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Chapter 4 is finally done!

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Onto todays wild episode of Rose and her shenanigans!


I sigh softly, exhausted still as I wake up slowly, wincing as I'm nearly thrown from my bed, I get up tiredly and head for the door 'what the hell was he doing now...?'

As I step out into the corridor I frown, the walls being browns and coppers now, I had jumped in my sleep...? I look down at my arm, rolling up the sleeve to find a new small black tattoo of an arrow next to the gas mask, the clock face had also changed, the minute hand now on 6.

I sigh again and head down the hallway, hoping to find my way to the console room, but the lights start to flicker and dim every now and then, only making me frown more, I gently lay my hand against the wall worriedly "what's happening...? Is he ok?" I ask worriedly, only to receive a soft sad hum in return, my heart sinks.

"Show me to him" I almost order and she obliges quickly, lighting up lights down a different hall, I quickly follow after them, my heart racing, something was very wrong, my hands were shaking a little as I start to run, and as I pass doors I start to notice some where open and completely trashed, things thrown around and destroyed, my eyes widen and I just speed up more.

The farther I go into The Tardis the more crashes and shaking I can feel until I come skidding around a corner into a larger hallway, my eyes widening seeing doors destroyed and torn off their hinges and stuff littering the floor, and in one of the dark rooms I hear a man scream in anger and pain as he shoves something heavy over, my heart sinks and I cautiously move to the doorway.

As I turn the corner into the doorway my heart sinks, standing there, shaking and exhausted is The War Doctor, and suddenly I knew exactly where and when I am, I cautiously step a little farther through the doorway.

"Doctor...?" I call softly, his shoulders stiffen and he has to lean against the wall to stay standing, but I can see he's shaking badly "get out..." he growls out, his voice hoarse and dry, my heart sinks worriedly.

"I...I just want to help" I say softly but he suddenly spins around, pure anger and hate burning in his eyes, I flinch back in surprise with wide eyes.

"GET OUT!" He roars as I jump back a bit "get out of my sight! You aren't real! You're never real!" He roars, my eyes widen more.

'He doesn't think I'm real...?'

He suddenly grabs a small piece of something off a nearby table and chucks it at me in anger "you're never real! Why can't you stop tormenting me!?" He roars, I yelp and jump out of the way with wide eyes, his eyes only harden more but I meet his eyes again, more determined this time, I make my way towards him and he stumbles back a bit but doesn't take his broken eyes off me.

'He must think I'm dead...maybe I someday end up in the time war...?'

I come up to stand right in front of him, reaching up and very gently cupping his face in my hands softly, one thumb gently brushing over his cheek as his eyes widen, I can feel him stiffen and start to shake a little under my touch.

I smile gently up at him "I'm really here, you're going to be alright now" I say softly, he reaches up shakily, very gently wrapping his warn calloused hands around my wrists, almost to make sure I was really here before his eyes fill with tears, his legs giving out and he slumps to his knees, I follow him down gently.

Making sure he doesn't hit the ground hard, the tears already falling as he leans into my touch, holding my wrists gently but firmly, keeping my hands on his face as he tightly shuts his eyes, I gently wipe away the tears and smile sadly, tears of my own filling my eyes.

"I promise your going to be alright now, I'm not leaving until you're better" I say softly and his grip on my wrists loosens before his arms fall, he looked exhausted and comepletely warn out.

I stiffen in surprise as he suddenly leans forward and wraps his arms around my middle, desperately gripping the back of my shirt, burying his face into my stomach as he lets out a heart wrenching sob, my heart sinks and I gather him up in my arms, pulling him closer and cradling his shoulders against me gently.

"Im here, it's ok" I murmur and gently run my fingers through his soft grey hair.

After a few minutes of him just clinging to me I gently kiss his forehead, not even really realizing I did so "come on, lets get up and move to someplace more comfortable" I say softly, he tightens his arms around me shakily, seemly afraid I'd disappear, I gently run my fingers through his hair again "I'm not going to go anywhere, it's alright, I promise, I'll stay for as long as I can" I say softly.

I manage to get him up and moving towards his room, he looks absolutely broken and exhausted, I keep his hand held in mine tightly as he stumbles after me, I get him into his room and gently help him take off his old warn coat before sitting him on his bed, he watches as I hang up his coat gently and help him take his boots off, knowing he wouldnt do it unless I helped.

Once I put his boots away I come and sit down next to him, he takes my hand instantly and grips it tightly but shakily, I gently squeeze his hand back "how long has it been since you ate?" I ask him softly, he just shakes his head softly, I frown sadly "then let me go and get you some food" I say but he looks up and meets my eyes, I can see fear and pain shining in them, as well as worry.

"Please don't...don't leave" he pleads softly, his voice dry and croaking, I frown softly and sigh "but you need to eat" I say worriedly, he only tightens his hold on my hand, looking down tiredly and lowering his head, I sigh softly.

"Will you eat as soon as you wake up?" I ask, he hesitates before slowly nodding, I relax a little and stand, gently making him lay down and starting to tuck him in only he scoots over and gently pulls me down onto the bed.

I yelp slightly surprised and he looks me over worried he had hurt me, I gently squeeze his hand and adjust my position a little "its ok, I'm alright" I say softly and he relaxes a little, I hesitate a moment before tossing off my hoodie as I was getting too warm before I pull the blankets over us.

But what happens next makes butterflies flutter in my stomach, the poor broken Time Lord comes closer and wraps his arms around my waist, almost desperate as he clings to me, I hesitate before gently wrapping my arms around his shoulders.

"It's ok, I'm not going anywhere, I promise" I say softly, gently running my fingers through his hair again as he relaxes against me, his head resting on my stomach and chest as he closes his eyes absolutely exhausted.

I relax and watch as he falls asleep rather quickly, I sigh sadly until suddenly everything that happened finally registers in my mind and my face is instantly hot and red as I look down at the man asleep ontop of me...in his own bed, I try to even out my breathing and relax.

' What the hell just happened...? He must think I died...and he's lost everything...at least he thinks he has...no, I cant tell him, it would destroy his timeline' I shake my head to rid myself of those thoughts, I couldn't worry about all of that right now, I just needed to make sure he was alright and taken care of, I look down at him as he breaths deeply in his sleep, I cant help but smile gently as I watch him, so content and comfortable for probably the first time in some time, I gently stroke the back of my fingers agains his cheek softly.

I blush deeper as he leans into my touch a little, his arms tightening around me, but I cant help but smile more, gently running my fingers through his hair again, hoping it was giving him some comfort in his sleep, but as I watch him I notice something.

Around his neck is a small bit of string with two gold rings on it, one smaller and the other bigger, my eyes widen seeing them, realizing he must have lost his wife if he had both, I frown sadly and tears prick my eyes at the thought, he had lost so much now, no wonder he needed to know I was here still.

I look up to the ceiling "thank you for showing me to him" I call softly, not wanting to wake the exhausted man against me, she soflty hums and I smile softly "could you have some food ready when he wakes? I want to make sure he eats something soon" I ask her and she hums happily again before dimming the lights down, I thank her quietly again before closing my eyes, keeping my arms around The War Doctor as I start to doze off myself.

I sleep for some time before being woken up by movement, I open my eyes tiredly to see The Doctor sitting on the edge of the bed, his hands shaking in his lap as he stares at them, I frown softly and sit up, moving closer and gently taking his hand in mine, seeming to startle him a little as he looks up quickly.

I smile gently "its alright" I murmur as I meet his sad warn eyes, I gently squeeze his hand softly "why dont I go grab you some food?" He quickly shake his head and grips onto my hand tightly.

"Stay my dear...please...I dont want to be alone..." he murmurs, I smile sadly "you wont be, It will only take me a moment" I say, moving to sit down right next to him, keeping his hand in mine "and I dont think you have the energy to get up and come with me" I say softly.

