Quickly before we start I just want to say thank you to everyone who has been so patient and kind to me! And everyone who has followed this story while I've been working so slowly.

I got back to writing this in the last week because I may or may not have cut my finger pretty badly so I've been unable to do much else :)

To atrhoads05: Thank you! And a lot has happened! I am excited to see Ncuti Gatwa take over the role, I haven't seen him in anything but I'm still excited! And with RTD coming back I know it will be amazing! I'm also super excited to see what happens with 10 and Donna coming back! As well as Wilf! (I am heartbroken by his loss. RIP Bernard Cribbins, you will be missed by all) Neil Patrick Harris coming on is also pretty exciting! I cannot wait to see who else will be joining the show and what new aliens and old aliens we meet along the way!

Ok!

So these next chapters are gonna be fun!

As you can see, Rosie is suffering from some sort of painful ailment, and that will be explained and resolved soon, so be ready for some angst and pain.

(Also, most of the pain she's gonna go through, is in part, from my own experience, though it will be a lot worse for her, I personally have had a lot of nerve damage and trouble so I'm pulling from my own experiences for this)

But besides that I hope you all enjoy!

Love you all and onto todays adventures! Or should I say misadventures :)


All I could focus on as I came out of sleep was a soft voice, muffled and unintelligible, but somethings there, I open my eyes groggily only to see I'm laying in a side street on a dark night in the snow.

I can't help the exhausted groan before I slowly get to my feet, gasping a bit as my legs and back shoot with pain.

The soft voice seemed to fade away quicker than I could fully register it was even there.

Leaning against the brick wall I look out into the street to see a large theater before me, horse drawn carriages passing and people in old fashioned clothing walking the streets, I smile a little before shivering and realizing I felt so cold, I need to get inside.

I quickly cross the street, ignoring the throbbing in my body, the stretching pain and shots of hot pain here and there, I slip down the alley and find a way into the back of the theater, relaxing a little as I close the door, gasping and having to lean against the wall to stay standing as the pain shot through my hips and it felt as though someone had shoved a hot needle through my hip joint.

"Oh good heavens, are you alright?" Comes a worried voice, I look up quickly and have to stop as the man coming over was in a black coat, green and black waist coat and white shirt, his beard passing the collar of his shirt, he's holding a cane and top hat in his hand, Charles Dickens it seemed had found me.

I gulp and manage a small smile "yes, I'm quite alright, I'm sorry Mr. Dickens, I didn't mean to disturb you" I say quickly, knowing full well it was a lie.

He scoffs "you are most certainly not alright, come and have a seat, you can barely stay standing" he insists, he guides me into his dressing room and helps me sit before he sets his things down, taking off his coat and hanging it up before he calls down the hall for someone, I watch him silently, surprised he cared enough to help someone, and someone obviously in very odd clothing for the time, and my haircut, the short silver hair probably threw people off a bit, but he didn't seem too bothered.

He comes back pulling on a robe "tea will be here in a moment miss, once its here I will send for a doctor" he says, moving to sit in the other seat, I smile a little.

"Thank you sir, but there is no need to call a doctor, I know my own will be here soon" I reassure him but he doesn't look very convinced.

"Are you here then to meet someone? If you already have one coming? Shall I send for them?" He asks.

I shake my head softly "no, its alright, if I could just rest here until he arrives? If not that is alright, I can find somewhere to wait for him"

"You are welcome to stay until he arrives. It would be nice to have some company" he admits, I smile sadly.

"Then I am glad to be that company. Though I must warn you sir, I am not good with words, nor literature, so I may be rather boring" I admit, seeing him smile a little.

"I'm sure that isn't true, you know who I am, so you must have heard of my books before"

I nod a little "well, yes, though Ive never actually read them, but I know the story of A Christmas Carol, at least some of it" I explain.

He nods thoughtfully and we go on to talk for a while, the tea is brought in and I thank them as I drink mine quietly, then a man comes knocking.

"Mr. Dickens. Mr. Dickens. 'Scouse me sir. Mr. Dickens, this is your call" the man says, Dickens, looks up and nods, setting his cup down "thank you" he says and the other man comes to help him with his robe.

I smile gently up at him "thank you Mr. Dickens, I'm feeling much better, and my friend should be here soon" I say and stand slowly, yet again lying about the pain, but I push through it anyways, setting my own cup down.

"Are you sure you're well enough to be up?" He asks, I nod a little "I am, thank you again" I say, waiting for a moment until the other man left before smiling to Charles again.

"And...don't be afraid to reach out to family sir. Do it before its too late. I waited too long, and now I have no choice" I say honestly, he looks shocked for a moment.

