It didn't take long for the Cullen family to include me in their daily routines. As soon as the sun crept up into the sky, Esme – the mother of the house, would spend some time together, tending to the flowers, organizing Carlisle's study and just get to know each other. Our sessions would usually end with us cooking a meal together. It was something neither one of us could eat, but all of these little chores really helped me feel as though I was human again. Esme was wonderful, being with her was almost like being with Rene. I treasured our short time together.

Next, Alice would steal me away to dig through her wardrobe. This was something I didn't entirely look forward to. But Alice enjoyed picking out my outfits for the day. We would chit-chat about trivial things, but it always kept me distracted. Ultimately Alice would talk me into a ridiculously beautiful outfit, that I would surely ruin when I went out to hunt. We would spend probably an hour or two getting dressed, doing hair and makeup. I felt like a real-life barbie doll. It was torture, but it was worth it seeing how much it made Alice happy.

After Alice had her fun with me, I would join Edward for a short hunt. He was always waiting for me on the porch. His eyes would scan me over with an unreadable expression, before leading me into the thick miles of forest behind the Cullen estate. We would take down a few deer, once we got our fill we would walk back to the house in a slow human-like speed. Much to his sibling's annoyance. But we talked the entire time, learning how our minds worked. He would always have so many questions to me, from what my favorite color was, to what my biggest goals and wishes were. He was a little less open about his past then I was, but I could only assume he would tell me when he was ready. Afterall, we didn't know each other that well yet.

By the time we made it back to the house, everyone had to leave to go to school. They all would pile into Edward's Volvo, and just disappeared. Almost like a dream, like they were never here to begin with. At this time of the day, I felt lonely, but I did enjoy some time to myself to just reflect. Esme knew to give me my space and of course Carlisle was gone as well – he would go to his job at the hospital. Most of the time I found myself exploring the house, or reading in Carlisle's study. He had every book imaginable in his study. It was so quiet and peaceful. But any length of time I had in silence, allowed me to think back to the past. I would think about Rene and Charlie often, however the thought of Phil was slowly beginning to fade. I wasn't sure I could remember what he looked like. When I tried to picture him, I could only see a blurry image in my head.

This scared me. Would I eventually forget Rene and Charlie as well? I decided that I would have to make a stop at Charlie's house. There were more things I need to take with me. Hopefully he would have a photo album that I could take as well. I didn't ever want to remember what my parents looked like. I wonder if that's how it was for the others? Could they still remember their past lives? Did they remember what food tastes like? Did they remember what their heart felt like, while it was pounding in their chest? They may not sound like important memories, but they were a part of who they were.

Once the others returned from school, it was time for my training. It was usually Jasper – who would take me to the back yard to help me manage my thirst. Although at times Edward or Emmett would come to watch my progress. It's been nearly a month now, each week Jasper would test me, with each test getting harder. It started out with just simply tying a deer to the tree. He would have me sit a few feet from it. I had to focus on the scent of the deer's blood. Then control myself – from not feasting on it. This had been an easy feat for me, until Jasper wounded the deer. He made a small cut on the deer – nothing fatal, but just enough for it to bleed.

This had been a different story. My body was swept up in a frenzy. It took about a week before I gained control over myself. But Jasper didn't let up, he continued to increase the difficulty. He began to slowly intergrade me into society. We started small, driving into town and parking at a remote store out towards the docks. There was a small store for fishing supplies. There wasn't a lot of people at the time we went, only two men. I didn't end up attacking them, although I had all urges to kill them. I was able to restrain myself from not leaving the car. Even when Jasper rolled the window down – and all I could do was burn in agony as I breathed in the scent of their blood. We did this every day, for a very long time. When it started getting easier Jasper would take me to another spot with many more people present.

At this point I was able to calmly walk into a busy store, full of people. I could be in close proximity. But this still wasn't enough for Jasper to fully trust me to start going to school with them. My ultimate test would be – when I could do this, while being thirsty. I've always hunted before and after each test. I'm sure it was going to be much harder remaining in control while I was thirsty. I wasn't sure if I was ready for it. But Jasper seemed confident that it was almost time to give it a try. I think Jasper was really beginning to warm up to me, he no longer looked at me like I was a threat. When we weren't training, he was telling me his extensive war history.

