Chapter 4: A Odd Conversation with Kim

We arrived at a two-story house with a porch. On the porch, there was a bench and a two-step stair to reach to the front door. Sam carried me into the house, and it felt weird. It was like if we got newly married or something, but no. I just have a broken leg. The living room was huge too. There were two wide black leather couches, two recliner seats and a flat screen tv in the living room. He placed me gently down on the couch as he went out to get my luggage. I took the time to be familiar with my environment. There were few tables as well. It was simple, but manageable. There was a bookshelf in the living room with books that I cannot understand. Most likely, they are in Quileute.

The house feels like a man's house. There was no touch of a female ever living here with the sports and hunting decorations in the walls. It was interesting, and there was a huge rug in the living room. There was a dining room, and a kitchen. The dining room had a long tan table with 4 chairs at each side of the table. I was simply amazed of the house.

Sam said cutting my daze, "do you want anything to eat? I don't know when the last time was you have eaten, and you need to have something in your stomach to take these pills."

I said, "I ..I don't know when was the last time that I have eaten, but I am open to anything."

He nodded and went to the kitchen. It wasn't for long, when he finally got out and he said, "I have some left-over food from Kim. Do you want to eat it?"

I nodded, "Sure."

He went back in

Jared came in with a heavily pregnant girl. She had long braided hair. Even though she had a wide face with small eyes, I could tell that she was very kind girl from the demeanor that she was giving.

Jared asked Kim softly, "Are you going to be okay by your side, love?"

Kim said gently, "Of course. Go do whatever you wolves do. I got this."

Jared nodded and said, "Alright..go have your..imprint talk. I'll go join with Sam and the guys with patrolling for that red headed leech. I'll feel good if you stay here. I don't want you and the pup to be in any danger."

Kim nodded as Jared left. Kim sat down next to me, and she said, "Hi. Alegria"

I said sheepishly, "Hi..You can call me Ale for shorter."

She nodded, "Okay..what does your name mean?"

I said, "it means Joy.."

She said sweetly, "Aw, such a fitting name for the mate of Alpha Sam."

I nodded awkwardly. She asked kindly, "do you have any questions for me?"

I thought about it.

Hm…

I said, "I don't know where to begin. How about you tell me that you wished someone told you when you first got imprinted."

Her eyes lit up and said, "Ohh, good question. Hmm..I would say that wolves are very passionate."

I asked, "What do you mean by that?"

She giggled, "In my case, I always wanted Jared as a boyfriend and when he imprinted on me, his wolf gladly took me in as his lover. It didn't take long for me to give my virginity to Jared. His wolf smelled the innocence in me, and he wanted to deflower me to get round with his pup." She caressed her belly in demonstrated.

She jolted, "Oh, the baby is moving. Come feel her." She quickly grabbed my hand and placed my hand onto of her belly. I waited for a moment, and I gasped when I felt a little kick in my hand. I caressed gently and looking at it in awe. I felt bubble of warm emotions in my heart. Is this the effect from the imprinting? Are these the girl's emotions? Then again, I always wanted a big family, and from how my body reacted, it seemed like it was this girl's wishes too.

She giggled, " it's great isn't it?"

I said quietly, "Yeah."

She looked back at me, "I don't know what's holding you back, but I know the spirits don't make mistakes. They chose you to be the Alpha's mate. From the reaction that I saw from you, I could see you'll be a great mother as well."

I simply nodded, and asked to change the subject, "how far along are you?"

She said proudly, "8 months. I immediately got pregnant the first day that I had sex with Jared."

I said, "Oh? How long you have been dating Jared?"

She said, "9 months. Even though we went to the same high school, we only imprinted when I got back from college. I am an accountant. I help Jared and Sam with their remodeling business."

Ohh..So the guys ages here are more advanced compare to in the books. Interesting.

I nodded, and asked, "how come you immediately got pregnant? Did you guys want children?"

She shook her head, "Well not at that time. I was on birth control to regulate my menstrual cycle. Jared tried to put a condom on, but it mysteriously kept breaking on him even though he got the sturdiest ones in the store. We thought it was fine with me on birth control, but I guess it doesn't matter. If it is the spirits will, then so be it."

My face got paled. If it is the spirits will? Then, it means that I could get automatically knocked up by Sam? Shit.

She said wistfully, "Jared's wolf was very eager to get me pregnant. His sex drive was amazing, so I wished someone told me about that. I had blacked out in the middle of intercourse because I overestimated myself and worn myself out, so now when I get too exhausted, we take a mini break."

I said hesitantly, "…what about their supernatural strength? Won't they hurt us..when we are intimate with them?"

She shook her head, "No. As their mates, we are made to accommodate..uh to their strength and size. Especially you, you were imprinted immediately as a mate, so you are just perfect for Sam if that is what you are worried about."

Wait about the pack mind. I asked, "..does the other see you through Jared's mind when he phase?"

She shook our head and said, "nope because the wolf is more at front when we have sex, the wolf blocks Jared from thinking about it when others around in the packmind."

