Chapter 12

Waking the following morning before Natalia, an odd occurrence, Olivia turned into the warm body pressed against her. Snuggling closer, she breathed in the scent of Natalia's hair. Pulling her closer and kissing the top of her head.

Natalia stirred slightly and slowly opened her eyes. Smiling as she was met by deep green eyes gazing back at her. "Mmm, morning."

"Hey beautiful. Sorry I didn't mean to wake you."

"It's okay. I love waking up when I'm met by your beautiful eyes. What time is it?"

"Not yet six. You can still sleep for a little while."

"Why are you awake so early querida?"

"Couldn't sleep."

Stretching to drop a chaste kiss on pouty lips then locking eyes, Natalia asked. "What are you thinking so hard about?"

"Everything, nothing."

"That's very vague Ms. Spencer."

Adjusting herself so she was sitting up leaned against the headboard, Natalia's head laying on her thigh, Olivia stroked her hand through thick raven tresses. "Phillip, Frank, Emma, us, take your pick."

"Okay. One at a time mi amor. Phillip?"

"Well…..um…..remember yesterday when I went to run 'errands' after the memorial? Well I might have gone to see Phillip."

"I had a feeling. Want to tell me about it?"

"I don't know. I want to believe him when he says he doesn't care if we're together, I want to believe him when he says that he isn't here to take Emma, but I just can't. Trusting him would be like trusting Alan and we both know that's never a good idea."

"So what happened?"

"He claims that he is here to make amends and move on but I just don't know that I believe him. I can not lose Emma."

Cupping her face in her hands and looking directly into jade eyes, Natalia tried to assure her. "You're not gonna lose Emma. We are not going to let that happen. As for Phillip, I think we just need to let it be for now. Stay alert, and see what happens."

"It seems that's all we can do. I already spoke with the judge and lets just say, that didn't go over so well."

"Olivia. What did you do?"

"Nothing. Nothing. I just talked to him, nothing happened."

"Okay. I'm gonna let that one slide. So, you said Frank. What about Frank?"

"I just don't like the way he's acting. I'm worried. It would seem he is in a perpetual state of denial when it comes to you."

"Baby, you do not need to worry about Frank. Nothing is going to happen with me and Frank."

"I'm not worried about that honey. You have made it very clear that you want this, with me. The problem is Frank doesn't seem to be getting the message and you won't let me do anything to help it sink in."

"Baby we talked about this last night. We agreed that if anything else, anything at all, happens then you can unleash the beast, so to speak. I just don't want to cause trouble where there isn't any."

"I know, I know. I just…I just don't want anything to ever happen to you."

"Frank is a good man. Yes he is being a little hot headed, but I think with some time, he will cool off."

"I hope so. I know he's a good man. I just get worried when it comes to you and our kids."

"And I love that about you, but this is not a cause to bring out the tiger. Not yet anyway. So what else? You said Emma. What are you worried about with Emma?"

"Phillip mostly. I don't want her to get hurt. I'm not even telling her he is back in town. I'm just worried that somebody will. I don't want anything to happen to my little girl."

"Well yes, someone may tell her, but we can't cross that bridge until it gets here so there's no sense worrying about it now. It's just gonna drive you crazy. As for something happening to her, baby so many people in this town love her and watch out for her. I don't see anything ever happening to that sweet girl."

"You're right, I know. Worrying is only gonna make me turn into a crazy person."

"And give you more grey hairs." Natalia said with a smile.

"I do not have grey hairs." Olivia insisted

"Umm you know I think I see one right here." Natalia reached up to pull at a strand of hair smiling.

"You are not funny Ms. Rivera."

"Yes I am. But I am joking. No grey hairs on that gorgeous head of yours. Now, is there any more worries floating around in that beautiful brain of yours?"

"Not at the moment."

"Well then, we should take advantage of the moment. I know you well enough to know that if I give you a minute you will come up with a dozen more." Bringing herself up to straddle Olivia's lap, she stared into magnificent green eyes before flicking her gaze down to her lips and then claiming them.

The kiss started slow and sweet but soon turned urgent and heated. Tongues and teeth, and lips. Natalia's hands slipped into soft honey blond strands. Olivia brought one hand up to cup the base of Natalia's neck and the other was pressed to the small of her back pulling her impossibly closer.

