Chapter 211: Either You Change Your Diet or Die, Harry
Oh no. If I remember correctly, Seth is going to phase soon. I think the week where Bella has spring break or something, and he phased in front of Harry. Harry had a heart attack when Leah phased in front of him. Since Leah is not here, what if Harry gets a heart attack in front of Seth instead? I am not willing to take that chance.
I said hurriedly, "Sue."
She looked at me a bit alarmed from the tone of my voice, "o-oh, yes?"
I said, "Harry needs to see a doctor immediately."
She paused, and she said, "..did you receive a vision?"
I said, "uh..yeah. I don't know when Forks High School has their spring break, but in that week, Harry is going to have a heart attack, and die from it. He is not going to make it through the heart attack. He needs to get checked."
Sue gasped, "..I know Forks High School are going to start their spring break tomorrow. I-I knew Harry was having heart issues, and I kept nagging him to let the clinic checked it out, but he said it was fine…However, if you tell him..Maybe, he'll listen to you?"
Then, I heard a knock on the door. Sue went to open the door, and it was Harry carrying a small black bag and I saw a smiling tall russet brown individual next to Harry. Harry glanced at me, and he said warmly, "oh excuse me if I was interrupting something. Honey, here is your lunch."
He went to place her lunch bag in her arms, and he noticed that Sue's expression was pale. He looked at her curiously and asked, "Uhm..I brought Seth along because I didn't want to leave him home alone. I'll go now. I see you home later?"
That snapped Sue's daze, so she said, "Yes! I am sorry, Ale" she turned around to hand motion Ale to her family "this is my husband Harry, and this is my son Seth."
That's Seth?!
I stared at Seth in shock. Wow, I knew he was still a teenager and becoming a shape shifter, ages up the Quileutes faster, but I wasn't expecting this. He looks completely different from what I imagined him to be.
Wait…Seth doesn't know that he is going to phase, right?
I don't think any of the Quileutes knew. The council purposely withheld that information from them and let them phase for the first time terrified out of their mind. I didn't like how the council did that to them. It only made their transition to being a shape shifter harder. Like Jacob, he had a hard time coping. The fact that his father, the Chief of the tribe, didn't even tell him, I think it made Jacob bitter and more resistant to accept his new life as a spirit warrior. It didn't help that he was getting pressured to become Alpha and Chief at the same time too. Maybe that is what twisted Jacob's personality and made him become such a foul person later on the series? Many people speculated that it was the transformation that made Jacob to become a foul person, but I don't really agree to that theory.
If it was so, then how was Seth still so cheery, or still had his character before the transformation, when his family was part of the council? His situation is similar to Jacob, but Seth turned out differently compared to Jacob, so it wasn't the transformation fault. It was Jacob unable to cope properly, and he eventually lost the sunny-like persona. Or, was it due to Meyers trying to destroy Jacob's character because many people became a Jacob fan than a Edward fan by the end of New Moon that made him such a foul person?
I don't know, but..I'm glad this version of Jacob was able to make up his mind to just stick with being Chief than Alpha, and he is a little more emotionally stronger compare the book and movie version of him. When I spoke to Jacob, I was pretty surprised that he listened from the beginning to the end. Yeah, he did show some resistance, but he still was pretty opened to hear what I got to say. Is it because of my status as Alpha Female? I don't know, but I do know that when I spoke to him, I had strong inclination that he isn't going to listen, but it was still worth a shot. Yet, he surprised me.
Sue noticed my expression, so she said, "Seth..would you mind getting us a drink at the vending machine on the second floor? Harry, I and Ale need to talk for a moment."
Seth tilted his head, and said without question, "okay, mom!"
He turned to me and said with a toothy grin, "it was nice meeting you, Ale! Hope you feel better soon."
I gave a small smile, "it was nice meeting you too, Seth."
He left, and Harry walked in to sit in the chair in front of the bed. Sue sat next to Harry, and Sue said, "Ale received a vision ..and it's about you, Harry"
His expression turned serious, and he leaned forward his hands on his chin, he asked, "may I ask what it is about?"
I said simply, "Sometime next week, you are going to have a heart attack, Harry..but you won't make it…You had a heart attack sometime after Seth would phase in front of you."
Sue gasped, and Harry looked solemn for a moment before turning to Sue and asking, "Did you make Ale to say this just to get me to change my diet, Sue?"
I frowned, and Sue looked taken back. She looked like she was slapped across her face from the expression that she was making. She said angrily, "this is serious Harry. I didn't tell her to say this. She was the one who told me when she found out you were coming over."
