Happy Mistakes
This chapter is base on the song, Where Do We Go? By Lindsey Stirling feat. Carah Faye. I'd suggest you go give it a listen. This chapter is especially inspired by the line, where do we go, when our prayers are answered, but the answer is no.
Chapter 12: Where Do We Go
Kyle looked himself over in his bathroom mirror. He hardly recognized himself anymore. Staring back at him was a complete stranger. Dull green eyes stared back at him through a haze of sorrow.
Kyle felt a hand on his shoulder. He looked up at a nurse. She gave him a small smile. She knelt down beside him.
"Is your family in the waiting room?" She asked. He nodded his head.
"Are Lilly and Sophie gonna be ok?" Kyle asked as she stood up. She offered him a hand.
"I'm not sure, the doctor is doing all he can for them right now. All we can do is wait and hope for the best," she said.
He didn't like that answer. He took her hand and heaved himself up. Rushed footsteps were heard. He turned and Kendall, and Logan ran down the hallway.
"Kyle," Kendall said.
"What's going on, one of the nurses said..." Logan trailed off.
"I don't know what's happening," Kyle said looking to the other nurse.
She turned to Logan with a smile, "Dr. Mitchell, Dr. Markov is doing everything he can." She started to throw out medical terms that Kyle didn't quite understand. He stood there waiting for someone to tell him what was going on.
A knock on the door made him jump. He turned as the door opened. Jared entered the bathroom. He looked a little more lively than Kyle, but not by much.
"I thought you were taking a shower?" Jared questioned.
Kyle glanced over to the shower and back to his boyfriend. He shrugged and turned back to the mirror.
"I know you're hurting, but you've gotta take care of yourself. You can't miss anymore school. Your dads will kill me," Jared said walking over to the shower. He turned it on and turned back to Kyle.
"I'm sorry," Kyle mumbled.
"I'm hurting too you know," Jared replied slowly.
Kyle walked over to him and pulled the older male into a hug. With everything that had been going on, Kyle had forgotten he wasn't the only one hurting. He had been selfish. Jared was just as involved as he was. It was his loss too, not just his.
Jared took a step back. Kyle noticed how tired he looked. His eyes held a similar dullness to his eye. The bags under his eyes reflected the loss of sleep they had. Jared looked as tired as Kyle felt.
"Take a shower and get ready for school. I'll go make sure the girls are ready and they asked if you can bring them to school today. I'll do it if you don't want to," Jared said softly.
"I can, just let me shower," Kyle replied.
Jared nodded his head. He turned and left without another word.
Kyle sighed and took a shower. He dressed quickly. He gave himself a once over in the mirror. He gave a sigh before he plastered a fake smile on his face. He knew it wouldn't fool Jared or Roldy, but the girls might buy it. That was all that mattered. He had to fake it for now.
He exited the bathroom and headed to Jared's room to grab his backpack. He opened it and checked to make sure he had all his books. He heard a rattle from the front pocket. He paused for a moment. He opened the pocket and pulled out a small pill bottle of Adderall. He remember he had gotten it from a friend awhile back. He had forgotten all about it. He opened the bottle and dropped a pill into his hand. He looked at it for a moment. It wouldn't solve all his problems, but maybe it would give him some energy to get through the day.
"This is wrong." He told himself. At the same time, he was curious. Would it give him the focus he needed to keep his mind on school and away from other things?
-Happy Mistakes-
Jared watched as Noah and Matt bickered for once. Normally they were trying to stop him and Roldy from strangling one another.
Kendall had left the room a few minutes ago to take a phone call. All chaos broke out after that. Matt had asked Noah about the possibility of a bachelor party and Noah lost his shit. He didn't want one, and Matt was trying to convince him.
Jared sat back, letting them argue. His mind was elsewhere. He was thinking back to what had happened in the hospital.
Jared rounded the corner quickly. He had abandoned his lawyer and Jace, when. He got Kendall's phone call about the baby. He had rushed to the hospital. He spotted Kyle, hugging Layla. Kendall and Logan were talking to each other. They all looked a little distressed.