He looks down at our hands shakily and I do the same, feeling an odd warmth and my eyes widen to see his hand starting to glow "oh..." I murmur in surprise and shock.

'Hes regenerating, no wonder he didnt want me to leave...' I stand and gently pull him to his feet, making sure he doesn't fall over, he watches me worried and incredibly sad, I smile gently at him "its going to be ok, I promise, I'm not going anywhere" I say softly and he try's to pull away as the light gets brighter but I stop him, hesitating before I lean up and softly kiss his cheek and smile gently before I take a step back, hiding my blush as best I can.

"Remember, dont be afraid, I'm going to be there when you're done" I say seriously, he meets my eyes and I can see the fear shining there, and in that moment I make a decision, I didnt care if I got burn by the energy, he needed me.

I rush forward and wrap my arms around his torso tightly, he try's to protest but I shush him, holding onto him tightly I feel him wrap his shaking arms around me tightly, I close my eyes as the light becomes to bright and I can feel the hot energy rushing off him but I dont let go, feeling his whole body change under me was so strange, but I dont let go, I wouldn't let him be alone for this, its too often I saw him forced to regenerate alone.

He clutches onto me, gripping fistfuls of my shirt as he regenerates, but once the light dies down he nearly collapses against me, I tighten my arms around him "you're ok, you're safe" I reassure as I look up and smile, seeing those beautiful steely blue eyes looking down at me tiredly, worry in his eyes.

I smile gently and reach up, gently cupping his face "see? I'm not hurt, and you're alright, and taller" I smile more, seeing him relax a little and lean into my touch, I stand up on my tip toes and gently kiss his forehead "now come and sit back down, you haven't eaten anything in who knows how long" I say, ushering him back to the bed, sitting him on the edge.

I move to leave but he grabs my hands quickly, looking afraid as I turn back to him "dont go...I...I don't know what I'd do if you jumped while away..." he pleads, his northern accent thick with fear, I sigh softly but smile a little "I'm not going anywhere, not any time soon" I promise and sit back down next to to him, looking up at the ceiling "do you think you could bring the food to him? He's being stubborn" I ask half jokingly and the ship hums around us, I smile and look to The Doctor beside me.

He's smiling softly and I blush a bit before standing "ok, while she's doing that lets get you changed into something more comfortable" I say and he sighs tiredly, I smile gently "give me just a minute to find you something comfortable to sleep in" I say but his hold on my hand tightens, I smile sadly.

"I'll leave the closet door open, dont worry, I'm not leaving any time soon if I can help it" I reassure and he slowly lets me go, I go into his closet, giggling a little seeing his long scarf draped over a hanger, I gently run my fingers over his older outfits before finding some comfortable pajamas, I grab them and come back out, he hadn't taken his eyes off the door.

I come back over to him and hold out the clothes "you're going to have to dress yourself mister" I say but smile softly, heart leaping as I hear a soft chuckle from him before he slowly stands and takes the clothes, I move toward the door "dont...please stay" he pleads, I frown and sigh before nodding and just turning my back, my face flushing as I realize I'm with a man alone in his room while he's changing.

I try to focus on my breathing to calm down, but the blush wouldn't leave, after a minute or so he comes up beside me and takes my hand again, pulling me towards the bed again, I smile up at him softly "remember, you have to eat first" I say seriously and he sighs, nodding tiredly, I make him sit back down on the bed and put his old clothes into a hamper, I hesitate and whisper, hoping The Tardis would be able to hear me "please save his coat...for me..." before noticing a plate of food on a table in the corner.

I smile up at the ceiling before going and grabbing it, bringing it over to The Doctor "I want you to eat everything on this plate" I say seriously, he sighs softly but does so quickly, leaving the now empty plate on the bedside table, I smile softly and nod in approval, he lays back down exhausted and scoots over again to make room for me, I blush deeply but crawl in carefully.

He wraps his arms around me again tightly, pulling me close to his chest and seeming to almost curl around me a little, I smile sadly, realizing I was probably the only thing he thought he had left from before the war.

I wrap my arms around his middle and relax, ignoring the ever present heat on my cheeks now.

"Sleep, I dont hear any music so I wont be going anywhere for a while" I reassure, he relaxes and kisses my forehead before closing his eyes tiredly.

I look up and watch him sadly as he falls asleep quickly, he still looked exhausted, even in this new body, I reach up and gently stroke his cheek sadly.

"I'm staying here as long as I can...I'm not going to let you be alone..." I say softly

To my relief I didnt jump when he was asleep nor for a few weeks after, through those weeks I took care of the poor broken Time Lord, often finding him breaking down or breaking things in his rage, but I calmed him down every time I could, I made sure he ate and slept and slowly he was starting to recover, getting stronger every day.

For much of those weeks he refused to leave The Tardis, he didnt want to cause any more trouble or even just see other people.

And the nightmares, he was almost always waking up during the nights that I got him to sleep, either screaming or crying, I would manage to calm him down and some nights when I couldn't get him to go back to bed we'd move to the library and read for a while.

The longer I stayed the closer to the Time Lord I became, it was odd, I hadn't expected to stay with him for so long but as the time went on I found I didnt want to leave again, he needed me right now and I wouldnt deny him help.

When The Doctor slept and I wasnt tired I had found something I kept hidden from him, knowing he'd just throw it out the doors into space, but I make sure he never saw it, The Tardis Manual, I was trying to learn how to fly her and after about a week of secretly reading it I think I figured it out, so while he's asleep I sneak out of the room and go to the console.

I smile up at the ceiling "can you make sure I dont get us sucked into a black hole? I dont think he'd be too happy about that" I laugh softly, she happily hums around me and I smile, setting the manual down on the jump seat before I get to work, being careful and following the instructions as closely as I could, making sure to leave the parking brake off as I didnt want to wake to sleeping alien.

I smile as we land, glad nothing exploded or sparked, I gently pat the console before running to the doors and looking outside, smiling seeing the mountains and forest outside, I close the doors and head to the kitchen to make some food for The Doctor.

Once that's done I go to wake him up, quietly entering his room and sitting down on the edge of the bed, I realize then how comfortable I was being in his room, in his bed, I'd slept in his bed with him most nights now, helping him with his night terrors and nightmares, a deep blush covers my face now at the thought.

I try to get my blush under control before focusing back on him.

I smile softly watching him for a few moments before I gently lay my hand on his arm "Doctor...? It's time to get up, Ive made you some food" I say softly, he groans and rolls over onto his stomach, burying his face into the pillows, I giggle softly and stand "come on, after you eat I have a surprise for you"

He seems a bit curious now as he looks up at me, half his face still squished into the pillow, I smile gently and motion for him to get up "I'm gonna eat your food if you dont get up" I joke softly and he waves his hand lazily "go ahead...not hungry" I sigh softy.

Moving to sit back down next to him "yes you are, you haven't eaten since yesterday at noon, and it's almost noon now, please get up? I really wanna show you the surprise" I plead and he sighs before sitting up slowly, I smile more and stand again.

"Come on sleepy head" I tease and head for the door happily, excited about the surprise and glad to get him outside for the first time in over a month.

I wait for a few minutes in the kitchen before he arrives, now wearing his signature leather jacket and dark jeans, I smile softly as he sits down to eat and I clean the dishes happily, I know The Tardis could do it herself but it gave me something to do while I waited.

I jump as he sets his plate in the sink from behind me, I look back and smile more "done?" I ask and he nods softly, I dry off my hands and take his excitedly, leading him into the console room happily, I stop and turn to him, smiling softly as I tighten my hold on his hand gently.

"Before you try and say anything, I've made sure there isn't anyone else around" I say seriously, he looks at me confused and worried before his eyes widen and he looks to the doors, his hand tightening in mine nervously, I gently squeeze his hand and pull him a little closer to the doors but he stops, keeping his haunted eyes fixed on the doors, I frown sadly as I watch him before I move closer.

