Oi readers,

So sorry i kinda dipped for a few days, i've been depressed again. It comes and goes. I've been cryin alot and pushin people away n i just don't know what to do with my life right now,

I'm like hitting a mid life crisis right now because I'm turning 18, have i mentioned that I DONT WANNA GROW UP

ugh, anywho i also had some writers block cuz i didn't realy know what to do after that whole feels session, so i've brainstormed and i can't think of much besides little fillers.

The stories gonna be a little slow for a while, so please; if it gets boring, tell me! But like.. not in a mean way. just say like 'yo bean, make more stuff happen' n ill try!

okei here we go,


Lucy POV

"What do you mean, he wont let her come here?" I yelled for the millionth time. Gray and Erza had quietly stayed with me while I cried for hours after Natsu flipped out on me. I had demanded that Wendy come here because I needed to see her and I really hoped she'd want to see me after so long, but after Gray had made a few calls, he had told me something that turned my sorrow into anger.

Gray exhaled loud enough for people to hear him out in the hospital hallway and pinched the bridge of his nose. "This is the last time I'm gon' say it, Lucy. Natsu. Said. No."

I propped myself up on the hospital bed I wasn't suppose to leave and let my eyes go wide, though it sent a bolt of pain into my head. I shrieked, "Who the fuck is he to tell her what she can and can't do?"

Gray shook his head and closed his eyes, his fingers still pinching the spot between his eyes. I could tell he was irritated with me, but I was irritated with him, and Natsu, and...myself. I fucked up, yes, but Natsu's crossing a fine line with telling me I can't see my own daughter.

Erza scooted her chair closer to my bed and gave me a failed attempt at a smile. She said, "I'm sorry to break it to you Lucy, but Natsu is Wendy's legal guardian. When you two ran away, Wendy's paper work was still left at the orphanage. While you were gone, Natsu and her went there and he adopted her. So... he can tell her what she can and can't do."

That can't be right! How long did it even take to adopt her? I was only gone such a short time, atleast it seemed short!

The room felt like it was getting smaller. I was so shocked by this news that my chest tightened and the air around me grew thick, making it rather difficult to breathe. I fell back down onto the bed and struggled to inhale, though with each breath it felt like I wasn't getting enough oxygen.

My heart felt like it was going to thump out of my chest, am I having a heart attack? I cried out at the thought. I can't die now, not after all that I've lived through. Not yet.

"Lucy, what's wrong?" Gray suddenly asked, but I couldn't pay attention to him. No, i had to focus on breathing, in, out, in, out, in- "Yo, you okay?" Gray was now towering over me. -out, in- "Erza, go get someone!" Gray called over his shoulder, though he still peered down at me. "Lucy, hang in there, someone's comin' right now."

I nodded-or at least attempted, and continued my little routine. In and out, in and out, nice and slow, but not too much, it hurts to breath too much.

I couldn't see who ran into the room but within a blink of the eye, Gray was pushed aside and an unfamiliar doctor loomed over me. I barely had time to look at him. The pain in my chest was growing so I closed my eyes and continued to focus on my breathing.

First the doctor pried my good eye open and I was blinded by a bright light as he moved it back and forth before me. Then he pressed a cool stethoscope to my bare chest, right above my boob. I don't know what he was doing or what he concluded after examining me, but after a few more things I felt the doctor grab one of my arms and fallowed by the uneasy pinch of a needle piercing the inside of my elbow. Why is he taking my blood?

I heard an unfamiliar voice that could only be the doctor say, "She seems okay besides her elevated heart rate, so I'm taking some blood and sending it to the lab to make sure she's not having a heart attack," then he was gone.

A heart attack?! Oh god, I was right! I'm dying!

"Lucy, you're okay." Gray cooed from beside me. The hand that the doctor held down was now resting in Gray's sweaty palm and he was rubbing his thumb across the back of my hand.

Just focus on his touch. Don't think about breathing. Or that terrible pain. Just Gray's touch.

Before I knew it, I had my eyes open and the world was coming back into focus. I could breath again, the pain was subsiding and the air felt normal again. But just to be safe, I stayed lying down and squeezed Gray's hand. "I'm good now," I croaked out to my two gang members that so kindly accompanied me though that... whatever it was. I looked over and met Gray's cool blue eyes. I whispered, "I think," and gave him a weak smile.