I crossed my arms, and I gazed down at Harry. God. I knew Harry wasn't all that great of a character when in the books, he didn't console Leah when Sam broke up with her and he openly supported Sam and Emily's relationship in front of her. However, I was not expecting this.
I told him sternly, "I am not making this up, Mr. Clearwater. Seth is going to be traumatized, and it is going to be hard on Seth to transition being a shapeshifter. Do you want Seth to live with the rest of his life with guilt that he was possibly the reason that his father died? Don't you want to see Leah walk in her wedding or be grandfather to their children? Do you really want to put Seth, Leah, and your wife to that grief because you were too stubborn to listen to me?"
I was trembling in rage because I was feeling angry for Leah and Seth. I knew I am not making a good impression to Harry since he is a member of the council, but I didn't give a damn. They deserved better treatment. His eyes widened a bit from the tone of my voice and what I was saying to him.
I continued, "..Do you think its easy on me to know things.. about the future? Do you know how stressful it is to know things but struggle whether to say it or not? Whether I would make things worse for myself and others when I do talk about it? What if what I say make things happen faster than anticipated?.."
My voice broke a little at the end so, I stopped myself because at the rate I was going, I was going to break down in front of them. I was thrown into this world with prior knowledge from what I know about the plot and the characters. I feel like I have a heavy burden to carry because I know what would happen, and if I don't say anything, then I am going to be guilt-ridden and regret for the rest of my life. So, I feel like I do have to say something. Especially now I am told that I have to live..the original Alegria's life as my own, I have to do something about my new life. I can't be complacent.
Also, how do I know I won't be punished by the spirits for not saying anything when some things in the future happens and I didn't say anything about it to prevent it? Like not saving Harry's life. From how Alegria was punished for committing suicide, I didn't want to take that chance, so I feel exhausted. I have the responsibility to live in this life as Alegria and Sam's mate, but now I feel like I have the responsibility to make sure certain things don't and do happen. I feel like Imma go insane with the pressure and it is not making things easier for me to get adjusted to this life.
I mean..when I first told Sue that Harry is going to die, I didn't think about whether I would get punished by the spirits for not saying anything at that moment. I just felt like I had tell her because I knew…how hard it was for Leah and Seth. Even though I came to this reality by force, I did care about these characters when I read them as a teenager. It's just.. everything complicated that simple sentiment, or love, toward the Twilight characters.
Sigh, I wished I could talk about things from what I know without that pressure I might get in trouble by the spirits…But then, I did tell her from a place of concern and genuineness, I think I am okay. I am not being selfish nor only looking for myself, but if what Sam and the others find out? Would they come to despise me and presume all of my advice and suggestions were all coming from a place of insecurity instead of genuineness ?..I honestly think I have a real concern due to their short temper. They won't be thinking straight if I do tell them the truth.
Shit. What if I get clawed at the face like Emily? Will be the next 'Emily'? Oh no..
I mean when I talked to Jacob, I was genuine with him. I told him straight about his attachment to Bella, but I also knew better to just say it plainly like that. I try to validate his feelings and approach him carefully since I know he can be very stubborn, and he already have been treated poorly for even liking Bella. I don't want to add salt to his wounds. I don't see a problem with him liking Bella, but how it turned out toward the end of the series...Yeah, that is why I try to help him out..I liked the New Moon Jacob very endearingly..
Then again, I don't really care what people think of me, and I don't want to have to please others. However, I hate to be misunderstood, and I don't want them to misunderstand me since I am going to live here from now on..
. ..I suppose..maybe..it would be better to not tell Sam the truth..I don't know..
Ah Fuck. Why am I so anxious and worry about this? I need to stop thinking. It's just gonna make more depressed about my situation.
I was thinking all of this internally without realizing that Harry was observing me mysteriously until he said, "I'm sorry ..for doubting you, Alegria... It is just that Sue has been going on and on about my diet, but..seeing that you got a premonition of my death if I don't do anything about it, it'll hurt my children…..so I do need to change my diet not for myself but for my family..I don't want Seth to live the rest of his life without his father."
I nodded firmly as he sighed deeply and rub his face wearily. I said, "since we know now, we can do as much as can to prevent it from happening..since it is for certain that Seth is going to phase."
Sue asked, "I understand, but how? He has the growth spurt, but he hasn't started the high body temperature yet. It is only after they start getting the high body temperature that they are going to first phase."
I said, "True, but..the red-headed or known as Victoria, is going to get really close to the reservation one day next week and it would trigger Seth to phase immediately."
Sue's face got pale while Harry's face became solemn. He said, "the spirits have blessed us with this knowledge, so we will be more cautious around Seth. We'll let Sam know since you are still recovering, so he can be aware that if..the pack happens to let Victoria get to the reservation, then it'll cause Seth to phase. I will also..change my diet. The spirits gave you this premonition, so I need to receive it well as a blessing instead of letting my stubbornness get in the way."
