Chapter 20

After dinner and a movie with Emma and Rafe, The Spencer-Rivera clan was ready for bed. Emma asked Rafe to read her a story and then her mommies both kissed her good night. Natalia kissed Rafe good night and they waited for his bed room door to shut before heading to their own bed room.

Olivia looked at Natalia with apprehension. "Should I stay in my old room?"

"What? Why would you do that?" Natalia asked with a some a what shocked look on her face.

"Because we haven't told Rafe yet."

"Oh."

"Yeah, oh."

"Well, no. I won't be able to sleep without you. We will just make sure we're up before him."

"So, like teenagers trying to hide from our parents?"

Natalia walked to her and pulled her close by her waist. Kissing her neck and up to whisper in her ear seductively. "Could be fun, having to be all quit." She licked the shell of her ear and lightly bit the lobe.

"Mmmm. You really do have the devil in you Ms. Rivera." Olivia smirked out. Turning Natalia so she was pressed against the dresser. Nipping and sucking down her neck to her collar bone. Bringing both her hands up to cup her breast.

Natalia let out a soft moan. Gripping Olivia's hair she gently pulled her back. "As much as I'm enjoying this, I need a shower."

Olivia dropped her head to Natalia's chest with a grunt.

Natalia walked around her and stopped in the bathroom door. "You coming?" She disappeared into the bathroom, reaching in to start the shower.

It took Olivia all of a second to register what had been said. Abruptly, she turned around and almost ran to the bathroom. Stripping of her clothes as she went. She stepped into the stall behind Natalia. Pressing her body into her back. Wrapping her arms around to rest her hands on Natalia's stomach. Rubbing upwards in small circles while dropping tender kisses to her shoulders and neck.

Natalia rest her hands on Olivia's arms. Leaning back into her she let out a moan of pleasure. She could feel Olivia's hardening nipples rubbing against her back. She twist in her arms so she was facing her. Running her hands through her hair and down her back to grasp her soft globes. Taking each firmly in her hands. Pulling Olivia tight against her body. Kissing her jawline to her neck. Grazing her teeth against her pulse point. Both of them moaning in pleasure.

"God baby, you feel so good." Olivia groaned out. Tangling her fingers in raven tresses. Pressing Natalia's mouth harder against her. She lightly tugged to bring Natalia's lips up to her mouth. Kissing her with wild abandon. Their tongues slid against each other. Natalia sucked Olivia's lower lip into her mouth, biting gently. Olivia turned them both and pressed Natalia into the tile wall behind them. Using her body to hold her their while her hands began to explore.

Olivia guided her hands down velvet skin. Reaching Natalia's hips she pulled her forward. Pressing their centers together. Both women gasped. Natalia was lost in the ecstasy of their passion. "Baby, I need you, now."

Trailing her lips down her neck, her collarbone, her chest, stopping just before reaching her breast. Olivia looked up into eyes dark with desire. "Need me where baby?" She asked. Kissing around her breast and areola before taking a nipple into her mouth and sucking, lightly at first, then with more pressure.

"Oh…Jesus, baby…" Natalia's nails dug into Olivia's back.

Olivia released the nipple with a popping sound. "Where, baby, where do you need me?"

"Inside Olivia…I need to feel you inside me….please." Her head was thrown back and her nails raked almost painfully up Olivia's back.

Olivia trailed her hand down toned abs, across soft curls, and down into Natalia's wet and wanting center. Making small circles around the hardened numb. "You're so wet baby."

"Mmmhmm…. For you querida, all for you….. Toma lo que es tuyo mi amor. Fállame bebe! Por favor…" (Translation: Take what's yours my love. Fuck me! Please.)

Olivia's Spanish was limited, but Natalia's body was getting the message across. Olivia slid her fingers down to the wet opening. Dipping two in slowly then sliding out and coming back with three. Pressing them all the way in and then out again. Repeating the motion over and over. Using her hips for added pressure.

Natalia began to buck against her. Already so close to her release. They moved in time together. Their bodies meeting at every curve perfectly. Olivia took a nipple into her mouth. Gliding her teeth against it and then biting down. Causing a guttural moan from Natalia. "Ahhh…..Dios mío….si, si, mas difícil bebe,…..rápido…..si" (Translation: Oh my god. Yes, yes, harder baby, faster. Yes.)

The sound of Natalia's muttered Spanish was almost enough to drive Olivia to distraction. She pound her fingers harder and faster into Natalia's cunt. Pushing in as far as she could go, finding that one spot she knew would send Natalia careening over the edge. Pressing against it, she sucked harder on the nipple in her mouth. Natalia's body went taught and she let out a primal scream. "FUUUUCCCKKKK OLIVIA!" She slipped down the shower wall to the floor. Olivia fell with her. Keeping her fingers nestled inside.