Using my free hand I gently cup his cheek and make him look down at me "its ok, its not dangerous out there, I promise, and there wont be anyone else here" I say softly, meeting his eyes and smiling softly.

After a few moments he sighs but lets me lead him to the doorway "I know its not the most spectacular place, but I love it" I say, opening the door and gently pulling him outside into the forest, I nod toward the mountain looming above us.

"We're in Washington state in the US, my favorite place in the whole of the world, Big Four Ice Caves, I used to come here every birthday with my mom and some friends, its always been a good place I could calm down, and just be happy" I explain as I close The Tardis door behind us before gently pulling him up the path and to the level area , the cliffs above is sheer and covered in small amounts of snow here and there.

The mountain range around the area huge and as far as the eye can see, then at the base of the cliffs stands a massive chunk of ice the size of some icebergs that has formed into many large open caves, I smile up at him softly as I watch him curious of his reaction.

"Ive come here my whole life...the whole hike is amazing, the forest is beautiful and warm, and up here on hot summer days the wind blowing off the ice keeps everyone cool" I say softly, seeing the hint of a smile on his lips.

I gently squeeze his hand softly "this place has always brought me comfort...I thought I'd try and show it to you, maybe it could bring you a small amount of comfort as well" I say softly, looking back up the cliffs happily, glad to get him outside and into the fresh air for the first time in a while.

He's silent for a while, just watching the small stream flow out of the caves and down the mountain before he suddenly turns and pulls me into a tight hug, I smile softly and hug him back gently.

"Thank you..." he murmurs, I tighten my arms around him gently, smiling more "you dont need to thank me, I'm just here to help" I say softly, he tightens his arms around me and buries his head into my shoulder, I gently rub his back and rock us back and forth a little.

After a few more moments he pulls back and looks back up at the cliff face, but I can see unshed tears in his eyes, I frown and gently make him look down to me "you ok?" I ask and he nods, giving me a watery smile.

"I felt like I was left alone...that there was nothing left for me to live for..." he murmurs, I take his hand again softly.

"your not alone now, I'm here to stay as long as I can, but I'll be back soon after I leave anyways" I smile sadly "and you have a lot to live for, everyone in the universe knows you, or knows of you, you've saved billions, and will save billions in the future, there's so many people you have yet to meet, so many places yet to see" I say softly, looking back up the mountain happily, not noticing him watching me.

"You show so many people the universe, give them something no one else could dream of, and...you give them hope...even if you dont know them...like...like me..." I admit, keeping my eyes on the flowing water.

"I...Ive known you my whole life...Ive known of you my whole life...and your stories...your bravery, your kindness...it's always given me hope, hope that there were still good people out there...hope that maybe I could do good just like you...that I could someday not be a waist of space" I giggle sadly.

But I'm surprised when he suddenly spins me to face him, looking serious and almost angry as he leans down a little, looking me in the eyes.

"You are not, nor have you ever been a waist of space" he almost snaps, I cant help but smile sadly, reaching up and gently cupping his face softly with one hand, blushing a little as he leans into my touch.

"You haven't known me my whole life...the earliest you'd have ever met me I'd be 21...you don't know how I was when I was younger" I say softly but he shakes his head.

He keeps his eyes locked with mine as he seems to think for a moment before responding.

"You have saved my life more times than I can count, no one would be saved if you didn't save me" he says softly, I frown softly and shake my head "I'm not that important, everything you've done you could have done without me...you have done without me...me being here is really only a fluke" I smile sadly and lower my hand.

Facing the cliffs again I look up them, trying to hold back another blush, feeling his eyes on me.

"Rose...you don't really believe that do you...?" He asks softly, I shrug a little.

"It's the truth, I'd be a fool to not believe it" I admit softly, feeling him move closer before he gently turns me to face him again.

"Then I suppose I'm a fool" he says as he leans in closer, I watch him a bit confused before he gently cups my face and neck softly with one hand, his other hand on my hip.

I hold my breath before moving up a little closer subconsciously before he closes the gap, capturing my lips with his, my cheeks instantly start to burn but I close my eyes and kiss back, butterflies fluttering in my stomach and my heart racing, I wrap my arms up around his neck and move up onto my tip toes.

Feeling him wrap his arms around my waist and pulling my closer, nearly flush against him, I tighten my arms around his neck and deepen the kiss for a few moments before pulling back for air, panting softly and blushing deeply as I look up at him with wide eyes.

He leans down and gently rests his forehead against mine, smiling down at me softly, his eyes looked softer, less broken than they had even a few days ago.

I smile back "what was that for...?" I ask softly, he chuckles a little and only leans down and pulls me into another kiss, I cant help but kiss back, this kiss less desperate, less worrisome, more gentle and caring.

After a few warm close moments I once again pull back for air, my blush deepening but I smile up at him softly, leaning up on my toes again and softly laying a kiss to the end of his nose before my eyes widen sadly, I could hear the faintest bit of music.

He stops smiling seeing my reaction and he frowns worriedly "what's wrong?" He asks worriedly, tears actually come to my eyes and I wrap my arms around his middle, hugging close to him and trying to contain my tears.

"Music..." is all I could manage before he wraps his arms around me tightly, holding my close as he frowns, his hearts sinking sadly, I grip the back of his jacket tightly.

"I don't want to go yet...I don't want to leave you alone" I murmur shakily, his arms tighten around me and I sigh shakily "don't you dare do anything stupid until I get back ok? No running off and having fun with out me" I half joke, hearing him let out a sad chuckle.

"Thank you...for staying with me for so long...for helping me" he whispers, I look up to him as the music gets louder and louder, smiling up at him as brightly as I could manage "and thank you, you've saved me more than you could ever know, even before I knew you in person" I say softly, my vision starting to blur.

I lean up once more and place a soft kiss to his lips before pulling back, smiling through my tears up at him "be safe...please...It's all I ask" I say softly and I can see his mouth start to move but the music was too deafening and I close my eyes, more tears falling before I open them again to find myself in the darkness yet again.

I fall to my knees shakily, my whole body shaking from everything, I rub my face shakily with my sweater sleeve, wiping away my tears quickly before looking down to my tattoos as it burns a bit, the clocks minute hand changing to 7, and a small new tattoo joining the others, my eyes widen seeing its half of a heart, my heart sinks.

'What could that mean...?and...would I ever get to see The War Doctor again...? Hopefully'

I look up and around, frowning seeing I'm still in the darkness, I slowly stand, wiping my face again to make sure no tears were left, I close my eyes for a few moments before opening them again only to find I'm still in the dark void.

I frown nervously but hope I'd jump back soon, I sit back down and sigh before trying to think of something to keep my mind off the nerves the void was giving me.

But as I start to think I think back to the moments before my jump and my eyes widen, my face turning deep red ' was that...did I actually kiss him...? And he kiss me back...? No, it was probably just him thanking me for helping him...I mean he's going to meet the other Rose soon, and then after she's gone he'd have River...' I frown at that thought, heart sinking.

'no, I cant do that again, he has a set future, I'm not gonna mess with that...shit...' I sigh and lay my head down in my hands sadly 'cant do anything like that again...I need to just give him some space...give myself some space too...but how can I? I'll just jump to another of his lives now...I cant stop it' I groan softly in frustration.

Only to jump in fright as someone suddenly stops infront of me and looked down, I look up quickly and realize I'm sitting on the side of the street, and infront of me is none other than Martha Jones "you ok?" She asks, I nod dumbly as I just stare at her, she nods upwards "why don't you get inside someplace before the storm hits" she says and pulls out a few bills and hands them to me.

I'm confused for a moment before glancing down to realize I'm in my old warn hoodie and shorts with paint flecks on them.

