Okay so special shoutout to the reviewers that gave me some new music to listen to, DatEggLove, skylarhearts13, libbykat, Animeluva1 and Annrob22 thankyou all! I love all of the music you showed me(:
Since I can't PM guests, Noonespecial: Thankyou for the variety of different music omg I loved it all! Especially Revolution, I fell in love with Diplo
And Guest: I mainly love Dubstep(Adventure Club omg), Alternative rock(Like The Used, Skillet and Red) and rap(Tech N9ne and Eminem foreva;*) but I also love something I can sing along with ie: Jhene Aiko/Lana Del Rey ect. But like I said I'll listen to just about anything(: So hmu with some good artists and songs yo :P oh and DONT PEER PRESSURE ME! PEER PRESSURING IS NOT NICE!
Oh and thankya launi9 for re reading the story and leaving me such wonderful and funny reviews(: ya really put a big goofy smile on my face each time I read one xD
Now this next chapter is gonna be a rough one, actually the next few chapters are gonna be rough n have lots of feels in them so BRACE YOURSELVES!
mkay, enjoy you wonderful readers(:
Gray POV
I woke up to my phone ringing. More than once. I tried ignoring it but whoever was calling was really persistent, and there was nothing I hated more than being woken up to that damn annoying ring.
I flopped around in my bed and sighed each time I heard my phone stop and go again. I wanted to sleep, it was too early to get up, but I just couldn't get comfortable again. So I hit my head into my pillow a few times and sighed loud enough to wake up my neighbors.
I assumed it was Juvia calling since she was notorious for being annoying and clingy, but at the same time she never was up this early. Even when she partied, which was becoming very rare thankfully, she usually stopped doing blow around 1 in the morning and was asleep by 1:30-2 A.M.
So why the hell is she calling me right now?
I sat up in my bed and decided enough was enough, but when I looked down at my phone my attitude quickly evaporated. It was Natsu who was calling me, which was weird because we don't talk as much as we used to. Not since he got promoted by the old man and outranked me in the gang. I didn't hold it against him though, it was bound to happen since he was so busy.
I answered the phone with a swipe of my finger and pressed it against my ear, then choked out a gruff greeting, "Yo."
"Uh, Gray.." Natsu replied, his voice carrying a number of different emotions, causing me to panic. "Look, I know we're not tight anymore.. but can you, i don't know, come meet me? I need a friend right now."
I raised an eye brow and tried to find words so I didn't leave him hangin'. But a response was hard to find. Of course I wanted to go and be a friend for him, but I was taken off guard because this was Natsu we were talking about! I've never heard him act so vulnerable and he's never shown emotion like this, not even when shit went down between him and Lisanna. So why all of a sudden?
Natsu's weak voice pulled me out of my head,"You don't have to... I just figured since we were really good at one point. You're like a brother and.. Oh nevermind-"
"No, no! I'll be there, where we meetin'?" I cut him off before he could even finish. His pathetic tone made me cringe internally and I just couldn't hear it anymore. Why is he acting like this?
Natsu sounded a little happier when he said, "Meet me at the hospital we usually go to, I'm in room I202. Take your time though."
Before I could respond, I heard a small click and then the call was disconnected. I moved the phone from my face and looked down at it with a small smile on my lips. At least he was still hanging up on people, that should be a good sign.
Salamander POV
I sat on a uncomfortable chair in a plain white room next to Lucy's plain white bed with its damn plain white sheets and blanket. Even her damn gown was white! I was sick of seeing nothing but that fuckin' color.
I shouldn't blame that for my frustration though, no I had a whole lot of different shit to blame. Like how Lucy is avoiding looking at me, or how Erza is pacing around the room and stopping like she's going to say some encouraging shit only to start pacing again. Oh and then that doctor, that stupid fuckin' doctor, he just had to kick me out of the room at one point because I screamed at him. Maybe if he didn't spute out that mumbo jumbo nonsense in his little 'doctor language' I wouldn't have gotten in his stupid face.
"Stop making that face, you look stupid," Lucy suddenly whispered from next to me. She was laying down, facing me, the blankets were pulled up to her chin and her blonde hair was covering most of her face. I just wanted to see her eyes, maybe then I could feel a little better about this whole.. mess.