Gray smiled back and let go of my hand. He laughed, "Good, god don't scare us like that!" Then he was standing again. He turned his body from me and muttered, "Look, it's getting kinda late and I should probably go talk to Natsu. So, take care, okay?"

I nodded and closed my eyes again, trying to stop the tears from coming. He was right, it was well into the afternoon and I was tired. I was told to rest and stuff, but my body nor my mind were ready to sleep. It was my spirit, my will to go on, I felt spiritually exhausted. I was ready to give up.

I feel empty because I lost something I never though possible. How could I be pregnant and not know? How terrible of a person could I be to take away a life that didn't even get the chance to live?

And then Natsu had said those things to me, for good reason too. I can't blame him for how he feels, I feel the same way. Everything that he said was true, except one thing. I was 120% sure that was his baby and I felt bad for telling him, but he wanted to know. If only he didn't ask, then he would still be here with me and he would let Wendy see me and thing would be so much better.

But no, I'm just one fuck up after another.

"Be safe," Erza spoke to Gray as he made his way out of the room. "And don't pry him too much, who knows how he is right now..."

After Gray left, I whispered to Erza, "Why arn't you leavin' too?"

My eyes were still closed but I heard her chuckle and step closer to me. I lifted a little in my bed when she sat on the edge and she answered, "Well, Salamander told me to help take care of you, so that's what I'm doing. Plus, I can tell you really need a friend right now, so...I'm here." Erza placed her hand on my covered leg and she started rubbing it.

I relaxed at her touch. I felt the warmth of fresh tears running down my face but I swallowed the sobs. She was right, I needed someone, anyone right now.

"Hey," Erza's smooth voice called out to me. "Talk to me, what's on your mind?"

"I...I hate myself," I managed to whimper before my body was shaking with sobs. "W-why am I.. so weak?" I cried out. "I did what I wanted and look at what happened! I selfishly did line after line without thinking of what it was doing to me, to the life that was forming inside me, to...those around me. Natsu hates me, Wendy probably does too! And if I lose her too, I don't know if I can go on anymore! It's always been us two, us against the world."

I shakily took a few calming breaths and pressed the blanket to my face to soak up my tears. After a few moments, I explained, "I sold my body so she could eat for fuck's sake! I did everything, everything I could to make sure she survived! But then... I got sloppy. I let drugs take over my life, and I wouldn't be surprised if she's had enough...she probably doesn't ever want to... see me again..." I silently cried at the thought of that. A life without Wendy? Could I make it? Would I even survive without that anchor that so often saved my life by pulling me back down to reality.

"Hey now, don't talk like that. The entire time she's been around, she's had nothing but good things to say about you. She misses you. She was a little angry you left, but who wouldn't be?"

I opened my eyes and looked at the scarlet haired woman who was so easily calming me down. I remember how we first met, she whooped my ass and pinned me down on Salamander's floor, who knew she could be so nice and understanding?

Erza smiled and softly continued, "Gray will talk some sense into Salamander, give them some time, okay? And as for the," She cleared her throat nervously, "...mistakes you made, don't put too much blame on yourself. You're only human after all."

"That's no excuse for killing his baby... my baby. He won't forgive me, shit; I won't forgive me-"

Erza rolled her eyes while she cut me off, "But like I said, you're human. It's okay to feel sad about what happened, it's okay to kick yourself for it, but it's not okay to dwell on it. Learn from this, better yourself. Whenever you want to go do drugs again think to yourself, 'look at what happened last time!' and kick that craving's ass."

I smiled weakly and nodded.

A knock at the door pulled mine and her attention away from each other. I looked over, hopeful to see the bluenette I was praying would waltz in at any moment, but was quickly let down when I saw the doctor who had taken my blood earlier.

Now that I was fine I could actually look at him. He was shorter than most men, he had black-graying hair that was thinner on the top of his head, he had bright green eyes with wrinkles that tickled the edges of them, and frown lines that decorated his face. His eyes told a sad story of hospital life, even though he tried to cover it with a fake smile. He looked to young to be full of such sad feelings.

"Ah, you're okay now?" He asked as he stepped into the room.

I nodded and pulled the blanket farther up my body. I was still a little skittish around men, especially angry ones like Natsu and unfamiliar ones like this doctor.

"Well, I ran some tests and your blood seemed A-OK, so I wanted to come speak with you about what happened."

I nodded again and started to explain to him all of the thing's I felt, though it was quite hard to put into words. While I spoke, he occasionally gave me nods or small mhm's but let me continue. After I was done, the doctor asked me, "Did you receive any news or get upset in any way before hand?"

