A feeling of despair

Author's note: Hey guys! Well, I uploaded the first chapter some hours ago and I already have 3 followers and two reviews! You guys are amazing! To my two reviewers, your responses will be before the chapter begins!

Warnings: Sho x Kyoko, Ren and Kyoko siblings, Saena bashing, devious Kyoko. O.O.C Kanae, Ren, Kyoko, Sho

Review Responses

Vlad (guest): I am so glad you like it! This story has already been finished (well in my mind at least) so there's no way I am not finishing it! As you can see, the second chapter is already up hehe.

JeremyVD (guest): Thank you for your review, I am glad you think I did a good job . I am sorry to disappoint you, Kyoko will end up with Sho. I know he doesn't deserve her, I feel so too, but I also think that in the manga he has matured a lot and I feel pity for him. That doesn't mean that he'll have an easy time of course. He'll have to sweat to get back Kyoko and she will make it as hard as she can. The president's reaction is in the omake!

Shout out to the following people who added this story on their favorites and alert list! : Nox Lupine (both), Sak19 (alert). Thank you guys for your support!

Chapter 2: Showtime

First person P.O.V (Kyoko)

"Ruriko is a bitch" I hear my brother say as he looks at how she treated her helper from LMA's special section, Love Me. I giggle a bit and then look at Kuon a little mad with him. "Ren, don't make me laugh in the middle of a shoot, I am your helper today, you have to stop doing this." I tell him and put my blonde locks behind my right ear as I look at him sternly.

As I told him that, I heard the director get mad at Ruriko again and I sighed. "This girl is such an awful actress." I murmur to my brother and he smirks at me as if he has got an idea. I groan inside my head, my brother is so immature. For example, yesterday, when he took me to shop (in disguises of course), he would have bought the whole store if I had let him.

I shake my head, focusing on my brother's actions, feeling that he's about to do something I would find exasperating. "Since miss Ruriko is so against acting like a proper actress" I hear my brother say "then why don't we let Kyoko – san try? From what I understand, the president believes she has a lot of talent." I see my brother smirk and I know what he's planning. He's so devious sometimes.

The director looks at me up and down, actually considering what stupid Kuon said. "Well, -Kyoko – san was it? - What do you think about this? Want to give it a try?" I glare at him from the corner of my eye before putting a smile in my face. "It will be an honor, director." "Then it's settled. We'll see how well you can do this scene and then if you are better than Ruriko, we'll hire you. Go to the changing room and get dressed."

I nod and go to prepare for my first 'audition' ever, but not without seeing Ruriko's surprised expression at the director actually deciding to try to replace her. The make-up artists exclaim as soon as they touch my skin, commending on how beautiful it is and making me blush.

After a thirty minutes of them applying make-up on me and helping me into a yukata, I was ready. I went into okamisan mode. I stepped into the room the others were and bowed properly. When I raised myself from the bow, I kept my back straight, unlike what Ruriko did.

Then I had to serve tea to my brother. This was quite easy, and I completed it with no problem at all. "That was perfect Kyoko – san! You are hired!" I smiled at the director and bowed once more. I felt pity towards Ruriko who was so shocked that she was just fired, but someone had to show her that showbiz is a competition, not a playground.

"Thank you director, I will do my best." Ren subtly gave me a thumbs up and I rolled my eyes at him again. He really is so immature. Kuon's phone rung just then and after talking to the person on the other side for a bit, he hang up. Then, he started heading to the girl from the Love Me section and I knew right then that it was the president.

"You are Kanae – san, right? The director asked me to tell you that you are fired from Ruriko's personal assistant and hired as Kyoko's." Kanae – san nodded and I approached the girl. "Kanae – san, as my assistant I have one thing to ask from you." Kanae stiffened, expecting some ridiculous request and I am sure I shocked her with what I said next. "I have absolutely no sense of time, neither does Ren – san. I ask you that you remind us to eat and drink something between shoots, least we faint."

Kanae – san nodded still stunned and I smiled at her. She really was beautiful and I hate the thought of this girl being in the Love Me section. Ruriko left in a huff, seeing that no one paid any attention to her and I felt a bit glad I didn't have to endure her whining self.

The rest of the shooting went quickly, only having to redo three scenes where my brother and I had to act out a love scene. It was so awkward we couldn't stop laughing the entire time. Kanae was wonderful at her job as well, and I was glad to have her. She reminded both Kuon and I to eat and forced water down our throat every thirty minutes, not allowing us to get dehydrated.

At the changing room I let a grimace take over my face and Kanae, who was also with me to help me change, was surprised to see me with such an expression. "Ugh, I hate make – up. It hides the uniqueness everyone has. It feels gross too." I mutter and she laughs a bit. "Let me help you take it off Kyoko – sama."

I look at her in horror. "Do not, I repeat do not, call me with an honorific! I am only sixteen, for God's sake!" Kanae giggles and nods at me. She then adopts a shocked expression at acting so out of character, and in front of a stranger too. "It's not bad to laugh you know." I whispered to her and she looked down at her feet. "It's just that after all the betrayals I have endured, hiding behind a wall of anger and bitterness is the only way to survive."

