops.

"No." He says and turns around to walk to his seme and embrace him from behind. "I will not leave you, teme. I will never leave you…"

Sasuke can't stop the tears from spilling at hearing the sincerity in his dobe's voice. He turns around and holds Naruto tight while hiding his face in the nape of his neck, his shoulders shocking from the despair and devastation he feels. Naruto holds his seme tighter and moves so now he leans with his back against the back of the couch, stroking Sasuke's back in comforting circles.
The endless strain of thoughts that Sasuke had been trying to keep away come crashing down on him again. He would never see his brother again. Never go anywhere with him again. Never be teased by him again. Who would he go to for advice now? He would be all alone. He would have to be the one to tell the company and others that his brother is dead… Sharingan would want him to step up. His beloved brother is dead and he didn't even get the chance to return those precious words Itachi had given him. Now he never will. His brother who has accomplished so much with so little preparation and yet never complained and still tried to make time for his foolish little brother… And Sharingan will hardly care as they will want him to step up… If it were not for that company…! Yet his brother always stood his ground, always made it seem so easy while so much responsibility rested on his shoulders. Itachi was truly amazing, there is no way Sasuke could ever even come close to that…
Thoughts of all the things that would have to be done, the vague memories of the memorial for his parents… The sudden realisation that Itachi must have had a hand in that as well while still looking so strong, causes yet another wave of agony to flow through him.

"I-I can't go through this again!" Sasuke says desperately. "I-It hurts so m-much..! I can't do this. Endlessly waiting… H-He had promised me-! Pr-omised to come back! That he would always be there for m-me! I-Im.. hgnh… I-I can't do this! I can't… I can't, I can't, Ican't-!"

"Sasuke…" Naruto holds him tighter, tears stinging in his eyes for how badly his love is suffering while he can't do anything for him. Feeling so helpless is just agonizing. Naruto has never seen Sasuke cry before and he knows now that he hates it. He hates seeing his love so devastated and he would do anything to prevent having his Sasuke so lost and broken again. He softly kisses Sasuke's head, silently shushing and promising that he would not go anywhere.
After a bit the tears seem to have dried and just as Naruto thinks the raven has fallen asleep, does Sasuke speak.

"Thanks… For being here…" Are the soft raw words he speaks with a sore throat next to his dobe's ear.

"Always." Naruto replies equally soft. "There is no reason for you to thank me for that." The reply does not come in words as Sasuke nuzzles his head against his and though Naruto can feel his cheeks burn, he can't help the small content smile at that gesture.
They sit like that for a while longer until the silence is disturbed by the ringing of the phone which stands on a small table against the opposite wall from them. Sasuke jerks up at the sound, instantly looking towards it, but Naruto is surprised as he doesn't make a move to get it.

"Sasuke?"

"W-what if it isn't him?" Sasuke answers unsure as he looks at the ringing thing. "Or worse, someone else to tell me he's dead…"

"Sasuke." Naruto says gently while taking one of his hands to squeeze it softly and shortly. "There is only one way to find out. Want me to pick it up?" The raven shakes his head at that and starts to move away from his blonde.

"Give me strength…" He whispers as he turns to Naruto one more time to kiss him shortly on his lips. Naruto enjoys the kiss and holds Sasuke's lips captured for a short while before letting him go at which the raven walks to the phone. "Anything is better than the endless waiting…" He says though he swallows and takes a big breath before picking up the phone with still trembling hands. "H-Hello..?"

"Sasuke. I'm glad you picked up. No doubt you've heard already. Are you alright?" The tears instantly sting in Sasuke's eyes again and he lets himself slide against the wall to the floor when he hears his brothers voice, having one hand cover his mouth. "Sasuke?"

"Stupid Nii-san! Making me so worried… I should ask you that! Are you hurt? Y-You're alright, right? I'm not… g-gonna lose you too..?" The young Uchiha doesn't even try to disguise the fear in his voice.

"My little brother. There is no reason for you to worry. I'll be alright. A slight concussion, a dislocated shoulder and some bruises but I'll heal. I'll take the first plane back as soon as I can, or rather, as I'm allowed to." Itachi answers with a calm voice.

"Allowed to?"

"Had some blood loss thanks to the head wound. Because of the thinner air they decided it best that I recover some more before I'd get on a plain. It will be a couple of days but I promise I'll get home as soon as I can. Okay?"