"Kyle?"
Kyle looked up. Layla took a step back and allowed Kyle to run to Jared. Kyle threw his arms around Jared in a hug.
"What's going on? Is everything alright?" Jared asked confused.
"I don't know," Kyle admitted. "The baby was in distress and they rushed Lilly to surgery. Everything seemed good, until the baby was born. She didn't cry Jer, they took her away and something happened to Lilly. They said she was bleeding too much. They rushed me out after that," he explained.
Jared just stood there a moment. He pulled Kyle tighter to him. "They're gonna be ok."
"I'm not so sure," Kyle mumbled glancing at Logan. "Even he's worried. That's not a good sign."
Jared looked over at Kendall and Logan. He could see how worried Logan was, Kyle was right. Now wasn't the time for panicking. Everything was going to be alright.
He pulled Kyle to him in a hug. There was nothing more he could do. They just had to wait.
"Is this how we sound when we argue?" Roldy asked lowly. Jared turned to his friend confused before it clicked. He was talking about Noah and Matt.
"Nah, we sound smarter," Jared laughed. Noah and Matt turned to face the two.
"Ro, tell him I'm right!" Noah demanded.
"Jared, he's delusional right?" Matt asked.
Jared and Roldy's hands shot up as they both shook their heads.
"Leave me out of this," Jared said.
"You two gotta duke it out," Roldy said.
"This is nuts," Noah said shaking his head.
"Noah you're overreacting," Matt sighed. "We just want a small get together. It's not like we are gonna paint the town red and get blackout drunk."
"Yeah No, calm down and hear him out," Jared signed.
"Roldy!" Noah whined.
"It won't be that bad," Roldy said.
"Oh my god you're all ganging up on me, this isn't fair," Noah said.
Roldy jumped up from his spot on the couch. He walked over to his fiancé. He placed his hands on his shoulders. "Relax Noah, they've convinced me. It's not going to be something you'll hate. Trust us."
"Yeah, a small group of friends, at Tim's house which he graciously offered for the night. We will hang out, have fun, and play video games all night if you want. We just want one more night with the four of us not being married," Jared said.
"Yeah, like the good old times," Matt said.
The room fell silent as Noah thought it over. He seemed to have been swayed.
"When did we get so old?" Roldy asked breaking the silence. They all started laughing and Noah sighed.
"Fine I'm in, but-" he started.
"No strippers," Jared and Matt chimed together.
"Why do I feel like you guys are lying?" Noah asked.
"We're not," Matt said.
"Maybe just a little," Jared said pinching his fingers together wth a grin.
-Happy Mistakes-
Kendall leaned against the wall in his office, his phone in his hand. He had just gotten a phone call from Carlos. Carlos wanted to talk, and Kendall didn't. Carlos was upset, and he had every right to be.
Kendall watched as Logan paced back and forth. They had been waiting for news on the baby and Lilly for almost an hour. Kyle had suggested they go to the waiting room. Everyone has settled in and fell silent. James arrived not long after. Kendall filled him in, and everyone sat in a tense silence.
"Where's Carlos?" James asked.
Logan paused his pacing to look at him confused. Everyone looked at him for a moment. Layla shrieked and jumped up.
"Oh my god!" She hastily tried to dig his phone from her pocket. It fell to the floor with a clatter. "I forgot."
Kyle jumped up and picked up her phone. He looked at her. "It's ok Lay."
"No she asked me to do one thing and I completely forgot," Layla cried snatching her phone back. She started to frantically look through her contacts.
"Layla," Logan said waking up to her. She ignored him. "Layla." He tried again. No response. "Mija."
Layla froze and looked up at him, tears brimming in her eyes. "I'm sorry. I forgot. I was supposed to call him and I forgot."
Logan pulled her into a hug. "está bien mija." He said softly. "Don't worry, I'll call him."
