Chapter 208: What?

Disclaimer: Attempted Suicide, Alcohol abuse, Medications abuse, Overdose, and Suicide. Read at your own risk.

I walked carefully down the hall, and it was familiar to me. Since Alegria lived here, I was getting few flashbacks of her times in this house. Every time I get a flashback, it was as if I got shot to the chest because it would come to me so abruptly. I was immediately in front of a room.

I think..this was Grandma Eva's room from the memory and looks of it.

I slowly opened the door, and it opened with a small creak to it. I peeked inside, and there was a small wooden chair in the edge of the room, with a broad wooden wardrobe facing in front of a queen-sized bed. There were layers of quilt on top of the bed, and all of these quilts looked like it was handmade. The room smelled familiarly of sage and lavender. This room felt so inviting, and in the corner of the bed, there was a huge vanilla envelope. It looked so worn out that it was falling apart from the exterior. I slowly opened it, and there were many letters. The first thing I read was a letter from Grandma Eva to Alegria.

My dearest Alegria,

It is with heavy heart that by the time you read this letter, I am dead. Meeting you, it brought such great joy to my life for the first time in a very long time. I was going to greet death until you showed up to my front door, and that is when I realized, the spirits want me to keep living to help you my dear. You have faced so many hardships that no girl should have ever endured, and yet you preserved. I am so tremendously proud of you my dear, and I know you are going to great things in the future..

I truly regret not taking care of my health because now I have to leave you just like my daughter did to you. I didn't take care of my health because after so many years not hearing from your mother, I assumed she'll never come back, so I stopped caring. It wasn't my intentions to do this to you my dear, but because you were struggling to get your life going here with me, I didn't bring it up until now. I did as much as I can to extend my life so that I can see you walk in your graduation. I am so very sorry that you have to see me go like this.

Although this will not compensate the loss of losing me and your parents, I am leaving you the deed to this house. The moment that I knew I was going to die soon, I started investing in stocks. I made investments under your name so that once you graduate from college, you would be able to keep standing until you find a job in your profession. This is the last thing that I could possibly do to help you my dear.

I love you my dear Alegria. Your mother truly has named you well because you truly are the joy that I got the experience in my very last years of life. Despite of the short time we had together, you brought joy and life back into my life my dear, and I cannot thank you enough. I would've died as a bitter old woman, but I was able to make amends to your mother and my husband by taking care of you and making sure you will be taken care of once I am gone. Thank you my dear, I am able to die in peace knowing my granddaughter is going to accomplish great things. I hope that others will see you like your mother and I do. Even though you won't be able to see me, I will be watching over you in the spirit world. You are never alone my dear. That I can surely say.

Please continue finishing school. That's my greatest and last wish for you.

Sincerely,

Eva Ripples.

Well, that was depressing. No wonder she had a broke down from this letter. I even saw tear drops from this letter when Grandma Eva signed her name, so Eva was emotional when she wrote this letter to Alegria. Grandma Eva left her stocks? I wonder how much. Behind the letter, I saw it was the receipt of Alegria's stocks. When I glanced in it, and I read $15,590.

Damn! Alegria is going to be loaded, but then again…who wants to receive money like that?

Then, when I looked at the letter behind it, I froze. I forgot for a moment that I was holding my body with the crutch, so I fell down, thankfully on my good leg. I fell down with a huge bang that I knew I was going to have bruises later on. The letters were tossed all over the ground, and with trembling hands, I picked up the letter or a note that got me shook to my core of my being.

I..think it was a suicide note from Alegria. It says,

Whoever finds this letter, it means I am gone. I want to give my deed to the Chief of Quileute Reservation. The Quileute reservation may seize my stocks and personal bank accounts to use it as they seem fit.

I made this decision with a sane mind,

Alegria Ripples Lopez

…She wanted to die? Is that why she seemed so indifferent to not come back to her body, but why?"

Alegria was on a stool in the middle of the woods. She had a rope around her neck, and without any hesitation, she kicked the stool, and she hang herself. She struggled for a moment until she stopped movin. Then, the rope ripped into two. As if it was divine intervention or something from the looks of how the rope mysteriously ripped. Alegria fell backward and hit herself on the back of the head with the stool.

The memory kept going. She was still passed out, and then I saw her spirit leaving her body. At the same time her spirit left, I saw mines immediately brought into her body, and that is when she, well I, gasped. I was still passed out, but I was breathing shallowly. Then, I saw Laurent passing through. He looked at me curiously. When he realized what he was looking at, he sighed and shook his head in disappointment.

He said, "well, I may be lucky today."

He picked up her body, and when he was about to sink his teeth, he pulled back and sniffed. He murmured, "could it be?"

He immediately threw the body on his shoulder and once he arrived at the meadow, he tossed Alegria's body to the ground as he slowly approached Bella.

She doesn't want to come back to her own body. That mean this is basically a dead body..Then, why should I keep living in this body for someone who doesn't want to live? Why force someone to keep living? I am not supposed to be in this body. This body..this life..It isn't mine. It should've been hers not mine. …

I am not the real Alegria. I am not her…I..can't keep living as if I am her when I am not.

While I was in the ground, I saw a huge bottle of moonshine hidden under the bed. I took it out. It looked pretty old from the signs of dust culminating around the bottle, but it was still about 75% still full. I opened it, and I could strongly smell the alcohol content to it. I was next to a nightstand, and on my knees, I dig deep into it. I saw there was a bottle of Tylenol. I looked at it, and thought deeply. If..she wants to die, then so be it. ..This is not my life and I won't force her body to live in my convenience. I also really want to go home…

I don't know what happened to me before I get here, but I miss my friends..my family..my life..I fought so hard to get where I was in my reality only to simply be transmigrated into Twilight? Like seriously?

No, I won't live like this.

I swallowed 7 Tylenol pills and drank the moonshine. It burned down in my throat, but I kept drinking it until I was halfway in the bottle. I ..think this is enough. I gently laid down the ground and closed my eyes. Slowly, but surely, I felt my heart rate slowing down, and I started to lose track of what's going on around me.

Finally.. peace.

I don't know how much time has passed, but I was suddenly woken up with someone shoving their fingers into my mouth to force me to gag. I felt bile coming from my mouth, and that person turned me over quickly to throw up all over the ground. I coughed and heaved painfully. I was desperate to find my breath when I felt someone smacking me in the back to cough everything all up even more. From the warm hands and heaving breathing, I knew immediately that it was Sam.

He was yelling with an animalistic grow that it sounded like he was howling, "THROW IT ALL UP NOW!"

He was literally vibrating, and he shoved his fists in my stomach as I threw up even more. In his distress, he lost control of his strength and shoved a little too hard that it became painful. From the shock, I immediately lost consciousness.

As I was losing consciousness, and I heard Sam screaming in pure agony, "NO!"

"Idiota (idiot)! Why did you do that for?," Alergia shouted angrily at me.

What?