I straightened my back and started nervously tapping my fingers on my knee. I wanted to be anywhere else than in this damn room with these damn girls. "Don't tell me what to do," I all but growled back. "And who the hell are ya callin' stupid?"
The room fell silent again, save our breathing and Erza's pacing. I was sick of the silence, I was sick of how small and depressing Lucy looked, and I was sick of these fuckin' feelings that I couldn't express. I wanted to go find something or someone and just punch 'em over and over.
I jumped to my feet and mumbled, "Be right back," then headed toward the open door. The sun was starting to rise and the hospital was starting to come to life with new noises. Maybe I can go find something to eat or find something to do besides sit there with my thumb up my ass.
I had my head hanging once I stepped out and I watched my feet as I proceeded down the hall. I made it down the hall and around a corner or two before I was abruptly stopped. My elbow rammed into someone and I heard a grunt then an angry voice, "Yo, watch it!"
I laughed when I locked eyes with the person I ran into, "Maybe you should watch where yer goin', Gray."
Gray smiled at my witty comment, though the smile didn't reach his eyes. He was as stressed as I felt. Shit, he was stressed because I was stressed, he was such a good friend. Why had we stopped talkin'?
"So wassup? And why are we in a hospital, who's hurt?" Gray asked after a few awkward minutes of us just standing in the hall.
I raised a hand a ran it through my tangled hair. It was starting to fall limp and it was greasy and mangled from not washing it yet today. I probably looked like a wreck. "Well, something happened with Lucy-"
"What! She alright?" Gray spoke over me. His eyes were wide and they kept darting from me to down the hall where I was coming from. I could tell he wanted to go down there and see her for himself, but he also knew I wanted to talk so he stayed. He was easy to read.
I nodded and continued, "She was pregnant Gray. She fuckin' lost the baby because she was doing drugs and because Sting beat the shit outta her more than once. The doctors looked at me like I did it, me!" I stuck a thumb up and hit it against my chest for emphasis. "Like I'm some fuckin' woman beater or something! They even kicked me out of the room at one point. Erza told me they asked her if she wanted to speak with the police, like what the fuck?
"And it's all that bastards fault! He probably got her pregnant when she was off doing god knows what and he took it away from her! Oh and then, then the doctor had pulled me aside and tried talking to me about us getting into outpatient rehab." I let out a hoarse laugh at the reminder. "Because he knows she was off doing coke so that made me look like a fuckin' addict."
Gray shook his head in disapproval but stayed silent so I could continue.
I took a deep breath and looked down at my feet again while I stuffed my hands in my sweat pants' pocket. I muttered, "I thought I really cared about her but if she fucked him, I don't know if I can have her around anymore. I feel bad because she needs someone.. she did lose a baby and she's a wreck, but I just can't! She knew about how I felt about Sting, she knew about my past with Lisanna, yet she still went and fucked him! I know I shouldn't get mad, she wasn't really mine to begin with," I scoffed at the grim and ironic reminder. "I can't help it though," I looked back up and made eye contact again. "What would you do, Gray? Because the only thought that I keep having is to run and never look back, remove this bitch from my life for good. But that doesn't sound right, does it?"
I paused for a second and continued to plead with Gray with my eyes. He didn't seem to know how to react so I started ranting again, "I'm not even mad that she left to go do drugs anymore, all I can think about is her... with him. God, Gray, I just don't know what the fuck I should do." I hadn't realized until I was done how loud my voice actually was. I was yelling my business in a hallway and more than a few people-patients and staff alike- were lookin' at me with fear and/or anger. Let them be angry, though! Shit, atleast I'm not the only one.
"Well," Gray calmly said, "why don't you just ask her?"
I raised an eye brow but gave no response. Ask her what? I have no idea what the hell Gray is talking about, nothing's making sense anymore.
Gray rolled his eyes and shook his head, taking the hint that he needed to spell it out for me. "I mean ask her if she fucked Sting. It's as simple as that."