After training with Jasper, Emmett would come with me on a long hunt. We explored further and further from the house with each trip. Emmett made sure that I experience all different types of animal blood. So far, mountain lion was my favorite. The hunt with Emmett was one of my favorite times of the day. In truth, we would take down three or four animals, then we would just talk. Sometimes he would teach me to fight. He was a brute force to fight against, however I still had a little more strength – because of still being a newborn. But I could tell I was losing that strength. At this point Emmett had the edge on strength, but I made up for it with speed.

Usually, Rose would come track us down – at times she would watch us practice fighting. At first, she seemed suspicious. She made it clear that she wasn't going to take her eyes off us, or let us alone together for too long. But slowly she became more and more accepting. Emmett no longer was acting overly friendly, however there were moments that I saw yearning under his mask of friendliness. He no longer hugged me, or made any physical contact as best he could. I knew it was wrong for me to feel this way, but I really missed it. I had looked to him for comfort in the beginning, but he was pulling away from me more and more. Was it something I did? Or was it something Rose said to him? Either way, I wanted it back.

Rose would end our hunt, to take me back to the Cullen house. That is where I would help her in the garage. We have been slowly working on the truck Charlie had left for me. At first, Rose didn't trust me to touch anything, or really help her, but slowly she gave me more and more responsibility. Now we just worked on the truck together, usually while listening to music. We got along for the most part. But there was certain topics that Rose didn't allow us to have. She never wanted to talk about her past human life and she didn't want to talk about Emmett. As long as I avoided bringing that up, we never had any issues. I wasn't sure when the truck would be ready, but I think we were really making good progress. Rose had installed a brand-new engine and I worked on the outside, taking out dents and sanding the old worn-out paint. Rose and I would work on the truck until Carlisle came home from work.

Carlisle was always a joy. After a hectic day it was always nice to go with him to his study. A lot of the time Carlisle just wanted to know how I was adapting to this vampire life. But I always had questions for him. I wanted to know more about vampire history, I wanted to know more about him as a person. His story was an old but sad one. I had thought my transition was hard, but I at least didn't have to go through it all alone. Carlisle didn't have anyone to support him. I couldn't even imagine getting through this by myself. Sometimes, instead of talking we would just read, in complete silence. Esme usually would stop by – capturing all of Carlisle's attention. It was clear the both of them were still deeply in love. It was a kind of love that I hoped to obtain someday. They barely needed to speak to each other, it was like they already knew what each other was thinking.

When the sun was just setting in the sky, Edward would come for me next. We would go straight to his room. We sat at his grand piano. He would teach me new songs every day, just as he promised. And I would tell him everything and anything he asked me. I could never figure out why he was so interested in what was going on in my mind. But I didn't question it, I enjoyed his company. This was another favorite part of the day. Unlike Emmett, Edward only seemed to be getting closer to me. I felt his fingers running smoothly over my fingertips as we created music. He would move a few strands of hair from my face as I played independently. His eyes never left my face for very long. I was so comfortable with him. It was almost painful when our time was over together.

When the sun began in the sky again, I knew it was time to meet with Esme to begin our daily chores. This was what I did every day. It was the routine that they felt would help me blend smoothly in with the family. It was really working out well in my opinion. But I'd be just as happy if I could just spend all my time with either Emmett or Edward. But in this way, I could learn more about the others. We were a family now, maybe it would begin to feel that way.

However, today was a bit different. It was the weekend, so Alice and Rose decided to go to Port Angles to do some shopping. They invited me along, but I couldn't imagine anything more torturous. I politely declined. Jasper tagged along with them, most likely just to keep his eyes on Alice.

Esme and Carlisle decided they would like to go on a little vacation – Carlisle decided to take some time off work at the hospital. They would be gone for about a week, not too long.

It would just be Edward, Emmett and I here at the house for the next few hours. My two favorite people. Although they didn't appear to be getting along much as of late. I wondered if this was always the case. Once the rest had left, we went to the back yard. Edward went out to do a quick hunt in the nearby area, leaving Emmett and I alone.