I put my hand under her chin and lift her head to look into her eyes. "I was betrayed too." I confess to her. "My fiancé has been cheating on me for a long time, but I still love him. He was there when I was younger and the woman I thought was my mother abandoned me. I left him a few day ago and I believe it would be easier to just be bitter, but I refuse to lose my emotions for him, no matter how I feel about him."

Kanae looked at me and asked in a small voice, as if afraid. "Did you leave him for good?" She asked and I shake my head. "No I love him too much for that, however I am going to make him sweat to win me back." Kanae then whispered. "My best friend pushed me down the stairs on audition day so that she could have a chance. She was the only one I had and this hurt so much." I took Kanae in my arms and let her cry.

Then the door to the changing room opened and I saw my brother. "Ren – san, this isn't the best moment." I tell him and Ren closes the door and approaches us. I want to groan at my brother's idiotic actions but then he surprises me by actually taking Kanae from my arms and startling her out of her crying fit.

"I don't know what happened to make you cry, but you shouldn't mar your beautiful face with tear tracks. A smile suits a girl better at any time." I bit back a smile as my brother calmly wipes the girl's tears and then stands up and turns to me. "Kyoko – san, I just wanted to let you know that tomorrow is the airing date of this movie and also that I will take you and Kanae – san home." I nod at him and then he leaves the room.

"Do you really believe I can change?" She whispers and I smile. "Of course. Now let's get ready, Ren – san is waiting for us." Nodding, she stood up from where she was sitting on the floor and helped me change. Before we left the room, I stole her Love Me notebook, took out a stamp and gave her 100 points. Giving the book back to her she left the room, knowing that Kanae would follow her. "Oh, you're staying with me tonight, I don't want to let my first friend stay alone after a breakdown."

And with that I hid a giggle as I saw her follow me dazed beyond belief. We entered my brother's car and the trip to my apartment was silent. No one noticed the smirk I sent my brother as he stole a glance at Kanae. Blushing, he turned the other way and I knew right then and there. My brother was interested in this girl.

First P.O.V (Sho)

I looked out of the window of Shouko's car and tried not to sigh. Only second day without Kyoko and I am already feeling lonely. I had never noticed how much I cared for her until she was no longer in my grasp. I wish I could turn back time and stop my foolish self from making the same mistakes again.

"Sho, we're here." I nod to my manager and get out of the car. Just as I was about to go to my apartment, Shouko asked me a question. "Are you sure you don't want to come and stay with me Sho? The girl you were living with before is gone right? You have no one to care for you now."

I glare at her for her words and she flinched back. "That girl as you called her is my fiancé and she has a name, which you damn well know. And I am not going to live with another woman ever again, the only one I will allow entrance to this apartment is her. I turned a page Shouko. I know I messed up and I am going to fix it, no matter what it takes. I'll even jump in front of a car for her. She's more important to me that anything else in the world and I wish I knew that before she left!" I hissed the last sentence and then turned on my heels to go to my apartment. An apartment that feels so empty without her in it to brighten it up.

I open the door and get in, throwing my things everywhere. I don't have the energy to put them in their places, I am just so exhausted without her to give me energy. I climb on my bed and grab a t – shirt she forgot here before she left. I curl up with it and my whole body shakes with sobs as I take in her scent that is still lingering on the shirt.

"Kyoko, I am sorry. I am so sorry. I miss you so much." I whisper before I let sleep take me. And I dreamed of the times she was still with me and I wasn't a jerk and we were happy. I dreamed of the days she chose to stay by my side no matter what. And I wished with all my heart to take back every stupid action I ever did. Because she deserves better and I know that, but I am too selfish to let her go…

END OF CHAPTER 2

How was it? I actually feel this chapter could be so much better, Kanae is so O.O.C in here that I cringed as I wrote it but I wanted her to be comforted by the siblings so much that I couldn't resist it. Please review and tell me your thoughts!

Omake: President's frustration

President's P.O.V

I almost screamed in frustration as I tried to discover who Kyoko's brother was. Today she came to the company with blonde hair and I was sure she reminded me of someone but I was unable to think who it was she reminded me of!

I groaned as I crossed another male actor from the list and then I got a message from my spy. It seems that Ren nominated Kyoko for the role Ruriko was in when it turned out she was unable to complete her job. I lifted my eyebrows in surprise. Ren never went out of his way for anyone but his family. Family…

I widen my eyes in realization. Kyoko's brother was Ren! Oh my God, Kyoko is my old friend's missing daughter! No wonder she reminded me of someone!

I hit my palm on my head and murmur. "A great friend you are, Lory Takarada, not recognizing one of your best friends' children when they look so much like them. You are such an idiot." I turn to my paperwork and decide to not dwell on it anymore. It wouldn't do me any good if I kill more brain cells because I was an idiot.

THE END

Hahaha, President Takarada is such an idiot sometimes, don't you agree?