Chapter 121
Once the family returned to the farmhouse, Emma, Rafe, Ava, and Ashley went to Rafe's apartment, all of them wanting to continue with the carefree fun from Company, they decided to play some Mario Kart. Doris, Jamanda, and Sam settled around the kitchen table. While Olivia and Natalia went to their downstairs room for a few moments before joining them.
The two needed a few moments together to relish in the relief that the trial was finally over and Frank would be going away for a very long time. Both women had so much playing on their minds, but at the forefront was the desperate need to be in one another's arms. To taste each other without fear and anxiety looming overhead.
Upon entering their room, Natalia assisted Olivia in sitting on their bed and then gently lay her onto her back, carefully straddling her thighs, hovering over her, and kissing her with fever. Olivia's hands shot to Natalia's hips, digging her fingers in as she kissed back just as fiercely. Their tongues met in a familiar dance, moans escaped from both their throats as they let the past month melt away and just lingered in one another.
Olivia's hands slid to Natalia's ass and squeezed, causing a gasp from both women as Natalia slid forward just an inch, aligning their centers. Natalia's kisses moved down Olivia's jaw, along her neck, and ended just below her ear. "God, Olivia." She breathed, as she licked and nipped at her neck. Enjoying the fingers kneading her backside and the wetness of her arousal soaking her panties.
Olivia moved her head to the side, giving Natalia better access as her hips bucked involuntarily. "Natalia." She moaned as her hands tightened their hold on soft globes, pulling Natalia harder against her. Wanting nothing more than to feel her wife, to make love to her and show her just how much she cherished her.
As more wetness pooled, Natalia seemed to come to her senses and pulled back, sitting up straighter but remaining on her knees above Olivia's thighs. At Olivia's protesting whine, Natalia giggled and kissed her chastely. "Baby, we have company waiting for us in the kitchen."
Olivia scoffed. "They are f-far from company. D-Doris lives here at the m-moment, Jamanda is part of t-that package, and S-Sam is my brother. They're f-fine." Olivia tried as she attempted to pull Natalia back down.
"Olivia!" Natalia chastised as she climbed off of her love and pulled her back into a seated position. "We can continue this later. If you're good." She grabbed Olivia's hand and helped her to her feet, handing her the cane that was leaning against the wall. She kissed her again before moving away.
"I'm always good." Olivia grumbled as she headed for the door. Natalia following behind her with a mumbled 'Mmmhmm.'
As the two entered the kitchen, Doris looked over at them with a smirk and Jamanda swatted her shoulder before she could make the comment she knew was on the tip of her girlfriend's tongue. Doris playfully growled at her before returning her attention to her friends. "We were wondering if you two love birds would be joining us." She said with a smirk.
"Can it W-Wolfe." Olivia said as she took the seat across from her.
"So, how are you feeling Livvie?" Sam asked. Wanting to stop the snark fest before it began.
"I'm…" She paused for a moment, thinking on how she really felt at the moment. She was still apprehensive, worried about how sentencing would go, and questing what would be the next brick to fly at her face. But then she felt Natalia's fingers lace with her own and looked up into shining mahogany eyes. In that moment, all of the worry floated away, at least for now. She decided then and there that life was truly too short to worry about the what ifs. She was going to enjoy what time she had with her family, with this beautiful woman who somehow found her, Olivia freakin' Spencer, lovable. "I'm good actually. It's n-nice to know it's finally o-over. I just want things t-to get back to normal."
Natalia smiled at her wife as she leaned in to place a kiss to her cheek. "They will my love."
"So, what now?" Jamanda questioned.
"Um, well…" Sam started, unsure of how to tell his sister what he needed to say.
"Sammie?" Olivia asked. "What's w-wrong?"
"Nothing, nothing's wrong, it's just, uh, I um, I got a call last night. I was asked to go to New York. If I can get there by Monday I can still have the job I was offered a couple weeks ago. It would really open up some doors for me. Keep me in the states for a while. But I won't go if you still need me here. I know you still have sentencing with Frank, and you're still recovering. I told Jeff I'd let him know sometime today if I could make it or not."
Olivia reached for her brothers hand. "Sammie, I really appreciate e-everything you've done for me and t-the kids, and Natalia, but it's t-time for you to go back to y-your life. I'm doing much better, I d-don't need someone twenty-four s-seven, and the trial is over, since y-you'll be in the states, I can c-call you with how sentencing goes."