I sighed in relief. Oh, thank the spirits. That would've been very awkward.

I asked bewilderedly, "..do you guys still go at it while you are pregnant?"

Her cheeks flushed slightly pink, and she said with a sheepish smile, "Yeah..it turns the wolf on when he seeing me pregnant, so Jared is even more passionate and I love it. It makes me feel secured in my body."

I don't know how I am feeling with this conversation. With her talking about how we are made to accommodate and like Jared being passionate, makes her feel secured, I am just getting weird vibes. I don't know to explain it. It kind of makes me feel like I am a breeder or something. I get that girls in their pregnancies, they start getting insecure with their body as they changed, but why would she get insecure? Jared is completely devoted to her, and I know its mostly the hormones screwing her around. However, she doesn't need Jared to feel secure about her body. It is nice he does and makes you feel good, but she doesn't need him..wouldn't it be better to be generally secured on your own? I know at times we get insecure because we are human, its natural, but do we have to seek our fulfillment through people? I am not that type of person. That may work for her and others, but definitely not me. I seek fulfillment in my life by just being me. Not in what I do or how liked that I am. Sometimes my anxiety tells me otherwise and it comes into contradiction with this belief, but I am getting there.

I nodded, and she gave me an amusing look. She said, "since Sam is Alpha, he and his wolf might be more forward with you."

My ears were pink, and she chuckled lowly, "You'll be fine. But, you don't find Sam, attractive?"

I said, "Well yeah...who wouldn't it?"

I mean I did notice it, but I didn't always focus on it.

She smiled knowingly, " it's natural help feel that way from your mate. So, don't resist that feeling, okay?"

I asked hesitantly, "but..I just met him."

She said kindly, "don't think too much about it. You have the rest of your life to get to know each other. He is your mate. He won't betray you. You don't have to know everything about him when you have sex with him."

I nodded slowly.

I asked, "are they normally territorial and possessive?"

She said, "Yeah. When they first imprint on you, they will be very territorial temporarily. That is why Paul hasn't entered the house with you in the house just yet. It usually lasts the first two weeks or so depending on how dominant the wolf spirit they are. I learned this with my time with Jared. How territorial and possessive they are dependent on how dominant and submissive the wolf spirit is. Jared's wolf spirit is more in between, but as in for you, you got the most dominant wolf spirit."

She giggled at the last part. I asked, "Oh..okay..are the wolf spirit reasoned with?"

She said confidently, "Oh yes. They are. Even though their thinking is pretty linear and instinctual. They can be reasoned with. The more you spend time with Sam, the better you understand how Sam and his wolf spirit think."

I asked hesitantly, "since..the wolf spirit and the spirit warrior share the same body. Does it mean that we are in a relationship with both the wolf spirit and the spirit warrior?"

She shook her head quickly, "No..Remember the stories? It was Taha Aki who initiated the wolf spirit to be part of them. The spirit warrior can always release the wolf spirit whenever the spirit warrior stops shifting. Once the wolf spirit is let go, who do you think we are going to end up with?"

I responded simply, "the spirit warrior?"

She nodded, "that's right..Think of their wolf spirit as another part of their personality. Not like Dissociative Identity Disorder, but how we are in a normal day life. How you are with your friends, family, at work, and strangers are different, right?"

I nodded. She continued, "so, don't feel like you are dealing with two different separate entities. Think of it that you are dealing with a different part of Sam, and it is just his wolf side coming out here and there."

I nodded slowly, "okay..I think I get it."

There was laughter coming toward us. Both Sam and Jared came in, and Jared whistled to Kim. Kim turned to smile brightly at Jared as if she hadn't seen him in ages when it only has been an hour. Jared looked at her lovingly and asked, "did you guys had a nice girls talk?"

Kim said happily, "Yes, honey. It was so nice to have another girl to talk to" She said, "it is a pleasure meeting you, Ale."

She winked at me, "I know you'll be an awesome Alpha Female. Don't let your shyness get the best of you and go with the flow."

I said softly, "okay."

Jared slowly helped Kim get him, had his hand around her belly as he nodded to Sam before walking out the door. Sam sat down to me and asked, "How did it go?"

I said honestly, "I actually liked it..it was informative in ways that I didn't expect it, but it helped me to understand you better."

I think have no choice but move forward with Sam..I can't pull back, and I don't know how much time that I have hear in case the real Alegria starts coming back. Maybe..it be best to move forward with Sam as much as I can, so if she ever comes back, she'll..be able to jump into Sam's arms and I wont leave her to deal problems with Sam because of me...that's the least that I can do. I am taking a huge risk of..getting involved with someone that I may never actually stay with, but..it might be..an interesting experience. I won't jump into things so quickly like Kim did it, but I won't be difficult either. It'll save both me and Sam some head and heartache.

He got closer to me nd pulled me a tight hug. He said softly, "that's great."

I hugged him back slowly, and he said with a grin, "Okay, want to take a bath?"

Oh..that's right..Now, how am I going to do that?

Author's Note:

Enjoy!