Chapter 37

Olivia was kneeling on the ground digging a hole for the next flower to be planted for Emma's service project. Emma walked over to her mother, "mom can I have my gardening gloves?"

"Mmmhmm." Olivia handed them over with a smile.

"Thank you."

"You're welcome."

"You know, this is the funnest thing we've done at camp so far."

"And it makes the park look beautiful huh."

"Some of the kids have more…"

"People?"

"People."

"Well, that's cause there are all kinds of families. You got your small families like us and you got your big families with lots of brothers and sisters."

"I bet they'll plant more than us."

"Hey."

"I bet they won't." Natalia interjected from behind them. Surprising both Spencer's.

"Natalia!" Emma squealed. Running to hug her. "I'll go get your tools." Emma ran off leaving her mommies a moment alone.

Olivia stood up to greet her lover. "Hey. Did you get all your errands done?"

"Umm, no, but I wanted to be here." Both women just smiled at each other for a moment. "So, Blake Marler offered me a job."

"Oh? You still thinking of leaving me?" She queried with a smile. "Cause, she's a hard person to work for."

"That's funny, she said the same thing about you." Olivia swatted her with her gardening gloves, smiling. "And no, Not thinking about leaving you, or the Beacon, just talking and the subject came up. I am gonna have lunch with her tomorrow though, bounce around some ideas."

"Mmm, that sounds…fun."

Before Natalia could reply, Emma came back with her tools and they all began planting more flowers. Natalia and Olivia were sitting on the step to the gazebo while Emma planted another flower next to them.

"I planted another one." Emma exclaimed with her usual excitement.

"You did, you did. And while we didn't plant more than anyone in the park, you certainly win the biggest contest, which is planting the most amongst the three of us." Olivia stated.

"I really did."

"You really did." Olivia confirmed as Emma stood and ran off.

Natalia smiled and chuckled after the little girl. "I just love her. She just sees the joy in everything that she does."

"I think she gets that from you."

"No. You're her mother."

"I'm not that person."

"What person?"

"The person who sees the good in everything she does. I'm usually waiting for the other brick to fly at me and hit my head."

"Hmm, LOOK OUT!" Natalia screamed and gently shoved Olivia laughing as she screamed.

"Oh gosh. Why would you do that?" Olivia said laughing with her.

"I don't know."

"See, that's what I mean. I'm have a serious conversation about the complexities of the human condition and you're laughing."

"I'm sorry, it's just, it's the first time I got to laugh today."

Olivia smiled and leaned closer, "let's not make it the last okay."

"Okay."

The girls finished planting flowers and everyone was cleaning up preparing to leave. Natalia sat in the gazebo trying to get a hold of Rafe again, getting only his voice mail. Olivia came to stand close to her, leaning against the railing. Natalia hung up; disappointment written all over her face as she tried to smile at Olivia. "I don't know what else to do."

"I don't think there's anything else you can do."

"There has to be. I just want him to be happy, and that's all I've done, is try and make my son happy."

"And you know, he was a kid, but he's a man now, he's gonna have to figure out a way to make himself happy."

"But I'm his mom."

"And as parents, we just want our kids to be okay."

Natalia nodded her head, looking down for a second before raising her eyes back to Olivia. "It's just, this is the first time that…making things okay for Rafe, is not the same as what will make things okay for me." The two stared at another, both at a loss. "Am I ever gonna make this okay for Rafe and for me?"

"I don't know."

Olivia left Natalia alone for a few moments, checking on Emma. Natalia continued to try and get a hold of Rafe to no avail. Part of her growing more frustrated then worried with her son. Olivia walked to the railing on the outside of the gazebo next to Natalia, placing a reassuring hand to Natalia's arm while she waited for her to hang up.

After yet another voicemail, Natalia hung up and met Olivia's gaze. "I'm sorry. I'm gonna, I'm really gonna just sort this all out and I'll fix everything with Rafe. Then it'll be done."

"Hey, it's okay, I don't mind waiting, he'll come around."

"I do."

"You do?"

"I do."

"You do what?"

"I mind, waiting. I am so done with waiting. Since the first second we explained to each other how we feel, we've just been living our lives, together, not even really thinking about it, and now…now Rafe is out of prison and all we've been doing is waiting. Waiting for him to adjust, and then waiting for him to understand and accept us, and I want to move forward, I want to tell the town and plan our wedding, I don't want to…"

"I don't wanna wait." They both said at the same time. Olivia took her hand and brought their faces just inches apart repeating, "I don't wanna wait" as she moved even closer, their lips almost touching when Natalia breathed, "no." Olivia shook her head slightly as their lips met.

