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I am lost in a woods, it seems to be darker with every passing moment. Edward was in front of me one moment ego. But now I could not find him any. I scrammed with every ounce of my energy.
"Edward"
But nothing. He didn't come for me. It is getting even darker. I lost my last hope. Then suddenly….
'Momma, momma!'
Everything started to lighten again with sweet voice. My baby continue to ask for me.
'Momma, momma!'
'Momma, momma!'
I wake up from my nightmare, the one that continue to hunt me since Edward left me. But it could not hurt me like before, because my baby girl always comes for my rescue. Sometimes I wonder if she actually knew about it and that's why her timing is so perfect. With a smile I looked at my baby girl.
She is in her favorite Barbie pajama, her bronze, curly hair is a mess since sleeping, her amber green eyes sparkling with happiness and an adorable dazzling smile in her face. She woke up a few minutes ago and decided it's time to wake momma up. Though I am not complaining, her smiling face never fails to make my day.
"Wake up Momma."
I decided to play a little with her. So I closed my eyes for a fake slumber.
"Momma, momma! Wake up!"
She threw herself in my sleeping form and I started to tickle her with a big smile in face.
"Stop momma!" she managed to say between her giggle. I continued for a few seconds more before relishing her.
"Good morning, baby." I said to my baby girl with a smile. She is my only reason to smile.
"Good morning, momma." She hugged me close.
I looked at my bed sight clock. It's already 7 of morning. I had to get up or I am going to be late in my first day of collage. Suppressing a sigh a sit up in my bed with still Lily cuddling in my arms.
"Gate ready baby, you don't want momma to be late right?"
"Okay momma." Lily freed herself from my arms and run toward her room.
I decided to take a shower first; Lily can take care of herself for a few minutes. So I headed for my bathroom.
As soon as the warm water hit my body, I started to think about past, how many things had changed in last 6 year and how it could be. I stopped myself before my mind could think too much. I don't have time for that now. I have to get my daughter and myself ready before I really get late and my daughter maybe a half-vampire but she is still a baby, I can't effort to let her go out of my sight for too long. And really don't want to be late in my first day in Dartmouth as a History professor.
I smiled at the tag of professor. It was only for Jake and the pack that I had developed a passion in Native American History. They were who did not let me gone crazy when Edward threw me out of the supernatural world with one part of him inside me.
Yes that is the part of life that I would never regret. My Lily, my only daughter. Our daughter, Edward's and mine. Rose Elizabeth Cullen.
When I learned I was pregnant with Edward's child I was scared, because I knew I was carrying a half-vampire child. Not that I was complaining, but I didn't know what to do. The pack also had no idea. They were scared too. But when my pregnancy turned out like a normal one they promise to help me, and they did. There was nothing too unnatural with my pregnancy just my baby was a little powerful, that's it.
When I told my dad about Lily he was mad but he still supported me with everything. And after he started to date Sue Clearwater, it was not too much late when he found out the truth. Now my dad is a member of the council (as Sue's husband) and that's mean Lily is a part of the pack too, protected by the pack when she herself is a half-vampire.
My dad, the pack, the council everyone help me to rise my baby girl. Unless it was not easy to be a single mother, let alone a single mother of a half-vampire child.
"MOMMA, MOMMA, where you are?" my daughter pulled me back from my reverie.
"Coming baby."
It did not take me long to get ready for my first day. Soon I and Lily were fully decent, had our breakfast, and out of the house. I smiled when I secured Lily's seat-belt and situated in my seat. It is a Audi.
Six month earlier, when I completed my PhD a video game company hired me to help on their new project, which was in same time-line with my paper. The amounts of money they give me not help me to secure my daughter's future but also let me buy something new. And of course you make a passion for car when your best friend is a car mechanic.
I check my phone before I start the car and of course I have a few messages.
