"YOU WHAT?!" Charlie yelled.
"Charlie. Please help me." Dean begged.
"Oh my god, okay uhhh let's get you to the hospital."
Once in Charlie's car she booked it for the hospital while Dean curled in on himself as much as possible. "Need to call Cas."
"I'll call him when we get there." Charlie promised. They pulled into the emergency room parking lot and Charlie had to help Dean walk in he was in so much pain.
A nurse ran up as soon as she saw them. "What's wrong?"
"Uh possible miscarriage. Charlie explained.
"Okay, are you with him?" the nurse asked.
"I'm his best friend."
"Alright, I'm sorry honey but only his mate or family can come back with him at the moment."
"Okay, I-I'm going to call his mate."
"Thanks… Charlie." Dean panted.
She grabbed her phone and pulled up Cas' name and hit call. No answer. "SHIT!" Charlie hit call again, again no answer. "Fuck okay what precinct is at again?"
Charlie looked up the number and hit call. "Officer Erickson how can I help you?"
"Hi, I'm looking for officer Novak."
"Okay please hold while I transfer you."
What only took a few seconds seemed like it took ages. "This is officer Novak." Cas voice came through.
"Jesus Christ Castiel! Where's your fucking phone?!" Charlie practically yelled.
"It's in my desk on silent Charlie. What's wrong?"
"It's Dean. I just took him to the ER."
"WHAT?! What happened, I'm on my way."
"We think he's loosing the pup Cas… I'm so, so sorry." Charlie said letting the tears fall.
"What?" Cas gasped, "okay, I'll be there as soon as possible."
Charlie paced in front of the hospital while she waited for Cas.
A few minutes later she saw Cas come barreling through the parking lot and slid into parking space. He jumped out of his car only to get his boot caught on something and not wanting to waste time untangling himself he just kicked the boot off. If it were a different situation it would have been funny.
Charlie ran towards him and she could see he was debating about going back for the boot. "I'll get it! Just go!" Charlie yelled. Cas ran towards her and kissed her cheek quickly before running inside.
A nurse told Cas what room and he just ignored the odd look she gave him because of the missing shoe. He ran down the hall looking for the right room number. He pushed the door open and he saw Mary, still in her scrubs sitting next to Dean who was curled up on his side, his back to the door.
Mary noticed Cas come in and signed that Dean was sleeping. She got up and took Cas out of the room. "What happened?"
Mary gently cupped Cas' face. "I'm sorry honey. He lost the pup."
Cas felt like he was going to be sick. "What?… H-how?"
"We're not entirely sure. The pup just wasn't compatible… That's probably why Dean was so sick in the beginning." Mary explained, tears of her own spilling down her face.
Cas just stared blankly for a few minutes and allowed Mary to pull him into a hug. "How is he? Any permanent damage?"
"He's fine. Give it about 6 months or so and you can try again. I've already set up an appointment with Dr. Hansen, we all know what mental state he's going to be once he's awake."
All Cas could do was nod. "I'm going to go change and head home but if you need anything let me know." Mary hugged him one more time.
"Charlie is still out there. She has my shoe…"
Mary glanced down and just noticed the missing shoe, "I'll let Charlie through. Do you want me to get you some clothes or are you going to have to go back?"
"No, I'm off the rest of the day. Captain told me not to come back until Tuesday… Clothes would be great though. Shit, Henry!"
"Don't even worry. I'll pick him up. I already called Ellen and she picked him up from preschool."
"Thank you." With a heavy sigh Cas pushed the door open again and quietly took the chair Mary was sitting in.
"Oh Dean." Cas whispered and just sat there and looked at his tear stained face. Charlie poked her head in a few minutes later.
"Can I come in?" she whispered.
"Of course." Cas whispered back. He thanked her for the shoe and shoved it back on his foot. "Thank you for being with him today Charlie."
"So, did… Did.." Charlie stuttered.
"He lost it." Cas whispered. Charlie started crying.
"Cas. I'm so sorry." She sniffed.
Cas finally started crying, "me too Charlie. Me too."
"I should go.. Let me know if you need anything."
"I will. Thank you again Charlie."
Almost an hour later Mary and Sam walked in. "Is it normal for him to be sleeping this long?" Cas whispered after taking the bag of clothes.
"Yes. I'm sure he'll wake up soon. We're not staying I just wanted to drop those off. He should be able to go home tomorrow. Just call me and I'll have some food waiting." Cas nodded and gave them both a hug. Once they were out the door he went into the bathroom and changed real quick.
Dean could hear Cas talking but it was quiet. He saw Cas standing near the farthest window talking on his phone.
"No. I'm going to leave visitors up to him. Maybe once we get home mom… Ellen picked him up but Mary's going to keep him for the night… Uh huh, I will love you too." Cas shoved his phone back into his pocked and ran a hand down his face. He stood there and looked out the window for a few more minutes, unknowing that Dean was staring at him the whole time.
Once Cas did turn around he didn't notice Dean was awake until he was sat down next to him.
"Dean! How long have you been awake?!" Cas grabbed his hand and leaned forward.