"How on earth do you know that...?"

"You could say I know more than would seem possible. But think about it sir, you don't want to regret it in the future, you don't want to wonder what would have happened if you had done it"

I explain and he slowly nods a little, keeping his eyes on me before he's called again, I follow him out into the hallway and he glances back to me curiously before continuing on to go to the main stage of the theater.

I hesitate a moment, leaning back against the wall again, sighing a little and trying to ignore the constant thrum of pain, it had calmed down a little so I could sort of walk but there was still hot pain there.

After a few minutes I follow after Mr. Dickens and get to the back stage of the place, sneaking past people though no one tried to stop me.

I move to stage right and watch the audience from my hiding place, once I'm there I scan the faces of the crowd, looking for the dead woman, and its not long before I notice her, sitting calm and silent in the crowd, no one around even seemed to notice her, as everyone's attention was on Charles.

I lean against the wall quietly, focusing back onto Mr. Dickens, smiling a little as he recited his story, it was calming, like listening to an audiobook, but even better, him being the writer meant he knew how everyone spoke, he knew how to give the right inflections and make the story come to life.

I stay silent and hidden as I watched and listened, smiling softly as the crowd gasped and listened to the author, but it wasn't to last, as he gets to the part of the door knocker change to the face of Marley, Charles looking in horror at the dead woman, pointing at her and saying that her face looked like the ghosts.

And as I watch, her face glows and the woman stands and starts to scream, letting out the ghost like gas creatures.

Everyone begins screaming and running as Charles tries to calm them all down, I take my chance quickly and push past the curtains and stumbling a little as I see the undertaker and his maid run in past the running crowd.

I don't notice as Charles tries to grab me to pull me away from the woman, but I make it off the stage and try to get to the woman as the gas creature flies around.

The Doctor runs in with Rose but I continue on, getting to the woman's body as the undertaker does "don't, let me help" I plead as they drag her out, the maid, Gwyneth tries to get me to leave but I follow them outside quickly, ignoring the roaring pain under my skin.

As we get to the back of the horse drawn hearse I try to get closer but Gwyneth tries to stop me again "oh its a tragedy um...miss, don't worry yourself. Me and the master will deal with it. Fact is, this poor lady's been taken with a brain fever. We have to get her to the infirmary" she insists, I gently push past her and get a closer look at the woman before looking up to Gwyneth.

"I can help you Gwyneth, please, I know whats happening" I plead, she stares in wide eyed shock, obviously unsure what to say.

The skin on the back of my neck prickles and I realize I forgot something, my eyes widen and I go to turn "please don't..." but I'm cut off by the undertaker grabbing me and holding a cloth to my mouth and nose, I try to struggle without breathing, but my back hurt way to much, tears escaping my eyes as the pain intensifies before I'm forced to breath in and its not long before I'm unconscious.

The next thing I know I'm waking up on a table in a darkly lit room, Rose was laid in a chair next to the table, also unconscious, I slowly sit up, whimpering and trying to keep the tears at bay, once up I take a moment to catch my breath as Rose was starting to wake up.

I gulp and rub my forehead, a migraine beginning already.

I slowly drop from the table to my feet, wincing at the shock of pain, but it starts to dull a little into more of an ache for now, I come over and gently feel Rose's forehead and smile at her gently as she opens her eyes blearily.

"It's alright, there we go, can you hear me?" I ask softly, she nods a little and rubs her eyes before she looks around in shock "where are we...?"

I pause and glance around, cursing as I see the dead man starting to wake up, I gently grab Rose's arm and pull her to her feet.

She grabs my arm and stares in shock at the man "whats happening?"

"Best way to describe it. We are in Charles Dickens world, ghosts and all" I say quickly, running with her to the door, but its locked, I curse again and look back toward the zombie shambling toward us, then the other body gets up as well, both the old woman and her relative.

Rose goes to the door as I pick up one of the chairs, holding it legs out toward the zombie ghost gas things.

"Let us out! Open the door!" She yell "please! Please!" She continues.

I shove the dead back a few steps, hearing running and yelling outside the door behind me, Rose keeps yelling and hitting the door as I again push them back, keeping the chair between me and them, ducking out of their reach when they tried to grab me.

However the man gets a hold of my arm and wrenches me toward them, causing me to yelp and drop the chair, the woman grabs Rose's arm and I try to get out of its hold, only for the door to be kicked in by the Doctor, his eyes widening seeing us both, he jumps forward, grabbing the mans arm and making him let go of me and then I grab Rose's hand and pull her away with me.