Kendall watched the two for a moment. He could only imagine what Layla was going through. They were all worried.
Kendall sighed once more. He felt bad about the whole situation. There was nothing he could do to make it up to Carlos.
He pushed himself away from the wall. He grabbed his coat and exited the office. He found the guys and gave them the rest of the day off. Jared looked at him suspiciously, but didn't say a word. Kendall left the building with one destination in mind.
-Happy Mistakes-
Miles watched Kyle cautiously. Kyle Had shown up to school today and something was off. He seemed to have a little extra pep in his step, and was forcing himself to smile. Miles knew better though. This was all for show. He knew Kyle was hurting, no matter how much he denied it. Miles was waiting for the inevitable breakdown Kyle was going to have. He would be there to help him through it, like he always did.
Miles rushed down the hallway with Leora and Lucas behind him. He had called Kyle trying to invite him to a movie with them, but Kyle said he was at the hospital and he couldn't talk. The three had deduced that meant the baby was being born. From the tone of Kyle's voice, Miles knew something was off.
Miles slowed to a fast paced walk as they rounded the corner. They saw Kyle standing in the hallway with Kendall, James, and Jared. They were all talking in low voices.
"What's going on?" Miles asked as they all approached the four cautiously. Kyle looked at them, but Kendall held a hand up. He walked over to the two.
"Kendall is something wrong?" Lucas asked.
"Yeah, something is wrong," Kendall said slowly.
"Is Lilly ok?" Miles asked.
"Lilly is gonna be ok," Kendall said slowly.
Leora face fell as she looked to Kyle. She pushed past Kendall and ran to her brother, throwing her arms around him. Miles and Lucas stood there and let the words Kendall didn't say sink in.
"What? Do I got something on my face?" Kyle asked arching a brow at him.
"Huh?" Miles asked.
"You're staring at me," Kyle replied.
"Sorry, just thinking." Miles shrugged.
"Don't hurt yourself now," Kyle joked. He gave Miles a playful shove.
"Rude," Miles glared at his friend. He opened his mouth and Kyle cut him off.
"Don't ask how I'm doing, my answer hasn't changed," Kyle said quickly, "can we just pretend to be normal for a little while."
"We're not normal," Miles replied. Kyle smiled at that. He looked around the cafeteria. He glance at his phone for the time. "Have you see Lu?"
"No, I was starting to wonder where he was," Kyle said slowly.
"Kyle! Miles!"
The pair looked up as Leora ran up to them. She looked panicked. She had her phone in her hand.
"What's up Le?" Kyle asked.
"Have you guys seen Lucas?" She asked pulling something up on her phone.
She shoved it into Kyle's hands. He looked down at a video. It was of a few of the football jocks laughing and pointing at something. It looked like mangled up metal. Upon closer inspection Kyle noticed it was a prosthetic leg.
"Layla sent me this. Have you seen Lucas?" Leora asked.
"No, but I know he has gym before lunch," Miles said jumping up.
"Don't you have gym with him?" Kyle asked following after him.
"He was slow and told me to go. He would catch up," Miles said quickly.
"What if he's hurt?" Leora asked quickly.
The headed straight to the locker room. The headed to Lucas' locker, which was open and tore apart.
They heard the one of the showers on. Miles looked to Kyle. They shared a look. They both knew where Lucas was.
"Le stay here," Kyle said. Him and Miles headed to the showers. Leora followed, covering her eyes just in case.
Lucas was sitting under a shower head that was on. He was fully clothed, and his prosthetic was gone.
"Lu," Miles said. He rushed over, with Kyle right behind him. Kyle turned the shower off.
"Le grab a towel," Kyle said.
"What happened?" Miles asked.
"Are you ok?" Leora asked handing him a towel.
"I'm fine, mostly," Lucas said looking to his leg. "Tragger and his buddies cornered me. Apparently he blamed me because he failed his math test."
Kyle and Miles helped him up. Lucas used Kyle to lean on.