Dean carefully slid his hand out of Cas', "'dunno. Few minutes."
"Why didn't you say anything?"
"You were busy."
Cas tried grabbing Dean's hand again but he moved them out of the way.
"Dean…" Cas sighed softly.
"How can you even look at me let alone touch me?"
"What? Dean, I love you why wouldn't I want to touch you or look at you?"
"I'm a failure Cas. I-I…" Dean started crying. He tried turning away but Cas stopped him. "I lost it." Dean sobbed and still tried to get out of Cas' arms.
Cas was crying as well. "Dean. It's not your fault! I don't blame you for this, no one does. We can always try again."
"Of course it's my fault Cas. I lost it, not you. I was supposed to take care of it and keep it healthy. I FAILED!" All Cas could do was hold him for now.
"You don't hate me?" Dean sniffed once he had calmed down.
"I could never hate you Dean. No matter what happens." Cas pulled back so he could see Dean's face.
"When can I go home?"
"Not until tomorrow."
"You'll stay with me?"
"Always." Cas kissed Dean's forehead.
"Don't quote Harry Potter at me." Dean grinned, which caused Cas to chuckle.
"No promises. Your mom did mention an appointment with Dr. Hansen. I think he's going to come down here and talk with you a bit. Are you okay if I run home and grab a few things or do you want me to stay?"
"Ugh. You can go home just bring me back my pillow and phone charger please."
"Of course."
Cas pulled into the driveway next to Mary's car. Once he was outside he could hear Henry's laughter coming from the backyard. He found Mary sitting on the edge of the pool with her feet hanging in and Sam tossing Henry in the air.
"Papa watch!" Henry yelled once Cas had been spotted.
"I'm watching." Henry swam up to Sam who counted to three and tossed Henry up out of the water and caught him before his head went under.
Henry let out a squeal and laughed which made Cas smile. "That was very cool… Mary, can I talk to you for a second?" Once he saw Mary get up he headed inside, dropping the bag that held his uniform onto the dinning room table.
"How is he?" Mary asked.
"As good as he can be I guess. He got pretty upset when he woke up. Dr. Hansen was with him when I left."
"Oh, that's good. Are you going back?"
"Yeah, I was wondering if it was possible to keep Henry over night. If not I can have my mom do it." Cas asked.
"Honey, I already have Sam and I's things here. I figured Dean would want you to stay."
"Thank you." Cas' voice cracking.
"Come here." Mary said softly and held her arms out. Sure Cas cried at the hospital but he held back for Dean. Now that he was in Mary's arms the dam broke. Mary let him cling to her shirt and cry, she rubbed her hand up and down his back and kept whispering that it was okay.
Taking a shaky breath, Cas stood back. "I need to talk to Henry."
"I already told him what happened. You go get your things and calm down a bit then you can talk to him." Mary said ushering Cas towards the stairs. He grabbed both his and Dean's chargers and their pillows, Cas decided to pack a small bag as well with clothes for tomorrow and their toothbrushes and toothpaste. He shoved the chargers in the bag and headed back down the stairs.
Henry came running up the stairs with his towel wrapped around him. "Papa! Gramma says we get to have a sleep over!"
"Yeah, you do buddy. Come here a sec." Cas said and crouched down. He took the corner of Henry's towel and wiped away a few beads of water running down Henry's face.
"So, Grandma told you about what happened today with daddy?"
"Yeah… She said that the baby was sick." Henry said in a small voice.
"It was. Daddy's okay though but the pup didn't make it." Cas said slowly.
"So I don't have a brudder or sister anymores?"
"No, I'm afraid not."
"Will I ever?" Henry sniffed.
"Someday." Cas smiled a little, "but daddy and I will be home tomorrow some time so I need you to be on your best behavior for grandma and uncle Sam. Can you do that for me?"
"Yes papa. Daddy can have my bear tonight."
"Are you sure?" Cas asked, knowing Henry slept with the teddy bear every night.
"Yeah I go get it." Henry ran into his room and came back out with the bear. "Here you go."
"Thank you, that was very nice of you. I know your daddy with appreciate it… Give me a hug goodbye." "I love you buddy."
"I love you too papa."
Cas had stopped at the Roadhouse to pick up the food Mary had called in. "Cas honey come back here." Ellen said once she saw him.
He just wanted to get the food and get back to Dean but he listed to Ellen. He followed her back to her office, "Sit." she ordered.
"Ellen, I just-"
"I said sit." Cas sat and snapped his mouth shut. She dug around in the bottom drawer of her desk and handed him a shot glass.
"Ellen."
"Shh." She poured half a shot of whiskey, "I know you can handle your liquor."
"You know I'm a cop. I can't." Cas started but Ellen just gave him the stink eye. Giving up, he took the shot and she threw a pack of mints at him next.
"I know you're probably sick of hearing this by now, but I'm so sorry sugar." She said pulling Cas into a hug.
"Thank you." Cas mumbled.
"Now. Take your food and get out of here. You give Dean my best."
"I will."
Back to the hospital he went.