The Doctor glances to me quickly before looking to the zombies again curiously, I sigh in relief and relax a little, even as Rose clung to my arm in fear, I look up as Charles comes to meet my eyes worriedly for a moment before looking over our heads and the Doctor's shoulder at the dead.

"It's a prank. Must be. We're under some mesmeric influence" Charles says in disbelief.

"No we're not, the dead are walking" the Doctor says seriously before looking down to us, smiling before meeting my eyes "HI" he greets.

I smile a little "Hi, a little late aren't you?" I tease, he rolls his eyes.

"And who's you're friend?" Rose asks, looking behind us at Charles.

Me and the Doctor respond at the same time "Charles Dickens" he beams down at me and I smile fondly, Rose nods a bit in surprise "okay"

"My names the Doctor. Who are you then? What do you want?" He asks, I start to zone out a little then, trying to remember more of this episode, my heart sinking as I remember what happened to Gwyneth.

I glance back at her 'could I save her? If I stop this now? But what of the rift? Would it not exist then? It wouldn't be the same...she has to die...'

My heart sinks and I look away, feeling sick to my stomach as I look back to see the ghosts disappear back into the lamps.

I tighten my hold on Rose's arm as grief tries to overwhelm me, the death no one would know about, or at least not many.

I gulp and have to take a few breaths, then we leave the dead and go to the main parlor to figure things out, I stay in the corner quietly, the Doctor coming to join me as Rose tears into the old man angrily, the Doctor smiles down at me and I manage a small smile back, but he could tell something was wrong.

I shake my head softly and he tries to speak but I just nod to the others in the room, he holds his hand out and I gently interlace our fingers together, relaxing at his cool touch, and he seems to relax a little as well before we focus back on the room at large.

Gwyneth soon comes over with two cups of tea, looking a little nervous about me as she sets them down on the mantle piece besides us "two sugars sir, just how you like it" she tells him before looking to me, though she avoids eye contact "and three sugars for you" she says softly before leaving, the Doctor watches after her in confusion, he looks to me and I just shrug a little and gently squeeze his hand.

"Morbid fancy" Charles says as he stands.

"Oh Charles, you were there" the Doctor admonishes.

"I saw nothing but an illusion" the man retorts seriously.

"If you're going to deny it, don't waist my time, just shut up" the Doctor snaps, I gently squeeze his hand again in warning, he ignores me and looks to the others "what about the gas?"

"That's new sir. Never seen anything like that" the old man says seriously.

"Means its getting stronger, the rifts getting wider and somethings sneaking through" the Doctor guesses, I nod a little, though my pain flares again and I try to cover it, but it seems Charles had been watching me.

Because before anyone else can speak he steps up "are you alright?" He asks, I stiffen and nod quickly, faking a smile "yes, I'm alright" I lie quickly.

The Doctor looks down at me and frowns "no, you're not, whats wrong?" He asks worriedly, I curse mentally and smile to him softly "really, its nothing, I'm alright" I insist.

He keeps eye contact with me and I can feel him gently pressing through the barrier in my mind, I quickly lock the door, knowing I couldn't show him this.

His eyes darken a little and he fully turns to me "Rosie" he says seriously, I gulp a little and glance past him at the other now worried faces facing me, I look back up to him and sigh "I um...I'm a little injured..." I admit softly, and instantly I can see the anger rising in him.

"Who hurt you? Where were you last?" He asks seriously, pulling out his sonic to scan me but I quickly put my free hand on his to stop him.

"No, I'm ok, I'll be alright until you get this all sorted" I insist, he frowns more, and I remember the time war was very recent for him, explaining his intense worry and anger.

I gently pull him out into the hall, closing the door behind us and looking up at him.

"I'm going to rest in the Tardis, please don't worry, its nothing bad" I lie softly.

"Then let me help fix it, I may have the technology in the Tardis to help, just tell me" he pleads, gently gripping my upper arms, I sigh again and shake my head, placing my hands against his chest.

"I can't, at least not yet, please trust me, I will be ok" I plead, he frowns more and I step closer, gently pulling him down into a kiss, which he reciprocates, gently wrapping one arm around my waist to pull me closer.

When I pull away I smile softly up at him "now go and help solve this ghost story" I move to pull away but he keeps me held close, gently kissing my forehead before releasing me "please be safe" he pleads worriedly, still knocking at my mind, I nod and smile at him before moving down the hall.

I stop at the end however before blushing a little and looking back to him "um...which way is the Tardis?" I ask sheepishly, he smiles softly, though he still seemed tense, he pulls out a small device from his pocket and tosses it to me, I catch it and look down to find the watch the 3rd Doctor had used to home in on the Tardis, I giggle a little and wrap it around my wrist, smiling up at him.