Bells are you and Lily okay? How are you doing? – Charlie
Hey Bells, best of luck for your first day! Call me if you need anything (like free babysitting). – Jacob
Good morning Bella. Best of luck for your first day. Call me if you need anything. And most importantly, don't forget to keep your eyes open! Maybe you could find someone ; ) – Kayla
Of course dad would do the first thing in morning is make sure his girls are okay. Its Jake's duty to tell his best friend 'best of luck' for her first day. And Rosie, well Kayla is my only normal friend; I mean she is not from any supernatural world. I met her two years ago and it was not long before she became my best human friend. Though she knew nothing about my secrets but still she always helped me with everything. She is a tattoo-artist. And right now, she was almost taking place of Alice. Almost because no one can ever be as crazy as Alice and I love her. It was for her that I and Lily don't wear something stylish and don't repeat them every day. She will have my head if I chose some shirt and jeans for my first day. She is trying to pursue me for find someone but of course it was in vain.
Part of it's because I can never find someone, he was my only one. It was one of my cruel secrets. And part of it's because I have daughter (who is half-vampire) whom I have to rise on my own. I can't afford any distraction. It was the part I always told her.
I have a daughter Kayla, who will be with me all the time, how could you expect something like that? And I'm not searching for someone. – Bella
I answered dad and Jake and went for my collage. It won't take long. I already took two visits of the collage before join it so I already where I have to go. I also made sure they allow Lily with me in class and they agreed. Why would not they? In my collage I use to take Lily with me in my most of the classes until there was dad or Sue or Jake to take care of her. Though my baby girl eat human food but we didn't want to find if she could also drink blood and definitely didn't want to try it with some babysitter. I would enroll her in school but once I am sure she would never ever attack any people.
I parked my car and went for the office building.
"Excuse me, I'm Dr. Isabella Swan, new history professor, can you help me?" I asked the receptionist. She is blonde, brown eyes and I guess in her middle fifty.
"Welcome Dr. Swan. I was expecting you. I am Giana."
"Please call me Bella. And she is my daughter Lily. I hope you know about her?" I checked.
"Yeah, I have been told. It won't be a problem. Don't worry. Your office is no. 113, third floor. Here are the keys. This one is for your office and this one is for common areas. And here is your schedule. If you need any help to find buildings or anything I have a map."
"No thank you. I already have two visits." I started to walk toward the escalator, but she called me from behind.
"Oh Bella?"
"Yes?"
"Your daughter is really cute. Get settled. I am looking forward to meet Miss Lily, if you don't mind."
I should know better. No one can escape my baby girl's charm. She is no most perfect girl in the whole world. After all, she is her daddy's daughter. "Of course Giana. Why would I mind? Let me get settled, we will see you later."
"See you later, Giana." My baby girl told her. I can already see the affect she was having. This was a one way road. I could not help but chuckle.
It was really good I took time to pack the boxes. So now, it did not take me long to unpack them. I had three hours before my first class and it took only one and half to unpack. I have my books, which took most of the selves. Many pictures for my desk and wall. Two blanket, a pillow, some dry foods and a small bag of some cloths for emergency. And a box with Lily's scrapbooks, crayons, toys etc. It was one thing to go to college as a student and completely other thing as a teacher. I don't my baby girl to get boar when I have to work here for hours.
I was almost done with my unpacking when someone knocked my door.
"Hallo, Dr. Isabella Swan?"
"Yes."
"Hi, I am Dr. Natalie Robinson. Welcome to the club and thank you."
I looked the woman properly in front of me. She had state blond hair which touch her soldier bled, a little fat and wide blue eyes. She seemed in her middle forties.
"Hi, nice to meet you. Why are you thanking me?"
"Oh! You help us make equilibrium. You know, counting you, we became six men and four women. We were really in need for some other team member, they were outnumbering us so badly!" she answered with a little laugh and I found that she like to talk.
"This is your daughter? They told you were bringing you little daughter." She pointed to my baby girl who was playing with her crayons while listening her favorite music. Like her father she has a passion for music.
"Yes. She is my baby girl, Lily."
"Aww, she is so cute! And also so well behaved. If you don't mind can I ask something?" she hesitated.
I already knew what she was going to ask but I can't tell her the real truth. "I know. She is my only daughter and I am a single mother. I don't want to leave her with some stranger when I have to work, not when she is so young and she is really well behaved. I really never have any serious problem because of her. So…."
"I understand. I am also a mother. If you don't mind I can offer some babysitting when I am available. By the how old is she?" she was already dazzled by her overwhelming beauty.
"Five years."
"She is a real beauty. By the way, will you like to visit the building? And which specialization you have?"