Just as the kiss began to deepen, Emma ran into the gazebo. "Come on guys, what are you waiting for? Let's go."

They broke apart, both looking at Emma in almost shock at her choice of wording. Olivia turned back to Natalia, placing a finger under her chin, she brought Natalia's face up to meet hers. "Nothing. We're not waiting for anything." With those words she placed another tender kiss to Natalia's waiting lips.

After dinner and ice cream at Company, the three headed home. Olivia got Emma bathed and into bed. Walking out of Emma's room, she glanced at her old bedroom door, a sadness sweeping through her for a moment, before she turned and walked to her shared bedroom with the love of her life. She opened the door, walking in slowly, smiling at the sight that greeted her. Natalia was sitting in the bed, the covers up to her chin, with a cat that ate the canary smile on her face.

Olivia locked eyes with her as she walked closer to the bed. "And what are you smiling about?"

Natalia extended a hand to her lover, "come to bed and find out."

Olivia grinned almost wickedly. Bending over to plant a chaste kiss to Natalia's eager lips. "I'll be right back." Grabbing her pajamas, she disappeared into the bathroom. Coming back to the bed, Olivia climbed into her side and scoot closer to her lover, reaching out to wrap her arms around her. Finding Natalia to be completely naked, "Ooo, why Ms. Rivera, are you having bad thoughts?"

"No, I'm having very good thoughts." She corrected, rolling so she was half on top of Olivia. "And you, Ms. Spencer, are wearing entirely too many clothes for what I have in mind." She purred, claiming the lips before her as her hand snaked down to the hem of Olivia's shirt, working it up and over her head. Tossing it to the floor and making quick work of her shorts and panties as well.

Once they are both nude, Natalia sprawled out on top of Olivia, kissing her neck, "that's much better. I want to reclaim our bed. I NEED to make love with my fiancé." Finding Olivia's pulse point, Natalia sucked gently before biting down.

"Oohh…really…how…how are we gonna reclaim…our bed?"

Natalia snapped her head up, "I must be doing this wrong if you have to ask."

Olivia let out a deep laugh, wrapping her arms tightly around Natalia, flipping them over, kissing down Natalia's jawline and over to her ear. "Oh honey, believe me, you are doing it exactly right." She licked the entire shell of her ear and nipped at her earlobe.

Leaning on her left elbow, Olivia used her right hand to trek feather light touches down Natalia's body. Starting at her neck, moving down to her collarbone, swiping between her breast, circling around her belly button, and finishing just above her pelvic bone before caressing back up to cover a breast. Taking the flesh in her hand and gently kneading it. Circling around her nipple with just a fingertip before taking it between her thumb and forefinger and squeezing. Moving her mouth to take the other nipple between her teeth.

Natalia's back arched off the bed. Breathy moans escaping her lips. Natalia's hands gripped the back of Olivia's head, holding her firmly in place. Olivia continued her ministrations. Rolling and squeezing nipples between fingers, lips, and teeth. Making both impossibly hard. The sounds of her lover spurring her on and making her own need known. She released the breast from her mouth and kissed back to parted lips. Forcing her tongue inside and stroking Natalia's.

Her hand left the breast it was fondling to trace down tight abs, across the soft skin of Natalia's stomach, down to the apex between her thighs. Gliding her fingers through slick wetness. Letting her fingers play in the juices, finding the stiff nub and rolling it between her fingers.

Natalia's hip bucked forward, searching for more contact. Her lips were parted, her head thrown back, while grunts and moans fell from her mouth. Olivia licked her way to the pulse point pounding beneath her breath. Her fingers slipping further down to circle around Natalia's opening. Teasing in just slightly before pulling out again. Dipping one finger into her knuckles and then two. Taking them in and out several times before running them back up to the bundle of nerves begging for attention. She covered Natalia's mouth with her own as three fingers thrust deep inside.

Natalia made a sound that started in the pit of her stomach and worked its way out, in what could only be described as guttural. "Oh God…yes baby…dios mío…"

Olivia's face was buried in the crook of Natalia's neck, kissing and biting gently while her fingers slide in and out, scrapping against the tight walls surrounding them. She curved her fingers up, seeking that one spot that she knew would drive her lover to distraction. Reaching deeper inside. Savoring the screams Natalia was releasing.