"But Liv…"
"No, Sam, you n-need to go. This could be major for you. I w-will not be the one to mess t-this up for you. I'm fine. The k-kids are fine. I love you S-Sammie. I want you to have the life y-you deserve. Call him, t-tell him you'll be there. I'll get Phillip to g-give you a ride in the jet tomorrow a-afternoon."
"You sure Livvie? I'll stay as long as you need me to. You come before any job."
"I'm sure. Call him."
Sam leaned over and kissed her cheek. "I love you Livvie. I'll tell him I'll be there tomorrow evening. I want to help get your house back in order and you and Natalia back in your own room before I leave."
Olivia was going to protest, but she knew Sam didn't really want to leave, as much as she took care of him as a child, he wanted to take care of her now. So, she relented. "Thank you Sammie."
Sam nodded and then stood from the table to go and make his call. Natalia smiled at her love as Olivia watched him walk out of the kitchen. It warmed her heart to see the love Olivia held for her brother. She could tell that Olivia was just as protective of him as she was over their children. She could imagine how Olivia must have been as a sixteen-year-old trying to care for him and Marissa. A moment of sadness overtook her as she thought on that.
Olivia had no choice but to give up Ava. She already had two children to provide for and at sixteen adding a third would have been impossible. She knew how hard it was to care for Rafe at such a young age, she couldn't imagine how much harder it would have been if there had been two children she had to provide for. Her heart went out to Olivia. No matter how Ava was conceived, she knew Olivia would have kept her if she could have. Olivia had told her how hard it was, being pregnant with Ava, having that constant reminder of what Jeffery had done to her, but Natalia knew, she knew Olivia would have worked through it and kept her child had there been a way. Olivia had told her that she didn't even look at Ava, let alone hold her when she was born, she tried to pretend that it was only because of the way Ava came to be, but Natalia knew better. Olivia couldn't look at her, couldn't hold her, couldn't really accept her existence, if she had, she wouldn't have been able to let her go, and she had to. She needed to take care of Marissa and Sam, and if she had kept the baby, life would have been worse than it already was for the three Spencer children.
Olivia noticed the difference in her wife's demeanor, the stiffness in her posture and the tears shining in her eyes. She took a second to study her, trying to figure out where her mind had drifted off to. As she gazed at her, staring blindly at the spot Sam had disappeared from, it hit her. Natalia knew her like no one else, knew all of her secrets, and could figure out the things Olivia herself refused to admit out loud.
"Natalia, honey?" She said gently, wanting to gain her attention but not startle her. When Natalia finally turned to her, eyes wet with unshed tears, Olivia raised a hand and slid her fingers softly down Natalia's cheek. "It's alright. She's h-here now."
Natalia let a small smile spread on her lips, because of course Olivia knew where her mind had gone. "I know." She whispered, turning her head to kiss the palm of Olivia's hand. "I know." She wiped at her eyes and turned back to their friends who had silently watched the exchange, Jamanda with a confused expression, and Doris with her ever understanding blue eyes. She cleared her throat and dabbed at her eyes. "Uh, I should probably start thinking about dinner. Will you both be joining us?"
Doris looked from Natalia to Olivia, needing to know what to do. Olivia's eyes were almost pleading. Begging her to stay and get the day back on track to be as carefree at it had been at the diner. Doris gave her friend a small nod. "Of course. You know I'm addicted to all these home cooked meals. I see why Olivia fell for you. I may never leave."
Natalia chuckled as she stood from the table, kissing Olivia's temple. "You are always welcome here Doris. And you too Jamanda." She smiled at them and then down at her love. "I'm gonna go down and see what the kids feel like for dinner." She grabbed Olivia's pills from the counter behind her. "You, take one of these. You said you needed them a while ago." She kissed her again and then headed for the basement.
The family, as well as Jamanda and Doris, spent the rest of the afternoon playing games and watching movies. The kids were sad that Sam would be leaving the following day but understand that he had his own life to get back to. They enjoyed a nice dinner of chicken and rice before Jamanda headed home and Doris went upstairs to get Emma in the bath and ready for bed.
Once everyone was tucked in for the night, Olivia and Natalia found themselves alone in their makeshift bedroom, making out like lovesick teenagers. Natalia was hovering over Olivia, making sure to keep her weight off Olivia's still healing ribs. The two were fused together as lips, teeth and tongues explored each other's mouths. Olivia had her hands under Natalia's shirt, stroking at the soft skin of her sides as her tongue plunged in and out of the younger woman's mouth.