"Native American history. And thank you but I have my first class in an hour, undergraduate. Though I teach my own class in my PhD. But this is officially my first class. I need some preparation."
"Oh. It's okay. We can always share the lunch time, you will meet every professor of our department. But the good thing is I am free for next three hours. I can babysit little Lily. If you don't mind." She asked hopefully.
I would appreciate some babysitting for my first class and I can leave her for an hour. She is a good girl and not like she ever attack any human. Her momma is a human; she would never attack one though the smell a little delicious and she knows the rules. I think I can trust Natalie.
"You will stay here, right?"
"Of course Isabella."
"And you will call me if you would need anything or anything was wrong?"
"Sure."
"Well then thank you. But she doesn't know you yet. So the next time?" I was not going to leave my baby girl with someone whom she did not meet properly yet.
"I understand. And I am counting you on the next time. I really like your daughter."
"Thank you. And call me Bella."
"Okay, so Bella, can I meet your daughter?"
"Sure." I can't help but laugh at her style. "Baby, come here, someone wants to meet you."
"Coming momma." My baby girl picked her eyes up and grace came toward me with a smile. Thank god she had her father's grace. Actually she is almost carbon copy of her father, except her beautiful blush and dimple and curl, the last two she inherited from her grandpa and he never miss a chance to tell everyone about that proudly.
"Baby, she is Mrs. Natalie. She is my friend. Say 'hello'"
My baby girl smiled her dazzling smile at Natalie, who was of course dazzled. No one can ignore Lily's dazzling smile which she clearly inherited from her father. "Hello Mrs. Natalie. Nice to meet you. I'm Lily. Will you play with me?"
"Hello to you too, Miss Lily. Of course I will play with you. Which game you wanna play?" already wrapped around my baby girl's little finger.
Natalie played with Lily until I had to go, giving me a chance to organize everything. I did not even have a chance to ask her about her subject, too busy with my baby girl. I did not like undergraduate classes that much. Most of them just want the degree, but musters students usually want to learn, because they love it. I had masters class at 2 PM. I did not have any PhD class today. That's okay with me. Today I want to get settled and know the person here. With my baby girl, I could need some help sometime. I don't want to risk anything when it comes on my baby girl.
"Natalie, I have to go." I brought her back from Lily's sanctuary.
"Lily, baby come. Momma is being late."
"Okay momma. Bye Mrs. Natalie. I will see you later."
"Bye Miss Lily. I will see you at lunch. Take care of her Bella. Call me if you need anything." She glared at me like daring me to deny. Everyone did that. Threaten me for my own daughter. At first I did not like it one bit but now I get used with that.
"Okay Natalie. Don't worry, I will ask you if I need any kind of help."
We exchanged number and I leave for my first class.
I reached my class fifteen minutes earlier. I settled Lily in the seat, gave her headphone, crayon and picture book and started her music. I started to use this two years ago. This way I could concentrate in my work while she was entertained with her music and toys. I got ready with my laptop. I like to stand while teaching though they give me an extra chair for Lily. I really appreciate that. They are really being helpful.
The students started to come five minutes earlier. There were total forty students. They all glanced at Lily but did not say anything.
"Good morning class. I'm Dr. Isabella Swan and this is my daughter Lily." I pointed to my baby girl who was busy with her music and drawing. "she would be with us in our classes. I hope you would not mind." Better to clear at first.
"No Dr. Swan. Of course not."
"Definitely not."
"Nop."
"Dr. Swan your daughter is so cute. Can we meet her?"
Thank god, they are so understanding. "Of course. But after class?" I told them with a small laugh. "Okay, this is our first class, how about starts it with a proper introduction."
My first class of my professional life went really great. Though the students were not as sincere as I would like but they were not that bad. They took fifteen minutes after class to meet Miss Lily properly. I think I was proud of myself. I called dad and Jake after my class they were proud of me too.
I had my next class at 2PM. And true of her words, Natalie came before lunch to share the lunch time together.
"Hi Bella. I hope you remember you promised for the lunch. Let me show you the building. This way. Come Miss Lily. We have ice-cream in our cafeteria. You want some?"
"Thank you Mrs. Natalie."
"Give me one minute."
