AN: Eee. Chapter 10 already. Gosh. We're only like... Idk, 4-5 days in? Gosh. I don't want to even think about how much more there is to come haha.

Enjoy yet another comatose Bella dream! Um. This one is angsty – but I suppose the original is too. Oops. I promise the whole story shouldn't be super angsty.

* I do not own Twilight or the characters within this story, nor the songs.

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" I learnt to let go when I was younger
Scared of growing old
I would swim far into the ocean
And try to stay afloat
Until my lungs would cough up water
And sand would coat my bones, and I hope now
That someday I'll open up the flood gates
And let the lyrics flow

I don't want love no more
Though it's the one thing I've been searching for
Though it's the one thing that I miss the most
Now I'm afraid to be alone"

Oceans – Jacob Lee

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Bella ✦ Oceans ✦ Amnesia

The clouds continued to swirl around me, blackening into the depths.

They crashed into each other with unsounded power, exploding into those familiar clashes of electricity.

I was drenched by the sky's tears, I was charged by its current.

I stood over the edge of the precipice, peering into the depths below.

Waves crashed in a rage against the cliff face, beating in time to the thunder above.

I wanted release. I wanted to liberate myself of my thoughts. I wanted the rush.

It would be too easy, to rid myself of the pain. The pain of missing him.

The pale boy with the bronze hair and golden eyes.

But what was his name?

Why didn't he love me?

I loved him… Didn't I?

I took another step closer to the edge.

The sky above me darkened, weeping more tears. They sizzled and burned as they hit my skin. Their gentle drizzle had dwelled into a dense downpour.

The clouds only became angrier. They quarrelled with each other, lighting up the depths with their brilliant flashes, deafening me with their brash cries.

I wanted to fly. To fly away from all that had chased me through my fears; that I'd never hear velvet voice again, nor see that pinkened smile, that endearing, false gaze, again.

If I took another step, I could fly.

I leant forward, staring into the depths below.

'Bella, don't do this,' the velvet voice came, and it pleaded.

'I don't even know your name.'

'Please don't. You can't.'

'But, you wanted me to be human.' I heard myself say with a smile. 'You won't stay with me anyway.'

'Please, Bella. For me!'

I lifted a leg over the edge, ready to take the plunge.

'For you?' I laughed callously, desolate of joy. 'But, you lied.'

'Please,' the voice became a whisper.

'You don't love me.'

'Bella…' the voice was fading, now.

'You never loved me.'

And I jumped.

I balled up into a comet, piercing through the atmosphere – a trailing blaze behind me.

It was so warm. The flames encircled me as I plummeted. The ocean below me seemed to be unreachable.

I fell forever through the skies. His pale face haunted me, those so-called worried golden eyes spearing me on the way.

But I didn't care. I wished for the icy depths to envelop me in their embrace.

And once they finally had, it was immediate relief.

His gleaming golden eyes; they faded.

His velvet voice was no more.

Darkness gave me shelter. It protected me from his counterfeit concern.

But for this I traded my breath; for now, I struggled to claim oxygen; it stole its way from me.

Everything deepened, darkened.

I tried to swim, but which way was up? Where was my way out?

Why wouldn't the boy with the golden eyes tell me his name?

I was alone, I was drowning.

Goodbye, I love you, was my last thought.

I dissolved into the ocean, consumed by its wrath.

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Extended AN: This quote is from New Moon by S. Meyer:

'Goodbye, I love you, was my last thought.'

I did reference the chapter 'Pressure' in S. Meyer's New Moon for this one, too. :)