Wraith's Log - Entry 17
"I am recording this en route to the Dominance as I leave behind a... most head-spinning experience. I had no idea my little 'pitstop' on a seemingly innocuous moon would result in such an eye-opening experience."
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"I got to have some prolonged conversations with Ahsoka. Given how we were mostly alone, I found her opening up to me in ways I never thought she would, revealing things so private and personal that I had never known about before. She... She's been traumatized by this war. The things she's seen and witnessed first-hand..."
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"She's been cutting herself. She says it's a way to deal with the pain she feels concerning Clones who die under her command. It gets to be all-consuming and reaches a point where she needs an outlet, a means to take her mind off the crippling thoughts that oppress her. But why more pain? Why such scarring, addicting pain? Why trade one pain for another?"
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"I can't fathom it."
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"It makes me wonder about what other things she has witnessed. She told me about a squadron that was decimated within moments. What other circumstances has she... has she suffered...?"
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*groan* "Oh Force... Oh Force almighty...!"
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*sigh* "How many of them were caused by my hand? How badly have I traumatized her?!"
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"It... It breaks my heart." *deep breath* "Not because she's imperfect, but because I've been too busy putting her up on my own little pedestal to realize that she's got her own issues. I was a fool to think her to be so flawless. And I don't mean that negatively.
"I'm not mad at her... I'm mad at myself for making her out to be so perfect without even thinking that she might have her own issues that she's struggling with."
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"To make matters worse, she tells me she has no one to go to. No one to talk to. They all think of her as an over-emotional, impetuous child in need of discipline..."
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*slam* "FOOLS! ALL OF THEM!"
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"They all think she's just like them. She never asked for that life, she didn't even have a say! You want to know what she is? I'll tell you what she is! She is a kriffing CHILD SOLDIER!"
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"The Jedi... They vex me so."
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End of Log
Author's Note: Stay tuned, we got some serious, jaw-dropping stuff on the horizon!