I decided to lay down, not minding the dampness of the grass. I looked up at the sky, searching through the clouds. Every once in a while, the sun would peak through the clouds, causing my skin to start shimmering and glowing. It was so odd, but beautiful.

Emmett laid down next to me, keeping his eyes up to the sky as well. We were silent for a moment, just listening to the wildlife around us. I could hear the birds chattering in the distance. I could hear drops of rain rolling off of the leaves and landed on the forest floor.

"Do you ever think about to the times, that you were human?" I asked, glancing over to Emmett.

He turned his head to offer me a goofy grin. "Not so much anymore. When I was first turned... that was all I could think about."

"Do you ever miss it?"

"Nope, never. I've never been happier in my life. I'm strong, I'm immortal and let's not forget my dashing good-looks." He said with a smirk.

I laughed, giving him a playful nudge. "I guess you have a good point."

Emmett's expression shifted slightly now, taking on a more serious look. "You know if something is bothering you Bella, you can tell me." To my surprise Emmett reached over and took my hand in his. His massive hand filled me with comfort and the feeling of safety. I held his gaze for – what felt like a long time.

I lightly squeezed his hand. "I'm okay... just still getting used to this new life... things are getting better."

Again, it was quiet between us, but Emmett continued to hold my hand. It was a nice feeling. But in the pit of my stomach, I felt like we were doing something wrong. Surely Rose wouldn't appreciate this. But no matter how wrong it felt, I couldn't pull my hand away.

To my disappointment Emmett eventually let my hand go and stood up with a spring in his step. "I want to show you something." He said with an eager grin coming to his face.

I got up as well, unable to hold back my smile in response. "Really, and what might that be?"

"It's a surprise, you're just going to have to follow me." He replied casually.

"You know, I'm not the biggest fan of surprises." I said with a sigh.

"This one will be worth the wait. Follow me." He said and quickly turned his back and went running into the woods.

I followed after him, easily keeping up. "What about Edward, won't he be worried if he gets back home and can't find us?"

Emmett shrugged his shoulders. "Eddie worries too much, don't fret, I'm not going to kidnap you. He can handle not being constantly by your side."

"Whatever you say." There was no arguing with Emmet. I just didn't have it in me to ruin his fun. It was nice seeing him so happy. I haven't seen him smile like this in a really long time.

We didn't run for very long, we made it to the very center of the forest within a few minutes. Emmett paused at the base of the biggest tree in the entire woods. It was unreal, a human wouldn't be able to see the very top from here.

"So, what did you want to show me? A tree?" I asked with a raised brow. "Sorry to disappoint you Emmett, but I've seen plenty of trees." I teased him.

"Very funny, but no, what I'd like to show you is at the top of this tree." Emmett said snickering.

"You want me to climb this beast of a tree?"

"Unless your too scared to climb it." His tone was smug.

I rolled my eyes, giving him a light elbow to his chest. "Who do you think you're talking to?"

"Well then let's go," he said pulling me to the tree now. "Do you want some help getting up there. It can be a little tricky for first-timers."

"Are you kidding, let's race to the top." I said folding my arms across my chest.

Emmett's eyes brightened at my words. "Alright, so what do I get if I win?"

"You can ask me to do anything you want." I said after thinking briefly for a moment.

Emmett's smile widened. "And the loser becomes the winner's slave for the rest of the weekend."

I wasn't sure if I liked the sound of that, but it was my idea to make this into a race. I would just have to make sure that I reached the top first.

"Deal," I nodded.

With that we took our places, each putting one hand on the trunk. Emmett counted down from five and at one, we began racing up to the top of the tree. Early on I could tell that this had been a huge mistake on my part. Emmett already knew every limb, every branch. He was able to scale up the tree with ease. I had taken the wrong approach. For some reason I thought that I could simply run at full speed straight up the tree, but that didn't work. After watching Emmett do a combination of running, jumping and swinging I began making progress.

Still, Emmett made it to the top of the tree in less than two minutes, while it had taken me almost five. He had warned me that it was tricky for a first-timer. I should have listened to him. As fun as it was, now I would be his slave for the rest of the weekend. What would he have me do?

His wide smirk was the first thing I took note of once I reached the top. "Aw, don't pout Bella. I promise I'll go easy on you this weekend." He laughed freely.