"Care to elaborate?" Miles asked as they walked him to his locker.
"Well I caught him trying to cheat off of me, so I gave wrong answers. He turned his test in first and I changed my answers," Lucas shrugged.
"Lucas," Leora said slowly.
"What did they do to it? I know you guys know, how else would you know I was here," Lucas asked as Kyle and Miles helped him sit on the bench.
"They ran it over," Leora said slowly. She handed her phone to Lucas. He watched the video, his expression neutral.
"Lucas-" Kyle started.
"Miss Knight, this is the boys locker room," Coach Kegan said as he entered the locker room.
"Coach it's not what you think," Kyle said quickly, "she was helping up. Some of the football players attacked Lucas!" He said.
"What?" Coach said looking to Lucas. Leora showed him the video. His face fell and anger showed. "Lucas what happened?"
"I stood up to Harry Tragger and he's had it out for me ever since, they took my prosthetic and left me in the shower unable to get up," Lucas said pointing to his leg.
"We are going to the principal. Tell me who did this and I will round them up while you change. Those boys will pay," Coach said.
"Whoa go coach," Kyle said.
"This is appalling and something will be done, start quarterback or not this is unacceptable," Coach said.
"It was Tragger, Jerry Harper, Frankie Jones, and Steve Keller," Lucas said looking down at the ground.
"Get changed son and meet me in the principal's office," Coach said. We turned and left the locker room.
Lucas nodded his head and looked to Leora.
"I'll leave, just keep me updated," She said quickly.
Kyle nodded his head. She quickly left, with her phone in her hands texting someone no doubt.
"We won't let them get away with they Lu," Miles said turning towards his own locker. "I think I got a spare pair of jeans you can wear."
"I know they won't. My mom won't let this go," Lucas said quickly.
"Isn't she a lawyer?" Kyle asked.
"Yep, and she won't be afraid to press charges," Lucas said with a grin.
"Good, I won't let this go either," Kyle said, "those guys need to be taught a lesson."
"Kyle-" Lucas started slowly.
"I might as well use my celebrity for good," Kyle replied.
"I'm not a charity case," Lucas said quickly.
"No, but those jerks need to pay Lu, what better way than to publicly shame them," Miles said.
"I didn't hear any of this. I didn't know and I couldn't have stopped you if I did. Don't forget my mom is lawyer," Lucas said putting his hands up.
-Happy Mistakes-
Lilly yawned as she tried to focus on the TV. Daytime television wasn't enough to keep her focus for long. Her mind started to wander.
Lilly was laying facing away from the door and away from Logan and Carlos. The room was silent. No one knew what to say. Logan had been allowed in as soon as she had woken up. He explained everything to her. It wasn't long after that, that Carlos had shown up. The three had shared tearful hugs.
"Where's Layla?" Lilly asked finally. She had forgotten all about her coming along.
"The waiting room, did you want me to go get her," Carlos asked.
Lilly opened her mouth to speak, but was cut off by the door opening. Leora appeared in the doorway. She took one look at Lilly and crossed the room. She sat on the edge of the bed. The two girls clung to one another. Logan and Carlos left, mentioning something about Layla.
"Le-" Lilly started. She couldn't say anything as sobs over took her.
"Sh, it's ok," Leora said hugging her tight.
"Can I tell you something?" Lilly asked after a moment. Leora sat back and looked at her questioningly. "I had changed my mind."
"What?" Leora asked confused.
"I changed my mind and all week I've been trying to think of a way to talk to Kyle and Jared," Lilly said looking down at her hands.
"Oh Lil," Leora said a hand flying to her mouth.
"Now I'll never get the chance to meet my daughter," Lilly said lowly.
Leora threw her arms around her again. They both say there. Lilly hadn't told anyone she had changed her mind. It didn't matter anymore.
"Lilly?"
Lilly jumped and looked over at Carlos sheepishly. She hadn't even heard him come in. She had been so absorbed in her own thoughts. Carlos crossed the room and sat down next to her.