I smacked a hand on my forehead and let it smear down my face while I sarcastically groaned, "Oh yes! Why didn't I think about that? 'Hey, Luce, so I was wondering, did you fuck my enemy?! I know it's none of my business but please tell me about your sex life!'" I placed my hands on my head and locked my fingers together as I huffed out my frustration.
"It's as simple as that," Gray laughed.
I groaned and shook my head, my hands still resting on my head. I questioned, "And what the hell do I do if she says yes?"
"Do what you think is right," Gray answered. He said it so matter o fact and he was really starting to irritate me. It's not that simple! "Look, either you ask her or I will. Don't be a little bitch just because you're scared of what she might say, since when did you let fear hold you back? Don't go soft, flame brain. Man up and be blunt with her."
I shot Gray a stern look before turning and walking back toward Lucy's room. There's no way I'll let what he just said be proven right. I am not going soft. I'm not afraid either.
But if I'm not scared, why are my hands shaking?
We walked to her room in silence, it taking a lot longer than it should have. I was dragging my feet and taking my sweet time because I dreaded what was to come. How would I react when she told me she fucked Sting? What if she liked him more than me? I pulled my hair at the thought, I shouldn't think like that. There were more important matters at hand.
Like how I was going to react. Should I play it cool and slowly distance myself? Should I just freak out and shake some sense into her before leaving for good? Option 1 seemed to make more sense but option 2 appealed more to me. I'd really love to just show her exactly how mad she made me. But not in the same way Sting did, I'm not that kind of man. No, I just wanted to scream at her until she cried.
We stepped into the room and I internally groaned because everything was still the way I left it, except now Erza was sitting next to Lucy. They both looked up to Gray, completely ignoring me, and Lucy actually smiled. Bitch...
"Yo, Lucy. I'll come see ya in a minute, Erza I gotta talk to you, outside," Gray hinted and tilted his head toward the hall.
Erza looked confused yet she nodded and stood up and quickly walked to the hall. I didn't look at her though, my eyes stayed on the blond laying on the bed before me. Lucy slowly pulled herself up so she was sitting and her eyes finally appeared from behind her bangs, her gaze matching mine.
I sighed a few times and tried to build my confidence and control. I needed to be the one in charge, I can't let my emotions show.
"Why did ya make them leave?" Lucy accused. One brown eye and one red eye fallowed me as I walked a few steps closer, stopping next to her bed.
I cleared my throat and looked into her eyes, but before I could let even a word out I lost my confidence. How am I suppose to ask her such a personal question?
Lucy clucked her tongue. "What's your issue?" She looked down at her hands and muttered, "Just ask what everyone's thinking."
My eyes went wide at the realization that she could read me so well. "Okay... Did you sleep with-"
"No I didn't fuck Sting," Lucy snapped as she started picking at her finger nails. Her voice wen't soft when she whispered, "If you really want to know, you were the last person I slept with."
Lucy looked back up at me and she watched me as gears started spinning in my head. I started stroking my bare chin with my thumb and pointer finger as I thought. How long has it been since the last time I was in bed with her? The day I slapped her was the last time, I think. And that was 3 days before I bought the cat and she left, and since then it's been about a month-33 days I wanna say-that she's been gone. A month of me taking care of her child while she ran off and played around with another dude.
A month- that's long enough for a pregnancy to be known.
"Natsu, I think that was your baby," Lucy sobbed. I hadn't realized she was crying until I heard her speak, but I couldn't focus on her right now.
I played her words in my head a few times, just to be sure I heard her right. "You were the last person I slept with," "I think that was your baby." Is she serious?
No, this had to be some sick joke.
But why is she crying instead of laughing and screaming, 'Ha fooled you!'
The white in the room was quickly being replaced with black, starting at in my peripheral and making it's way to where my eyes focused. I raised my head to speak but my legs gave way and the dark took over.
"Yo, Natsu, wake the fuck up!" A voice called out to me. Who's in my room? And why does my back and head hurt?
I don't want to open my eyes, I just want to sleep. But whoever was in my room was very persistent. Something struck me in my face, leaving my cheek stinging.