"Uhn…" Sasuke sniffs. "But I'll stay worried until you're here again. 'Just one week, what could happen', right? I will never let you go on such business travels alone again! And this won't be up for debate." Sasuke shakes. "You d-didn't pick up your phone! I-I thought you were dead..!" Sasuke can't help a few sobs and he furiously tries to dry his eyes as some tears seem to have found a way down his cheeks.

"My phone got crashed and lost in all the rouble. I'm alive. I will be alright, so don't worry too much… There are more people who are waiting to make their calls to their loved ones so I'll have to hang up soon. Will you be alright? Are you alone?" Itachi askes worried.

"U-uhn… A friend is here… I'll manage… Though I'm gonna skip school till you're home again so you better hurry up and get here as soon as you can!" Sasuke says stubbornly. "And call me. Each day that you're there. …In case there are still aftershocks or another earthquake happens… …Or a tsunami…" The last word was barely more than a whisper.

"I will. They say the worst is over now and the earthquake came more from inland so there is hardly any chance of a tsunami… I'll call you again tomorrow then." Itachi replies though both Uchiha's are reluctant to hang up.

They exchange a few parting words before the call ends, knowing that they must, and Sasuke stands up to put the phone back on the charger. He lingers for a little bit in thought before he turns Naruto, who had been patiently waiting and only observing, and walks over to him to hug him again like they did before the call.

"He lives, Naru… My brother is alive and he will come home." Tears sting in Sasuke's eyes again, though this time from relief instead of fear and dread.

"I'm glad. I hate to see you so… so devastated…" Naruto swallows hard as he holds Sasuke closer.

"I… I didn't think I would be… Not that bad. Of course I… Care. Very much about him. But not wanting to live on? Even with you being here… I didn't know he meant that much to me…." Sasuke confesses, feeling completely safe by the blonde he's holding. "Is that wrong? For me to care that much.."

"No. I don't think so…" Naruto replies and he thinks for a bit before elaborating. "You've lost so much. Itachi is like a lifeline to you. You don't have that many of those. Makes him more important than anyone…" It remains silent for a bit. "Promise me something though."

"Hn?" Sasuke sits straighter to look his blonde in his beautiful blue eyes.

"Don't ever think or even consider to end your life. Even.. Even if Itachi had died. He is not your only lifeline. Not anymore. I am too." The blue eyes are filled with determination. "Let me be your lifeline too, Sasuke."

"Y-You really want me to?" The raven asks unsure at which Naruto raises a brow. Sasuke quickly continues before his dobe can protest. "After what I nearly did to you?" He looks away while fisting his hands, on purpose creating some more distance between each other. "I can't believe I acted that way! It's like I'm no better than that bastard that did that to you..!"

"Sasuke…" Naruto says as he reaches up to lay a hand on Sasuke's cheek, which the raven catches though.

"How can you even stand to be near me right now?! I… Forced myself on to you..!" The disgust on the ravens face is evident to the self-loathing he feels and Naruto remains silent as he pulls his crush closer. "As if I were still trying to hurt you..! To drive you away…"

"I don't think you would have gone through with it." Naruto says calmly, but Sasuke does not agree.

"You don't know that. Even I don't… I never thought I would… act like that…" Sasuke closes his eyes as he leans with his forehead against the blonde's shoulder. "Why didn't you leave? How can you still hold me after that..?" Naruto sighs exasperatedly at which he shoves Sasuke a little so he can look the raven in his eyes.

"Because, Sasuke, frankly I had a very hard time to shove you away all together. You weren't wrong you know… I wanted you. Badly. Ever since we broke up, I couldn't keep my mind of you! It was very hard to push you away. I did so because I… I-I don't want to do it with you like that. Not for the wrong reasons." Sasuke intends to say something at that but Naruto holds up a hand and quickly continues before the raven can interrupt. "And as to why I didn't leave. Teme, you are my best friend! There is now way I would ever walk away from any friend who is suffering and in dire need of a friend. Least of all would I do that to my best friend in the world who I have such a history with."

"Really?" Sasuke asks, though his eyes sparkle and he has a charming smile around his lips as if he had found a long lost treasure. "You really missed me?" He kisses the blonde's hand shortly just as Naruto replies.