Natalia's body continued to convulse for long moments. Olivia whispering words of love to her while her body calmed. As soon as her body relaxed, Olivia eased out and ran her hand across a firm thigh. Standing, she straddled Natalia's outstretched legs and held out her hands to help Natalia back to her feet. She grabbed the shampoo bottle and slowly massaged it into Natalia's hair. Starting at the scalp and working her way down. Once she had worked it into a good lather, she spun Natalia into the water spray and helped her rinse it clean. Grabbing the soap she squeezed a dollop onto the loofa and gently washed Natalia's entire body. Lingering on certain aspects of her anatomy. Once she was finished with Natalia she quickly washed her own body while Natalia watched with wide eyes. Enjoying the view of water droplets tracing down Olivia's body. As Olivia leaned back to rinse her hair, the pert nipples were too great a temptation and Natalia leaned over and took a breast into her mouth. Letting her hands slip around to grip firm globes.

Olivia glided her fingers into wet locks and threw her head back. Completely unaffected by the water spraying her face, as she got lost in being ravaged by her lover. Natalia released one breast and kissed her way to the other. Giving it the same attention. She kissed her way up to Olivia's neck and back to just below her ear. Nipping there speaking soft and low. "I wanna taste you baby. I wanna make you cum in my mouth."

Olivia groaned and her knees started to buckle. Natalia held her tight and pressed her to the side wall. Kissing back down her neck to her chest, running her tongue lovingly along the pink scar bisecting her chest, before dropping to her knees and continuing further down. She guided one of Olivia's leg up over her shoulder and kissed down her abs to her stomach. Circling her belly button and then kissed across her hip bone. Running her hands up the back of her thighs, reaching her bottom with her hands at the same time as her tongue reached her clit. She flicked her tongue across the hard peak slowly at first and then flattening her tongue and pressing hard against it. Using Olivia's ass to pull her further into her mouth.

Olivia's head was thrown back against the wall. One hand in her own hair the other holding Natalia in place by the back of her head. "Jesus….God….Natalia….just like that baby…..don't stop."

Natalia moaned against her center causing tiny vibrations to roll through Olivia. She brought one hand around and easily thrust two fingers deep inside. Slamming them in and out as her tongue continued to thrash against Olivia's clit.

"OHMYGODNATALIA…..I'm….I'm…."

Olivia's body tensed and then crashed. Flying over into a mind blowing orgasm. Natalia kept her mouth pressed against her as she pulled her fingers out. Lightly stoking with her tongue while she waited out the last of Olivia's tremors.

Feeling the tremors slow she slid back up Olivia's body kissing as she went until she reached sweet lips. Pulling back she grabbing Olivia's hand and led her out of the shower. Grabbing a towel and drying her off, kissing every inch of skin as she went. After drying herself they walked back to the bedroom naked. Climbing into bed and wrapping up in each others arms. A tangled mess of arms and legs.

Olivia chuckled lightly. "I'm not sure we were successful on the quit part."

"Yeah, about that. Emma we know, sleeps through anything, and Rafe, well Rafe is a night by night basis. Sometimes a marching band could walk through his room and he wouldn't stir, others, a pin dropping would wake him."

"Let's hope it's a marching band night."

"If not, then I guess he will know. Maybe we should tell him tomorrow anyways. It's going to be hard to be in this house together and him not find out. I can't keep my hands off of you, and I think telling him would be better then him figuring it out on his own."

"True. And we need to sit down and talk with Emma. She was so happy that we were together. I don't understand why she would think you might marry Frank. I mean, I guess we got lucky that she didn't tell Rafe before we could, but at the same time we need to make sure she understands."

"Yes we do. We will talk to her tomorrow morning, before school. Make sure she knows that us being together means we aren't going to marry other people. I want to tell her we are gonna marry each other, but I think we should tell them all together. Maybe skype with Ava after your visit."

"I think that's a great idea sweetheart."

"Me too, We should sleep. We have a busy day tomorrow. We have work, Emma's play, and talking with both kids."

"Mmm." Olivia pulled Natalia tighter against her body kissing her goodnight, she quietly whispered, "I love you." Before drifting into a sated and blissful sleep.

Natalia lay there a bit longer. Listening to the even breathing and steady heart beat. She kissed the top of Olivia's head and muttered, "Te amo mi amor, Todo va a estar bien." (Translation: I love you my love, everything's gonna be alright.) One final kiss to Olivia's head before she too fell into a deep slumber, feeling safe in the arms of the woman she loves.