"Papi, I'm sorry I was just..." Lilly started.
"It's ok Mija," Carlos said smiling softly at her. "I just wanted to come see how you were doing."
"I'm doing good," Lilly lied.
"Are you?" Carlos asked.
Lilly nodded her head. She didn't really want to talk about the baby. She just wanted to move on with her life.
"So when is your campus tour? Did you want me or your dad to come with?" Carlos asked changing the subject.
"Huh?" Lilly asked.
"Berkeley, when is your freshman orientation?" Carlos asked.
"Oh, it's first week of December, I'd like it if you could come with," Lilly said.
She had forgotten all about college. Months ago she had been counting down the days until she left. Now that it was only a couple months away, she was scared. She wasn't sure if this was the best idea.
"I know it's fast mija, but you'll like it. I think you should give it a try. One semester and if you don't like it, you can always transfer closer," Carlos said.
"Thanks papi, you always know how to make me feel better," Lilly said with a smile. She hugged him with a smile. Her first real smile in almost two weeks.
-Happy Mistakes-
Jared quickly made his way up to 2J with Roldy and Noah. They were all talking about the possibility of another tour this coming summer. Kendall wanted them to get out and promote their album, but he also wanted to give Noah and Roldy enough time to enjoy the newlywed phase of their marriage.
The three entered the apartment. They were greeted with the smell of food cooking. Spaghetti by the smell of it. Jill and Carly were sitting at the table with their homework out. Kyle was at the stove cooking.
"Ok Jill next question," Kyle said.
"How long was the hundred year war?" Jill asked.
"A hundred years," Carly said quickly.
"Nope, it's a trick question, come on Jill, what's it say in your book?" Kyle asked.
"I'm looking," Jill said quickly. She was scanning her book for the answer.
"What's going on here?" Jared asked making himself know to the three. They all smiles as they looked at Jared.
"We are doing our homework," Carly explained.
"All of us," Kyle said pointing to his own work on the counter. "I'm also making supper, it'll be ready soon."
"It was a hundred and sixteen years," Jill said triumphantly.
"There you go, what was the war about?" Kyle asked.
"The French throne I think," Jill said turning back to her book.
"What's gotten into you?" Jared asked walking into the kitchen. Noah was right behind him taking a peek at the food.
"I just need to keep myself busy," Kyle said walking over to Noah and shooing him away. "Just wait it's not done yet." Noah grinned and put his hands up.
"Alright girls let's put a hold on the homework. We can finish later," Kyle said. The girls nodded and started to pack up their stuff.
"Guys can you set the table? We are just waiting on the garlic bread," Kyle said turning to his own homework.
The girls ran to their room, to put their things away. Jared and Roldy started setting the table. Noah pestered Kyle about the food.
"Noah you can wait five more minutes, I can't make it cook any faster," Kyle scolded the older man.
"But Kyle-" Noah started.
"No buts, help set the table," Kyle cut him off. Noah pouted, but helped finish setting the table.
Jared helped Kyle move the food to the table. Once everything was set everyone sat down to eat. Conversation was light. Jared could tell something was different with Kyle. He was finally done moping, but they still needed to talk.
-Happy Mistakes-
James frowned as he looked around the living room. He had cleaned it twice since he had arrived home, and something still seemed off. Something was out of place. He knew it didn't matter anyways. As soon as Marcie arrived back with the kids, the girls would destroy everything.
He had been trying to distract himself. All he could think about was Kyle and the baby. He was worried about Kyle. He hadn't seen his son in almost two weeks. Jared kept them updated though.
James shivered as the wind picked up. He was standing outside the hospital with Kendall, Logan, and Carlos. They were all standing together, not saying a word. None of them knew what to say. This was a situation they hadn't been in before.
"I just don't understand, the baby was fine two days ago," Carlos said finally.
"These things happen," Logan said slowly. Almost as if he was on auto pilot.