Erza spoke for me, "It's been one thing after another all day, she's really stressed about a few things."

"Ah," was all the doctor gave me for a minute. He looked down at the paper he held and read the contents over a few times before saying, "It seems to me that you were having an anxiety attack. I can give you something for it but-"

"No," I spoke without thinking. I held up a hand to quiet him and whispered, "No more drugs, please. I just want to get out of here as soon as possible without being doped up."

The doctor shrugged and laughed, "Okay, I'll send someone in to check up on you in a little bit. Take care and try to relax."


Rogue POV

"Sting, just try to relax," I spoke to my blonde friend-leader. He was throwing the biggest bitch fit I've ever seen him throw before, It was almost comical. Except the reasoning for his little episode.

Sting threw something at me that I easily dodged by ducking and I heard glass shatter behind me. He's been trying to hit me with something for the past 30 minutes and it was getting old, real quick. Does he think he's gonna get me? "Don't fuckin' tell me what to do!" Sting shrieked back. "You're the reason she's gone! You fuckin' traitor!"

I rolled my eyes at his accusation and took a small step forward. If I could knock him out, this raging head ache that's slowly forming behind my eyes will fade. I just need him to sleep for a few hours.

"Stay back!" Sting eyes grew wide and he picked up what looked like a lamp and was pointing it in my direction. He held it like it was a sword and he swung it a few times, showing me what he can do with it.

I took another brave step in his direction and pushed my hair out of my eye. It's hard to fight when one of your eyes is covered like mine usually is, and Sting would be a tough opponent. But he really needed to sleep or something because I was sick of him screaming, hitting things and throwing things. He was acting like a child. "Bro, put the lamp down and I won't hurt you," I spoke calmly to him, my hands out in front of me in a non threatening manor.

Sting took a step back as I took another forward. He was acting scared of me, he never acted like this. He really needed to calm down, he was up for too long doing drugs with the gang. Even when they all took breaks and went back to their lives and jobs, he and Lucy had stayed up.

But then Lucy left last night. He didn't know until this morning because he and Yukino had stayed in the room all night. Since they were doing their business and the rest of the gang was shocked because Lucy left, the house slowly emptied, leaving just me and the two in the bedroom here. I didn't leave because it was my place too, and I wanted to be here when Sting found out about Lucy, but I was quickly getting irritated and regretted my decision to stay.

Sting swung the lamp again and yelled loud enough to pop my ear drums, "I told ya to stay the hell back! You wouldn't dare hurt me, I'm your boss!"

"Yeah and you're my friend first! Look at yourself bro, you're on a path to destruction! Put down the fuckin' straw and open your eyes," I growled back. I was done with being Sting's naive shadow, I'm gonna show him and everyone else in this gang that it was time to step up and better ourselves. This isn't what Jiemma wanted of our gang, he was a twisted man and he was wrong with a lot of things, but he wanted us to be at the top. Not succumbing around on the bottom, partying all night and slacking off in the day. We we're better than that!

Sting's jaw tightened and his eyes darted around. He was thinking of an escape plan, so easy to read. "I'm gonna get her." He whispered barely loud enough for me to hear. "I'm gonna take down Fairy Tail and take her back, she's mine!" Sting smiled to himself as he thought about her and I felt my stomach flip. He was becoming so disgusting. Thinking he can own someone, what happened to my best friend?

While Sting was distracted, I rushed forward pushed his hand down that held the lamp, causing the lamp to fall from his grasp. He barely had time to gasp before I buried my fist in his stomach, knocking him back, then smashed his head back into the wall behind him. I held onto his head for a moment, my pointer finger and thumb resting on his two temples and I held him up. His eyes drifted closed and I sighed heavily.

I didn't mean to be so violent but I was utterly disgusted with him at the moment.

I used my other hand to grab hold of his shirt and I dragged him to the couch. Once he was laying down, I heard him mutter something. When I looked at his face I saw his eyes fluttering open and he spoke clearly this time, "Revenge. I'll...get...revenge."

I rolled my eyes, even in his sleep he was plotting. But I can't let what he said come true, Lucy was such a nice person. No, I didn't have feelings for her, I barely found her attractive. I just thought she was chill and I've come to learn that she's a really strong woman.

So how do I stop Sting from hurting her further? First things first, find out what exactly he's planning to do. If I have to restrain him I will, I mean I've already beaten the shit outta him just for plotting to hurt her.