Waking in the morning, Natalia was both excited and nervous about talking to Rafe. She wanted him to know. To not have to hide from her own son, but at the same time, she was worried about his reaction. Figuring she couldn't really do anything about it but wait and see, she slipped from bed to start on breakfast. Entering the kitchen she found a note from Rafe explaining that he went for a run and then was going into town for a bit. "Well I guess we wont be telling him yet." She said to herself. Or so she thought.

Olivia had been silently watching her putter around the kitchen from the door way. "Telling who what?"

Natalia jumped and spun to find Olivia leaning against the door jam. She raised a hand to her heart. "Why do you do that?"

Sauntering over for a kiss and then coffee Olivia feigned innocence. "What?"

"Oh you. You are lucky I love you."

"Yes I am. Now who aren't we telling what?"

"Rafe. He's already gone for the day. He left a note, says he went for a run and then into town."

Walking over to the stove, Olivia wrapped her arms around Natalia from behind. Resting her chin on her shoulder and placing a kiss to the side of her neck. "Well that's okay. This way we can talk to Emma and then talk to Rafe tonight."

"Okay."

Using the hands on Natalia's hips, Olivia gently turned her so they were face to face. "Hey, what's with the pout? We're still gonna tell him today, just later." She said, pulling a pouting bottom lip into her mouth.

"I know, I just really wanted to tell him this morning, before he went anywhere. I don't want someone else to tell him. Quite a few people already know about us and I want him to hear it from us."

"I know baby, but honestly, I don't think, 'hey your mom is dating Olivia,' is going to be anyone's first thought to him. Frank isn't going to tell him because he is delusional, still thinking he has a shot. Buzz wont tell him, he has too much respect for us. Doris, well something tells me Rafe wont be running to city hall to see Doris Wolfe any time soon. And anyone else that has seen us, they don't really know, they are just speculating. I know we haven't been hiding our relationship, but we also haven't been flaunting it, it's not like we had a big ol' coming out party honey. I think you're worrying for nothing." She kissed her again and then stepped over to the table to retrieve her coffee.

"You're right, besides I can't control what other people say and do. All I can do is wait until we see him later. Now sit." She gently demanded, setting a plate of food in front her. "Eat, is Em getting ready?"

"Yup, made sure she was up on my way down."

As she finished her sentence the tell tale signs of Emma on the stairs could be heard just before she came flying into the kitchen. "Morning mom, morning Natalia." She exclaimed with her normal enthusiasm. Running to hug first her mother and then Natalia before taking her place at the table and digging into her breakfast.

"Morning Em." Olivia said over the rim of her coffee cup.

"Morning sweetie. Did you sleep well?" Natalia asked. Taking her own seat next to Olivia.

"Yup. Mmm Natalia, these pancakes are yummy!" She exclaimed. Shoving another bite into her mouth.

"Hey Jellybean, slow down." Olivia insisted. Looking at Natalia before taking her hand. "Em, we uh, we want to talk to you for a minute."

"Am I in trouble?"

"No, no, baby. We just wanted to talk to you about me and Natalia. You remember how we told you we love each other and that we're together?"

"Yeah, we're a family. Natalia's my other mommy."

Natalia smiled brightly. "That's right I am Emma. But we wanted to make sure you really understand what that means. Yesterday you thought I might marry Frank, why would you think that?"

Emma looked down at her feet, "Uncle Frank said that I shouldn't tell Rafe that we are a family. He said now that Rafe was home that he was gonna marry you, that it would make you happy, and telling Rafe about you and mommy would make him mad, and you sad. So…"

Olivia stood quickly, knocking her chair over, "Frank said what?"

Natalia reached for her hand and gently tugged. "Olivia, stop. Now is not the time." She waited for Olivia's face to soften and then turned back to Emma. "Go on Emma, what else happened?"

"We went out to talk to Rafe. When Frank told Rafe about proposing, Rafe was really happy. He said we should work together and make the wedding happen this week. Him and Rafe were so happy that I thought maybe it's what you wanted." She finished, tears beginning fall.

Natalia walked around the table and took her into a hug. "Oh Emma."

"I didn't want to, I like you being with mommy, I like it here, but they said it would make you happy. I didn't want to do anything to make you sad." She cried. Sniffling into Natalia's shoulder.

Olivia knelt and wrapped her arms around both of them. "It's okay Em. You didn't do anything wrong. Uncle Frank was wrong."

Pulling back from the hug, Natalia wiped the remaining tears from Emma's face. "That's right Emma. I am never going to marry Frank." She looked at Olivia and then back to Emma. "If I marry anyone, it will be your mommy."