Eventually, the need for air became too great and Natalia pulled back, leaning her forehead against Olivia's in that ever-familiar way of theirs. She placed a few gentle chaste kisses to Olivia's lips before moving to lay on her side, her head propped in her hand and the other hand roaming over the smooth skin of Olivia's tummy under her shirt.
She smiled at her love, kissing her once again. "I'm so happy this is all over. I finally feel like I can breathe again."
Olivia reached up to tuck a stray hair behind Natalia's ear. Caressing her cheek with her palm. "Me too. Just have to g-get through sentencing, then we can put Frank Cooper behind us for g-good."
"I am so proud of you Olivia."
Olivia looked at her perplexed. "What for?"
Natalia's hand continued to caress her lover's stomach, moving from the hem of her pajama bottoms to just below her breast. "You have been so strong Olivia. You've pushed yourself so hard to get better, to not lean on me or anyone else. But more than that, you made it through all of this without killing anyone." She smirked, pinching Olivia's side lightly. "That is a feat in and of itself."
Olivia chuckled. "You think you're f-funny, don't you Mrs. Spencer-R-Rivera?" She said as she turned on her side, causing Natalia to lay flat and her hand to slip to Olivia's back.
"Hmm." Natalia hummed, pretending to think about it as her hand rubbed up and down her loves back. "Funnier then you are at least."
"Is that so?" Olivia said with mirth, bending to place kisses along Natalia's jaw. "I'll show you f-funny." She said as fingers dug into Natalia's sides under her ribs causing uncontrollable laughter to reign throughout the room.
"Olivia! Olivia! Stop! Please!" Natalia panted as Olivia continued to wiggle her fingers. Not stopping until Natalia was completely breathless, enjoying the sweet sound of Natalia's laughter and joy too much to stop any sooner.
When the laughter died down, Natalia looked up into Olivia's eyes. Sea green sparkled back at her, playfulness quickly morphing into something else entirely. Olivia slowly guided her hand down her wife's body. Starting at her chin, Olivia ran her hand down Natalia's neck, weaving it across her chest, and down to cloth covered breast, squeezing each one gently before continuing down Natalia's stomach to the hem of her night shirt. While Olivia scanned Natalia's body with her hand, her eyes remind locked on Natalia's. The two stared at one another, lost in the depth of love shining between jade and mahogany.
As Olivia slid her hand under Natalia's shirt, skirting fingers across the smooth skin just below her belly button, she bowed her head and captured her lover's lips in a passion filled kiss. Sliding her tongue between full lips, she flattened her palm against Natalia's tummy and drew it up slowly, caressing with gentle touches. Her tongue explored Natalia's mouth leisurely, softly, their tongues sliding together languidly.
Olivia's hand slipped further and further up Natalia's body until finally she was cupping the warm firm flesh of a perky breast. Both women moaned as Olivia tweaked a taught nipple between thumb and forefinger. Their kiss deepening as the nails of Natalia's right hand dug into the small of her loves back and her other hand pulled Olivia to be fully on top of her.
Olivia finally broke the kiss, both women panting and breathing heavily. Olivia continued to manipulate the breast in her hand as her lips descended upon Natalia's neck. Licking and nipping as she slid her other hand up to cover the neglected breast. Natalia moaned and bucked her hips involuntarily. Pressing further into Olivia's back with her nails and threading her other hand into her silk stands, cradling Olivia's head to her neck.
Natalia's groans of pleasure grew louder. She needed more, weeks without the intimate touch of her wife had her on edge already. She was wetter then she could ever remember being, more arousal pooling as Olivia pinched and pulled at her stiff peaks. When warm lips wrapped around her left breast, sucking hard while a stiff tongue lapped at her nipple, she felt like she could cum from that alone. Her hips lifted of their own accord, searching for some sort of friction. She could feel Olivia smile against the flesh in her mouth before releasing it with a wet pop and kissing her way to the other breast, paying it equal attention.
Natalia felt herself snap like an over stretched rubber band. She clawed at Olivia's shirt, forcing Olivia's mouth from her flesh as she lifted it over her head. Olivia whined in protest, but Natalia didn't care, she needed to feel her wife against her, skin to skin. As soon as Olivia's shirt was discarded, she reached for her own that was bunched above her breast and removed it as well.
Olivia giggled at the fast movements of her wife, earning a growl from Natalia. She quickly schooled her features and returned her mouth to a more pleasurable activity, taking a breast back between her lips and suckling. She felt Natalia shiver below her, heard the pleasure in her moans, and knew they wouldn't be stopping.
