I have returned! A very different person! XD
How are you all doing? It's been a while! I must apologize for being gone for so long, A ton of stuff has changed for my life recently.
First of all, I have come out as a trans guy! Big big change for me! I've known I was a guy since I was a child but I only recently had the chance to come out and start transitioning!
That being said, I'm still going to write this story! I'm not abandoning it, and I will still be writing it in first person, I just had to wait a while so that writing in a females perspective wouldn't trigger my dysphoria to badly.
And I still have a lot planned for this story.
The updates will still take time, and I do apologize for that, but I am writing other things at the same time now, as well as family stuff going on around it all.
I thank you all for your patience and I love you all! Thank you for sticking with me through all of this!
Replies:
To atrhoads05: Big Finish audios are absolutely allowed! I haven't listened to any yet but if one is suggested I'll listen and do the research around it :) (also I'm glad you liked it!) and thank you for understanding the break :D
To Artemis Sherwood: I'm so glad you enjoyed it! She absolutely loved being a beast, even if she feels a little guilty for it, I felt oddly free when writing it, it was so much fun! And thank you so much! Im so comfortable in who I am now :D
Now onto todays adventure!
(Also!! I have changed my mind and will actually have her meeting 13 at some point! I'm not sure when or where but that is now on the table :D)
Instead of waking up to a comfortable bed and boyfriend/husband, I wake up in a cold alleyway in the middle of a city, I groan as I roll onto my back, trying to ignore the shock of pain from the movement, staring up into the slightly cloudy sky.
'Really...? Not even a bed?' I sigh before getting to my feet, stretching a bit, moving slowly and carefully so as to not worsen the pain in my back and legs.
I walk to the end of the alley, looking out at the city streets curiously 'ok, when and where...' I step out and glance around at others around me, looking for hints, I smile a little seeing all of the flip phones.
'Ok, early 2000s then, judging by the phones and clothes, now to find out where'
I wander down the road, stuffing my hands into my sweatshirts pockets, continuing to look around myself for a while before I can see something sticking up above some buildings ahead of me.
I quickly get around the buildings and I can't help my smile as I come into the Cardiff Bay area, the large slanted building and the tall water tower.
I try to keep myself calm as I speed walk toward it, keeping my hands in my pockets to try and help me not to geek out.
The closer I get I can now see the Tardis parked right in front of it, between the water tower and the building, I smile wider and grab my phone out, taking a few pictures before I feel someone stop beside me and lay their arm over my shoulder casually.
I jump and look up with wide eyes, only to see the smirking face of Jack.
"Hey short stuff, what's a girl like you doing in a place like this?" He asks, I laugh and turn to hug him.
"Currently I'm just wandering" I say as I pull back, he smiles more "wandering? Get kicked out?" He jokes.
I snort in amusement, putting my phone back in my pocket and gently smacking his chest.
"No, If you must know, I just woke up about ten minutes ago in an alley" I say and shrug.
He instantly looks concerned "an alley?" I nod and shrug again.
"The hazards of not being able to control my jumps, I'm ok though, but I have a feeling you should get down to Torchwood before you come out of that box" I say, nodding to the Tardis.
He chuckles softly "how do you know I'm in there now?" He asks, I smirk and cross my arms.
"Don't tell anyone, but I'm just guessing, there's only a few times I've seen the Tardis in that location, now hurry before they see you" I say, gently shoving him towards the building.
He suddenly leans back against me and nearly goes limp "I don't know if I can, it seems gravity is increasing on me!" He says dramatically.
I gasp before laughing as I barely manage to keep him up "Jack! Come on you're gonna get us both into trouble!" I laugh, shoving him again as he laughs, grabbing my hand and pulling me into the art center building to get out of sight of the Tardis.
I laugh as we stop, gently smacking his chest again "that was no fair! You aren't allowed to Lilo and Stitch me!" I laugh as he smirks proudly.
"Hey! You made me sit down and watch those with you, I'm allowed to do anything I want after that" he retorts, I snort softly.
"Well, I haven't done that yet, but now I'm tempted to make it as insufferable as possible" I gently shove his shoulder.
He chuckles and opens his arms for a hug, I roll my eyes and hug him happily.
"Just cause you're hugging me doesn't mean you're gonna get away with this" I huff.
"Of course not short stuff" he snarks, I smile and pull back, pointing up at him.
"I'm gonna have to get you back for this, watch your back Harkness" I warn.
He smirks and sticks his hands in his pockets "not the first time I've heard that"
I start backing up towards the doors, smirking more "and probably not the first time you've heard it from me, and it definitely won't be the last, now get going before you're seen" I say, smiling more and waving before I step back out the doors.