"Really, you're not gonna marry uncle Frank. You're gonna marry mommy?" Emma said bouncing up and down.

Olivia placed a hand on her shoulder to stop the bouncing. "Whoa there Jellybean, slow down. I want to marry Natalia, but it's not happening right away okay. And we need you to please not say anything to Rafe, or the other kids at school."

"Why? I want everyone to know that you two are both my mommies."

"Well…."

Natalia took over. "Emma, everyone already knows that, and we're very happy that you are happy for us. It's just that, we want to be the ones to tell Rafe. Sometimes grownups want to tell exciting news. And we especially want to tell Rafe, just like we told you."

"Ooookkkaaaayyyy. I wont tell him. I promise."

Olivia ruffled the young girls hair with a small laugh. "Don't be sad Jellybean. I promise, when we are ready, we will let you tell anyone and everyone you come across. I'll even let you shout it from the Beacon rooftop. Okay?"

"Yay!"

"Good, now get your backpack and coat. I hear the bus."

Emma ran out the door just in time to catch the bus. Both woman finished up their morning routine and then headed to the Beacon.

Later that day, Natalia walked in to hear Olivia screaming up stairs.

"Hey Em, I can't find your hat."

"What?"

"Your hat that goes with you costume. We needed to be gone twenty minutes ago baby."

"I don't know where it is."

"This is why I asked you to lie everything out last night, so we wouldn't have to run around like this."

"What's wrong mommy?"

"I'm tired Em, I'm sorry."

Just then Natalia made it up the stairs. "Hi girls, I thought you'd be gone already. I just had to grab somethings."

"I can't find my hat and mommy's tired."

"Mommy has a lot going on right now." She walked over to Emma and placed a kiss on her head. "Hello Sweet."

"Hi Natalia! It's earth day."

"Oh, it's earth day and you have a big play to go to. This is a big day for you."

Emma nodded her head.

Olivia interrupted, "We're running late so…"

Natalia looked at her. Feeling the unease and fear radiating off her partner and completely at a loss for why. Knowing now was not the time, she returned her attention to the little girl standing before her. "I know, we have to get to the play. Does Betsy Ross know all her lines?"

Emma nodded. "I need to find my hat."

"Your hat? What? What, the little one that we made together." She scratched her forehead. "Didn't we put that in the draw of you desk?"

"I'll go check. Wait, you're coming to the play too? Right?"

"Of course. I wouldn't miss your big day."

Olivia pat Emma on the shoulder. "Go get your hat, go on."

Natalia looked at Olivia with concern. "What's wrong?"

"Nothing…"

"Not nothing. Olivia I know you better then that, you were fine this morning and now…"

Olivia escaped into her head for a moment. Remembering her conversation with Rafe at her office earlier that day. He wanted to know what was going on with his mom and Frank. He asked if she was stopping them from being together. Keeping his mother from being happy. "What about Rafe? I mean he really likes Frank. He likes the thought of having a father figure around again."

"Rafe might be disappointed, but he has always told me he just wants me to be happy."

"But, you haven't told him about us."

"I didn't know what to say before. But Olivia, we've talked about this. WE are gonna tell him tonight, TOGETHER."

"We really should go."

"This should be about Emma, it shouldn't be about us. But don't you think for a second that this conversation is over." She walked to Olivia and kissed her quickly. Then taking her hand she called for Emma and they journeyed to the school.

Emma ran into the classroom with Olivia and Natalia not far behind. Ms. Jennings looked up at the young girl and her moms. "You're late. All the kids are changing in room eight."

Olivia sheepishly looked up at the teacher. "I'm sorry we had trouble with the costume, and I…"

Natalia cut off Olivia's rant. "It's good to see you again."

Ms. Jennings nodded and looked to Emma. "Emma lets get going." She took Emma's hand and led her down the hall. Leaving the two woman standing in her classroom.

Olivia walked to lean against a wall next to Emma's my two mommies presentation. She looked at it and then turned to Natalia. "Why are you doing this to yourself?"

"Doing what?"

Olivia motioned between the two of them. "This, us."

"Why are you being like this? Questioning us, again."

"I'm being realistic."

"No you're being cold, mean almost. And I don't get it. I'm trying to be positive. Figure out how to make everything okay for everyone. How to tell Rafe and a make Frank leave us alone. My head, I can't think straight for more then a second at a time. I can't think straight, everything is just a jumble, but I know one thing. One thing is very clear to me."

"And what's that?"

"I want to be with you. I love you."

"I've been here since you said it."

"And I've been here since you said it to me. Olivia, we have been together for four months. We're engaged. Or have you forgotten that?"