"How? I mean, how could she not know? Why? I just-" Carlos started.
"Carlos, we don't know," Kendall cut the rambling Latino off. Carlos looked to Kendall, almost as if he had forgotten that he was even here.
"I'm sorry," Carlos said his gaze turning towards the ground.
"You're hurting, I get it Carlos, we all are," Logan said slowly. "The truth is we may never know what went wrong. These thugs happen. A lot of the time it seemingly happens for no reason."
"I can't imagine what Kyle and Lilly are going through," Kendall said shaking his head.
"Jared too," Logan added.
"Why didn't you call me sooner?" Carlos asked.
"Everything happened so fast, one minute everything was fine and the next it all fell apart. My worry was about Lilly. I'm so sorry," Logan said.
"We are all sorry Carlos," Kendall said.
James watched the exchange between the three. He didn't know what to say to make this situation any better. There was nothing any of them could say that would make this better.
"I'm not mad," Carlos said to Logan, "I just wish you would've called me." Carlos turned and walked away. Logan chased after him apologizing repeatedly. Kendall turned to James.
"You've been awful quiet," Kendall said.
"What is there to say?" James asked with a shrug.
"I don't know," Kendall replied helplessly. He grabbed James and pulled him into his arms. He pressed his face into James' shoulder. James wrapped his arms around Kendall. As much as they were hurting, he couldn't fathom how Kyle felt.
"James?"
James turned around. Marcie was standing in the doorway. She looked surprised to see him. She had Kenny in her arms and Miri and Jenny squeezed past her to run to the toy box.
"I wasn't expecting you home so early. I was gonna clean up," Marcie said wholly.
"I got off work early," James said smiling at his grandson. He held his arms out and Kenny leaned over towards him. "It's no problem. Miri and Jenny are destruction right now. Cleaning is moot." He looked over to the girls. They had already pulled everything back out of the toy box.
"Well the girls had their snack and their walk. I'm sure they'll lay down for a nap," Marcie said.
"I can handle it, I think," James said slowly. "Why don't you take the rest of the afternoon off."
"Ok, Miri is still recovering from her cold. Her meds are in diaper bag," Marcie said, "Kenny has been a bit warm today too. Let Adam know to keep an eye on him."
"Thanks," James said nodding his head.
"Ok, I guess I'll see you tomorrow then," Marcie said gathering her things. "Bye Jenny. Bye Miri."
The girls turned to Marcie. They ran over to her and gave her hugs. Marcie gave Kenny a quick hug too. James smiled as he watched her. She was good with the kids. She had been a lucky find.
"What?" Marcie asked.
"You're amazing with the girls. I am just glad you decided to be our nanny," James said.
"Yeah, it was either this or a weekend only job. I am so happy I took this job. I really care about these three, and in sure I'll care for Eli as soon as Jake's ready too," Marcie said.
"You are a godsend," James said grinning.
Marcie thanked him once again. She gave the girls one last hug before she left. James turned to the girls. He caught Miri yawning. Jenny wasn't far behind.
He managed to corral the girls upstairs to Jenny's room. He got both girls into the bed and had Kenny in the playpen. He sat down to read the girls a nap time story. It wasn't long before they fell asleep. He sat there watching them sleep. It was nice to have a quiet moment.
-Happy Mistakes-
Adam made his way into the house. He called out for James. He was surprised to see his car outside and not Marcie or Kendall's. He headed to the living room. He frowned when he didn't see anyone. He checked the kitchen, before heading upstairs.
He poked his head in Jenny's room. Miri and Jenny were passed out in Jenny's bed. James was asleep in the rocking chair next to the bed. Kenny was in the playpen silently playing with his feet. He seemed content.
Adam stood there a moment. He knew that James had been upset about Kyle losing the baby, an Kyle not coming home. He almost didn't want to wake him up. He crossed the room to James.
"Pops," he said touching his shoulder. James stirred and looked up at him. He blinked a few times confused.