"I don't think I can believe you, when you're looking at me like that." I said with a chuckle. I wasn't upset with him, I lost fair and square. I just hoped that he meant what he said – that he would go easy on me. But who was I kidding, it was Emmett.

Emmett cleared his throat, before lightly placing his hands on my hips and turning me around – so my back was against his. Electricity trickled down my sides at his touch, I felt like I was about to melt into his arms – that's when I realized what he had wanted to show me. Standing at the top of this tree, you could see for miles. All the trees and plant life as far as the eye could see. You could see every square each of Forks. It's was breath-taking.

I turned to Emmett with a huge smile – he still held my body close to his chest. He chuckled at my reaction as his hands slid tighter around me. We now were embracing each other.

"This is really beautiful," I spoke, watching him closely. I could tell that he was thinking really hard about something, I just couldn't tell what. Like Edward – I wanted desperately to know what was on his mind.

"It's nothing, compared to you." He leaned in to whisper quietly in my ear. His breath on my neck sent shivers down my spine.

As much as I wanted to feel guilty about this situation, I couldn't find a single cell of my body protesting this. I hadn't realized it before, but this yearning that I felt when Emmett looked in my direction, might actually be reciprocated.

"Since I won the race, I get to ask you to do something, anything I want. Is that right?" Emmett said now sliding his one hand up my back.

"Y-yes, anything you want." I stuttered, unable to take my eyes off of him.

"Would you do me the honor, of letting me steal a kiss from you?" For once, Emmett didn't sound quite as confident as he normally did. Was he just as nervous about this – then I was?

I nodded slightly and let my eyes close. What came next could only be described as fireworks. My heart was spinning, electricity danced through my body, I couldn't get close enough. I wanted more. As if I had completely lost control over myself - I leaned into the kiss.

Emmett's lips melted against mine with wild passion, his hands now went down to my butt. He lifted me up to straddle his waist. He flipped us around now so my back was against the tree. We let our bodies give in. I didn't know what had come over me, I was enjoying every second of it – but guilt stopped me from continuing any further.

I pulled back from Emmett, breathing unsteadily. He appeared out of breath as well as he rested his forehead against mine. We just stood like that – in silence. I was still being held up against the tree, Emmett's hands were still nicely placed on my butt.

"Sorry about that … I guess I kind of got carried away there." Emmett muttered quietly.

That was an understatement. But I wasn't any better. He was a married man. And I told myself that I wasn't going to get involved in their relationship, but here I was... getting in between Emmett and Rose. I was a monster. Some kind of home-wrecker. I couldn't believe that allowed myself to get swept away in all of this.

"I'm sorry too, that shouldn't have happened." I sighed, looking away from him. As much as I wanted to enjoy that kiss, I couldn't. Not with the image of Rose popping up in my thoughts. I had to tell her... but if I did, she would kill us both. There was no way I was going to be able to keep this a secret for very long. I mean Edward would just read Emmett's thoughts... and Alice has probably already seen this happen with her visions. I wish she would have given me a heads up.

"I can't explain it – but the moment I found you out here in the woods... I knew that I wanted you. I knew that you were the one that I had truly been looking for." Emmett said softly as he finally let me go.

"What about Rose?"

His expression changed slowly into a frown. "When Rose saved my life from that bear... I thought she was my guardian angel. Fierce and beautiful. I thought in exchange for what she did for me... I could do something for her. Maybe I could save her from loneliness and the loss that came with being turned. And we were happy for a while. But as the years have gone by Rose is slowly getting more and more bitter and depressed. I'm not enough. I was never going to be enough for her. I can't make her become human again; I can't give her a child of her own. All I'm doing is existing next to her." He said slowly, choosing his words carefully.

"Have you talked with Rose about this?"

"Yes, every time the conversation comes up, it only seems to make her feel worse. I know that she loves me, but I also know that she would give up anything – even me, just to be human again and have a baby."

"But you love her, you married her. Why are things different now?"

"You, meeting you changed everything for me. I thought that I knew what it felt to fall in love. I thought I fell in love with Rose the moment I saw her. But what I had felt back then with Rose, is nothing compared to how I feel about you. It felt like I was underwater, unable to move or breathe... then you appeared... and I can breathe again. I can see that this is more than falling in love. This is soul deep."

