Chapter 2

I got home and dropped my stuff on the floor. I locked my deadbolt and stripped out of my shirt and pants. I threw on some sweatpants, foregoing the top and just sticking with my bra. I grabbed a bottle of vodka and cranberry juice, as well as a glass. I poured myself a healthy glass and laid down on the couch to switch on the TV.

I was about four glasses in, tipsy, but not wasted, when I heard a loud knock at the door. My head snapped up in alarm. I stood up and stumbled my way over to the door. Not unlocking the deadbolt I peered through the crack of the door, only to be eye level with a tall man's chest. I raised my eyes to meet his.

Jake.

"Jacob…."

"Bella…"

"Leave me alone."

"No, bells I need to check on you," he mumbled

"I don't need to be checked on!" I looked him up and down. He looked really good. I got the sudden urge to lick him. What the hell!

"Like hell Bella! Let me in now!" A pulse between my legs that wasn't there before, was now making itself known as he raised his voice.

I don't know what made me do it, but I slammed the door and yanked open the deadbolt.

"What. The. Fuck. Do you want?"

"God Bells you smell like shit. What are you drinking?"

"Nice to see you too," I scoffed.

"You know what I don't care. Can we sit down and talk?"

"Fine." I walked over to my ratty loveseat and sat down and he followed suit. I shifted in my seat uncomfortably.

"What do you want," I asked.

Jacob was looking around at the mess my living room was. He picked up one of the vodka bottles that was now empty.

"Geez Bells, you need to slow down," he said, chuckling.

I couldn't focus on anything he was saying except for the way his lips moved and I wondered what they would feel like against my skin.

"Bella? Hey! Are you listening?"

"Uhm, yeah. Hey Jake, do you think you could do me a favor," I questioned in what I hoped was a seductive voice.

"Anything Bells, what do you need," he said, looking at me in wonder. You know what, fuck it! I leaned into him fast claiming his lips with my own. I caught him by surprise, but he responded and kissed me back with the same intensity.

"Bella, you're drunk. Seriously, stop," he said, but I could tell he wanted more. He had always wanted for us to be more than just childhood best friends.

"I know you want this too," I said, encouraging him. It didn't take much to persuade him. In a second his lips were back on mine with so much passion it made my head spin. I moved myself onto him, straddling his hips and following the motion of his body. I could feel his excitement under me and I rubbed against it, causing us both to moan. I trailed my lips down his neck and whispered in his ear,

"I want you so bad Jakey, and I know you want me."

"You have no idea baby."

Jake flipped us over and moved, so that I was under him. He started to kiss down my body until his head was resting on my stomach.

"Bells?"

"God, fucking make me cum already!"

Jake needed no further prodding.

"I'll get right on that babe." Jake moved back up my body and started kissing my covered breasts. I quickly undid my bra and shed my pants, and he did the same until there was nothing between us but skin. I was already soaked, and when he slid a few fingers in I almost came undone.

"I'm ready! Jacob Black just fuck me already," Jake sucked on one of my breasts into his mouth, bit gently, and I let out a loud moan. He positioned himself over me and started rubbing the hardened tip of his dick against my clit. I bucked my hips upward, trying to get him inside me faster, and he finally obliged. In one quick movement he thrust his full length inside me and we both groaned in pleasure. I could feel him picking up speed, but I needed more.

"Faster Jake! Please," I whimpered. He reached down between us and started rubbing my clit making me cry out.

"You like that?" he asked, continuing to thrust faster. "I can't hold on that much longer Bells,"

"I'm there baby, come one!"

I felt the familiar feeling of pleasure pulsing through my whole body at the same time Jake groaned and released inside me. We both moaned louder than before, and were left a panting, sweaty mess. He collapsed on top of me and tucked his face in the valley between my breasts.

"Jesus Jake," I whimpered into his hair. He was still inside me, his breath tickling my skin.

"I know." Jacob slid out of me and turned around to retrieve his clothes, picking up mine as well and tossing them to me.

"We gotta talk Bells," he said in an authoritative voice. God I'm wet again. Shit. I got up and put my clothes on, keeping my eyes locked with his the entire time.

"What did you actually come here to accomplish Jake," I asked, regaining awareness of my surroundings. He stood before me and put a hand on my cheek.

"I wanted to see you Bella, I haven't seen you in over a month. I didn't know what happened to you…" his voice wandered off and I saw the pain in his eyes.

"How the hell did you find me Jake! I didn't tell anyone where I went," I yelled at him.

"You know when I called you?" I nodded.

"Well, I kinda asked Charlie to trace your phone. I know it wasn't right Bella, but I needed to know you were ok and didn't run off and become a stripper or something."

"I'm not a stripper, I work at a Library," I said in what I hoped was a confident voice.

"Hummm, so you're a hot librarian now?" I was starting to notice the soreness in my body and I was just now starting to think over what I had just done with my best friend. Without answering him, I walked over to my cabinets, grabbed a glass and filled it with water, only losing my balance once on the way there. I was starting to sober up just a little, so I grabbed some Advil as well. Downing the glass and the pills I looked up at him.

"Jake, this was a bad idea," I started, "I can't give anything to you, I don't want to date or anything, you know that. I'm sorry I led you on again."

"I was afraid you would say that. You know what, it's fine. I'm always here for you Bella. As soon as you say the word I'll be by your side." I started to tear up.

"I'm really sorry Jacob, you know I love you, but I just can't be what you want and need me to be," I choked back a sob. He pulled me into a hug and rested his chin on my head.

"It's ok Bells, I love you."

"I love you too. Would it be so selfish if I asked you to stay the night, just lay with me."

"I would love to Bells. I gotta be out of here early if you don't mind through."

"Of course not." I led us over to my small twin bed in the corner of the room and we both laid down. He wrapped his arms around me and cradled me to his chest. We talked for a bit, about Jake's school and my work. He was graduating early as a Junior because he had enough credits. He said he's going to convert their garage into a mechanic shop and build it into a triple car space, which I thought was amazing for him. He already has quite a few clients and is making very good money.

"I'm happy for you Jake," I said stifling a yawn.

"Thanks Bells, lets get some rest now." I nodded into his chest and dozed off into a dreamless sleep.