I also kinda wanna help her though, but I can't get close enough without Fairy Tails leader comin' at me. What was his name? Sala-something? I can't remember his name, but I'll never forget that flaming pink hair. I wonder if he dyed it? He couldn't possibly have been born with hair like that.

I'm getting off topic...

So what can I do to help Lucy-no Fairy Tail's entire gang? "Hm..." I breathed out loud. I was slowly making my way down the hall and to the little door that was next to my bedroom's door. It led to the basement. The basement where we kept two Fairy's as hostages...

I could set them free. But how would I go about that without having my entire gang come at me? They'd have my head for going against Sting, me being his best friend or not. So I'd have to be sneaky.

I opened the creaky door and slipped inside, knowing that no one was around but still fidgeting silently because I was afraid of getting caught. I lightly stepped down the dark stairs, my hand holding onto the old railing that led down. Once I reached the bottom, I used my hand to find the light switch that was next to the stairs and flipped it on. I was blinded by the flickering light, but I blinked the pain away and looked around.

There were two figures slouched together on the floor. One of them was obviously a woman, her brown hair was tangled yet still hanging elegantly down her back. She had her head down and her hands were bound behind her back. Behind her was a feminine looking man that was in the same position as her, his green hair sticking to his forehead and blood running down his face. The gang's been a lot meaner to him than they have been to the brown haired woman. Though she was threatened in a way that was more horrifying than what they did to him. I had to fight a few men off of her because that was just wrong.

The man looked up first. He turned his head toward me and asked in a strong voice despite his tattered appearance, "Time to eat already? I thought you only fed us once a day, but it's only been about 20 hours and 48 minutes since the last person came down here."

The woman didn't bother looking up when she sneered, "Or are you here to beat us again. If you're gonna do it, don't be a pussy." She spit on the ground in front of her then inclined her head so her face was down but her face was visible. Her eyes found mine and she laughed, "Unbind me. Fight me like a man."

"Evergreen!" The green haired guy barked at her. He nudged her with his shoulder and laughed, "You sound like Elfman."

Evergreen-I guess was her name-looked back down and nodded, whispering in a barely audible whine, "I know, I miss him.." I saw the reflection of light in a tear going down her cheek and her shoulders started moving with silent sobs.

They stayed silent for a minute, Evergreen crying while Green haired dude watched me. I didn't know what exactly to say, I never thought about the members of Fairy Tail being actual people. They were just enemies, people I've never met before but was expected to hate. Then we kidnapped these people and I helped beat the shit outta them for information, even though we already had an informant.

Then Lucy came around, and she somehow touched my heart. She smiled through all of the horrors Sting faced her with, even after he beat her bloody she tried to comfort me. Me! Stupid girl.

Lucy showed me that Fairy's were real people, they had hopes and dreams and fears and people they loved and people that loved them. I could see now, in Evergreen's tear stricken face that we wern't just keeping her from helping our rival gang, we were keeping her from this Elfman guy that she obviously cared about dearly. I wonder if he missed her too, I wonder if he was running around wild, swearing to kill every single person that held her from him.

I wonder if he was the guy that helped take Lucy away? The big white haired guy that said something about not leaving until he found 'Ever,' whatever that meant.

I gained confidence again, easily finding my voice, "I'm here to help you two break out."

They both spoke at the same time;

"Fuck off, liar."

"Why?"

I shook my head at the foul language the small woman before me used and turned my attention to her companion. "I'm..doing it for a friend. If I help you, I want you to take a message to her and your leader."

Evergreen clucked her tongue and she scoffed, "A friend? You think I'm stupid or somethin', buddy. Why should I trust you?"

I momentarily lost my temper and harshly whispered back, "You're obviously stupid if you're turning down the only bit of hope you have in this hell hole! So shut the fuck up and let me help you."

Green haired dude nodded in agreement and Evergreen looked from me to the floor before agreeing, "Okay.."


So I guess that's it!

Hope ya'll liked it, I definently liked Rogue's part. N I made it clear that he and Lucy do NOT have anything going on between them. And neither do Lucy and Gray.

So what do ya think Sting's plotting? Lemme know in the reviews that you lovely people will leave because you all love me so much

Just kidding, I'm not gonna force you to review xD

Though I'd very much like it if ya did(:

OOOh and so how do ya think Rogue's plan is gonna go?

Okei be safe kiddo

xoxo

-Bean(;