"Stay safe short stuff!" I hear him call after me before the door shuts, I smirk more and step out into the slanting sunlight.
I sigh softly before looking toward the Tardis, smiling as I see a man step inside quickly and the doors closing.
I walk toward the Tardis, gently brushing my hand over her door before I smile wider and walk behind her "don't tell them" I whisper, smirking softly as she hums under my fingertips.
I pull out my phone quietly and check for any messages while I wait for them to pop out.
As I hear the door open I put my phone away, smiling more as I listen to them talk, Mickey asking about the Tardis.
Just before I'm about to step out from my hiding place I hear the music pick up, I curse mentally and decide to stay hidden, the music rising in volume quickly, and not a minute later my vision goes black, I sigh softly and rub my fingers through my now short hair, smiling a little in the relief of not being bugged by long hair.
I don't bother looking to the watch or to see if there were new tattoos, I could feel the slight burn so I knew they were there, I just didn't care enough at the moment to look.
Soon I blink and have to close my eyes as everything was so bright so suddenly, I cover my eyes and groan a little, rubbing them before opening my eyes.
My jaw drops as I see a very familiar red brick house, 13 Bannerman Road.
I cant help the happy laugh, jumping a little in excitement, my heart leaping, I rummage around in my pockets, pulling my phone out and taking a few pictures before heading into the drive and toward the house, having to stop a few feet from it to take it all in.
I notice Sarah's car wasn't in the drive, and I soon hear talking behind me, I turn and my eyes widen, Luke Smith and Rani Chandra, walking away from Rani's house quickly, I could tell Luke was trying to get them to go back, but she wouldn't hear it.
Shoving my phone in my pocket I follow after them quickly, keeping a bit of a distance, trying to seem casual and not draw there attention, and thankfully they are too engrossed in their bickering to notice, as we get into town they head into a building, and I stop in front of the doors to see the sign reads "Spellman's Magical Museum of the Circus"
I cant help but cringe a little, I couldn't remember much of the episodes but I did know the clowns were a no go.
I hesitate, before deciding to stray outside "I doubt clown man would be too happy with someone like me disrupting...at least not yet" I whisper to myself before moving away from the doors a little, moving so I couldn't be seen from inside, then I wait.
It's only a few minutes before I hear the doors rattling, I run over and can see them all inside, Sarah Jane holding the fire extinguisher, Rani, Luke, Clyde and the damned creepy clown.
The two boys are trying to get the doors open as the clown speaks to the girls, I run up, motioning for them to keep pushing as I couldn't see any handles on the outside of the doors.
I meet Luke's eyes and manage a quick smile at the confused boy before they get the doors open, I quickly pull them out as Rani's phone goes off.
"Run!" Calls Sarah and I slam the doors shut once they are all out and running for Sarah Janes car, I glare through the windows at the frozen clown, then follow the others.
"The phones electromagnetic wave must have temporally interfered with Spellman's energies. They must have a similar frequency. But it wont last" Sarah says quickly, everyone climbing into the car but Rani.
"Isn't someone going to tell me whats going on?" Rani asks, Sarah Jane stops to talk to her over the top of the car but I come up and gently grab Rani's shoulder "less talking Rani, more running from the murderous clown" I say quickly.
Over the top of the car I smile at Sarah who stares at me in shock for a moment, I beam at her "Hello Sarah, now, no time for introductions nor reunions, we need to move" I explain quickly, she nods and I hop into the back with the boys, squeezing into the small car, ignoring the confused looks from the kids for now.
We drive away quickly, getting back to Bannerman Road, jumping out of the car and Rani's phone goes off before anyone can say anything, I crawl out after Clyde and Luke, gently closing the door of the car.
"Ok, annoying ringtones have there uses, I think we've all learned that today. But they're still annoying" Clyde jokes, I snort a little and nod, stuffing my hands into my hoodies pockets as I watch the group, yet another group of people I hadn't expected to meet in this world.
"It's my mum. What do I tell her?" Rani asks Sarah as we move to the front door.
"That you're on the way home" Sarah says, pointing back across the road.
Rani scoffs "what, you expect me to just go home? Like that?" She asks incredulously.
"Mum, I think you have to tell her everything" Luke says seriously, Sarah turning back to him and Clyde.
"No. I told you, both of you" she reprimands.
"Please Sarah Jane, that phone is doing my head in" Clyde says.
I smile softly, Sarah looking to them, then Rani, then me, I nod softly in agreement to the kids, she thinks for only a moment before giving in, switching her keys to her other hand and gently taking Rani's phone, closing it to end the call.