I smile softly and shake my head, slowly standing and handing the bills back "thank you so much, but I don't need them, I'll be ok, just waiting for a friend to show up" I say softly, she smiles softly and nods "ok, be careful" she says before heading off.

I hesitate for a moment before following after her at a distance, she didn't recognize me so this must be Smith and Jones, first time Martha will meet The Doctor, I keep in sight of her and cant help but giggle a little seeing a tall scruffy haired man in a pinstripe brown suit stop in front of her, take off his tie while making eye contact with her before he walking away from her.

I hesitate before running after him, turning the corner just in time to grab his arm, he jumps in surprise and spins around to see me, he smiles widely and suddenly pulls me into a kiss, I blush and stiffen for a moment before kissing back, pulling away after a moment and giggling softly "better get back, I'm heading inside" I say and he chuckles "be careful, and don't do anything I wouldn't" I nod and smile more, stepping back towards the street.

"When am I ever not careful?" I joke and he rolls his eyes and waves as I head off toward the hospital quickly, once inside I hesitate, glancing around and giggling seeing the little shop.

I head up to the front desk "Hi, I'm here to see my...my friend, he came in only a few days ago at most, names John Smith, mid 30s and hair that defies gravity" I explain, the smile never leaving my face as the receptionist looks at me confused, I giggle softly.

"Sorry...inside joke me and him share" she slowly nods before looking him up, she tells me what his room number is and I head up the stairs quickly, smirking a little as I pass one of the slabs, bumping into its shoulder on purpose before smiling innocently up at it.

Then I head on again, getting to The Doctors room fairly quickly only to stop down the hall as I see Martha and the other med students in his room, I realized she saw me earlier and would find it odd for me to be there, I'd have to wait until they left, I sigh softly and find a chair, sitting down and pulling out my phone and headphones before turning on some music.

I close my eyes and get lost in the music, happily humming along until there's a big jolt and loud lightning, I yelp as I fall off the chair and onto the floor, I groan and sit up, putting my phone and headphones away quickly before standing, gripping onto the wall as the shaking continues for a few more moments then everything stops, I smile softly seeing out the window we were on the moon.

I look around before moving to the window, smiling wider than before as I look out at the moon rocks and dust covering the rock.

I sigh when I hear people starting to panic, people start running from their rooms in fear, I quickly make my way through the crowds to The Doctors room, I step inside and through the people freaking out to stand next to the curtain as The Doctor changed into his suit, I cross my arms and watch Martha and her colleague looking out the window, Martha sees my face in the reflection and looks around to me confused.

I just smile softly and wave to her before the curtain next to me is wrenched open and The Doctor steps out, interrupting their talk, I roll my eyes but keep smiling as he starts to ramble happily, I could tell he was enjoying this.

I motion for the other two to not make him turn around before I slowly sneak up behind him as he continues to talk.

"Martha, what have we got? Is there a balcony on this floor, or a veranda?" He asks as I get closer, Martha watches him curiously as she replies.

"By the patient lounge, yeah" and as hes about to speak to her he turns and I lunge forward, nearly tackling him back into the wall in a hug, laughing a little at his shocked yelp, I smile up at him happily "Hi" I giggle softly and he laughs, hugging me back happily.

"Was wondering where you'd gotten too" he says and kisses my forehead gently before turning his attention back to Martha, I let him go to move back but he grabs my hand firmly and keeps me right next to him, though you wont see me complaining.

"You fancy going out?" He asks her seriously and she slowly stands back up straight, staring at both of us in confusion "okay" she agrees.

"We might die" he says with a hint of drama.

"We might not" she retorts, I snicker softly and gently squeeze his hand "I like her already" I say softly, The Doctor glancing at me and smiling softly before he smiles brightly at Martha "Good. Come on" he says before quickly making his way towards the doors, pulling me along with him.

As we pass Martha's fellow student The Doctor points to her "Not her, she'd slow us down" he says offhandedly, I gently smack his arm "hey! Rude! and not ginger" I say and he smirks but continues on.

As we walk my mind starts to wander again, leading me back to just how ridiculous this whole thing was 'I'm in a fictional world, with a fictional man, who I have the biggest crush on...' my cheeks burn at that thought 'it's true...shit...' I frown now and my shoulders slump a little.

The Doctor seems to notice and he stops, pulling me to a stop as well, leaning down a little to meet my eyes worriedly.

"Rose? What's wrong?" He asks softly, Martha continuing on a bit to give us privacy, I blush deeper and shake my head quickly, trying to smile up at him.

"It's nothing...I'm just...thinking, I think I need to sit down for a bit...you two keep going, I'll catch up later ok?" He frown at that and shakes his head, tightening his hold on my hand worriedly.

"I don't think that's the best idea" he comments but I shrug "I'm just going to slow you down, and you need to figure out what's going on before we suffocate" I say softly.

He seems reluctant but I smile more and let go of his hand, gently pushing him towards Martha "go have your fun sand shoes, I'll be ok, I promise" I say softly, he huffs "they aren't sand shoes" he grumbles but nods, softly kissing my forehead before he heads off.

I watch him go before he's out of sight, I sigh softly, shoulders slumping as I start to wander quietly.

'I've been with him for almost two months now I think...but I still have no answers...how did I get here? Why am I here? It cant be good for his timeline to suddenly have a new factor...and...he keeps kissing me...' I subconsciously touch my lips softly at that thought, burning flowing through my cheeks.

'Maybe I'm here for a specific reason...? Maybe I'm supposed to save someone? Or do something to make sure he keeps saving people...like with The War Doctor, I helped him through his regeneration and after...but did It really help him much? He would have been alright without me there, he had been in the show...' I frown softly and drop my hands into my pockets.

I sigh softly and shake my head sadly 'what if Ive been brought here to get at The Doctor somehow...maybe the Time Lords? They aren't exactly the nicest of people, and they seem to enjoy hurting him...or maybe...maybe The Master..? He's a genius, he could probably find a way to steal someone from another universe...or...The Daleks..? There's so many enemy's that could figure this out...'

'But again...the kissing...he seems to care for me a lot...but what about the other Rose...and River...? He's supposed to love them, I cant ruin things...'

I rub my eyes a bit and look around, a depressing mood hitting me at those thoughts, that maybe I was just here to cause trouble for the alien.

I turn a corner and stiffen seeing the old woman walking away from me with the two slabs following her, I gulp and quickly hide in an office nervously, my heart racing, I couldn't get caught by her, I'd be killed, by her or her slabs.

I stay hidden in that office for a while, trying to stay calm 'should I go down to the main floor and let the Judoon scan me? Then I could hide with the other humans there, away from her...'

My eyes widen as I realize something, she hadn't killed the head doctor yet...I could still save him, I stand from my hiding place behind the desk and rush to the door, listening to make sure no ones outside before I sneak away quickly, finding a nurse I stop her, gently grabbing her arm.

"Please tell me where Mr...um...shoot the head doctor?" I ask quickly, my hands shaking, she frowns nervously "M-Mr. stoker..?" She asks and I nod quickly, she nods down the hall "he's one floor down just down the hall" she says before rushing off, I yell a thank you after her before sprinting off 'could I get there in time?'

I run down the stairs quickly, my eyes widening seeing the two slabs marching towards the doctors door, I look around frantically, seeing a chair I grab it, holding it up so the legs are pointing forwards before I charge at the slabs, managing to knock them away, both crashing onto each other on the floor, I throw the chair at them before wrenching the door open.

I glare at the old woman who's smirking, Mr. Stokers looking at me in confusion "what do you want? It's a bit late to sign for anything" he says, flustered.

I grab a pencil from his desk as the alien looks at me confused, I jump behind her and wrap my arm around her throat tightly, she gasps and grips my arm as I press the pencil against her throat, smirking a little at taking her so by surprise.