They had wanted to wait until they were back in their bedroom, Olivia had only meant to tease tonight, give a preview of what she wanted the following evening, but with the way Natalia was pushing down both of their sleep shorts and groaning at Olivia's lack of assistance in getting them off, she knew they wouldn't be waiting, and she couldn't say she was disappointed. She had missed her wife's touch, the love that flowed between them in the moments they spent tethered together in their shared passion.
Olivia had a lot of experience with sex, but not so much with actually making love. With Natalia everything was different. It was a feeling she had never experienced before. Sex wasn't a means to an end. It wasn't a way of getting what she wanted or scratching an itch. It isn't a drunken mistake or drowning her sorrows. It isn't wanting to just feel something or wanting to forget. With Natalia, sex is what it was intended to be, the physical manifestation of their love. When they made love, Olivia could actually feel Natalia's love for her. It traveled through her veins and straight to her heart.
Every time they were intimate, Olivia could feel Natalia's love healing her. Filling the holes in not only her heart, but in her very soul. It felt like electricity flowing through her, making her lightheaded and a feeling akin to floating always overtook her. Her orgasms were like nothing she'd ever experienced before, leaving her completely sated, weather they quit after one round or several. She missed that feeling, she needed that feeling. She needed Natalia's love to fill her completely and leave her spent. After everything she had endured, they had endured. She knew Natalia needed it too. They were each other's lifeline, their source of energy. Their safe and beautiful place in a world full of so much ugly. Their love kept them grounded, and physically expressing that love kept them from exploding with its strength.
With those thoughts floating at the back of her mind, Olivia released the nipple she'd been suckling on and pulled back enough to help Natalia in getting both of their sleep shorts and panties off, throwing them from the bed, not caring where they landed. More moans escaped as Olivia returned her weight atop Natalia, both women reveling in the feel of their naked bodies pressed together. Olivia slid her leg between Natalia's, almost rejoicing when Natalia's soaked center met her thigh. She groaned and pressed down harder against her lover's aching need.
Natalia ground her hips against Olivia's thigh, insinuating her own between wife's legs. "God, Olivia." She panted when her thigh was greeted with an abundance of liquid heat. Her hands gripped at her wife's hips, pulling her further into her. Lips seeking lips as they grinded against one another in rhythm.
Olivia pulled from the kiss, eyes meeting her lovers as her right hand snaked down between them. She wanted to take this slow, rediscover her wife's body, but she couldn't wait, and she knew Natalia couldn't either. Her finger slid through downy soft curls before finally finding the hard nub of Natalia's clit. She circled it with two fingers, reaching further down to gather some of the wetness there before returning and pressing firmly against it. Natalia gasp above her and Olivia pressed down again, circling as she did. She could feel Natalia getting closer to release and she reveled in the sounds escaping her loves lips. She let her fingers slip down again, circling Natalia's entrance before slipping two fingers inside, pressing in slowly.
She let out a gasp of her own as tight walls gripped her fingers. "Fuck! Natalia, you feel s-so good baby." She choked out as her fingers began to press in and out. She hooked her fingers upwards, allowing them to scrape against rigid flesh on every outward stroke.
"Yes!" Natalia exclaimed as the fingers in her sped up slightly. "Olivia!" She panted, almost in awe of the experience she was having. Her eyes rolled to the back of her head as her orgasm began to build in the pit of her stomach. She reached a hand down to the apex of Olivia's thighs, running two fingers through her wetness before entering her. She matched Olivia's pace with her fingers and her hips, both women using thighs to press in deeper. Their lips met and moans muffled between them.
"Natalia! Fuck!" Olivia gasped when their mouths separated. They rocked and slid against each other, speeding up only slightly, Natalia keeping Olivia's still healing ribs in mind as she pulled in and out of her. Keeping their rhythm at a steady moderate pace.
Olivia could feel the familiar flutter start in the pit of her stomach and spiral through her body. Her toes curled and her fingers tingled. She was on the verge of climax. Determined to take Natalia with her, she pulled out completely for only a second, returning with three fingers and reaching as far inside her lover as possible, pressing against the spot she knew would send Natalia careening off the edge with her. And completely ignoring the stabbing pain in her ribs.
"Olivia! Olivia!"
"Natalia!"
Names seeped from both their mouths like a mantra. Fingers dove in and out as thighs pressed to the back of hands. Free hands clutched at one another and lips kissed whatever skin they could reach. Lost in ecstasy, in each other, they came together, liquid dripping down hands but they didn't stop. They continued to grind together, fingers reaching, searching, wanting more, both unwilling to end the energy flowing between them. Their arousal mixed together between them, causing wet sounds to escape between their legs as they pounded in and out of one another. Olivia's still healing body forgotten for as bliss took over.