"I'm going to offer you a choice Rani. Cross over the road, go back to your parents and the life you lived before you moved here, nothing will have changed. Or, you can come with me, if you do that, nothing will ever be the same again" Sarah explains seriously.
Rani looks across the road as she thinks, though I knew her answer already, I cant help but bounce a little on the balls of my feet as I watched, as it was an easy movement to let out a little energy but not enough to twinge my back and legs.
"I want to know the truth" Rani says seriously, Sarah smiling a little and nodding.
"Then tell your mom I'm giving you a little work experience" Sarah decides.
We all head inside then and I can't help but look around in awe of the gorgeous building.
"This place is huge" remarks Rani as we head for the stairs.
I nod as I walk beside her, smiling widely "it is, and it's so much cooler than it looks, which it already looks really cool" I tell her, she looks to me curiously, as does the boys, but Sarah was already heading up the stairs, on a mission.
I smile at them and nod to the stairs, they head up quickly and I follow, my heart racing excitedly, remembering the massive super computer in the attic.
Clyde shows Rani up and I smile gently as Luke stops to look at a picture of them all with their friend who I think moved away, I gently pat his shoulder "it's alright to miss her" I say softly, he jumps and looks to me curiously.
"Who are you?" He asks, I smile more "you'll find out in a minute, first I want to go and say a proper hello to your mum" I say and head up the next flight with Luke close behind.
Clyde opens the door for Rani as she's introduced to the room and some things in it.
I smile softly as I watch Sarah take some gadget from the girls hands "careful, you will have an intergalactic rescue team landing on the corner of Bannerman Road"
"I thought you were a journalist" Rani says accusingly, obviously confused but amazed.
"I am" Sarah retorts.
"Oh, with alien gizmos in her attic, who doesn't bat an eyelid at a shape changing alien clown pied piper thing"
"That's more of a hobby"
"Ok,. Any second my alarms gonna go off and its my second day at Park Veil, a new school with your dad as a teacher, anyone would have nutty dreams" Rani says, seeming a bit overwhelmed.
I smile gently "it's alright Rani, you get used to the craziness when you're around anyone who has met the Doctor" I call from near the doorway.
Everyone turns to look to me, I try to stay calm at the sudden uncomfortable feeling of being watched.
I meet Sarah's eyes and she beams at me "give me a moment Rani" she says before coming over, I smile wider and pull her into a tight hug.
"How are you Sarah Jane? Not getting yourself into too much trouble with these kids?" I tease, she laughs and pulls back, looking me over "not as of yet, nothing I can't handle. How did you get here? Is the Doctor with you?" She asks.
I shake my head "nope, sadly not today, just me"
I look over as Clyde looks excited as he speaks "you're the Forseer aren't you! The one who travels with the Doctor?" He asks, I smile wider and nod.
"That's me, I hope Sarah hasn't filled your heads with fairytales about me" I joke and she scoffs beside me, I smirk teasingly at her.
"You did, didn't you?" I ask jokingly, she smiles and shakes her head "enough of your jokes, its time to introduce Rani to Mr. Smith" she says, walking back over to Rani's side, going to show her the super computer.
Luke comes over and looks at me curiously "you're not human either, mum told us so, but you travel with the Doctor? Is it as dangerous as mum says?" He asks.
I smile gently and nod "it is very dangerous I'm afraid, but it's really no more dangerous than the adventures you all have, at least most of the time, it's all running around saving the earth, and other worlds, though as you stay in one place and time, I jump around, sometimes not even with the Doctor, as like now. I'm guessing Sarah told you about my jumping?"
He nods excitedly "how does that work? Because what I know about time doesn't make sense for you to be jumping around it, it's not a physical thing like a road" he explains.
I chuckle a little "no, it's not really a physical thing, time energy on the other hand is very physical, it runs through me like blood through you, I still have blood, but it's a separate thing" I say and shrug.
We look back to the other girls as they were talking about saving the world.
"We have saved the world 12 times now" Luke says, stepping down the small flight of stairs to come stand next to them, I smile gently as I watched them all talking, explaining everything to Rani that she'd need to know, then Sarah says "Mr. Smith. I need you"
The wall then opens up and the computer speaks "yes, Sarah Jane. How can I help you?" It asks.
I lean against the wall as I watched them work, though to my utter annoyance, the damned music starts up yet again, I stand up straight and come down the steps as Mr. Smith tells them about the meteorite that was being studied.
I smile sadly as Sarah turns to me "I'm heading off it seems" I say sadly.