I smile at Mr. Stoker "I'd suggest you get out and run downstairs. Now sir, she's trying to kill you" I say seriously, the Plasmavore I'm holding looks shocked and almost scared, Mr. SToker stares wide eyed, I groan.

"MOVE IT!" I yell at him, he jumps into action, running out of the room as fast as he can as she hisses in anger "how did you know?" She growls angrily, I smirk widely at her in the reflection of the window.

"You could say I have a bit of a gift of foresight, I'd suggest you go and help your two friends out there, I think they are stuck under that chair" I smile, pressing the pencil farther into her neck, just enough to draw blood and for her to flinch before I drop the pencil and sprint out of the room.

I sprint down the stairs with a racing heart 'holy shit did I just really attack her?! But I saved someone!' I cheer mentally, only to come around the corner into the lobby just as The Judoon are entering the building, I quickly move back into the hallway shakily.

I take a deep breath before quickly moving into the lobby cautiously, trying to keep out of the thugs sight, glancing up and smiling seeing The Doctor and Martha up on the next floor hidden, I meet The Doctor's eyes and smile more before I yelp as I'm grabbed and shoved against the wall by one of the Judoons, I wince and glare up at them "you really are thick..." I murmur as he starts scanning me.

What I dont see is The Doctors look of horror as he gets up to try and get to me but Martha pulls him back down.

I wait for it to write the X on my hand but suddenly the Judoon exclaims "non-human" my eyes widen, heart dropping into the pit of my stomach "what...?"

He steps back and goes for his gun, I yelp and take off, taking the corridor I had come from and running back up the stairs as fast as I could, involuntary tears stinging my eyes as I run, hearing the Judoon downstairs says they found one and were sending some others up after me.

I start looking through each window I pass into the labs, looking for Martha and The Doctor desperately, I sigh in relief when I hear running behind me, only to see The Doctor and Martha charging towards me, a slab following after them, my eyes widen and as they pass The Doctor grabs my hand and pulls me along with them.

"Why is a slab following you?!" I yelp, Martha reply's breathlessly.

"I found the alien the Judoon are looking for! She was drinking blood from someone!" my eyes widen and heart sinks more, I had saved Mr. Stoker but it didnt stop her.

I try to keep the tears from falling as we run, the slab still close behind, I yelp as I'm pulled harshly into the x ray room, I let go of The Doctors hand and run into the glass walled room with the controls with Martha as The Doctor closes and Sonics the door closed before running to the machine and working on it as fast as he could.

"When I say 'now' press the button" he says quickly "but I dont know which one!" Martha exclaims in panic.

I quickly move to stand next to the large yellow button, my hands shaking badly as I nod to The Doctor, the slab slamming against the door still, I grab Martha's hand and pull her behind me protectively, knowing I had a better chance of surviving this amount of radiation if it got through the glass than she does.

She grabs onto my arm shakily and I keep my eyes on the door, waiting for only a moment before the slab bashes the door down, Martha yelps and hides behind me just as The Doctor yells "Now!"

I quickly slam my hand down onto the yellow button and the room lights up brightly, I watch as both The Doctor and the slab are lit up, The Doctors skeleton showing through as I watch in awe, it felt so strange to be here in person.

I sigh in relief as the slab hits the floor, still and dead, I relax shakily and move to the doorway, Martha trying to stop me nervously

"What did you do?" She asks amazed.

"Increased the radiation by 5,000%, killed him dead" he reply's, watching the slab in triumph, I can't help but smile as Martha watches him worriedly, pulling me back behind the glass again and I sigh.

"But isn't that going to kill you?" She asks worriedly, I shake my head as he speaks again.

"Nah, its only roentgen radiation, we used to play with roentgen bricks in the nursery" he says and looks to us "its safe for you to come out, Ive absorbed it all" he remarks, looking back down at the slab again.

"All I need to do is expel it" he babbles a bit and I can't help but laugh a bit as I step out of the glass room after Martha, she looks back at me confused before her eyes widen as she seems me up close "hang on...you were the girl outside this morning...you were waiting for a friend..." she says confused, I nod softly "ya sorry about that, I was waiting to see when and where he'd show up" I say and nod to the alien in the room as he starts to bounce up and down.

She slowly nods as she takes in the information before looking to The Doctor confused.

"See, if I concentrate, shift the radiation out of my body and into one spot" he says, grunting and still bouncing, I cover my mouth with my hands to try and suppress my laughter as I watch him, Martha cautiously walking around to stand infront of him.

"Say, my left shoe" he says, lifting his foot and twisting it this way and that as he continues to bounce "here we go, here we go, easy does it" he grunts, ignoring my giggles and snickering.

"Out, out, out, out, out, out, out! Ow ow ow!" He cry's, I jump back out of the way as Martha stares like hes gone insane, thought who could blame her.

"Itches itches itches itches! Hold on!" He pulls his shoe off and slams it down into the garbage can next to him, I have to turn my back to hide my giggling now as Martha just continues to stare with wide eyes.

"Done" he breaths and she replies instantly "your completely mad, the both of you" she says softly, I couldn't agree more with her honestly.

"You're right, I look daft with one shoe" he says seriously before ripping his other shoe and sock off and tossing them into the bin as well.

"Barefoot on the moon" he clicks his teeth and Martha scoffs a little in disbelief, I giggle more and keep my back to them, trying to compose myself, not hearing The Doctor walk up behind me before he wraps one arm around me, pulling me against his side and softly kissing the side of my head, I blush deeply and look to Martha, hoping to draw attention away from myself.

She slowly walks to the slabs body nervously "so what is that thing...? And where's it form, planet Zovirax?" She asks and knees down, The Doctor lets me go and comes over to her, kneeling down on the other side of the slab.

"It's just a slab, they're called slabs, basic slave drones, ya see. Solid leather all the way through. Someone has got one hell of a fetish" he comments, I roll my eyes a bit as he stands to grab his sonic from the machine.

"But it was that woman, Miss Finnegan. It was working for her, just like a servant" I nod softly, coming over to stand next to The Doctor as he frowns at his sonic

"My sonic screwdriver" he mourns, I gently lay my hand on his arm comfortingly "its ok, we'll get you a new one once home" I reassure softly.

"She was one of the patients, but..." The Doctor interrupts her as he sadly messes with the broken and burnt out sonic.

"Burnt out my sonic screwdriver" he whines, I sigh softly as she continues.

"She had this straw, like some sort of vampire" she says a bit distressed at the memory.

"I love my sonic screwdriver" he continues to whine, I groan softly and lean up, taking it from his hands and stuffing it into my hoodie pocket "Doctor focus, we can fix it later" I say seriously and he frowns before sighing and nodding, facing Martha again.

"Sorry...you called me Doctor" he beams, I roll my eyes and smile at her softly.

"Anyways...Miss Finnegan is the alien. She was drinking another patients blood" she says seriously.

"Funny time to take a snack. You'd think she'd be hiding" he comments as he thinks, I smirk a little and cross my arms, watching and waiting for it to click in his mind.

"Unless...no...yes! That's it! Wait a minute...Yes! Shape-changer, internal shape-changer" he yells, making me and Martha jump a bit even though I knew it was coming, he was just so loud.

"She wasn't drinking blood, she was assimilating it" he explains quickly, it all clicking for him now.

"If she can assimilate a humans blood, mimic the biology, she'll register as human...we've got to find her and show the Judoon. Come on!" He yells, grabbing my hand again and yanking me after him as he rushes out of the room, we make if a few hallways before we hear a door opening, I quickly usher us into a corner and kneel down as soon the second slab marches past.

I sigh softly once its out of sight "that's the thing about slabs" The Doctor starts.

