Chapter 206: The Pain
It was like I was in a dark, open space. In front of me, there was a girl who looked just like me. She was wearing a simply gray dress, and it was so oddly jarring to see how much she look and sound like me.
I said hesitantly, "Alegria?"
She blinked her eyes slowly in response. She had an indifferent expression on her face, and I couldn't figure out why. Shouldn't she be like excited? Nevertheless, to see her here, it brought me relief that her spirit is around. I thought there was a mistake that we were swapped places.
I exhaled gratefully, "I am so glad to see you. You can come back to your own body now..I feel terrible being in your body."
She gave a half-smile, "it's fine. I saw what happened last night."
My mouth was gaping, so I asked, "you weren't worried about it? I mean like..I let Sam touch you like that... I swear Alegria, I didn't mean to. It's your body, and I didn't even know you were okay with it or not."
She shook her head, and she said, "I honestly don't care anymore….but, I need you to go back to my house."
I asked, "why? Can't you just come back to your own body?"
She said solemnly, "there is an envelope with important documents in them. Once you see them, you'll understand why I.. am not coming back."
I said hollowfully, "you..aren't coming back?"
She shook her head, "No."
I said incredibly, "what about me? What happened ..to us?"
She said simply, "you'll understand more once you get to my place, but once you wake up, there will be an opportunity for you to get to my house. You need to take it, then you'll decide what to do once you see the documents."
I said confusingly, "Okay..Am I going to see you again, Alegria? Is our situation ..temporary?"
She said with a small smile, "maybe or maybe not, but you'll see."
She said sadly, "the next time you wake up, you need to get past through the..pain"
I said bewilderedly, "Uhmm..what pain?"
She said empathically, "I'm sorry, Ale. It.. just had to be this way."
I woke up in a jolt. My head was pounding with my body aching in pain specifically my leg. Gosh, what is going on? I looked around, and I noticed that it was still nighttime. Every time I moved; it was like I was getting prickled in my leg. It was hard to see with my vision covered in spots from the severe pain in my head. I started crying in pain because of the helplessness that I felt until I felt someone pulling me up from the back.
I looked to see a very worried Sam looking at me. He said, "hon, I need you to take your medications. I went to patrol when I sensed your agony, so I immediately came back for you, and I forgot to give you your medications on time. The pain relievers have been worn off in your system, so you are feeling it all now, hon.. I am so sorry."
I didn't even have the strength to speak nor nod as Sam helped to push my pills in my mouth and giving me water to drink. He laid me back down, but the medications still weren't hitting me just yet. I started hyperventilating and crying from the anxiety that I may have to stay in bed. I had my hands fisted in my hair, and Sam pulled me into his lap and started rocking me gently. I was still in so much pain that I bit Sam hard as I kept crying loudly. I was still crying and breathing heavily when Sam simply rubbed my back as I was trembling in pain. He didn't say anything, but just let me be.
Why am I so much in pain? I mean, the moment that I had my leg broken, I was in severe pain, but not like this. I don't know how long I stayed in this position until I started relaxing as the drowsiness of the medications began to take its course. I went limp in his shoulder and I fell into a deep sleep once again.
I woke up again, but this time, I woke up screaming bloody murder. I was clenching the sheets with my fists, and I was thrashing around in the bed with sheer agony as tears were running down in my face. I heard the door slamming open immediately, and I felt someone stab me with a needle on my arm. The pain immediately went away as tears were slowly drying up from my eyes, my vision became clearer. I saw a pale looking Sam with dark bags under his eyes.
When we made eye contact, he said, "you have been waking up on and off for the past 24 hours. We had to keep you sedated because you would wake up screaming in pain. I don't think you were even awake because no..matter how much I tried to speak to you, I couldn't get through to you. I..I didn't know what to do, so I asked Sue to come. Sue is here to help me watch out for you."
I heard Sue saying, "Hi, Ale. I brought soup. I know..you are tired, but you need to eat something, sweetie. You haven't eaten anything for the past 24 hours. We had to wake up you completely, so you can eat something. You need to regain your strength."
I was so exhausted that I couldn't even nod to her, but it seemed like Sam understood what I wanted. He pulled me to his lap while Sue placed the tray with a small soup in the middle of the tray. I tried to lift my arm up to grab the spoon, but I was shaking so damn hard that Sam had to help me to put the spoonful of soup in my mouth. I kept doing this few more times until I was spent. Sam help feed me the rest of the soup despite of making a mess of myself, but Sam didn't care. I felt him trembling behind me the whole time.
Once I was done, Sue pushed the tray away, and I looked at her tiredly. She said with a sad smile, "I don't know why you are experiencing these waves of pain, Ale. It looked like your body is trying to reject something, but no matter how much blood work that I pull out, it comes out nothing. The only explanation that I think of is that it is a psychogenic pain."
So, she is saying that it is a psychological pain? .. she said this body is trying to reject something? Maybe, it got to do with my spirit being in this body?
That got dark.
I frowned slightly, and Sam asked, "it seemed like you know the reason why?"
With the small muster of strength that I had gathered, I nodded tiredly. He looked at me concerningly before rubbing his face tiredly. He said, "Go to sleep, mate."
I drifted back to sleep again. I woke up with Sam pushing pills into my mouth and feeding me water as well. I gulped it down. I don't know how much time has passed since I went to sleep, but I notice that I was getting my strength back little by little. The medications were still making me drowsy, so I asked hoarsely, "..the red-headed leech?"
He sighed deeply, "don't worry about it. Focus on recovering."
