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And now, kick back and May the 4th Be With You all.
Wraith's Log - Entry 34
*sigh*
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"I've been training a lot lately. I feel so... tense and... stressed. For good reason, likely...
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"Ahsoka and I got into an argument. On Carlac. She learned I killed Mina Bonteri, which was a while ago, and then she... I don't know if it was a hissy-fit or something warranted, but she got real mad at me all of a sudden. It still doesn't make a lot of sense to me... then again, women have constantly puzzled men since the beginning. But there was something else... something I couldn't shake.
"She had someone else close by. Lux Bonteri, Mina's son... and the boy I could've swore I killed. But it appears not likely. He had implants in his neck to help him walk, I scanned them. I must've just paralyzed him. Ahsoka got so... defensive of him. All of a sudden, like she was protecting him for some reason..."
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"No. I know the reason. She's attracted to him, I could sense it. She looks at him and there's this glimmer of recognition and approval about her... like she once showed me."
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"We got into a fight before we parted ways... and I haven't heard from her since. No calls, no telepathic messages... not even a... a-a portal to each other. It's like not even the damn Force wants us to be together."
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"There has to be some middle ground we can find. I have to try and sort this out. I want to patch things up, I really do. But I feel so... hurt for some reason. Is it because her accusations... were... right?
"No that can't be it. It can't be. I'm... I'm torn right now. What do I have to do to make things up to her? I-I... I..."
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"Part of me wants to talk to her so we can sort this out... the rest of me would like to tear Lux Bonteri into so many pieces not even the damn Force would recognize him!"
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"But that would not bring my dear Ahsoka back to me. Not now. If anything, it would only push her even further away.
"I'm... loathe to say I miss her. I know it'd be stubbornness to say that I don't... something about pride and wanting to keep it intact. That is what I feel like doing... but some... some small part of me feels like that's because I don't want her to be right... because... maybe..."
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"Maybe she was right."
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"I don't know... I can't just... stop. But... if it means I'd get to see her again..."
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"I miss her. I miss her presence, her company, being able to speak with her. I want to see her again so badly..."
End of Log