"They always travel in pairs" I say just as he does before we smile at each other, Martha stares at me strangely and I smile back "sorry...I um...lets just say I have a bit of foresight in some things" I say and shrug softly, she nods hesitantly and looks up to The Doctor.

"What about you two?" She asks, I glance to her curiously, the conversation already different than the show.

"What about us?" He asks.

"haven't you got a partner? Or backup? I mean she doesn't seem to be alien, do you have an alien partner? Or team? You must have if you know so much" she says and I shake my head as he replies., trying to hold in another blush.

"Humans! We're suck on the moon, running out of air, with Judoon and a bloodsucking criminal, and your asking personal questions" he scoffs, I roll my eyes and gently smack his arm "again, rude, and not ginger" I scold lightly as we get up quickly.

"I like that ' Humans', I'm still not convinced you're an alien" Martha says softly, my heart sinks as I remember I had scanned as non-human.

I step out of the alcove after The Doctor as he was still holding tightly to my hand, only to come face to face with a group of Judoon, my eyes widen as the one infront scans The Doctors forehead before stating "non-human" I tighten my grip on his hand shakily as he stares in shock for a moment, Martha looking shocked.

Before she can say anything I grab her hand with my free one "Run!" I yell, pulling them after me quickly as the Judoon pulls their guns out, we barely make it around the corner before the lasers blast scorch marks into the wall.

I can hear them running after us so I shove the door into the stairwell open and we start running up the stairs as fast as we could, I pull us through a doorway and lock the door behind us before following after the other two as they move down the hallway quickly, I catch up as they are talking about the lack of oxygen, and it hits me then, in not struggling much with the lack there of...

I frown nervously and stop a few feet from them as I get lost in thought 'why wont it affecting me now? But it did when I was on the Ark...?' I jump as a hand is suddenly waved in front of my face, I look up to meet The Doctors concerned eyes, he looked almost like he could tell what I was thinking, but I smile up at him, hoping to reassure him.

"Sorry, I'm ok, just thinking" I say softly, I can tell he isn't convinced but we don't have time to talk about it now, I nod to Martha and he nods quickly, facing her.

"Where did you see Miss Finnegan?" He asks and she stands and heads off down the hallway quickly "this way"

I follow after them quickly, glancing around us nervously, remembering the Judoon now are looking for both of us and the Plasmavore.

I stuff my hands into my pockets nervously as we enter an office, idly playing with the burnt our sonic in my pocket quietly, I frown sadly seeing legs sticking out from behind the desk, I quietly step back out of the room, I couldn't look at them...

I lean against the wall outside the office, my hands shaking in my pockets 'I failed to save them...I thought I'd done it...stupid, didn't even consider she'd try again...'

I look up when they leave the room, The Doctor having his hand on the back of his head as he thinks, I look down quietly and follow after them, ignoring everything that's happening around me until I hear the Judoon smash through doors down the hall, my eyes widen and I look up nervously towards them.

I turn to head down the hall only to see The Doctor kissing Martha, I blush nervously and quickly make my way down the hallway he would take after he let her go, I knew it would happen, but I couldn't stand there and watch it.

I jump hearing the alien in question running up behind me, I keep moving until he grabs my arm gently, I stop and look up at him, keeping my face emotionless as I look up at him "we need to keep moving Doctor" I say softly but he gently grabs my face between his hands, meeting my eyes as he speaks.

"Rose, it was nothing, it meant nothing" I nod softly but shrug "I know, but I don't have any reason to stop you, its your life" I say softly, he frowns softly and shakes his head "No, you don't understand-" he says but I move one hand up and out of my pockets, gently placing my finger over his mouth to stop him talking.

"Shush, we need to stop the Plasmavore" I say seriously, he looks torn for a moment as I drop my hand back down before he leans down and pulls me into an almost desperate kiss, I blush and can't help but kiss back gently before pulling back "now go on, I'll be there if you need me" I say seriously and he nods, rushing off to the MRI room, I follow him to the hallway before waiting outside.

I know what's supposed to happen in there, and I know if I went in with him I'd probably mess it up and cause more damage, so I wait outside the doors nervously, glancing behind me towards where I know the Judoon will come from, and then to the doors into the room the two aliens are in...'well...I suppose the two other aliens...'

I stuff my hands into my pockets and start to pace, hearing The Doctor still babbling inside, getting the space vampire to tell him her whole plan, I couldn't deny that he's a genius, especially when getting people to talk.

I shiver remembering he's going to die...well sort of...but it still made me feel nauseous, I yelp hearing crashing behind me, I run behind a screen left in the hall as the Judoon storm into the hallway and into the MRI room, I wait a moment as I listen, hearing The Doctor's body hit the ground, wincing knowing he'd probably be pretty bruised after this adventure.

I whimper a bit as I hear the Judoon say "confirmation, deceased" I cover my mouth shakily, I know he'd be ok, but holy shit...

I move to the doorway, breathing shakily as I see him laying there motionless on the ground, I look up as the thugs fry the last slab then the alarms go off, I cover my ears shakily as the Judoon destroy the old woman behind the glass shields.

Martha begs them to take care of the overloading MRI machine but they simply say their case has closed before they turn to leave, I yelp and jump out of their way, but as soon as they leave the room I sprint inside, my hands shaking as I kneel next to The Doctor, gripping the front of his suit.

"You idiot...Martha! Get in here now! He needs CPR" I say seriously and stand, she looks up to me worried "what are you going to do?" I move towards the machines quickly "I need to stop the machine from frying everyone on the planet, please just get him awake, and remember, two hearts!" I explain as fast as I can.

I look around shakily 'come on stupid! What did he do in the show!" I yell at myself mentally, the air getting worse and worse as she works on waking him up, and I hear her hit the ground just as The Doctors coughing harshly, I'm leaning against the controls, my whole body shaking as tears stream down my face, terror filling me as I try desperately to remember before I look around and my eyes land on the red wires connected to each other.

My eyes widen as I hear The Doctor behind me struggling to stand "R-Rose..." he coughs out, but I don't face him, stumbling to the wires quickly and gripping both sides, struggling to pull them apart but after struggling for a few more moments I manage to unhook them and I nearly sob in relief as the machine turns off, the electricity slowly fizzling out and disappearing, I collapse to the ground, shaking and crying in relief.

I close my eyes as I try to take in more oxygen only to find very little in the room, I curl up, my knees against my chest with my back against the wall, and my head in my hands as I start to have a panic attack, my whole body quaking in panic and adrenaline as I struggle to breath.

I feel someone moving closer and slump down beside me before arms encircle me, pulling me protectively to someone's chest, I struggle for a moment before a warmth flows over me and I relax a little shakily, leaning back against the Time Lord, my eyes tightly shut, I turn and grip onto his suit shakily, burying my face into his shoulder as more tears fall, he wraps his arms around me tightly.

It takes me a moment to calm down enough to remember what needed to happen, I shakily stand "w-we need to get to a window..." I say shakily, I motion for him to pick up Martha as I stumble to the door, my vision going in and out with dizziness from the lack of oxygen.

But I pretend that I'm alright and follow after The Doctor down the hall slowly and shakily, staying behind him so he didn't see me nearly fall multiple times.

I lean heavily on the doorway of the room we get to, The Doctor moving to stand in front of the window, he starts muttering before smiling "Rose...its raining on the moon" he laughs before there's a blinding light.

I collapse in the doorway then, exhausted and unable to stand any longer, I close my eyes as all I could feel was dizziness, not even the floor under me, and soon everything goes dark.

I groan tiredly as I start to wake up, in a comfy bed, with something heavy over me, I frown tiredly and move a little to look over only to see The Doctor, still in his blue suit, ontop of the covers and softly snoring, his arm laying over me, my face flushes as I watch him with wide eyes nervously as I start to wake up fully.