"Thanks hun, please be careful alright? I don't want to come and have to save your sorry butt" I tease, he chuckles a little, relaxing more.

"I will, you be careful too, it's cold out there" he says, pulling his coat off as I realize he was going to give it to me, but I stop him, smiling more "no, you need to keep that on, I wont be outside long" I say and come back down the hall, kissing him again before leaving the building.

I sigh softly as I step out into the cold air, my heart sinking as I look back at the building that, before the night was out, would be in flames.

I shake my head and quickly turn the watch on, following it away from the building and toward the side street the Tardis was parked in.

As I turn the corner and can see the beautiful blue box ahead of me, I exhale and smile softly, as she had snow on her.

I gently lay my hand on her door "Hey Sexy" I murmur and the lock clicks, I step in out of the cold and sigh in relief as the warm air soothes the chill in my bones.

But with the sudden change in the warmth my back flares up, I gasp and lean against the railing, hearing a worried hum thrumming through the console room, the lights flashing worriedly.

I take a few steadying breaths "It's ok...I'm alright, it will pass" I say softly, not really believing my own words, but hoping it was true anyways.

She hums more and the lights dim and a single light flashes in the corridor across the console, I hesitate before making my way over, the pain staying a painful ache as I moved slowly.

Once in the hallway I see my room directly in front of me, sighing in relief I gently pat the wall before heading inside.

I slowly lower myself onto my bed, exhaling shakily and looking to the ceiling "could you bring me some pain killers?" I ask softly.

She hums again and the next moment there's a bottle of pain meds and a glass of water on my bedside table.

I quickly take two and then look around the room "thanks..." I get an idea so I slowly get up and move to stand in front of my mirror in the bathroom, pulling my shirt off slowly, grimacing at the stretching pain.

I try to look at the scars on my back, half hidden by my sports bra, and a second floor length mirror appears behind me so it made it much easier to see them.

I can't help but cringe at the red and pink scars, scars usually didn't bother me, but they looked inflamed, like the skin over had healed but it was still badly damaged underneath.

Gently running my fingers down the largest scar, I can feel the skin is hot and sensitive to the touch.

"Well fuck..." I murmur and sigh, running my fingers through my hair.

I decide to take a hot shower, hoping to help dull the pain a little, also trying to forget when I am, not wanting to think about Gwyneth, knowing I'd probably cry if I did.

After some time of sitting on the tub floor while the hot water hit my upper back and shoulders, I decide it was time to get out, I manage to climb to my feet and dry off, pulling on a loose t-shirt and hoodie, as well as some shorts before slowly laying down in bed, exhausted, though the pain meds had started to kick in, the pain, even when moving now, was only a dull ache.

I let out a quiet breath and close my eyes, enjoying the calm and peace for a while, but soon the lights flash softly and I open my eyes to her hum.

"Are they back?" She hums affirmative and I get to my feet, holding my breath at first, expecting much worse pain, but it wasn't very bad now, raising my spirits immensely.

I grab my boots and pull them on before leaving to head toward the console room, however I see Rose heading for her room to change.

She stops and smiles sadly "Rosie, how are you feeling?" She asks, coming up and taking my hands in hers, looking me over.

I smile genuinely at her "much better now, how are you doing?" I ask softly, she pauses, sighing a little sadly and looking away.

I start before she can though "she will be remembered, maybe not by everyone, but, we will remember her, and so will Charles, and so will many many more. In my home, many many people remember her" I tell her.

She looks up to meet my eyes and smiles a little watery "really?"

I nod "really really" gently squeezing her hands I nod to her door "now go and get changed, I'll go check on the Doctor" I say and she nods, heading to her room quickly, I then make my way to the console room, the Doctor standing there with his back to me as he looked over the readings on the screen.

I open my end of the connection gently, much gentler than I normal would, then I come up to stand beside him, he looks over quickly, watching me for a moment as I smile up at him gently.

He sighs and lowers his head, leaning against the console on his arms, head hanging between his shoulders "I couldn't save her" he murmurs.

I nod sadly and slide down under his arms, coming up to hug him around the middle, he stands up a little more straight and wraps his arms around me gently.

"I know, but she..." I gulp and close my eyes sadly, pressing closer both mentally and physically "she was destined to die, but she saved you, she saved everyone, her death was not in vain, and she won't ever be forgotten" I reassure him.

He tightens his arms around me a little more, burying his face into my shoulder, I reach up and gently stroke the back of his neck and head to help soothe him a little.

"How are you feeling?" He asks softly, not withdrawing at all, I smile softly and kiss the side of his head "much better now, a hot shower and some pain killers do wonders"

He pulls his head back a little to look down at me, I could feel him searching around in my mind, looking for any hidden pain, though I didn't need to hide it as it was really manageable now.