"Yes, really… I-I know I said some stupid things… I wanted to make things up with you sooner… I already told you that…"

"Will you forgive me then?" Naruto looks up at the question, having looked away in embarrassment before, but now seeing that his friend is completely serious.

"There is nothing to forgive." Naruto replies and his heartbeat quickens as he realizes that Sasuke is still holding his hand. He's really bothered by what happened earlier. Even though I didn't dislike it half as much as I probably showed… "I didn't dislike it that much… I just… Hated seeing you like that…" Sasuke sits closer to the blonde to touch their foreheads but he remains silent so Naruto continues even though his cheeks have gone completely red. "Even if I hadn't, I would not have disliked it… I know how gentle you can be… How g-good you are…" Naruto's breath quickens as he is vaguely aware of what he is saying, the closeness of the other being a rather welcome distraction. "I have been longing f-for so long… I… I-"

Naruto can't finish his sentence as his lips have finally been claimed by the one he has been yearning for for so long. They start of slow, not even moving their lips at first. As if their mouths need time to get reacquainted with one another again. Naruto gasps softly in delight as he feels how Sasuke licks his lips, asking for entrance. As Naruto allows him so, Sasuke instantly explores that cave with his tongue. Retouching each spot, since the last time he had done so was so long ago. Naruto tilts his head a little so Sasuke has more reach while their tongues start to dance around one another.
The heat in their bodies rises and Naruto does not object when Sasuke pulls him on his lap and both moan in delight as their hard rockets get crushed together.
They have to break their kiss though in order to get some fresh air and to let their tongue muscles catch a break of their intense workout. But even as they catch their breath they kiss each other's neck again. Sasuke hums in delight as he finally gets to kiss his dobes neck. That delicious tanned skin he has been yearning for, that only belongs to him. His dobe, his idiot, his masochist, his sunshine and brightest light in the dark life he has lead up till now. How could he not have seen it sooner? How could he have taken this angel, his saviour and source for happiness like he has never known it, how could he have taken him for granted? How could he have ever wanted to hurt him? And how could he ever have been able to resist him, for Sasuke knows those hips that have started moving on him are just too good to be true. Sasuke pulls Naruto in a fierce and sloppy kiss again while he squeezes his uke's delicious behind, shoving him closer.

"Ah. S-Sasuke I-!" Sasuke cuts Naruto's words short in another kiss while he manages to stand up at which Naruto wraps his legs around his crush.

Halfway up the stairs does Sasuke lean Naruto on the guardrail and he grinds roughly against his blonde at which they both vocal their enjoyment. Naruto can hardly see straight as he pulls Sasuke in for another desperate kiss. He wants Sasuke to know how badly he wants him right now, all rational thought being overthrown by his need to be filled by the one he loves.
When Sasuke finally gets to his bedroom, me makes no real ceremony of letting themselves fall on it, at which he instantly starts to grind and thrust, driving them both crazy. Which gets worse when Naruto no longer holds back his vocal arsenal, encouraging Sasuke in any way he can to go on.

"S-Sasu-! Uhah." Naruto moans as Sasuke grinds a couple more times roughly against him before laying still, their still clothed members strongly pushed together.

"N-Naruto…" Sasuke pants as he snuggles his head against his blondes, noting to himself how damn much he has missed hearing those erotic sounds his dobe can make. "Gheh… I'm already exhausted… Hah.."

"Gheh, no wonder…" Naruto replies and he kisses Sasuke in the nape of his neck. "I… Could be on top… Ya know." The frown he gets of his seme as he leans up a bit makes Naruto laugh. "Like this." Naruto says at which he quickly rolls over with the raven so he is straggling him. "There." Naruto says complacently at which Sasuke rolls his eyes.

"Ya know, it's not-! Uhng." Naruto interrupts his seme as he moves his hips, not minding it that he is in control for once.

