The Truth was staring him right in the face, as he realized that Loona didn't need him, she was gone off to another whirlwind party. The hell hound made it perfectly clear that she would be just fine without him. Loona would never know how close her father was to taking his own life. Moxie and Millie would survive, they had each other, they were one of the lucky few. Wherever he belonged it wasn't here. he was only clutching onto dreams and hearsay.
It wasn't with Stolas, The Goeita Prince was one big mistake he wished he could erase. "If only Stolas had spoken up, maybe then tonight would've been salvageable. Perhaps he would've taken the prince up on his offer. Fizzorolli was mocking him! just because Ausmodeous cared about him, and he could flaunt it around! Instead Stolas bowed his head. hiding his face and leaving Blitzo open for a brutal attack by his two exes. Like he was ashamed to be caught out on a date with an imp.
And whatever they had was gone, fizzled out. Blitzo could barely look at him, and when Stolas reached out for his hand, Blitzo was done.
"What hurts the most, was being so close and then watching you walk away, and having so much to say"
" You promised me you'll always be there for me, that' you'd never leave me" and watching you walk away, you just walked away. He wanted to feel whole to be needed my someone, but he couldn't figure out the first step, it hurt, it hurt too damn much, to breathe, to even think tonight was wasted.
Who was left in his lonely heart? Who truly cared about him? And no what he could do for them. Blitzo clutches his head, his head is swimming, too much this was all too much. His head was drowning with dark thoughts, heart thrumming wildly in his chest as he searches for a sharp object. But his eyes kept blurring and he couldn't see. There were so many bridges that he burned down masking his hurt only drove his loved ones further away.
Verosika was right, he was self-sabotaging
"So long as I'm in your life, you'll have nothing to fear BlitzO, and you'll always have a reason to be happy my little Harlequin" Fizzorolli's voice echoed in his head. "BlitzO, I think you should follow your dreams, maybe they'll lead you to the happiness your looking for Verosika's voice cut in. as they strolled through the amusement park holding hands. Fizzorolli had gone away on tour with Lord Mammon and Verosika was in town. It was the happiest six months of his life and when Verosika offered a bodyguard position Blitzo had jumped at the opportunity. Verosika deserved better.
You need to be more careful, Blitzy I don't know what I would do if something were to happen to you, I'm not sure if I should allow you to use my grimoire your safety is more important to me, do you understand my little impish one?" Now don't you go holding back on me Stolas, we had an agreement!" Blitzo purrs while crawling up and in-between Stolas's legs.
Low gravely laughter bubbled out from the cowboy, as the herder watched the city imp try and fail to climb onto Bombproof. "Whoever gave you those shitty horse riding lessons, owes you a refund sugar-cube" "Here let me help ya out darlin" that freaking smile never left the country imp's face as he slid behind the scarlet imp who was blushing like mad and if those calloused knuckles brushed across the Boss imp's face, as an arm winds around Blitzo's mid-section the Boss imp didn't say a word. "Allow a professional to teach ya how to ride the untamable" Striker purrs. Loving the indignation look on the scarlet devil's face.
Tears burn down his face as he considered his options, was there another way? Another path he had carelessly looked over. A trail that would lead him home and into the embrace of someone who cares, someone who wouldn't just throw him away?.
And, who would be alongside them?. Once he got to where he was going?.
Would she be there?, this sister he abandoned. Blitzo grimaces clutching his chest. Barbie-wire was his fierce protector always there, always by his side. Now a recovering addict in rehab.
She was always able to stand up to their father, never taking shit from him. Now, she was selling her body for a quick fix, getting high and forgetting for awhile.
Forgetting that her twin was in a disheveled hospital with a sadistic lunatic.
Did she hate him?.
"of course she hates you, you fucking Moran! You weren't there for her, you and Fizz went off and did your own thing."
"Never knowing what could've been, I would've traded, give away all the words that I saved in my heart I left unspoken, what hurts the most was being so close and having so much to say, and then watching you walk away.