But as I watch him I realize something odd, this shouldn't shock me much anymore, when I stayed with the 9th Doctor just after he regenerated, he couldn't sleep alone...had this just become a habit of ours...?

I blush deeper and look away, hiding my face away in my pillow 'this isn't good...what have I done to the timeline...what do I do now...? He seems too attached to me now...and me to him..' I frown sadly and close my eyes, gripping the pillow tightly.

'I have to find a way to fix this...or stop it somehow...he cant...he's...wait...' I frown more 'what happened with the other Rose, the Rose that was supposed to be here...to be with him...he doesn't look sad when he says my name...but he's supposed to love her...and what about that kiss after he kissed Martha...like he was proving a point to me, showing me the kiss with Martha didn't mean anything to him...'

I sigh sadly, shaking my head a little 'I have to end this now...I have to let him down...But...what about my...no, I cant be selfish, I have to do this, this world isn't meant for me, he isn't meant for me, hes meant for the real Rose, and River...'

I scrunch my eyes tighter closed as tears want to fall ' No, no crying, it will only worry and confuse him, I have to tell him I'm not interested...I have to come up with something..'

My heart clenches and sinks to the pit of my stomach sadly, I take a shaky breath in, trying to stay composed until I stiffen as the arm over my middle moves, gently pulling me back against his chest, I gasp as he lays a soft kiss against the back of my neck, the blush returning full force.

I try to calm down but it seems he noticed something was wrong "Rose...? What's the matter mon amour?" He whispers softly, still half asleep, I cover my face to hide as my blush deepens "N-nothing..." I murmur, voice shaking a little still from my embarrassment and nervousness.

He frowns and gently rolls me over, looking over me worriedly "your shaking...what's wrong?" He asks, now seriously worried, I shake my head and sit up, moving to the edge of the bed quickly "r-really its nothing..." I mumble quickly, going to stand but he sits up and gently grabs my arm to stop me, making me stay sitting but I keep my back to him nervously.

He try's to get me to turn but I couldn't face him, not right now, he gently takes my hand in his worriedly "please tell me...maybe I can help" He says softly, I frown sadly at that and shake my head "no...this is my problem..." I murmur.

He tightens his hold on my hand "Rose, let me help" he pleads, moving to sit down next to me on the edge of the bed, I keep my head down, terrified of his reaction, but I knew he wouldn't stop pestering me.

I look down at our joined hand sadly before gently pulling my hand away, he frowns worriedly but lets me hesitantly, I take a deep breath to try and calm myself before speaking, keeping my eyes down on the ground.

"I...We...we cant do this...I cant do this...what ever this even is..." I murmur and he looks more concerned and confused now.

"What do you mean?" He asks soflty, watching me closely.

"I mean...I know your future...and your past...Most of it anyways...but...that comes with a horrible burden...I can't do anything to change your future...but I...I think I've messed up..' I admit shakily, keeping my shaking hands in my lap.

"Messed up? How? You've done nothing wrong" he says more confused, struggling to keep his hand from taking mine, seeing them shake and my leg begin to bounce with nerves.

I smile sadly, a few tears manage to escape and I quickly wipe them away before he could see them, taking a shaky breath.

"I...you...your meant for someone...meant to be with someone...and I'm getting in the way of that, I'm changing your timeline...I cant do that anymore...I...I need to...I dont know...to be dropped off someplace...someplace to give you space..." I whisper.

His hearts break at that as he watches me on the verge of breaking down.

"Rose...that's not how this works" he says and goes to take my hand but I stand quickly, stuffing them into my pockets quickly and keeping my back to him, more tears filling my eyes "it is how this works...I know a few things would change with me here, but this is way too much...I'm changing things at a dangerous level, and I cant keep doing that...it will result only in something going wrong" I state firmly, though my voice wavered as I spoke.

He gulps sadly before he stands, hesitating as he watches me heartbroken before he makes up his mind and he comes up, I stiffen hearing him coming closer before he snakes his hands between my arms and sides, pulling me back into a hug with my back to his chest, I gasp and more tears manage to escape, I struggle against him a little and let out a whimper.

"P-please...stop making this so hard..." I plead shakily, he gently tightens his arms around me and leaned down to leave a soft kiss against my cheek, frowning seeing my tears.

"Rose, listen to me, please" he pleads softly, I hesitate, torn between what I knew needed to happen, and what I wanted to happen, slowly I relent, not struggling against him, but also staying silent and stiff.

"You haven't messed up anything" he says softly, trying to soothe me but it doesn't help "you once told me...along time ago that..you'd one day explain it to me, so explain it to me, tell me what's made you think this isn't what's supposed to happen?" He asks softly, I stiffen more and stare at the floor shakily 'could I tell him...? Would he even believe me...?' I take a shuddering breath in before giving in, shoulders slumping more, I was too exhausted to fight anymore.

"You...your life...I know it so well...from your first incarnation...to your later lives...I know them well because...because I'm not from this world...I wasnt born here, in my world there were no aliens, no Tardis, no Unit, no Torchwood, no you...except in this...this show...a tv show" I murmur shakily, tightly closing my eyes, his arms tighten around me gently.

"Your whole life was a story in that show...a world made up by someone in the 1950s and 60s...the show started in 1963...and it was a good show...but...but that's how I know so much...how I know what needs to happen on many of our adventures...because I've seen it all before...that..." I let out a shaky breath, gripping onto his arms around me shakily, needing stability right now.

"That includes your future...at least some of it...including your...your wife..." I whisper out shakily and I can feel him stiffen behind me, he tightens his arms around me protectively and shakes his head seriously.

"Then that show is wrong" he states, sure of himself.

I shake my head sadly "no...its not...so little has changed with me being here...I cant let it change any more, there's so much you have to see, people to save and get to know...I cant get in the way of that.." I murmur, starting to feel numb at this point, all my emotional energy draining as I speak, the dread being replaced with acceptance, acceptance that I had to do this, I had to break his hearts...and mine.

I gulp shakily as he presses his face into my neck softly, laying another kiss there, I whimper sadly "please stop...you'll only be hurt in the end.." I whisper pleadingly but he tightens his arms around me for a moment before he seems to decide on something and he suddenly spins me around, keeping one arm around my waist to keep me here and his other moves up to raise my head gently.

I try to pull away but he stops me gently "Rose.." he says softly, getting me to face him but I do everything I can to not meet his eyes, I couldn't, I'd only break down faster.

I lay my hands on his chest shakily and close my eyes, praying he'd let me go, praying he'd listen to me, but he just gently brushes my hair back before leaning closer and pulling me into a deep loving kiss, I stiffen more, something felt different, like someone was suddenly inside my mind, my heart rate speeds up as suddenly a wave of emotions washes over me, heartbreak, pain, fear, worry, brokenness, but at the same time, happiness, excitement, love.

Such a deep love I could feel it like it was aching in every one of my bones.

I realize with a deep blush what hes doing, hes showing me himself, his emotions, I cant help the tears that fall as I lean up and kiss back, gripping the front of his suit shakily as I get an idea, in my mind I gently press back against his mind, hoping it would work, and soon I can feel it, like a door had opened for me into his mind and I release all of my emotions to him.

Fear, pain, worry, but also hope, and love and sadness all at once.

He tightens his arm around me but I pull back after a moment, panting shakily and looking up at him with wide eyes, my heart racing as I realize there are tears in his eyes, but hes smiling widely, his free hand comes up to wipe a few of my tears away before he leans down and gently pecks my lips again for just a moment before saying in a whisper.

"You wonderful, beautiful caring girl" he whispers before he suddenly pulls his left hand up from around my waist and my eyes widen seeing an old gold ring there on his ring finger, it had obviously been warn for years and years, I stare at it in shock.

He's smiling widely, more tears coming to his eyes "I'm already married, I have been for hundreds of years you silly girl..." he says softly, I just gape at him open mouthed, my heart and mind racing.

