* Hey guys sorry for a late update, holidays and everything... Plus the Supernatural finale really fucked me up so I had to take a few days...
Dean came home after a long day of running errands, happy to have had the day to himself after Ellen offered to take care of Henry for a couple of days. He saw Cas' suburban in the drive way but he wasn't downstairs. As Dean got closer to their bedroom he could hear the shower running. "Cas! I'm home!" He yelled into the bathroom and then heard shushing and shampoo bottles falling to the ground. "Cas? You okay?" Dean asked and pushed the bathroom door open.
"Dean! I can explain!" Cas said quickly. Dean felt like all of the air had been sucked out of him. He couldn't believe his eyes, standing in the shower, hiding behind Cas was Amelia.
"I-I don't understand." Dean whispered.
"You're right. He isn't very smart." Amelia muttered and followed Cas out of the shower. "Can't you see you dumb slut? Cas doesn't love you anymore. He never has, it's always been me. Just because you're 'true mates' or what ever doesn't mean he's going to love you."
Dean sunk to the floor gasping for air. "Dean let me explain things." Cas said coming up to him.
"Don't you dare come near me. Fuck you. Fuck both of you!" he yelled. "You will never see Henry again, you hear me?!" Dean hauled himself off the floor and went to storm down the stairs when he tripped and fell head first.
Dean shot up in bed with a loud gasp and burst into tears. "Dean? What's wrong?" Cas asked sleepily and turned the lights on. Dean was now in a full anxiety attack and was clawing at his face trying to breath.
"Hey.. Shhh." Cas said scooting over so he could get Dean to stop clawing at his face.
"Don't! Don't touch me!" Dean yelled then proceeded to fall off the bed.
"Dean! Are you alright?!"
"Don't touch me! Get away from me!"
Charlie came running into the room, "what the hell is going on in here!?"
"He woke up and went straight into an anxiety attack. I don't know why." Cas explained.
"Well, he's yelling loud enough Henry's in my room crying because he thinks Dean's hurt." Charlie said.
"Okay, I'll go get him, can you try and get Dean to calm down?" Cas asked.
"Sure."
"Hey." Charlie said softly crouching in front of him. Dean was now in a fetal position against the wall, rocking back and forth. "What's going on?" She asked and gently grabbed onto his arms and pulled them away from his knees and started rubbing his hands. Dean flinched but didn't try to pull away. He stopped rocking and his breathing slowed down. "That's it. Slow deep breaths."
"Charlie?" Dean whispered.
"Yeah buddy. I'm here." Charlie said softly and moved closer, "what's going on?"
"Where's Cas?"
"With Henry… You were yelling pretty loud and he got scared."
"Fuck." Dean sighed then thumped his head against the wall.
"Hey, it's not your fault. Do you want to tell me what made you wake up and go into an attack?"
"Just a bad dream… Can you get Cas?"
"Sure, do you need anything else?"
"Some water if you don't mind?"
"Coming right up." Charlie said and kissed his forehead before going to get Cas. "He wants you Cas."
"Is daddy okay?" Henry whimpered.
"He's okay he just had a bad dream." Cas told him.
"I wanna see daddy." Henry whined.
"I'm going to go get a bottle of water for Dean, I'll put Henry back to bed after if needed."
Henry ran down the hall and into the bedroom, "daddy?"
"Over here." Dean called out and quickly wiped tears off his face.
Henry rounded the bed and stood back and did a head tilt just like Cas does. "Why you on the floor daddy?"
"I was silly and fell off the bed. Come here." Dean said holding out his arms. Henry ran over and fell into Dean's lap. "I'm sorry I scared you. I just had a really bad dream.
"Is you okay now?"
"Much better, you know why?" Dean asked holding Henry closer.
"Why?"
"Because of you Henry James." Dean whispered.
"Me?"
"Yes you. I love you so much and you make me so happy. So, you coming to check on me made me so much better." Dean explained. "But now, I need you to go back to sleep, so daddy can go back to sleep."
"Ok daddy. I love you." Henry said and gave Dean a big hug.
"I love you more." Dean kissed Henry's cheek and sent him off with Charlie, who was standing in the door way. She handed Cas the water bottle and took Henry's hand.
Cas got Dean back on the bed and waited until Dean was ready to talk. He ended up chugging half the bottle of water before clearing his throat and talking.
"She's in my fucking dreams now Cas."
"Amelia?"
"Yeah." Dean let out a watery chuckle.
"What happened in the dream?" Cas asked, continuing to give Dean his space.
Taking a deep breath, Dean continued. "I walked into the house… Went up the stairs… And… You were in the shower. With her."
"Oh, Dean." Cas whispered and took the chance on scooting closer.
"She said you never loved me and that you loved her."
"You know that's not true." Cas told him.