Natalia felt herself building again, like a pot about to boil over. She screamed as she exploded against Olivia's hand. She gripped at Olivia tighter with her free hand. Needing to feel her, to know she was alive, that she was okay. She bit down on Olivia's shoulder and shuddered at the primal scream. That was the sound of her wife, the love of her life in the throes of passion. She needed to feel her more, to taste her, to affirm the life she could feel pulsing around her fingers.
She pulled out of Olivia, ignoring the groans of protest. She gripped both of Olivia's hips and slid down the bed beneath her as she urged Olivia up. Once Olivia's knees where astride her face, she wasted no time in running her tongue from entrance to clit. Olivia gripped the headboard as Natalia began to devour her.
It was as if Natalia had been stranded in the desert and Olivia was a cool glass of water. She sucked, licked, and lightly nipped at the gorgeous flesh. She sucked Olivia's lips into her mouth, tasting their mixed juices. She moaned into the flesh, sending vibrations through Olivia's body. She allowed her tongue the pleasure of pressing inside Olivia's tight entrance before gathering the sweet nectar and moving her tongue up to Olivia's clit.
Olivia threw her head back and began to rotate her hips against Natalia's face. Breathy moans escaping from her throat. "Oh Fuck! N-NATALIA! So, g-good baby! D-don't, d-don't stop."
Natalia gripped her hips tighter, holder her flush against her face as she wrapped her lips around the pleasure nub, latching on as the tip of her tongue swirled against it. Olivia's hips moved faster and faster, painting her face in her arousal from nose to chin. Natalia held on tighter as she felt Olivia's legs begin to shake. She sucked just a little harder and swirled her tongue faster as she entered her wife once again, inserting three fingers to the hilt and flicking against her g-spot.
Olivia bucked faster, holding the headboard in a vice like grip with one hand while the other latched onto Natalia's hair. The pain shooting through her ribs went unnoticed as pleasure shot through every inch of her body. She pulled almost painfully on the hair in her hand as a gush of fluid released from her and a loud scream echoed in the room. "NATALIAAAAAAA!"
Natalia moved one hand to the small of Olivia's back, supporting her as she worked to swallow everything Olivia had to offer. Removing her fingers and replacing them with her tongue, not wanting to leave even a drop behind. When finally, she had licked Olivia clean, she helped ease her back to the bed. Lips meeting in the softest of kisses. She pulled back and brought Olivia into her arms, stroking her hair, and rubbing her back as she waited for her breathing to return to normal. Peppering kisses along her forehead and temple, whispering words of love and adoration.
When Olivia finally returned to herself, she winced, the pain in her ribs fully hitting her. Although they had both tried to heed Rick's warnings of being careful, by the end, Olivia was too far gone to be cautious and worked her ribs entirely too fast and too hard as she rode Natalia's face.
Olivia rolled from Natalia's arms and onto her back, grabbing her side. "Fuck!"
Natalia sat up and reached for Olivia's pain meds and a bottle of water. "Are you okay? I'm so sorry, I shouldn't have gotten so carried away." Remorse clearly written across her face.
Olivia leaned on her arm, sitting halfway up so she could swallow down her pills. After downing them with half the bottle of water, she reached for Natalia's hand. "I'm fine baby, r-really."
"No, you're hurting. We should have waited until you were fully healed, and I should have been more careful." Natalia's eyes were trained on the bedspread, unable to look at the pain her wife was clearly in after their love making.
Olivia tipped her chin up with a finger so she could see those beautiful brown eyes. "Worth it." Was all she said as she leaned in to claim pouty lips. Pulling back after a few short kisses. "I would take t-this little bit of p-pain a thousand times over if it m-meant getting to be with you, l-like that. You are amazing sweetheart. I've m-missed you so much. Touching y-you, feeling you like that, God N-Natalia, it's worth all the pain in the w-world." She kissed her once more before laying back down and pulling her lover into her arms.
Natalia snuggled in against her. "I've missed you too. I never knew making love could be like that. It's better every time we do. I never want to go so long without touching you ever again."
Olivia smiled down at her. "I second that. I l-love you Natalia."
"I love you Olivia, more and more every day." Pushing herself up, she sealed their lips together once again. This kiss held all the love the two had for each other. This kiss was moving forward, it was letting the hurt die and the new beginning of their life together. It was the first of many new, happy, memories to come.