From the sound of that, they still haven't caught her, and they still are having a hard time catching her. . Hmm, does that mean Jacob hasn't talked to Bella nor Bella confronted Sam and Paul? yet
I mean, Victoria is after Bella.
Sam asked sharply, "What? who is after Bella?"
Shit. Did I say that out loud? Sam said, "uh..Yeah?"
Damn. I said, "uhm...she's the red-headed leech."
Sam paused for a moment. He murmured to himself, "no wonder she keeps going toward Forks.."
He asked, "and how do you know that?"
I said, "Laurent..the dark-skinned leech said so.. in the meadow."
It wasn't a lie because he did say that out loud when I first appeared to this world in the meadow. I hope he doesn't catch on that I am holding something back.
He said, "oh…but there something else that you aren't telling me, right?"
He caught on…I was too tired to think, so I said aimlessly, "I know..some stuff.."
He gasped lightly, "you have precognition? Oh spirits, you have a gift!"
He purred and gave me a sloppy kiss on the cheek. Say what now?. I looked at him confusingly, and he said, " I wasn't sure if it was true, but sometimes..alpha's mates are given gifts to help the Alpha lead the pack… How come you didn't say anything? Since when you have precognition?"
I said, "uh..since I was in the meadow?"
He said quickly to himself, "I need to tell the council about this…Maybe..maybe this is why you have been in severe pain these past two days. Old Quil and the elders might know something…"
Well…I don't know if it is an actual gift, but I can roll with that. I don't want Sam to know who I really am, so I can still stay hidden, and whenever I do go back to my reality, I can leave as quietly as I can. Sam gently put me down to bed and tucked me in to sleep.
He told me gently, "don't worry, mate. Go rest some more. Next time, you wake up, I'll feed you. We'll figure this out…I am so glad that I finally have an idea with what has been going on with you, and with your gift, I can finally resolve this fucking problem with the red-headed leech."
I drifted back to sleep. I woke up again, and I could tell that it was sunny outside. I guess I slept through another day again. I heard someone snoring softly on my right, so I turned my head, and it was Sam. He was sleeping next to me, and he had one of his arms wrapped lazily on top of my stomach. He looked like he finally had some sleep. I carefully slipped out of Sam's embrace, and I slowly got up to sit by the edge of the bed. I stretched my arms, cracked my neck and back and stretched my lower back. I felt so stiff, but at least I wasn't in any pain. I even wigged my casted leg without feeling any pain.
I guess the worst is finally gone? I wonder if I would be able to start walking, and I looked around the room to find the crutch and it was right by the door. I sighed. I wouldn't be able to use the crutch, but maybe I could hop? Nah, I shouldn't risk it. I was literally on my death bed the past three days, so I shouldn't risk it. I do need a shower though. I am covered in sweat. I think I would need to wait until Sam wakes up again to take care of myself.
I thought about the dream that I had with Alegria. I still don't get why she gotta be so cryptic, but now she can't come back here? I wonder why.
I glanced at Sam, and I felt pity for him. His real mate isn't able to be with him, but it seemed like even she doesn't want to be him. I feel even more bad for him. His own mate doesn't want him. Is that why his wolf spirit is confusing me with Alegria and hadn't noticed that his real mate is not in this body?
Or, what if I am his actual mate?
That thought brought me to shiver, and I shook my head. No, it can't be. It wouldn't make any sense. I was so deep into my thought that I didn't notice that Sam had opened his eyes and he was staring at me. I slightly jumped when I noticed his brown eyes turned into gold. He said groggily, "good morning."
I replied, "good morning."
He propped his elbow, laid his head on his hand on the propped elbow, and he asked, "how are you feeling today?"
I said slowly, "much better.. I feel a little tired, but besides that, I am doing great. It doesn't feel like three days has passed to be honest."
He scanned my body with his eyes to see for himself that I am doing better before he crawled up to me and hugged me. He said softly, "I was so scared..I thought I was going to lose you when I just found you. You don't know how painful it was for me to feel your pain, but not able to do anything about it."
I stood quiet when I listened to him. It seemed like I really did freak him out if I am able to feel him tremble softly. I simply laid my head on his chest and listened to him breathe. It..felt nice this hug. The pain was nothing like I ever experienced, but..in a way it was heartwarming to see Sam trying to take care of me the best way he can. He stayed by my side this whole time even though he got a pack to run, and he had Victoria to catch.
He turned his toward the door, and he said, "the guys are here..do you want to freshen up before meeting them?"
I nodded my head, so he scooped me up and took me to the bathroom. He let me bathe myself this time while he went to grab some clothes for me to change into. I was nervous with meeting the rest of the pack. I wasn't sure how they are going to respond to me. I realized that I lost some weight as I was changing my clothes. Once I was ready, Sam carried me in a bridal style out of the bedroom to the living room. I sat down, and there were 4 guys standing in front of me. The first two I recognized, it was Jared and Paul, but the other two I wasn't so sure.
Sam introduced to each one of them as he pointed, "this is Embry and Jacob."
Embry gave a small wave, and Jacob said with a half-smile, "hello."
I said, "hello."
Sam said, "…I haven't been in patrol these past two days because I couldn't focus with you being sick and in pain at home. Now that you are okay, I can go and inspect on new methods to capture Victoria..…Jacob is going to stay here and watch out for you. Don't worry, he has his temper controlled, so you'll be looked after. Kim made some meals for you, so you can have something to eat in the meantime. Is that fine?"
Is this the opportunity that Alegria was telling me to take?
I nodded. He sighed in relief before giving me a kiss on the cheek and walking out the door with the others, leaving me and Jacob alone.