He relaxes more now, smiling gently and kissing my forehead "when was the last time you ate?" He asks softly.

I think for a moment, my arms still wrapped around him under his leather jacket, gently gripping the back of his sweater "I think maybe 7 or 8 hours ago...? I cant really remember very well" I admit, he nods.

"Then lets go and get you something to eat" he says, then leads me to the kitchen, starting to make some food as I sit down at the table, smiling as I watch him work, he seemed to have relaxed completely until the door opens and he jumps as Rose bursts in, her eyes wide, she closes the door behind herself quickly, leaning back against it, my heart sinks in fear.

"Rose? What's wrong?" I ask quickly, standing up, she smiles to me faster than was normal "oh nothing! Sorry, I was just not paying attention" she says quickly, moving away from the door, obviously trying to act like normal, I glance to the Doctor to see him watching her closely, I look back and Rose had raised her hand behind my back, but she drops it and sits down in the chair across from mine, smiling innocently at me.

I narrow my eyes and look between them again, crossing my arms "is no one going to tell me whats going on?" I ask seriously, the Doctor quickly turns back to the oven "its nothing of concern, what do you want on your eggs?" He asks, I slowly sit back down, knowing this would go nowhere at the moment, I needed to find the correct moment to bring it up again.

So I drop it for now, talking about something else with Rose, talking about anything we could think of, and that of course spiraled into me telling her about things I used to do on my earth, and she seemed very interested in what a different universe would be like.

I smile at her "its just like here, the only difference being there are no aliens, no other life that we have found, out in space, and there aren't any organizations like UNIT or Torchwood. But everything is basically the same as you thought it was before meeting aliens or the Doctor, pretty boring and ordinary" I explain.

She frowns "thats so dull, so nothing interesting ever happened?"

"Sadly nope, not much" I shrug before smiling as the Doctor sets my plate before me as well as two other plates for them, I thank him and we quietly eat, though I could sense a bit of tension in the Doctor's shoulders and mind, like he was waiting for a pin to drop.

After we eat Rose goes to her room and we begin the walk to ours, I gently take his hand as we walk "now about earlier" I begin, sensing his stomach drops and he glances down at me sideways.

"Rose, don't. This isn't something I can tell you" he insists, I sigh softly.

"Why not? Surely it can't be a spoiler, nothing happened around this time, at least not yet. So why was Rose so freaked out?" I ask, continuing to push the matter.

"I cannot say, you know how dangerous spoilers can be" he says seriously.

"Yes, but I also know that sometimes, when a spoiler makes everyone around me seem frightened, I'd rather know why" I say, gently squeezing his hand.

He shakes his head, though his grip on my hand does tighten a little.

"I can't, I'm sorry" he says sincerely.

I sigh softly "alright, I will drop it if you can promise me it isn't something bad, something that could hurt either of you" I say.

He smiles a little, stopping us and turning to me, surprising me a little "I promise you, Rose, its nothing dangerous. At all" he confirms.

I relax a little and nod, smiling a little "alright, good" and I do drop it, knowing pushing further wouldn't go well, and I didn't have the energy for any fighting, and I could sense he wasn't lying.

We make it to our room and lay down for a nap, well, I lay down for a nap, he lays down to keep me company, pulling out a few books to keep himself occupied, I lay along his side, head resting on his shoulder and one arm thrown over his chest, falling asleep pretty quickly.

I get some decent sleep, falling in and out of it comfortably for a while before a soft lull of music wakes me up, I open my eyes blearily, grimacing a little as my back twinges, the pain meds having started to wear off already.

I raise my head a little, the Doctor looks down to me from his book curiously, I frown and look around only to realize the music was coming from nowhere, I groan softly and flop back down against his chest, burying my face into his shoulder gently, feeling him chuckle a little.

"Music?" He asks, I nod sadly and look up to him, pouting grumpily, he smiles softly and gently cups my cheek, having set his book down, he softly kisses my cheek then my other cheek, my forehead and then lastly my lips.

I hum softly and gently kiss back, trying to ignore as the music got louder, he pulls away after a few moments "be safe, please, you're still not fully healed" he says worriedly.

I nod and smile gently, sitting up slowly "I will, I promise, and you be careful too" I say softly, he sits up and nods, gently kissing me again, a little more fiercely this time.

I gasp a little as we pull away, beaming up at him "I love you. Don't you ever forget that" I tell him softly.

He smiles through poorly hidden teary eyes "I love you too. Where ever and when ever you are, in all of time and space" he says softly "and know I will always find you, no matter where" he insists.