She frowns "what, already? But you've only just got here" she says sadly, I nod.
"I know, I'm bummed out as well, but some big things did happen for me recently so I think my jumping is trying to make up for it all" I say and shrug before hugging Sarah again.
When I pull back I smile at the teens "you all be good for Sarah, or I may just have to come back and do something about it" I say only really half joking, then I look to Sarah again "you still have my phone number?"
She nods softly "always kept it" I nod again.
"Then contact me should you need me, or even just if you need someone to come and scare these kids into behaving" I joke, she smirks.
"Oh I think they will stay in line" she says, I nod again and smile at the kids happily.
"It was lovely to finally meet you all, I hope in the future I can see you again, be safe" I call as the music was getting deafening, then everything goes black yet again.
I flop into a sitting position, sighing and finally looking to my left arm, pushing up the sleeve to reveal the new tattoos, the clock now read hour 5, minute 11, the new tattoos were in different spots along my arm, one being the 3rd Doctor's sonic, the next was a claw print, of what seemed to be my own claws when I had been turned into one of the Beasts, the next is the hand of a Slitheen, though only the faint outline, and the last is of Sarah Jane's sonic lipstick.
I smile softly and nod, rolling my sleeve back down, the tattoos now have begun to creep up past the elbow.
Looking around I realize I'm still in the dark, frowning I slowly stand, wincing at the soreness in my legs, I reach back and gently press my hand to my back, around the scars, they were still tender, but not bad, so why did my legs hurt like that...?
I slowly stretch my arms up, gasping and having to lean down as pain radiated down through my lower back and into my legs, I press my hands to the back of my legs, feeling how tender they are, my heart sinks as anxiety starts to thrum through my mind.
'What the hell...? It doesn't feel like a sore muscle...it feels like nerve damage' coming to that realization makes me feel a little sick to my stomach, but I take a few deep breaths, trying to stay calm.
"Ok, this is fine" I murmur as I start to pace, ignoring the black void around me "it could just take a little time to heal, it may not be permanent, it most likely isn't permanent" I mutter, trying to talk myself down from a panic attack, even as it was starting to get hard to breath, my asthma triggered by my panic.
"Fuck" I whisper before forcing myself to sit down again, sitting cross legged and holding my head in my hands as I lean forward a little, closing my eyes and focusing on trying to get my breathing back to normal.
Soon there's a warm hum under me, I open my eyes, trying to keep the tears at bay as I look up to see my room in the Tardis, I slowly get to my feet, sighing and wiping the tears from my eyes quickly, smiling a little.
"Hey Sexy...is there any chance you haven't told the Doctor I'm here?" She hums a little guiltily, I sigh and sit on the edge of my bed, rubbing my eyes tiredly.
"Then could you make it so it takes him a few minutes to get here?" I ask, she hums in the affirmative and I relax a little, slowly standing and taking off my hoodie, quickly changing into a pair of black joggers and a white t-shirt, I pause as I look in the mirror, smiling a little tiredly.
Once thats done I move to my desk, grabbing my sketch book out and setting it open to a new page, I grab one of those cheap 2 cent pens and start to sketch, still standing behind my chair, leaning down to do the sketch, it helped to calm my mind a little, and I get a little lost in the drawing, sketching out Van Gogh's Starry Night, it had become a sort of calming exercise.
I jump and drop my pen as the door opens, looking up to see 11, floppy hair and all, I smile widely as he beams back.
"Hey hun" I greet, he comes in and over quickly, but he stops just in front of me, suddenly frowning a little, I hesitate a little in confusion.
"Are you alright? Are you in pain?" He asks quickly, reaching out and gently taking my hands in his, I seem to hesitate just long enough for him to know something was up, he meets my eyes seriously.
"Rose, what's wrong?" He asks.
I grimace a little and sigh, not having the energy to argue "I think...um...my back hurts, and so does my legs" I admit softly, opening the connection to show him, though once he feels it I quickly close it most of the way, so he wouldn't feel any more pain, but we were still connected.
He looks me over, frowning worriedly, I gently squeeze his hands "but I'm ok, I'm still healing so it will go away soon" I insist, hating seeing him with a frown on his face.
He gives me a look, a clear look saying 'I don't believe you'
I smile softly "really, I just need to rest a bit, hopefully not much running around" I try to reassure, he sighs softly and shakes his head.
"You are impossible" he grumbles, gently pulling me over to the bed and making me sit.
"Then you need to rest, no getting up" he says seriously, pointing a finger in my face, I giggle a little, relaxing more.
"Like you could stop me from getting up" I joke softly, he huffs a little.