"But...what...? How...? Why...? To who?" I ask breathlessly, he smiles widely and shakes his head "who do you think? Your supposed to be clever" he teases softly before cupping my cheek with his left hand before pulling me up into another kiss, my shock starts to wear off a little and I close my eyes and kiss back, gripping the front of his jacket tighter.

But after not too long I shakily pull back, keeping a white knuckled hold on his jacket as I look him up and down, just trying to process this all, hes still smiling softly down at me.

"I suppose that was a bit of a big spoiler...but I couldnt do anything else to convince you" he says, wrapping his arms around my waist again I just stare up at him in awe.

"Why me...?" I ask after a few moments before he suddenly laughs, shaking his head and smiling down at me happily "because you are the kindest most caring person I have ever met, you've always been there for me when I needed you, no matter where or when, youve always been there to cheer me up, youve always been there to calm me down, youve always known what I need, or how to help, and you always want to help" he states matter a factly.

I watch his face as he speaks, quiet and amazed, not a hint of a lie in his eyes, only happiness and excitement there, I slowly shake my head, frowning.

"I cant be all that...look what I did today, I wasn't any help, the only reason I knew what to do was because of the show...I wouldnt have had any clue what to do if I hadn't watched it.." I say soflty, he only smiles more.

"Why is that a bad thing? Everyone gets knowledge from different places" he states but I shake my head and frown more.

"Mines less like learning and more just cheating..." I murmur, he sighs softly but shakes his head.

"Then look at what you were just doing" He says, I frown in confusion at that.

He only smiles gently "you were prepared to give up everything, everything you know to make sure I'd be safe in the future, you were ready to tear yourself apart for me, you were doing it yourself because you thought it was better for me, would be better for me in the future" he says softly, leaning down so our eyes were level.

"I haven't met many that would do that for anyone, let alone someone they haven't known for long" he says softly, I blush and look down nervously but he gently makes me look up to him again.

"You've met the...The War Doctor right...?" He asks softly, I blush more and nod softly.

"Yeah...then you regenerated..." I murmur, he nods softly and smiles more "you were there for me when I had no one else, I...I believed you were dead then...those...those rings I kept on a string around my neck were ours...I found yours on the battlefield" he admits sadly, I can see his eyes darken sadly, I frown softly and hesitate before reaching up and gently cupping his face in my hands.

He looks down to meet my eyes now and I give him a watery smile "this is really real...? This isn't a dream of mine...? I'm not still unconscious on the hospital floor?" I ask softly, he smiles more and lets out a laugh, nodding and leaning into my touch more.

"This is real, really really real.." he murmurs, turning his head to softly kiss the palm of my left hand, I blush more and gently brush my thumb over his lips softly before I lean up and kiss him again, closing my eyes and opening my mind to him, feeling his warm presence there as he kisses me back, I wrap my arms around his neck and pull him closer shakily.

I press against his mind softly and he seems hesitant, nervous but I press closer and after a moment one of his hands reaches up and gently presses two fingers to my temple, and suddenly I'm standing in darkness, I panic for a moment as I look around, fear shooting through me before there's a sudden warmth against my hand, I look down and my eyes widen seeing a bright blue light snaking around my hand and up my arm.

I shiver a little and watch the light as it expands, wisps flitting off in a few different directions, pooling near my feet, some wisps floating around me protectively for a moment before the lights all pull together to form into The Doctor, standing infront of me and smiling brightly before pulling me into a hug, I hug him back tightly and smile more "what's happened...?" I ask soflty.

He smiles more and kisses my forehead gently "we are in your mind.." he says softly, pulling back and disappearing into the wisps and curls of light, I smile more and blush a bit as one of the lights wraps around my arm with the tattoos, gently wrapping up my arm as the other lights explore a bit around me curiously before I feel a gently tugging and I start to walk forward, The Doctors lights staying close as we are soon in a dark hallway, doorways going down each side.

"If there is anything you dont want me to see, just close those doors" he says softly, I nod a little and a few doors close off around us before the lights gently pull me along down the carpeted hallway before we get to a deep blue door, the lights move up and press against it so I gently open it only to get another wave of emotions hitting me.

I gasp and stumble back a little, the lights quickly catch me, wrapping around me protectively and making sure I don't fall, I sigh shakily as I just stare through the now wide open door with wide eyes, I hear a soft chuckle in my ear so I turn to see The Doctor behind me, his arms wrapped around me before he nods to the door.

"Step through" he encourages me quietly, I hesitate and look between the door and him nervously for a moment before slowly stepping through, I shiver a little as a wave warmth flows over me when I step through into a different hallway, though its much much longer than mine was, almost so long you couldnt see to the end, doors every few feet on both sides of the walls, I stare in wonder down the yellow hewed hallway before I look up to see The Doctor standing next to me and gently taking my hand.

His image seems to be flickering in here, and I smile more as his face changes rapidly through his other older faces, seeming to cycle every few moments, like all of him is here at once.

I look down to his hand only for my eyes to widen seeing I had turned into bright golden light, and with his hand in mine some of the golden light travels and winds up his arm softly, I blush in shock before looking up to him again.

He's smiling fondly down at me before gesturing down the hallway "this is my mind..." he nods back to the door behind us and I turn to see the door we had passed through "and through there is your mind...we're connected, we can walk the others mind like a hallway as you see" he says softly, I look back up to him, my mind reeling at this information.

He gently squeezes my hand "your safe in here, you will always be safe in here, and soon, youll be able to start coming here without touch" he says softly, pulling my golden hand up and softly kissing the back of it, the golden light flowing up over his face and through his hair, I blush as he chuckles a bit, leaning down and kissing me softly, I close my eyes and after a few moments I pull back for breath.

We are back in his room, I stare up at him with wide eyes as he just smiles down at me softly, he gently brushes more hair behind my ear softly "I dont want you to worry about us, ever again" he says softly, I blush more and take a deep breath in.

"But...this changes so much..." I whisper, still having a hard time accepting this, he just smiles softy and kisses my forehead, my mind filling again with his emotions, as if the door into his mind was now just open to me, I watch him curiously and gently press against his mind again and an instant warmth shoots through me and he smiles more.

"That's enough for now, your going to wear yourself out too quickly if you keep pushing" he says softly, I slowly nod.

"O-ok...but...how...?" I murmur, my mind felt like it was buffering trying to load all of this new info, he chuckles softly and suddenly he picks me up bridal style, I yelp and wrap my arms around his neck in fear for a moment, but that warmth returns to my mind and helps relax me.

I sigh softly and try to hold back a yawn, but he notices and smiles gently, softly kissing my cheek "now lets get you back to sleep, we can talk more when your rested up" he says, moving back to his...or I suppose our bed, I blush at the thought as he gently sets me down.

"Do you need anything before sleeping?" He asks softly, I hesitate for a moment before slowly nodding, scooting over so he could join me, he beams and crawls in beside me.

I move closer and curl up against his chest as he wraps his arms around me, I grip fistfuls of his suit coat tiredly "don't leave...please..." I whisper as my eyes close involuntarily.

He smiles softly and kisses my forehead "sleep, I wont go anywhere" he promises softly, my grip loosens just a little before I fall into a deep exhausted sleep.


So what did you think?

A lot has happened and now her feelings are known, what do you think will happen when she wakes up and really processes everything?

Will she be able to handle it? And what about this new mental link? Will she be able to withstand what will happen next? Or will she have to close that door to him?

I honestly have so many ideas buzzing around in my head right now, I'm off to write the next chapter!

I hope you all enjoyed this as much as I did, please R and R, it does wonders for my inspiration.

Oh! Also! If you have any specific episodes you want me to do please comment them! And I'll add them to my list!

Love you all and drink some water!

~Rose~