I beam back, nodding and kissing him again, eyes closing as the music got louder quickly before I'm left sitting on blackness, surrounded by the same void.

I sigh and slowly stand, wincing a little at the movement, I roll up my left hoodie sleeve, looking down to see the clock reading minute 12, and a new tattoo appearing above my elbow line now, of a small wall mounted oil lamp, lit with a blue flame.

I roll my sleeve back down and look around the dark nervously, closing off the connection and praying to have an easier trip this time around.

After a few minutes I blink and I'm suddenly in a large metal hallway, everything tinted red and yellow and the heat of the room was almost painful.

I gasp for breath as the heat felt suffocating, it had to be 110 degrees Fahrenheit at the least, I lean against the wall only to yelp and jump away, nearly falling to my knees as the pain spikes.

The metal of the hallway was scorching hot, but thankfully I had on my boots still so I couldn't feel the heat there just yet.

Looking around I notice a small window, making my way over I look outside, gulping and quickly looking away as outside all that could be seen was the massive sun.

I cover the glass with my hand and keep my eyes down, then I look up down the hallway, taking a few steps away before I am hit with a sudden wave of...of fear.

My eyes widen as I realize it was the Doctor, he was reaching out to my mind in his pain and fear, he had already looked at the sun, I open my end instantly, gasping as I'm overwhelmed by the fear, even as he tried to keep the pain away, though I could feel the cold he felt, feeling as they tried to freeze him.

I run to one of the screens on the wall, finding the coms as my hands shake badly.

"Doctor! Doctor it's alright, I'm here! I'm going to the front of the ship now to vent the engines. Martha, you stay with him!" I call through the ship quickly, heart racing.

"Rose! Rose what do I do? How can I help him?" Martha asks quickly as the power had been cut to the med bay.

"Just stay with him, he needs someone right now"

"Rose...Rose! I'm afraid. I'm so afraid" I hear the Doctor say over the coms, my heart dropping at the real true fear there, I gulp shakily, sending him as much reassurance and love and care that I could, though it was probably being all drowned out by the pain.

"I know darling, I know, but you'll be alright, I promise, hold on. Just hold on for me, okay? I'll be with you as soon as I vent the fuel" I say before going to run, but I hear him pleading for me through the coms, pleading to come and find him, to not let him be alone right now.

I have to hold back tears as I move away from the com screen, running as fast as I could, though it was more of a tired limping jog than anything, I pass door after door, getting through each section that had already been opened by the other men ahead of me.

The coms sound as I move "Riley, Scannell. I'm sorry" Comes Katy McDonnell's voice, my heart sinks as I remember what she was doing, her sacrifice, even as her crew tried to hail her over the coms.

I keep moving, the robotic voice saying an exterior airlock had been opened, I shake my head and make it around the corner just as the two men are working on getting the last door open.

"Impact in 2:17" the same robotic voice calls.

The two men look to me in confusion as I get there, panting and sweating and shaking, I motion toward them "Don't stop!" They quickly get back to it and I make it to another screen, leaning against the wall and shaking as I tried to catch my breath, though I knew that wouldn't happen for a while.

"Martha?" I hail her and she presses the button to leave the com open, then I can hear her move away from the mic "how is he?" I ask quickly.

"He won't stay, and he keeps telling me to leave" she calls shrilly, I gulp and lean closer, ignoring the hot metal now.

"Doctor, listen to me, focus on my voice and stay still, please, I promise this will all be alright, lay down and keep fighting it" I call through "Martha...you need to leave him now, step outside and close the door" I say shakily.

"What? Why?" She asks in concern.

"Because I can't fight it" the Doctor growls out in pain beside her, I lean more heavily on the wall, the heat and the movement had exacerbated the pain in my back and legs, I could barely stay standing at this point.

"Yes you can Doctor, I am ordering you to fight it. Martha, do as I say" I order quickly, and soon I hear her running out of the room and the door closing and locking.

"Rose...Rose I'm so scared" the Doctor calls, his voice broken and pained and wholeheartedly terrified.

I gulp "I know, I know you're scared, I'm scared too, but there's nothing we can't get through together. Theta please trust me, I will be with you soon, just keep fighting it, please" I plead, I can hear him whimper in pain and collapse to the floor, I whimper shakily but manage to stand back up fully.

"Rose...burn with me..." the Doctor's voice goes a bit deeper, and it seemed as if he had lost, I gasp shakily and shake my head, trying to stay focused as everything was happening so fast.

I can hear the Doctor start to scream in pain again, the coms fully open so the horrid sound echoed around us, sinking straight into my heart and soul, I could not only hear his pain, but feel it as the connection begins to feel strange, like it was giving me a fever, it felt hot and pained and raw, I hesitate before forcing myself to close my end, gasping as behind me the men get the door open.