His words would have brought tears to my eyes, if that would have been possible. I was at a loss for words. He was putting everything out there, but I was unable to express how I felt. I wasn't sure what I felt. This all was happening to soon and I really didn't want to complicate things with the rest of the family. I was still viewed as an outsider. They could easily just send me out the door.

Emmett lightly took my face in his hands, making me look directly at him. "Please Bella, when I'm with you... and you look at me – like you are right now, I don't have to feel like I'm second best. I don't have to feel like some day you are going to throw me away. I want to feel that I am enough and you make me feel that way."

I closed my eyes and tried to wrap my head around what Emmett was telling me. It was so much to consider. I wasn't sure I was ready.

"P-please, give me some time to think this through. This isn't just going to affect me. I think that you should think this through as well." I said lightly taking his hands from my face.

Emmett sighed, a pained expression flashed across his face, but it was quickly hidden with his usual goofy grin. "Of course, take your time. When you're ready to talk about it, I'll be waiting."

With that we both made our way down the tree. Waiting at the bottom was a furious Edward. His eyes were like daggers as he focused his sights on Emmett. I heard a low growl bubbling from his chest. If looks could kill, Emmett would be dead.

"Easy there, brother, no harm done." Emmett said holding his hands up. "You know you can't win a fight against me." His expression was light and taunting. I'm sure he just wanted to annoy Edward further. I didn't want to see anything happen between them, or allow things to escalate.

I moved to stand in between them. I silently begged Edward with my eyes. "Please don't fight each other. This is all my fault."

"This isn't your fault Bella, not in the slightest. Emmett has created this mess all on his own. Even after he was warned of the repercussions." Edward spoke between clenched teeth. I could see intense anger and pain in his eyes. Had I been the one to cause it? It absolutely shattered my heart to even imagine that I had hurt Edward. It was never my intention to get in the way of this family. Maybe I should leave. Before I caused any more heart-ache.

"I-I think I should go." I said glancing between the two of them.

The both of them became tense now as they stared at me. Edward was the first to reach out, lightly touching my shoulder. The contact sent a rush of electricity down my arms. I trembled at the feeling – it was pleasant, and comforting. A lot like how it was when Emmett touched me as well. It was an odd sensation. I couldn't describe it clearly, but it felt close to something like a strong magnetic pull.

Emmett was now the one growling, his eyes were locked on where Edward's hand sat on my shoulder. Unlike Edward, Emmett didn't appear to hold back. He looked like he was about to attack.

I needed to get out of here. My presence was only adding more fuel to the fire. These two would rip each other apart. Quickly, I turned away from Edward and went running as fast as I could out of the area. I wasn't sure where I was going, but I heard a loud collision behind me. There was more growling and a few trees getting knocked down. It sounded like a massacre. And it was all my fault. I should have known that this wasn't going to work out. Disaster always follows me.


I wasn't sure how long I was running; I didn't even know where I was running to. But for some odd reason I found myself at Charlie's house. The key was still under the mat. I retrieved the key and let myself inside. It was an eerie feeling being back here. Especially knowing that Charlie wasn't here. And never would be again. The house was completely still, dark and a bit dusty. It's clear that no one has been here in a long time.

There were a few pictures on the walls, mostly of me as a child. I wandered into the kitchen and opened the fridge. The only thing inside was an unopened six pack of his favorite beer, a few containers of lunch meat and a half eaten piece of pizza – that now was covered in mold.

I closed the door to the fridge and made my way through the living room and up the stairs to where Charlie's room was. I wouldn't go inside his room; I had never gone in there when I was growing up. It was usually off limits, because that was where he kept his guns. I would respect my father's wishes, even in death, I wouldn't go inside his room. Instead, I made my way to the second bedroom, that was going to be mine – when I moved to Forks.

The room was pretty plain, which was perfect. It had a bed, a small desk and a dresser. It had everything that I would have needed. The room had some small pieces of decorations everywhere – all purple in color.

Perhaps I would stay here. It was far enough away from the others. They could go on without involving themselves with me. Once they find out what I've done... they won't want me around. I might as well save them the trouble of kicking me out. I kicked myself out.

