I think that was the darkest chapter, the rest its more implied.
Chapter 3
Arizona woke to the door slamming open, she must have dozed off as it startled her.
"Morning Nicole, did you sleep well, are you ready for rounds?" Graham asked walking in and over to her.
"Please let me go Graham" Arizona begged,
"Not until I pass my fellowship, you promised me Nicole, you promised I'd take over your service, then you leave me for that crippled, lesbian whore" he screamed storming over lifting Arizona up by the hair forcing her to stand on her remaining leg. "It's not fair, I earnt that fellowship. I deserve that fellowship" he dropped her roughly, causing her to lose balance, and fall to the floor.
"Time for rounds," he left the room bringing back Jell-O mould after Jell-O mould each designed to mimic a different fetal problem until 10 moulds were placed on the trolleys. "Show me" he insisted.
"I need my hands-free Graham and my leg" Arizona snarked, he stormed over slapping her hard across her face. Arizona fell to the side. "Don't tell me what you need" Graham screaming before storming out of the room returning with her leg throwing it at her with some scrubs. He roughly unhandcuffed her hands,
Arizona tried to wiggle her leg back on, but her hands had gone numb being handcuffed so tightly for so long. The blanket had fallen down in her efforts, leaving her exposed. She quickly dressed herself as best as she could. Realisation was dawning on her, there was no way Graham was ever going to be at a standard to pass his boards. If Nicole Herman couldn't do it in 2 years in a fully staffed hospital with clinical skills lab and real patients Arizona wasn't going to be able to in a few days in a dirty, deserted clinic room tied to old pipes. Nicole wouldn't stand for this, if he wanted her to be Nicole, she would be Nicole, in all her nasty glory. Maybe Nicole could persuade him to get her go because Arizona wasn't succeeding.
He returned holding several lengths of rope. Arizona took a breath
"It's about time Graham, you are late, I offered you this fellowship out of everyone I chose you and this is how you repay me" Arizona snarled channelling her inner Nicole, it worked as Graham dropped the rope.
"Sorry Dr Herman" he apologised
"Why are you just standing there, Arizona ordered, "Useless," she muttered "Tell me the steps in removing a Mediastinal teratoma" Arizona ordered rubbing her sore wrists
Graham began describing the steps. Arizona interrupted,
"My exact words Graham, have you learnt nothing" Arizona snarked remembering Nicole's words that she had used to publicly humiliate her. If Graham had endured that for 2 years nonstop it was no wonder, he was messed up.
"Sorry Dr Herman,"
"If you lack the basic skills to operate, maybe this is not for you."
"No, I can do it"
"Prove it. Take the scalpel and start, we don't have a lot of time" Arizona instructed. Watching as he confidently took the scalpel cutting the jelly open. Arizona kept quiet Nicole didn't give compliments so neither did she.
"Stop, get your angle right" she instructed, "What should the angle be?"
"45 degrees" Graham answered sounding unsure,
"Are you asking me or telling me?" Arizona asked,
"Telling you?" He said still not sounding sure.
"Correct, so why are you at 40 degrees" Arizona corrected his position, "Try now, pay close attention to your hands"
"Sorry Dr Herman"
"You know the measurements, you know what angle to deploy the balloon, you've memorized the procedure" Arizona listed
"Yes Dr Herman"
"So why are you doing it wrong?"
"I'm sorry," he apologised,
"Step back I'm taking over" Arizona ordered, as Nicole would, he obeyed, Arizona took over showing him each step as best as she could.
They finished with the Jell-O mould, Graham lifting the next one in position. As he did Arizona reached for the scalpel, seizing the moment she stabbed him hard in the arm running for the door.
This was her opportunity to escape. She opened the door easily, there was a corridor, 2 directions to go, Arizona picked left at random, running as fast as she could away from the room searching for any available exit trying all the doors, all seemed to be locked. Behind her she could hear Graham running, footsteps echoing behind her, heavy breaths. She ignored the pain in her legs, her arms, focusing on the escape.
Finally, she found a door with an exit sign above her, it opened, she could see outside, the concrete of a car park but it was freedom, she stepped through only to feel something grab her from behind pulling her hair yanking her backwards. She fell to the floor wrenched away from freedom.
"No" she cried. Trying to fight, despite stabbing him with a scalpel, he was much stronger than her, she hadn't eaten in hours, maybe even days and had barely drunk anything. Before she could do anything, he was on top of her. She hit him as hard as she could, he caught her wrists easily. She gasped as it aggravated her wounds, not letting it stop her as she tried using her body weight to throw him off. He laughed easily shuffling his weight. His hand closed around her face holding her chin in a bruising grip. Arizona struggled with him trying to overpower him. His lips came down capturing her lips as she tried to struggle. She could feel him getting more excited. Her escape attempt had failed and now she was paying the price.
"You stabbed me, Arizona, that wasn't very nice." He said his blood dripping onto her. Arizona wondered if him calling her Arizona was a good thing, was he more or less delusional? Was he going to hurt her more or less?
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to" Arizona trembled,
"I know, it's okay. Nicole just ignore Arizona, Nicole come back to me" he urged. Arizona made her choice
"I'm here Graham, I'm back" she lied, "I'm sorry I think it's the tumour" she tried, he laughed
"Yes, Arizona is a tumour isn't she. Come" He lifted her up, roughly carrying her along the corridor to the room she first woke up in.
"Sorry Nicole I have to take precautions" he apologised as he reached for the handcuffs. This time handcuffing her foot to the trolley. Her hands were free, but she could only move her non-amputated leg 2 inches either way by shuffling.
"Now where were we?" he asked bringing the next mould over.
It was hours later when he finally decided it was time for a break. They'd gone through all the moulds. Arizona waited until he left the room grabbing a mouthful of the destroyed Jell-O off the bed, she needed something to drink, some sugar if she was going to get out of this.
Graham returned sometime later, Arizona had eaten all the leftover Jell-O from their procedures, that had been left on the bed. Graham carried a glass of water and a cereal bar with some tablets.
"Here Nicole you need to keep your energy up" he helped her drink the water and fed her the cereal bar. Before trying to put one of the tablets into her mouth,
"What is it?" Arizona asked,
"For your tumour" he replied sounding surprised, "you know you put me in charge of your medicine, we need to shut Arizona up"
Arizona clamped her mouth firmly shut refusing to take any medications when she didn't know what they were for. Graham put the water down using both hands to force her jaw open. Arizona had no choice to open or risk dislocating her jaw. All 3 tablets were shoved it
"Swallow" he ordered now clamping her mouth closed holding her nose, so she had no choice to swallow the tablets down. After he lifted the water to her mouth allowing her sips.
"You see, I know what's best" he said. "Relax now, we will start again tomorrow" he ordered massaging her shoulders. Arizona tried to shrug him off but instead his hands just dug in deeper.
"Relax, let the tablets work" he whispered into her ear. Arizona felt lightheaded, her head started to swim, her eyes felt like lead weights. It was strange everything was floating, Graham's voice was further away, his hands touching her felt different, like they were touching someone else. She tried to say something to stop him, but her brain didn't connect with her mouth, in fact her whole body was being lifted onto the trolley, Graham climbing on top. Arizona was so disassociated it felt like the attack wasn't on her, it was on her body, but that was far away. She was floating above the world, the world kept spinning beneath her, without a care in the world.