"I didn't catch that." He says teasingly at which the Uchiha glares at him. "You know what?" Naruto says innocently before pulling his own shirt off. "I think we should get rid of some clothes. It's pretty hot in here. And I can tell…" He moves his hand over Sasuke's hard member, which is still confined by his jeans, and the raven can't help the delighted sigh as his cock twitches happily at the attention it has been so long denied by the one he wants. "You find so too…"

"N-Naruto…" Sasuke starts but even he himself can hear how feeble that protest sounds and is closer to a plea than anything else as Naruto has started to undo the button of his pants. Then the zipper, while with his other hand Naruto undoes his own.
Naruto gasps in surprise as Sasuke suddenly sits up and pulls him close, making him unable to continue what he was doing. Once more he is pulled into that exiting, erotic ecstasy that causes his belly to tighten pleasantly and his member to jump when his bully pulls him in for another lust filled kiss. Near the end of it Sasuke slows the tempo so he can kiss his uke more deeply before breaking away. They rest with their heads on one another's shoulders as they catch their breaths.

"Damn… My resolve is so low right now…" Sasuke whispers after a bit and he makes some space between their upper bodies as Naruto had started to kiss his neck again. "Naruto… We have to stop." He tells him with a heavy heart.

"Hehe, very funny teme." Naruto replies before he starts to kiss his seme's neck again and attempting to pull his shirt of.

"Dobe. I mean it. Enough." Sasuke says more seriously as he makes some more space between them.

"You're serious?" Naruto finally realises in disbelief and he quickly moves away from his crush. "What the hell teme?! You seriously push me away now?! Again!"

"Naru-" Sasuke intends to interrupt but Naruto won't let him.

"Well, you clearly feel a lot better. I'm going home." Naruto intends to walk towards the bedroom door but Sasuke manages to get there first and he leans against it to prevent the blonde from leaving.

"Listen dobe-" Sasuke starts, but again is interrupted by the blonde.

"No, teme, you listen!" Naruto replies fiercely, having lost his patience. "Just like before, when it finally feels good, you back away, you leave me hanging again! Is this supposed to be some kind of cruel joke?! Is this just some game to you?! Why the hell then did you let it get this far?! One moment you nearly force me, the next, when we actually both feel good, you push me away! If you don't want me all the way I'd rather have it you never touch or kiss me ever again! Stop leading me on if you don't want me, teme!" Naruto simmers from anger as he had walked back and forth with balled fists.

"Are you done?" Sasuke asks, almost bored and seemingly unmoved by Naruto's outburst, which makes the blonde even more livid.

"No I'm not done! I want to stamp out the door and smack it in your way too attractive face! I don't get what your problem is teme. I want you, you want me. Why can't we go back to how it was? We both know how good it feels..! Why do you keep pushing me away now..?" Angrily Naruto tries to wipe his tears away. Sasuke can't stand by and he walks over to his dobe whose shoulders have started to shock.

"Naruto…" Sasuke says as he wraps his arms around the one he loves and he guides him to sit on the edge of the bed where they both sit down. "I… don't want us to go back to what we had before…"

"I hate you, teme. I hate you for making me feel this way. For torturing me like this..!" Naruto stomps Sasuke on the chest though there is not much strength in it. "Why are you doing this to me?"

"Remember what I told you before? About assuming something without asking the person involved anything." Sasuke doesn't have to look at his friend to know he is pouting as he had grunted softly as answer.

"Fine… Talk." The blonde replies and Sasuke can't help the small smile as he remembers that that was the reply Naruto had given him back then too.

"I… don't want us to go back to how it was before. What we had wasn't…" He sighs as he searchers for the right words. "Since our break-up I… came to realize a lot about us. When I saw you with that Kiba guy I feared that was it. That we would never… That it truly wasn't anything at all that we had. I thought… You had moved on and I would never stand a chance. I.." Sasuke sighs and as he continues Naruto notices that he sounds more convinced and sure in his choosing of words. "I had taken you for granted. Because of this I nearly lost you. No, I did lose you. Or rather, I lost you even before I realised I had you… And I don't want that to happen again." Sasuke says sadly and he nods shortly to himself, as if he has made a decision, before he lets himself drop of the bed. And kneels before Naruto with both his hands in his. "Naruto Uzumaki…" He says as black orbs seem to absorb the bleu ones.

No way… Naruto thinks, his thoughts instantly going back to the imaginations about marrying Sasuke, his cheeks instantly getting redder. There is no way he is… Is this really happening?! There is no way he would actually ask me to- to-! W-Would he?

To be continued...

Well, would he?

A somewhat longer chapter then the once before so that makes up for the long wait. Finally some stuff happens between them that you guys have been waiting for for a long time. And don't worry, I won't let it here! ',:) Or shall I? *Evil smirk*

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