They kissed long and hard for endless moments. Neither was sure how much time had passed and neither cared. They broke apart panting, resting their foreheads together when the need for air became too great.

Olivia ran both her hands along the hem of Natalia's shirt slowly drawing both of them up to full breast, bringing Natalia's shirt up with her. Cupping both breast in her hands she began to roll the nipples between her thumbs and index fingers pinching slightly. Natalia moaned and attached her mouth to Olivia's pulse point, biting and sucking, aware that there would be a mark and uncaring.

Olivia's right hand traced down tight abs and dipped into the waistband of Natalia's shorts and panties. Trekking lower into wet heat. Rubbing her fingers in circles around a taught clit. Natalia rose to her knees giving Olivia better access. Taking the hint Olivia thrust two fingers inside of her with no preamble. Beginning a slow thrust in and out.

"Oh god, Olivia, yes."

Taking one of Natalia's breast in her mouth and sucking hard Olivia quickened the thrusting of her fingers.

Gripping the headboard on either side of Olivia's face Natalia rode her fingers hard and fast. Slamming herself onto the invading digits. "Ooohhhh, yeah. Faster baby, yes, harder."

Olivia pulled almost all the way out and returned with three fingers. Shoving them all the way inside causing Natalia to let out a primal scream as she came long and hard.

Natalia slumped against Olivia's body. Resting her head on her shoulder, trying to get her breathing back under control. Olivia kept her finger deep inside until the walls loosened and tremors stopped. Pulling out she wrapped her arms around Natalia and waited for her to come down.

Natalia's body continued to shake long after her breathing had slowed.

"Are you okay honey?"

"Yes, yes I just, I need a minute still."

Squeezing her arms tighter around the younger woman's waist and kissing her shoulder, Olivia sighed contentedly. "Take all the time you need sweetheart, I kinda like you here."

"Mmm, me too."

Finally feeling the energy return to her body Natalia sat up slightly so she could look into the beautiful face of her lover. "As much as I would love to just stay right here with you all day, you have Reva's baby shower and I have lots of cleaning to do."

Placing a quick kiss to Natalia's sweet lips Olivia let out a sigh. "Why don't you come with me today?"

"As much as I would love to, I don't really know Reva and I really do have some things to get done around here. I need to clean up and rearrange in here so maybe, one of these days, I can convince this sexy blond I know to move into my room." She said with a wink.

"Sexy blond huh, where is she I can take her." Olivia joked, her eyes twinkling.

Climbing off her lap Natalia stood and swatted her arm. " Oh you. Come on, up outta that bed, go get a shower while I make breakfast."

"Coffee?"

"Of course mi amour, coffee."

Standing Olivia gave her one more kiss and then walked towards the bathroom calling over her shoulder, "I love you beautiful."

"I love you too querida. See you downstairs."

A short while late, Natalia came down the stairs with a laundry basket to Olivia packing Reva's baby shower gift.

"Hi honey."

"Hey you."

"Awe it's so cute."

"Isn't it."

"They have really cute stuff for boys now, it's not really the case when Rafe was a baby."

"Did somebody ever throw you a shower when you were pregnant with him?"

"Sixteen, Catholic, unmarried, What do you think? How bout you?"

"Well Lizzie tried to knock me down a flight of stairs when I was pregnant with Emma. Does that count?"

Both women laughed and Natalia covered her mouth with her hand. "No, no."

"I know isn't that terrible?" Wrapping her arms around Natalia's waist, Olivia looked her in the eye. "You sure you wont come?"

"Yes, I'm sure. I really do have a lot to do. Have fun though."

"I'm not sure fun is the word for it. Okay. I gotta go." Leaning in for what was meant to be a chaste kiss but quickly turned passionate. Breaking apart Olivia pulled back. "Wow, okay, so, um, I'm gonna go, I'll see you in a bit. I love you."

"I love you, and play nice."

"I'm always nice." One more kiss and she was out the door.

Walking up to Company Jeffery caught Olivia before she made it inside. "Hey, you're here."

"Hi, yeah, um, I figure what the heck, Ava would want me to come and say good stuff. How are you?"

"Um…there playing a game."

"Okay I'll sit out here with you." And she sat on the bench next to him.

"Where's Natalia?"

"Why?"

"I don't know, I just…"

"She's at home. Things to do. So um happy baby stuff." She said handing him the gift and walking away.