We headed for the cafeteria. There were already five people. Natalie introduced them.
I became quick friend with two of them, who were not much older than me. Andrew Boer and Katherine May. They both were in their middle thirties. Andrew was still single and Katherine had twins. My others colleagues were Terrace Clay, Kevin Jones and Brandon Watt. They were between middle forties to early fifties. It means I am the youngest professor in our department.
Andrew was brunette with blue eyes, he seemed fascinated by Lily. Most of the time he asked me a thousand questions about her. And I think he was trying to flirt with me a little.
Katherine asked me to come in her house so our children can play. I did not promise her anything. With my half-vampire baby, I could not effort to promise anything without thinking about it.
They all offered me to babysit when they were free. I don't know if it was because my baby girl was half-vampire or because the dazzling power she inherited from her father, but whoever ever met her seemed to dazzled by her and so babysitting offer was not new to me. But again, my baby girl was half-vampire and I had zero interest in taking any kind of risk. I could not accept their offer until Lily spent some good quality time with them. And honestly, I did not want to let my baby girl out of my sight.
They also wanted to know about me. I was always shy from any kind of attention but in last six years I learned to be interested at people's attention….well at least to pretend.
"So Bella, why Native American History?"
"I'm from Forks, Washington. My best friend Jacob is from reservation, and when your best friend and most of the friends are from reservation, it's natural that you make some respect for the Native American." Especially when they can transfer in horse size wolfs.
"Oh. By the way, your paper was really interesting. It was unique. And so it's really nice to meet you."
"Thank you Kevin."
"Please don't mind, but you complete your education with your little girl? How did you manage? Sure you have some family to help you?"
I was not surprised with their questions. I had to face that kind of questions many times. "Sure I have. My dad and my friend were more than ready to help me and they did. But she is my daughter and I have no problem to take care of her. I wanted to this myself. And so I tried, I am not sure how I did this but I tried my best. And now here I am." I gestured to my baby girl who sitting in my lap, using my chest as a pillow and listening her favorite music. Her love for music and her taste in music is something she got from her father. This was odd for a five year old but I think it was something genetic.
"Um…I have my next class in fifteen minutes. If you excuse me."
"Sure."
"Do you need some babysitting? I am free." Terrace offer me.
"Thank you. But you know I can't leave my baby girl with you like that. She would ask for me when she wakes up. You sure understand…."
"Yeah."
"Bella can I at least offer you my help to carry Lily? I really want to help." Andrew asked me with his best pleading eyes.
Okay. So now I am one hundred present sure that he is trying to flirt with me.
"I can manage. Thank you."
I picked up my baby girl and headed for my office. I was nothing but a normal girl who have a five years old daughter, then why they tried to flirt with me. Not that I wanted someone in my life. I was content with my daughter. The only person I wanted, I needed leave me six years ago.
Sometime I though what it would be if Edward never leave me? I know he believed he couldn't fathered children. But he was wrong. Lily was the proved of the truth. Would he be happy about being a father? I know Lily would be happy if she had his daddy and her life would be so much better if she had her daddy. How his family would react when they would find out a new family member was going to join the Cullen family. If it was before my eighteenth birthday then I would be sure they would be beyond happy. Esme would start to plan for her granddaughter's nursery. Alice won't waste any time before shop for niece, making sure her niece had her aunt's taste of fashion, not her mother's. Emmet would plan the fun games he could play with his niece. I was not sure about Jasper and Rosalie but Carlisle and Esme would he content to had a granddaughter. Though I know Rosalie love children and always wanted one for herself. And my baby girl would be so much happy to have such a big family.
Control it Bella. You are a mother and you have to be strong for your daughter. You have to be there for her. Control it.
I packed my laptop and belongings and headed for my next class. I was looking forward for this class. I love to teach and love it more when my students pay attention. And I also hoped this class would go as smooth as my last class. I settled Lily in her chair, arranged my laptop and waited for the students to come. But when the first student entered the classroom, he was the last person I expected.
Edward Cullen was standing in front of me. He was looking straight in my eyes and if I read his face right, then his eyes were fill with smugness, happiness, adoration and…love? Then suddenly he froze, his eyes moved to Lily's direction and his eyes filled with confusion.
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