"Have a nice nap?" Adam asked as he turned to his son, who had become aware of his presence.
"I didn't even realize I fell asleep," James said groggily. He yawned as e sat up. "What time is it?"
"Six, dad should be here soon," Adam said as he picked Kenny up.
"I guess I was tired," James said as he heaved himself up. He looked down at the girls, who were still sleeping.
"Haven't been sleeping well?" Adam asked knowing he hadn't. Leora had been telling him that things were tense at home.
"Not lately," James replied.
"What time did you get home?" Adam asked changing the subject.
"Bout four," James said as he leaned over Jenny's bed. He gently nudged Miri's shoulder. "Miri, papa's here."
Miri whined as she turned away from him. She didn't want to wake up. Adam smiled and cleared his throat.
"I guess I'll just take Kenny home and leave Miri here," Adam said loudly. That seemed to do the trick. She turned around and looked at Adam. She bumped Jenny in her scramble to get out of bed. James picked up the yawning blonde girl.
"Hi baby," Adam said smiling as he knelt down carefully to accept her hug.
"Marcie said Miri's doing great, but Kenny's been a little warm all day," James said.
"He's probably getting what Miri had," Adam sighed.
The two made their way down stairs with the kids in tow. They entered the living room, where the girls ran to grab their toys. Adam sat down with Kenny in his lap. James room a seat in the recliner.
"So how are things going? I feel like we never get to see you or Cooper anymore. It just drop the kids off and pick them up," James said.
"I know we've been busy," Adam said. "Sorry for blowing off that dinner too, we just have so much going on. Maybe we can get together for thanksgiving. The whole family."
"If Kyle ever comes home," James said bitterly. His eyes went wide as w realized what he had said. "I mean-"
"I know pops, but he's coping with this too. It's hard for all of us," Adam said, "we were all looking forward to meeting her and now we can't. It's left a hole in all of us."
James sighed and nodded his head. "Things have been-I don't know."
"Is now a bad time?"
Adam and James turned to face the doorway. Kyle was standing there. Jenny and Miri both jumped up and ran over to Kyle shouting, 'Ky!'
"How long have you been standing there?" James asked standing up.
"Look pops I'm sorry I haven't really left the apartment in almost two weeks-" Kyle started.
"You have nothing to be sorry about Kyle," James said pulling his youngest son into a hug. "I-I didn't mean it like that. I just miss you. I want to help you."
"I know pops," Kyle said slowly. He looked to Adam. He walked into the living room.
"Hi Kyle, I was just picking up my kids and going. Pops we will see you soon," Adam said as e gathered his kids and their stuff. "If you wanna talk, I'm here for you."
"Thanks Adam-" Kyle started as he sunk into the couch.
"It's happened to me too, I mean I wasn't that far along, but it still hurts," Adam said.
"I know," Kyle said nodding his head.
"You're not alone Kyle, we all wanna help you," James said taking a seat on the couch next to his son.
"I know, and I've been a real pain lately, I just...I shut myself off from everyone and I forgot we are all hurting from this. I mean I haven't even gone to visit Lilly," Kyle said his voice rising as he talked.
"Kyle, it's ok," James said.
"No it's not," Kyle snapped. "She almost died and all I can do is hide myself away from everyone. I am such a jerk. I-"
"You're grieving," Adam said cutting off his rant. "If I were you I'd make Lilly your next stop."
"I know, I just...what do I even say," Kyle asked.
"It's Lilly, I'm sure you'll figure it out," Adam said. "I gotta go, Coop is probably starting to get worried that I'm dead in a ditch somewhere," he sighed. Kyle cracked a smile at that.
So there you go another chapter done. I know you all probably wanna kill me right now, but I've got plans.
How will Kyle learn a better way to cope with his loss? Will Jared get him to talk? Will Lilly tell Kyle that she had changed her mind? Will she leave for college? Will the Knights and Mitchell's move on from this loss? Will Lucas get justice? Did Kyle take the pills?
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