"Do you understand? It's one thing to say it. It's what comes after. As hard as it is to say, I don't think you really get it."

"Yeah It's hard, but…."

Olivia stepped forward cutting her off. "It's one thing to say it, to me, to Frank, even Buzz. People you know wont tell everyone. To be together in our home. But to tell Rafe, to have it out in the town….I don't think you've thought this through. But I have. Okay. I know what comes after coming out."

"Really? Because I would love for you to explain it to me."

"Hell. Okay. Pure hell, for you, and lets face it, for me too. And if you knew that, you would just….."

Olivia walked across the room and Natalia followed. "Just what Olivia? What have I done to make you think I don't want this? That I don't want people to know? That I'm afraid of this?"

"I'm not trying to be insensitive."

"That's good to know."

"Look if I sound harsh it's because I think you need to hear it. It doesn't matter if it's four months after we started or four years. The truth is the truth. Have you thought about Rafe?'

"I always think about Rafe."

"What about Emma? What about me?"

"I haven't been able to think about anything else."

"I love you Olivia, but I can't tell my son."

"Don't put words in my mouth. When have I had a chance Olivia? We are going to tell him tonight after dinner. So just stop this."

"What about your church? What about god? What does he have to say about all of this?"

"Now you're just making fun of me."

"No, I'm not making fun of you. I'm bringing up some very real issues. You do not get to have our relationship in a vacuum. Trust me. I'm just trying to spare us both. I've had time to imagine the looks, and the guilt, and the judgements. I have a play to catch." She tried to walk out the door but was stopped.

"No, we're not done."

"No we are done. We were done before we ever got started, because that's the way it has to be. The best thing that you can do, is just to walk away. Forget you ever loved me."

"Oh please. Do you really think that I could do that?"

"I think that you need to try. For both our sakes." She turned to leave again.

Natalia brought out her no nonsense voice. "You stop." Olivia spun back to her. "You think you know me, you think you know better then me."

Olivia walked to within inches of Natalia's face. "I do know you."

"Then why are you always selling me short? Please, don't deny it. You always think you know better then me, because your worldly and your experienced…"

"Alright, alright. I've been in love I've had my heart smashed a few times, and okay, I want what everyone else has. I want someone to love me. I want a happy ending. And believe me if I thought that we could…"

"We don't know…"

"No, no one knows what's gonna happen when you decide to love someone, I just know that we have already faced so many more obstacles then other couples even have to think about. You need to listen to me."

Natalia raised her voice. Done with Olivia's constant doubt of them and their love. "NO, you need to listen. I've listened to you. Now it's your turn to listen. When we started this, yeah we kept it to ourselves. We've been in our own little world for the last few months, but I'm not that naïve. I know what it means to tell someone that you love them. I know what it means to accept a marriage proposal. When I accepted your proposal, when I put that ring on my finger, I knew exactly what it meant." She walked to Olivia and took her hands, her voice softening. "I know what it means to love someone. To marry someone. I know we can't stay in a bubble. If you remember I was the one crying because I couldn't marry you NOW, just a few days ago."

"You're not ready."

"Really, it would appear you're the one who's not ready."

"I am ready, but I don't have the baggage that you do."

"You're talking about Rafe."

"No, I'm not talking about Rafe, I'm not talking about Emma, I'm talking about your religion."

"My religion is about love."

"This kind of love?" Raising Natalia's hand to touch her face.

Natalia stepped closer. Putting her other hand on Olivia's other cheek so she is cupping her face in both hands. Leaning in so their lips are almost touching. "Yes. Yes, this kind of love. All love. We have already talked about this Olivia. I love you and I know that God is okay with it. He sent you to me, for me, for us, to love and be loved. Olivia we are meant to be together. Please quit trying to make trouble where there isn't any."

Olivia leant in even closer, "I'm sorry. I, I don't know what's wrong with me. Rafe came to see me earlier and...I love you so much, and I do want to marry you, and I am ready. I just want you to be happy."

"I am happy. You make me happy…wait Rafe came to see you?"

"Ummm…."

"What did he say?"

"Nothing. Nothing."

"Not nothing."

"We can talk about it later. We have a play to catch."

"Fine. But we will be talking about it." She looked at Olivia and she could still see worry lines etched on her face. "Baby, I know that you're scared, but it's going to be okay. I'm not scared, worried yes, I admit that. Scared? Absolutely not. I can't be scared of the most right thing I have ever felt in my life." She closed the distance and kissed her. This kiss contained all of the emotions of last few minutes. Fear, doubt, hurt, anger, and love. Above all else, this kiss conveyed their love. Their commitment to this life, together.