Natalia's hips began to rock franticly, her body aching for the impending orgasm. "Si…si… por favor babe…mas fuerte, mas rápido…no pares…" (Translation: Yes…yes…please baby…harder, faster…don't stop.)

Olivia's thumb strummed against her erect clit, while her fingers slammed harder and faster inside. Natalia's body began to hum, tingling from her toes, up to her belly. Shooting through her veins. Finally rising completely off the bed, going stiff, then falling back to the mattress letting out a scream, "Oollivvviiaaaaa." utterly lost in the bliss of her orgasm.

Olivia collapsed on top of her. Kissing whatever skin she could find. Whispering words of love while she waited for her fiancé to come down from her high. Gently pulling her fingers out and making light circles against her stomach.

Natalia's body calmed and her breathing slowly returned to normal. One hand running up and down Olivia's back while the other stroked her arm. She let out a long breath and kissed the top of Olivia's head.

Olivia looked up at her kissing her cheek, her eye lids, her nose, and finally her lips. Bringing up a hand to swipe sweat damp hair form her face. "Mmm…is that what you had in mind?" She murmured against her lips; a Cheshire cat grin plastered to her face.

Natalia playfully swatted her arm. "Proud of yourself are you?"

"Maybe a little."

In one swift move, Natalia rolled them over, sitting up to straddle Olivia's hips. Gently scrapping her nails down Olivia's chest. Leaning over her to kiss sweet lips. She kissed down Olivia's body, rocking against her as she went. Olivia's arousal rising, as their dance started again. Making love long into the early morning hours. Relishing in Olivia's return to their bed. Content in the knowledge that she wouldn't be leaving it again, for any reason.

The alarm sounded way too early after only a couple hours of sated sleep. Natalia smiled, thinking of the events from the previous night, she quickly turned the alarm off. Setting it an hour later for Olivia. She kissed Olivia's forehead and silently slipped from their bed, showering and dressing for the day, she made breakfast for her family and got Emma off to school before Olivia made her way down the stairs, fully dressed and prepared for the day.

Olivia met her love in the kitchen, a huge smile on her face. Kissing her soundly, then pulling back and locking eyes. "Hi."

"Hi." Natalia's own smile matched Olivia's. "Did you take your pills this morning?"

"I did. I did."

"Good." Another kiss and she slipped from Olivia's arms setting a plate on the table with Olivia's ever important cup of coffee. "Sit, eat."

Olivia sat, grabbing Natalia's hand and pulling her onto her lap. "I'm so happy you chose me."

"I do, choose you."

"I choose you too, and I also choose for you not to be late." She kissed her sweetly and gently before lifting her from her lap.

"Alright, good. What's on your agenda today?"

"My day is about Emma. I'm gonna sit her down when she gets home from school and I'm gonna talk to her about Rafe."

"Emma's just a little girl, is she gonna understand this? Her brother being against her family?"

"Are you ready for this? To tell her, make it real, Rafe is not accepting us."

"I am. I know. I just, she's gonna have a lot of questions. How are we gonna answer them?"

"Well, Emma's a bright and loving kid. She can understand this."

"You're right. And we'll just tell her that Rafe is still her big brother, he's just having trouble right now. You wanna rehearse something?"

"I think I'm just gonna speak from the heart."

"Okay good. I will too."

"You're gonna be at work."

"Well, we could wait, until I get home."

"I think this is something I should probably do myself."

"You don't want me to be there?"

"I just think that this should come from me first. And then we'll sit her down together and we'll talk to her. You're still…emotional, about this."

"You're right. This is a conversation that you should have, with your daughter."

"Our daughter. So, I'll see you after work. Have a great day."

"You're gonna be great. You are. With Emma. You are gonna figure out exactly what to say to her."

Olivia nodded and leant forward to kiss her love goodbye. The kiss was meant to be chaste but soon morphed into something else. Natalia tilted her head to deepen the kiss. Sliding her tongue into the warmth of Olivia's mouth. This kiss is for understanding and strength. Both women lending a piece of themselves to the other. Preparing the other for what's to come. Natalia kissed Olivia to give her confidence to talk with Emma. Olivia in support of her lovers acceptance of Rafe's behavior and willingness to fight for them. The kiss continued until Natalia was more than late. Neither of them seemed to care. This was far more then want, it was need. Need for assurance that this too shall pass.