I can hear Martha quietly crying through the coms and asking what she could do "just keep that door locked! Don't let him out!" I call loudly as I follow the men inside, they race to the controls.

I shake my head and run to the wall of knobs I had seen in the show, moving quickly as I spin them all in the correct directions as indicated above them, the men look to me.

"I'm venting the fuel, there are sun particles in the fuel and it wants it back" I explain as I move, though I don't manage to get all of them before I cry out in pain, a massive shock thrumming through my body and I fall to my knees, gasping and coughing as I couldn't breath properly, the pain too intense.

I try desperately to motion to the last few knobs and they rush around me to finish the job, and seconds later the whole ship shakes, sending me into a wall with a whimper and groan of pain, the stupid computer repeating "fuel dump in progress" over and over again.

The ship shakes a little more, sending everyone to the ground, before the ship starts off in the opposite direction to the sun, the other two in the room, Riley and Scannell get to their feet, exhausted.

"We're clear. We've got just enough reserves" Riley says in relief, the two men hug in relief but I can't even see them at the moment, golden light beginning to creep up my arms quickly, and I can barely speak as the two men go silent staring at me.

I motion frantically at the door, gasping for breath "get...out...please!" I yell as they continue to stare for another moment before they both bolt out of the room, closing the door most of the way, though they leave it open enough to watch me.

I try to struggle to my feet, to move away from the machinery in case I accidentally broke something, but even as I get off my knees, I just collapse again, letting out a pained cry as I hit the hot metal floor.

Over the coms I can hear the crew talking to Martha and the Doctor, but I couldn't focus, my entire body burned, my blood was on fire and my head was pounding, ever muscle in my body hurt, as if freshly cut.

The light only brightens around me as I let out a scream, arching my back and falling back onto the floor on my side, I couldn't control my body now, as I convulse and shake and groan.

After what felt like hours, but was probably only a minute at the most, the light hits its peak and I can feel as the energy explodes out around me, scorching metal and glass and leaving soot spots around me on the floor.

My body finally relaxes just a little more, leaving me limp on the ground as I try to get my breathing under control, my whole body shook from the whole thing, tears leaking from my eyes and running in hot tracks down my face.

I try to tune back in to whats happening around me and I hear the crewmen talking to the Doctor over the coms outside the room again.

"She's just collapsed and she was glowing, is she infected like Korwin?" Asks one of them.

I sigh shakily and slowly roll over, getting slowly to my knees, holding myself up on my shaking arms "I'm not infected" I call out hoarsely, my voice raw from screaming.

Scannell pokes his head into the room in confusion before noticing I seemed better now.

He comes in quickly and stops about four feet from me "what was that?" He asks, I shake my head in exhaustion.

"It's far too long a story to get into now...is the Doctor alright?" I ask, looking up to him, he's frowning as he watched me before seeming to decide I wasn't a threat anymore.

"He sounds tired but fine, he's been trying to call you through the coms since we left this room" he explains, reaching his hand out to me, I hesitate before taking it, and he helps me to my feet, however my legs give out under me after only a few seconds, my hip popping painfully and I collapse with a hissed curse, clutching onto Scannell's arm too as he wraps his other around me to keep me up.

"Riley, come help" he calls and the other man comes in quickly, helping Scannell to help me to a seat as I clutched onto them for support.

As soon as I'm sat down I release a shaky breath "thanks...can one of you tell the Doctor I'm alright? I just need to rest for a minute" I pant softly, Scannell nods and goes to the com screen, relaying the message, I can hear the Doctor talking but I can't focus on anything but the pain still coursing through me like lava.

Riley looks me over worriedly "you don't have any obvious wounds, what hurts?" He asks, I shake my head a little.

"It's not really a visible injury...but honestly, my whole body hurts...aftershocks from the energy release probably" I mumble softly, looking down at my hands in my lap, glad to see the heat from the sun hadn't left any burns there.

After a moment I flinch as there was a soft pressing on the door into my mind, but I hesitate, I was still in a lot of pain, and I didn't want him to feel any of it, so sighing, I slowly stand with Riley's help, I leaned heavily on him and the wall as I make my way to the com unit, coming up beside Scannell.

I press the com button "I'm ok Doctor, but I can't open up right now" I call, ignoring the confused looks from the others beside me.

"Rose! Thank goodness you're alright. I'm coming right now with Martha, she wants to look you over, and so do I" he replies quickly, I wince a little and shake my head quickly.