"No, I know. I just was still in my dream I guess when I woke up and you tried touching me. I was yelling at you in my dream… Told you you'd never see Henry again and when I went to leave I fell down the stairs. That's when I woke up." Dean curled into Cas and let him rub his back.
"I'm sorry. I wish I could make everything go away." Cas whispered. Dean didn't say anything, he just got up to use the bathroom then crawled under the covers and snuggled up to Cas.
Naturally, Dean tossed and turned the rest of the night so his heart almost leaped out of his chest when the alarm went off. "Stay here. I'll get Henry ready." Cas whispered.
"No, it's okay. I want to see him before he leaves." Dean slid out of bed and went into the bathroom.
"Did you sleep at all?" Cas asked following him.
"No. Not really. I'm sorry if I kept you up."
"I should be the sorry one. I should have stayed up with you."
"Cas. It's fine really. Once of us needs to be coherent when we take Henry to Ellen's." They brushed their teeth and got dressed before getting Henry ready.
"I'll go makes some coffee." Cas told him.
Dean quietly walked into Henry's room and started getting clothes packed and laid out. "Henry, time to wake up baby." Dean said softly and brushed the hair off Henry's face. Henry scrunched up his nose and opened one eye. "Hey sleepy head. Time to get up." Dean smiled.
"No." Henry whined and tried rolling over.
"I don't think so." Dean chuckled and stopped Henry from turning away. "You're going to go stay with Uncle Bobby and and Aunt Ellen for a few days. Isn't that exciting?"
"You too?" Henry asked.
"No bud, just you. Aunt Ellen wasn't special Henry time." Dean decided to pick Henry up since he was much like his daddy and papa and isn't a morning person. He carried him to the bathroom and got Henry to go potty before washing his hands and brushing his teeth.
"Hey Dean?" Charlie called out.
"Henry's room!"
"Nooo I nakey!" Henry panicked when Charlie walked in.
"I'm sorry! I won't look I promise!" Charlie said and covered her eyes.
"What's up Charlie?" Dean asked while helping Henry into his underwear and pants.
"I just wanted to give you a heads up that I'll be at the library most of the day today. I've got a pretty big exam to study for."
"Oh, okay. You know you can stay here right? It'll be quiet since Henry won't be here."
"I know but there's a few books I don't have that I need."
"Okay, well good luck studying." Dean told her while helping Henry put his shoes on. "There. Go downstairs so papa can get you some breakfast." Dean said and finished packing Henry's things making sure to pack his favorite stuffed animal.
He found Cas and Henry in the kitchen eating scrambled eggs and bacon. Dean stole a piece of bacon off Cas' plate. "Hey. Your plate is by the stove back off." Cas huffed. They ate their breakfast and while Dean washed up dishes Cas got Henry cleaned up.
"You ready big guy?" Cas asked once everything was cleaned up.
"Yuh." Henry nodded and let Cas help him off the island chair.
"Go get your jacket on." Cas instructed. Henry ran off and Cas threw the rag he used to clean Henry's hands and face into the laundry room. Dean set up the last dish to dry and drained the water.
"Let's go. I want to stop by the mall real quick and get some paint supplies and a new sketch book."
Dean had 2 sketchbooks a set of new pencils and some paint when he found Cas looking at canvases. "Gonna do some painting of your own?" Dean smirked.
"No." Cas chuckled, "I was just looking at all the different sizes and types of canvases."
"Well, don't hurt yourself Picasso." Dean laughed, "grab a couple for me would you?"
"Which ones?"
"Those are fine." Dean said pointing towards a pack of 10 with different sized canvases. Cas grabbed two packs and followed Dean up to the register.
"Let's take these out to the car then we'll do some more shopping if you want." Cas suggested.
"Okay, I know Henry is needing some new pants and shoes." Dean said and fished the impala keys out of his pocket.
They just unloaded the impala when Cas' phone rang. "Hello?"
"Hi honey." Naomi greeted.
"Oh, hi mom."
"I'm back from my business trip and I'd love to see you guys and see how Henry is."
"Well, Henry is staying with Bobby and Ellen for a couple days just to give Dean and I a little break but we could still do dinner or something."
"Oh! Well, would you and Dean like to come over for dinner tonight?"
"I'll talk to Dean and call you back."
"That's fine. Talk to you later." Naomi said and hung up.
Cas found Dean upstairs setting up a canvas on his easel. "Mom wants to know if we would want to go to her place for dinner tonight?"
"Am I a bad person if I say no? We finally get the house to ourselves and Charlie's going to be out for who knows how long… I just want some me and you time." Dean said.
"I want that too. We could try for tomorrow if you're up for it." Cas suggested.
"That would be much better."
"Alright I'll call mom back and work it out."