Slowly I walked myself into the closet and shut the door behind me. I sat down on the floor and curled myself into a ball. For now, I felt invisible, which was comforting. I didn't want the world to see me. If Rose found me, she would probably rip me to pieces. And who could blame her? Emmett kissed me, sure, but I allowed him to... and I kissed him back. Worst yet, I enjoyed every second of it. What was wrong with me?

I stay quiet, keeping my face buried in my hands. Time seemed to stand still. I listened closely to the world around me. After a quick peek from the closet door, I took note of the moon hanging brightly in the sky. I had been here all day. It hadn't felt that way. I wonder what the others are doing right now? Probably fighting.

There was a quiet knock on the window to the bedroom. I froze where I was sitting. What it Rose? Did she come to kill me? I didn't move an inch.

"Bella, please don't be afraid. I'm not here to cause you any harm." The voice that called out to me, was Edward. I was so relieved to hear it was only him. I wasn't sure if I would have responded if it was anyone else.

I picked myself up off the floor and made my way out of the closet. Edward was standing on a branch right outside the window. I hesitantly walked over and opened the windows completely.

He leaped inside gracefully; his topaz eyes full of concern. He wrapped his arms around me, pulling me close to his chest. His scent was like sunflowers, so sweet and gentle. It was soothing. I clung to him, letting myself melt into his body. It was like a breath of fresh air.

"Edward, I'm so sorry. I've really made a mess of things, didn't I?" I whispered into his chest.

His hands ran up and down my back. "This wasn't your fault, not in the slightest. Why don't you come home? Or did you want to be alone?"

"Actually, I think I'd like to stay here for the night. Give Rose some time to cool off..." I said quietly.

"Rose left about an hour ago." Edward said with a heavy sigh. "She decided that in order to fix things with Emmett, the two of them should leave Forks for a while – take a little vacation of their own, like Carlisle and Esme."

I felt my eyes widen. "So, they are gone? They left Forks? How mad was Rose? Do you think she will ever forgive me?"

Lightly, Edward moved his hand up to my cheek, stroking it gently. "They are currently on a plane out of the country. Rose was... furious... but more so at Emmett. There is some anger in your direction as well. But nothing compared to what Emmett received."

Guilt was chewing at me. I couldn't believe that I allowed this to happen. Now Emmett and Rose left. Would they ever return? Or would Emmett start to realize his mistake as well, and decide to end our friendship? There was nothing for me to do now, but get out of everyone's way for a bit.

"What are you thinking?" Edward asked as he played with a loose string of hair – that had been hanging in my face.

"I'm thinking that I made a huge mistake and now everyone is going to hate me." I admitted with a sigh.

"I can promise you that no one hates you."

"I'm sure Rose hates me. If someone had kissed my husband, I'm sure I would hate them. She has every right to feel that way."

"You're being too hard on yourself. Emotions are a tricky thing when you are newly turned. Everything is heightened. Every emotion, or thought right now will be full of intensity – above your normal. Over time, overly strong emotions will fade. You will be able to make more rational decisions." Edward concluded with a crooked smile.

I guess that did explain things. When Emmett touched me, it felt so much deeper. I couldn't stop thinking about his arms around me. The way it made me feel. It drove me insane. But I had to admit, here in Edward's arms I felt just as good.

"For now, I think I'm just going to spend the night here. I'm not ready to face the others about this." I said hesitantly letting my head fall on his shoulder.

Edward froze only for a second, before tightening his arms around me. I could feel his lips pressing into my forehead. "Do you want me to leave you alone?" His voice was full of tension.

"No, you can stay if you want." I whispered softly.

Edward moved us to the bed in one swift motion. He let me lie down, but he took a seat on the edge of the bed – down where my feet were. The sudden loss of contact was a little depressing. I instantly wanted to return to his arms.

"Then I'll stay." He offered me a warm smile.

I felt a pulling feeling in my chest as I closed my eyes. It was nice having him here. But the events from today were beginning to take a toll on me. I tossed and turned on the bed, unable to get comfortable. Each time I peeked over towards Edward he was sitting so still; it was like he wasn't breathing. He kept his eyes on me. I wondered what he saw, when he looked at me. Whatever it was – must have been captivating.