"I can if I want to" he retorts, I smirk more, raising my eyebrow.
"Really? Is that a threat or a promise?" I ask.
He looks confused for a sec before huffing, glaring down at me playfully "neither, you need rest, why don't you crawl into bed and I'll go make you some tea?" He asks.
I smile softly at his obvious nerves with the flirting, I gently grab his hand "calm down, I wasn't implying anything, but I would like some tea" I hum, he relaxes and leans down, kissing my forehead.
Time flies and hours pass as I relax in bed, reading or watching a small tv with the Doctor beside me, we got into a debate on what movie to watch at first, but we ended up with the Tardis picking for us, then the Doctor insisted that I sleep, but I told him I would only if we moved to our bed, he tried to protest but the Tardis hummed loudly and opened the door, showing she had moved our room right across the hall from my own.
He gave in and helped me move before we laid down to get some sleep.
When I next wake I can hear a soft muttering, I roll onto my side and smile softly, seeing the Doctor at his desk, tinkering with something small, some gadget or other, I rest my head on my arm as I watched him for a while.
I was glad for the rest, my back didn't hurt as badly now, and I felt a little less panicky.
I reach out and gently nudge his mind, sending warmth and fondness through, he jumps a little and looks over, I smile at his surprised face "you will never get used to that, will you?" I ask.
He pouts and looks down to his project again "you do it on purpose, never a gentle hello" he grumbles.
I giggle a little and slowly sit up "I am gentle. But you're right, I do enjoy watching you jump, it's kind of cute really" I say softly, I could feel his pout through the connection.
"I am not cute" he says firmly, continuing to fiddle with the metal bits.
"Really? I could show you an entire world that would disagree. And I could ask many many people in this world who would disagree. Me being one of the main ones" I say, slowly standing, he looks over worriedly, but I smile softly and come over, gently laying my hands on his shoulder as I look down at his project.
"I'm alright hun, calm down. I'm not going to die from standing" I insist, sending him reassurance and gentle warmth, he visibly relaxes before continuing with his work, his glasses now on.
I lean down a little, resting against his back and looking over his shoulder, watching curiously as he worked, it was fascinating to watch, sometimes he moved so fast you couldn't keep up, other times he'd just stare blankly at one small piece for minutes on end, thinking and processing.
After a while I pull away, gently kissing his cheek and heading out the door, letting him work and I go to find some food, the pain was much more bearable now so I didn't worry too much about moving around.
As I step into the kitchen I can see the kettle was already warming up, I gently pat the wall in thanks before moving to make myself some buttered toast.
My bottle of pills appearing next to my plate, I hum a thanks and take them quickly before continuing.
I pause before deciding to make the Doctor some toast as well, then returning to our room, setting his plate on the table next to him, kissing his cheek and moving back to bed, he smiles at me softly for a moment before taking a few bites of his toast, sending me a warm thanks through the connection.
I smile more and eat my own toast, pulling my phone out and moving to watch some videos for a while.
An hour or so later the Doctor comes to sit beside me curiously, finding me watching satisfying videos on YouTube, I scoot over a little to give him more room but once he's seated he pulls me into his lap.
I lean back against his chest and we continue watching happily, and we spend a few more hours just enjoying YouTube and each other's company.
My pain had dulled a little but was still there when I concentrated.
My eyes started to drift shut after a while, and the Doctor takes my phone gently, shutting it off and laying us down to sleep some more.
Gasping, I sit up, looking around the dark room, something was wrong, very wrong.
I try to stand, but it felt as if my knees and legs were glued to the floor.
I could hear something, or someone, a child, a child was yelling for their mother, they sounded terrified.
I try to struggle against the hold the ground had on me, trying to look around but there was a dark haze over everything, as if I was surrounded by a dense smoke.
"Mom!" I whip my head around, and through the dark I could see the silhouette of a child, with an adult standing behind them, an arm around the child to hold them back.
"Hold on!" I try to yell, but it comes out muffled, and even as I continued to struggle to move, the silhouettes disappear and the darkness begins to swirl in on me, clouding my vision completely, the voice fading into nothing.
As I woke, I found I was crying, I curl up tighter shakily, trying to even out my breathing, the Doctor still asleep beside me, I close my eyes and try to calm down 'it was just a dream...a dream' I try to convince myself.
But the child...who were they?
And we are back!
What did you think? I know its a bit of a boring chapter, and it jumped around a lot, but it's a good spot to get writing again :)
I love you guys all so much, thank you again for waiting for me, it means the world to me.
I hope you all have a fantastic day/night.
~Ezra~