At the farmhouse Josh had just arrived to help with a leaky pipe, much to Natalia's appreciation. "I'm so sorry I bothered."

"No, no don't be sorry. You rescued me actually, there was something I uh needed to escape from."

"Well Cause I, I couldn't get a plumber and that pipe."

"Yeah, yeah I know the pipe you're talking about. I fought a lot of battles with that pipe when I lived here. But I won most of them." Noticing the open bible as he walked by Josh picked it up, "Doing a little light reading huh."

"Yeah just looking for some answers."

"You finding any?"

"No, just more questions."

"That's the way it works sometimes, tell ya what I'll head upstairs, try to fix at least one of your problems, how's that?"

She let out a small laugh, "Thanks."

Returning downstairs after a short bit, Josh headed towards the kitchen, "All set."

"Thank you so much."

"No problem, you finding those answers you were looking for?"

"Huh, God is laughing at me today."

"Oh, I don't think so. I think you're being hard on yourself."

"I was trying to help a friend and I let something horrible happen."

"Well I'm sure you'll make it up to whoever it is."

"I don't think so. Fixing it for him would not fix it for me."

"Ah well, I'm sure it's all gonna work out."

"Yeah, I just don't feel like a very good person for it."

"Well I wasn't a minister for very long but I think I know a good person when I see one. I'm guessing God is just fine with you. Don't worry about it."

Walking in the back door, Olivia was all smiles when she saw the beautiful Latina at the table, almost as if she was waiting for her. She leant in for a quick kiss. "Hi."

"Hey. How was the shower?"

"Uh change of plans."

"I'm glad you're home."

Walking into the living room and sitting on the couch Natalia placed a sandwich in front of Olivia. "Everything's been a little crazy lately."

"Ya think?"

"So, I've, I've been wanting to talk to you."

"Okay. What's up?"

"Well, I've, I've just been struggling. And I tried to find answers in the bible and all I got were more questions."

"Struggling? With what? With us?"

Seeing the worry flash in those beautiful green eyes Natalia was quick to reassure her insecure partner. "No, no. Not with us. I know that God is about love and he is not only happy with this, this was his plan for me. I'm struggling with Frank."

"Frank? What about Frank? You're not still worried about that kiss are you, because that was him not you."

"Yeah but I led him on….I've known for a while now that I was feeling more then friendship for you and somewhere between Christmas and New Year's I realized I was falling…I was in love with you, and I still had that dinner with him and let him help me, and let him think there was more going on then there was. I led him on."

Taking Natalia's hand and resting it in her lap Olivia attempted to reassure her lover that she did nothing wrong. "No, no you did not lead him on. It was one dinner. A dinner that I set up because I was so afraid of what I was feeling for you that I started pushing you and Frank together. This, this is my fault. Not yours."

"No Olivia, I'm a grown woman I could have walked away. I should have walked away."

"Well it's kind of hard to walk away from your own kitchen."

"Even after that dinner, I shouldn't have let him keep helping me, let him think a relationship was building."

"Honey stop. You and Frank are friends, that's it, friends. He was helping you because he cares for you and yeah, maybe he thought there was more, but you made sure he knew there wasn't, you told him there was only friendship between you two. That's what matters. Please quit beating yourself up over this. You did nothing, NOTHING, wrong. And Frank, Frank will get over it. I promise."

"I guess, I just, I just don't do well with hurting people. I try to always do right and do what God wants me to do and with Frank I just don't think I did that."

"Oh honey, I'm not sure you could have done anything different. You had dinner with the guy one time and he helped you as a friend. Plenty of friends help me without ever thinking I'm going to date them. It's what friends do. We helped each other as friends before we were more. Okay, bad example cause we are more now, but the point is friends help each other and Frank shouldn't have thought that helping you made you his girlfriend. Okay?"

"Okay, you're right. Thank you."

"That's what I'm here for. Now come here and let me hold you. I missed you today."

Natalia moved into Olivia's arms and rest her head against her chest, "Mmm, I missed you too. I love you Olivia."

"I love you too, so much, and you my love, are such a good person, don't ever forget that."

"I'll try. I may need some reminding though."

Looking into dark brown eyes she could drown in, Olivia sincerely stated. "I can do that, I can most definitely do that." Sealing the promise with a sweet kiss meant to convey gratitude and trust they settled into each other on the couch just holding onto one another, dropping lazy kisses to affirm their love.