Wraith's Log - Entry 30
"I made love to Ahsoka and it was AMAZING!"
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*clears throat* "Sorry. That was my gut reaction. Let me try to be more... civilized about this."
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"Ahsoka suddenly sprung her desires upon me recently and, of course, I readily obliged her. And that was a night I'll never forget. Hoo man, actually experiencing it blows all written descriptions out of the water! It's indescribably spectacular!
"But then we got a dose of reality the morning after... when we realized neither of us had considered protection. So I sprinted like a madman to the nearest pharmacy and quickly covered our bases. The good news is Ahsoka wasn't fertile at the moment so there's no chance of conception, and we got some pills for future insurance.
"Because, let's face it, at this stage of the game we're simply not in a place to become parents.
"I mean, I like kids. I really do. Would I want some of my own some day? Sure. With Ahsoka? Hell yes! But since we're in a 'forbidden relationship' and are commanders on opposite sides of a war, it's just too difficult to maintain a family right now. That and I need to read a metric ton of parenting guides before I could even feel ready to take on such a lifelong responsibility."
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"But Ahsoka raised a good point. We're a couple of teenagers who are commanding armies, charged with liberating worlds, doing things only seasoned adults twice our age should be doing. So... maybe something like raising a family isn't so extreme by comparison. There's just this damn problem called a 'war' still in the way... until it's over, I wouldn't feel right about bringing any offspring into the world."
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"And yet, with this new dimension of our relationship, it's a real possibility. And that means the margin for danger has broadened significantly.
"Still, maybe we're going about this the wrong way. It's hard to mess anything up if we were married. If I was Ahsoka's husband and she was my wife, we wouldn't have to worry about this kind of thing. It'd be within the confines of marriage and perfectly fine to have a child... or two. Or three. No, wait, slow down soldier, you're getting ahead of yourself. Marry her first.
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"Yeah... marry her. Kriff me, I love her so much. And the intimacy we now share is equally amazing. I honestly can't wait to be with her again. Still... marriage... hmm..."
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"You know what? My mind is made up. As soon as this war looks like it's going to end within a day or two, I'll find her and pop the question."
End of Log
