Wraith's Log: Entry 18
"I am recording this from bed... I barely had enough strength to turn this thing on.
"To say that Takodana was almost a near-fatal experience would be something of an understatement. My encounter with those mercenaries put me in serious jeopardy... and Doc tells me I died as a result. Only for a moment, though, for I still live... if you couldn't tell."
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"These mercenaries... I do not know who they are, but their leader is a real piece of sithspit if ever I've seen one. And I've seen a few. He had the audacity to refer to Ahsoka like a slut or a street whore! The worst part is, he seemed very calm and confident in his actions... with good reason. Him and his team were able to do what others have only dreamed of... they beat me."
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"While I foster my hatred for him and his ilk, I will not deny that which can be learned from this encounter. They knew how I worked, they found weaknesses to exploit. My armor was useless in the face of their attack, my tech rendered unreliable by their tactics. They knew what they were doing and had the advantage in every situation."
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"I have... never faced a defeat like this before. To be struck down so thoroughly and without remorse... they are not like the Republic at all. Who are these mercenary scum... and why would the Republic turn to them? Surely they must be desperate-"
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"Wait... that's it! The Republic is-... Not now, Voice, I'm in the middle of logging something."
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"Yes, I do remember that. But not now!" *sigh* "Must you be this annoying?"
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"Fine. You wanna know why I didn't tell her? It's because I'm afraid... Yes, afraid. You heard me."
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"I'm afraid... of how she'll react... of what would become of us. She seems to handle things fine now, believing my feelings to be nothing more than a simple crush. She's... likely 'crushed' on others before so the feeling would be understandable."
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"Would you quit reading my thoughts like that?! It's annoying."
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"Yes, everything you do is annoying." *sigh* "I'm afraid of how she'll react if I were to reveal just how passionately I feel about her. She may pulse me... she could do any number of negative things that would break my heart..."
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"You think I'm being controlled by those nightmares?"
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"Maybe you're right. True, much of what I fear that twisted version of her has belittled me with and accused me of. And as much as a part of me deeply desires to ignore her and write them off as nonsense... I can't help but wonder if what she says is true. Could I possibly cause this darker side of her to emerge due to my advances?"
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"You're right. I don't know that. But... now you know why I am reluctant to tell her. Such an issue is mine and mine alone to deal with. Are you happy now?"
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"I don't think there's a whole lot you can do, Voice."
End of Log