"No, you two stay there, we will make our way back toward you soon. Doctor, you need to rest still as well, you took a hard beating today" I insist, feeling the Doctor knocking again at my mind.

"Rose, I want to make sure that blast didn't leave anything" Martha calls, I sigh again.

"Really, I'm alright Martha, if it will make you feel better, once home you can look me over in the med bay, but right now we just need to rest" I explain, hearing the Doctor trying to protest but I interrupt him.

"Theta, I promise I'll be alright, I'll make my way toward you two" I insist and the Doctor huffs softly, giving in in his exhaustion.

"Ok, we'll be right here, be careful Rose" Martha calls softly, I nod a little and sigh, shutting off the com.

"Ok...could I have a hand to get back? I don't think I could walk myself" I admit, the others nod and help me to my feet.

We have to move slowly but they help me all the way back, taking us about 10 minutes to get there, but when we arrive I'm nearly bowled over as I step through the door on my own, having forced myself to walk some of the way.

The Doctor was clutching onto me for dear life, and I couldnt blame him, my own grip was just as tight, burying my face into his chest as I have a tight grip of his suit jacket.

The others let us be for a while, as we just held onto each other, decompressing and just knowing the other was there.

After some time we make it back to the Tardis and I head inside after thanking Scannell and Riley for their help, the whole time I was trying to ignore and play off the rising pain in my back and legs.

I move slowly deeper into the Tardis, finding my room and sighing as I sit on the bed, relief flooding me as the pain dulls a little.

I close my eyes and just try to breath, hands shaking slightly in my lap.

After a few minutes I hear and feel a soft hum around me, opening my eyes I see a glass of water on the bedside table and some pills beside it.

"Is it safe for me to take these so often?" I ask the room softly, hearing an affirmative hum and so I take them before slowly standing.

I wait a few moments before moving toward the bathroom, wanting a shower before anything else to cool down and wash away the awful sweat and grime from the ship.

However I don't make it to the bathroom door before there's a knock on my door, I stop and move to the main door instead, opening it to find the Doctor.

Before he can say anything I gently grab his suit jacket sleeve and gently pull him into another hug.

He returns the hug carefully "how are you feeling?" He asks softly.

I sigh a little "sweaty and gross...and sore" I admit.

He gently kisses my forehead "I know where you're going next, and I want you to promise me you won't do something stupid" he says seriously.

I look up to him curiously before grimacing a little.

"Wait, does that mean I don't get a shower?" I ask, pouring a little.

He smiles a little "I'm sorry to say no, not yet anyways, but please, just promise" he asks.

I nod softly and sigh "I promise. Unless it saves someone's life" I say seriously.

He huffs a little and shakes his head "impossible girl" he grumbles.

I smile a little "nope, that's someone else. But in all seriousness, I promise to be careful" I reiterate, looking up to meet his gaze, smiling more.

He returns the smile and I gently pull him down into a quick kiss.

"Alright, since I don't get a shower, I want one hint to my next location" I attempt to bargain.

He chuckles softly "Rose" he warns teasingly, I give him my best puppy dog face, pouting with wide hopeful eyes at him.

He rolls his eyes fondly "one single hint" he says, gently tightening his arms around my waist as he thinks for a moment.

I watch him curiously as he decides what could be a good hint before he nods and looks down to meet my gaze, smiling a little.

"Apple Grass" he finally says, I stare up at him in confusion for a moment as I search my memories before my eyes widen.

Just before I can speak I hear the music start up rather quickly.

I groan and gently thump my head against his chest "I'm off to New Earth then" I huff.

He gently kisses the top of my head "you'll be alright, just remember to be careful" he insists.

I nod and look up to him again, smiling softly again "you be careful, ok? You're next adventure with me is going to be...well, interesting to say the least"

He smirks a little "do I not get a hint then?" He asks cheekily, I snort and gently smack his chest teasingly.

"Cheeky" I tease and gently kiss him again as the music got louder.

"I love you" I murmur "I'm glad you're alright" I finish, looking up into his warm brown eyes.

"I love you too, be careful" he reiterates.

Nodding, I gently reach up and softly stroke his cheek with my thumb, smiling more at the warmth of his touch, even as his skin was cooler than a humans, our touch sent warmth through us both.

He closes his eyes and leans into my touch, even as my vision was swimming and going dark, and soon I'm standing alone in the dark.

I drop my hand to my side and let out a long exhausted sigh.


I do apologize again for taking so long to post, my motivation to write anything has been incredibly low lately.

But I hope you enjoyed this chapter!

Next chapter is going to be a roller coaster! But with a good ending :D

I love you all and thank you for continuing on this adventure with me and Rosie Rose here.

~Ezra~