"Do you ever miss falling asleep?" I asked after a while.

"All the time, the world is such a noisy place. Since I can read the thoughts of others around me, I can never really have peace and quiet... well unless I'm alone with you."

"I can't imagine – dealing with all that. It would probably drive me insane." I admitted with a small smile. "I don't envy you Edward Cullen."

Edward chuckled. "I've had a very long time to practice tuning it out. With some concentration I can ignore most of it. Although, some thoughts are louder than others."

His ability was so interesting, I wished that I had some kind of ability like that. But I should have known I wouldn't get that lucky. I never really was good at anything. I was an average girl, in every way. I wasn't coordinated enough to do well in sports. My hobbies consisted of simple things, such as reading. I never really given much effort into school, I did just enough to get by. Becoming a vampire would be the highlight of my life. At the very least it made me a little more interesting.

"Edward," I said after another brief pause. "I have a question; you don't have to say yes. It's just something that was on my mind."

His expression turned curious now. He replied with eagerness. "What's your question?"

"Well, you don't look particularly comfortable sitting there... I just wondered if you wanted to lay down, next to me."

"Is that what you want?" He asked hesitantly. I couldn't read his expression. His body seemed to go tense again. I wondered if I was making him uncomfortable. Afterall, I had just made out with his brother a few hours ago. Now I was asking him to get into bed with me.

I cleared my throat nervously. "I wouldn't mind the company."

Without another word, Edward moved to lay next to me, his arm went out around me, pulling me to his chest. I let my head rest on his shoulder as I curled into his side. This felt nice. I let my eyes close again.

"Is this alright?" He asked quietly as his hand traveled up and down my side. The touch was so delicate – I could barely feel it.

"Yes, this is perfect." I whispered, allowing myself to get comfortable.

We laid in complete silence for a while. Eventually Edward began to start humming a familiar tune. It was the new song he had been working on. I hummed along to the tune. It sounded like a lullaby. He wouldn't reveal the inspiration of this new song, but he said that once he was finished writing it, he would let me in on the secret.

We talked for a pretty long time; it was nice getting my mind off of Emmett. Infact, I didn't think about him at all. All I could think about was Edward's hands on my skin. Unfortunately, I knew that the sun would soon be rising in the sky, I could hear the birds beginning to sing.

All I wanted to do was stay here, in Edward's arms – for the rest of the weekend. I didn't want to return to whatever drama was waiting for me back at the Cullen house. Maybe I could convince him to run away with me.

I turned slightly in his direction, noticing that he had inched his face closer to mine. I could feel his breath hit my face. I felt my eyes slid down to his lips. His golden eyes flickered down to mine as well.

"Bella," He spoke my name in a husky voice.

Shivers rolled down my spine in response. "Yes Edward?"

"I only feel that it's fair, for me to also be open and honest with you." He started, moving his hand to my cheek.

I closed my eyes, leaning forward as well. I wanted to be closer. But in the back of my head, a little voice was screaming at me. I had just kissed Emmett, and now I'm about to kiss Edward. Something about this has to be wrong.

"I don't have the strength to stay away from you anymore." He whispered; I felt his lips just barely graze my lips.

"Then don't," I whispered back, lightly pressing my lips to his.

Edward's kiss was so soft and passionate. It was nothing like Emmett. With Emmett, it was intense and full of lust and yearning. But with Edward, it was pure, honest and almost intoxicating.

When we pulled apart – Edward had the most brilliant smile on his face. As if a blind man was seeing the sun for the first time. He pulled me back in for another long and tender kiss, before letting his forehead rest against mine.

"You have no idea, how long I've waited for you." He said quietly.

His confession left me speechless. All I could do was hold myself to him. I never wanted to let go. I felt like I was floating on cloud nine. Everything seemed right in the world. But as wonderful as it felt to be here with Edward. I couldn't shake the feeling that something bad was going to happen. Emmett was waiting for me to make a choice. And now Edward was as well. It appeared they both wanted some kind of relationship with me.

I didn't know what to do. I felt strongly for both of them. I was very confused. I needed time. But I couldn't string both men along. I had to figure out what I was doing – and soon.


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