I groaned loudly and moved my hands to cover my eyes. "What the fuck!" I peeked an eye open through my fingers and watched my raven haired friend as he laughed at me. What a dick.
"Is the princess finally awake?" Gray chuckled. I heard the faint sound of a girls giggle that was cut off and 'covered' by a cough.
I rolled my eyes and covered them again with my hand. I ignored his nit picking and muttered, "What happened?"
Another girl's voice answered, "I was talking to you and you just kind of...collapsed."
If I wasn't mistaken, that was Lucy's voice. I was instantly awake at the sweet sound, so I moved my hands from my face and sat myself up. I was on the floor, that made sense since I supposedly passed out. I looked around the room and took in my surroundings, I was next to some white bed on a white floor in a white room-
Oh now I remember. Lucy had to go to the hospital for..something.
"You were the last person I slept with," "I think that was your baby."
"I think that was your baby."
She thinks that was my baby...
No fuckin' way.
I jumped up to my feet, Gray tried to help me, but I easily pushed him to the side and stepped closed to Lucy's bed. I leaned down so my nose was practically touching hers and I whispered, "Do you really think that was my baby?"
She looked in my eyes for a moment, tears starting to stream down her face again. Why is she acting so weak? God it was really pissing me off. "Mhm," She hummed, her gaze never faltering.
I gave a forced laugh and straightened myself up. I turned back and looked at Gray and Erza and sarcastically laughed, "Ya hear that, guys? I guess that was 'my kid'," I used my hands to make quotations as I spoke. "Do you believe it? 'Cos I sure as hell don't!" I turned back to Lucy and snickered, "You're lying, you're just trying to make me feel as shitty as you do right now, but no. I didn't lose a kid today, you did! Because you're a fuckin' coke whore."
"Natsu!" Gray screamed from behind me, but I easily ignored him.
I rolled my eyes and screamed at Lucy, "Just fuckin' admit it! That was not my kid! You're just lying-"
"I'm not," Lucy whimpered as she cowered in her bed. She was pulling the blanket up and covering everything except her eyes, like she was some kid hiding from monsters. I was probably scaring her, good.
"Bull-fucking-shit!" I screamed again, moving even closer to her. She was visibly shaking and backing up to the head of the, but I was quicker. I shot out and grabbed hold of her face and pulled it close to me. I breathed so only she could hear me, "And even if that was my baby, you killed it. And I could never forgive you."
Lucy whimpered again so I released my hold of her. I didn't look at her again, I wanted out. I turned on my heel and headed for the door, not stopping when Erza and Gray called out for me.
I heard Lucy right before I left, "Natsu, please..."
Lucy POV
"Natsu, please...wait," I whispered, but he was already gone.
Gray sat down on my bed and he huffed a few times before he muttered, "What the hell is his issue?"
"I fucked up," I said under my breath. I didn't speak to them, I was more telling myself. Everything that he just said didn't fully register in my head.
He called me a whore, told me I was a liar, and he had said he'd never forgive me. I don't know what to do, what to say.
So I laid down and pushed my head into the pillow, crying out, "Bring Wendy here! I wanna see her!" I know I probably sounded childish but I didn't care. I needed her and I needed her advice and love and just her presence in general.
So how was that for some feels?
How many of you were expecting all of that to happen? I feel like I made it really obvious.
Oh and the math Natsu did in his head, I'll explain. It was about 3 days after Natsu slapped Lucy that she left and Wendy got Carla, then about a week after that Natsu was sitting there drinking and Wendy showed up, then it was about 2 weeks later when Lucy was listening to that one song and thinking about the stuff she did, and after that it was about 12 days later that she was getting beat and Natsu saved her.
That was alot holy shit, I know I'm not good with times and really being descriptive at all, I try!
Oh and everyone going to school today, tomorrow-whenever, HAVE FUN! GOOD LUCK! BLAH BLAH BLAH
I really miss school, so have fun for the both of us!
Yay, I'll be an 'adult' soon **Gags**
My 18th birthday is comin up n I don't wanna grow up D: So from the 19th and on I'll probably be on here a lot less cuz I'll have to get a job and whatnot...
kay, stay lovely my friends,
xoxo
-Bean