I didn't like how Harry worded with "letting Sam know". It feels like he is going to put more pressure on Sam, but that isn't fair on Sam. Also, "be more cautious around Seth". They still not gonna let him know despite of knowing he is going to phase in the future?
Umm..No
I said frowning, "are you guys still not going to tell Seth?"
Harry shuffled in his seat uncomfortably, "No, it'll trigger the phase."
I shook my head, "They deserve to be told the truth of what is going on with their own body whether they are spiking the fever or not. Yes, if you tell them once they start having the high body temperature and a temper, then yea but you still can tell them before that. From the looks of Seth, he is not going to phase when you tell him. Honestly, telling him will do more good for him, Mr, Clearwater….I strongly believe that by not telling them that they are going to phase, it will make it harder for all of them to transition to be a spirit warrior…It actually traumatize them more when they phase without knowing what is going on…We can prevent that from happening."
Harry and Sue grew silent. Sue said quietly to Harry, "I have been telling you and the council about the mental health of the spirit warriors, but you men refuse to listen to me on this."
Harry gave an awkward laugh, "but Sue. It has always been this way from generation to generation. What if we told someone the secret due to signs, but at the end they don't phase? We would expose the secret that way."
Wow. Really?
I try not to sound self-important or anything, but I think I need to remind him that I know the future. Depending on if we catch Victoria before she starts building the newborn army or at least bring it to Forks, I could prevent Brady and Collin from shifting or even having the growth spurt. I don't think they are hitting the spurt just yet. But, damn. He is going to let Seth go through the transformation/phase blindly and be more traumatized if he just had been told the truth?
Thus, I cut him off, "True, but I am here, and I know who is going to phase. Seth is going to phase next week, and in about a month or so, Quil is going to phase. The other two, depends on if we catch Victoria on time. However, we can still tell Seth and Quil, Mr. Clearwater."
Harry sighed, and he said, "It's not up to us to decide. I'll have to report this to Billy and the rest of the council members..but..thank you."
I was a bit unconvinced, but I'll give the council a benefit of a doubt. If they aren't going to tell Seth soon, then I will. I said, "if the council doesn't decide on telling Seth soon, then I will. You definitely don't want Seth to hear it from me when you, his own parents, could've told him."
Harry straightened up his back, and he said, "we are his parents, it is up to us to decide what is best for our child."
Sue sucked in a gasp. I said with a raised eyebrow, "so…explain this to me. Not trying to be rude, but I really need to understand this. How is that you consider him a child, treat him like a child and yet he is adult enough to protect the tribe as a shapeshifting spirit warrior?"
It's either one or the other. It can't be both. That is a contradiction right there, friend. Hmph.
I added, "if he is adult enough to be chosen by the spirits to go around chasing after vampires for a living, I am pretty sure he is adult enough to know the truth, Mr. Clearwater."
Harry said, "..that is true, but he still hasn't phased yet. Can't we just treat him as a child until he phases?..I know becoming a spirit warrior is going to take part of his youth away, but being a spirit warrior is a privilege and he'll come to understand that."
I listened intently. I don't know if I am coming across as being too American or too Western for Harry and Sue. I didn't grow up in the reservation, so I am not entirely sure if I am being too offensive of their culture. I tried to look through Alegria's memories, but I got nothing. She really didn't spend that much time in the reservation, so I don't know.
I said slowly, "true..but is traumatizing your son through a scary and unknown experience just to continue to live in ignorance worth it? Even though later he will understand, wouldn't it be better to soften the transition from being a teenager to a spirit warrior as a parent?.."
He said, "I suppose..but that is why Alpha Sam is there to help the young one adjust to their new role in life."
I sighed, " Sam..is their Alpha not their parent. You're the parents. Don't push all of your responsibilities onto Sam. Yes, he'll understand the best what they are going through as a spirit warrior himself, but..Seth..he needs you guys to remind him that he is still who he is, to remind the humanity in Seth. He will go through an existential crisis, and he will need his parents to remind him that he isn't a freak of nature nor a monster…Honestly, if..the parents were more involved then some of the pack members wouldn't had such a hard time transitioning…"
I didn't want to point out which pack members, but I know Sam, Jacob and Embry had it really rough when they phased. Sam had it rough as the first one and he was stuck as a wolf for a like a month or so. Jacob had it rough because he felt abandoned by Embry, he was stared oddly by Sam, and his father the chief kept secrets from him. Embry had it rough because him phasing shows someone in the reservation was infidel to their wife and no one is willing to figure out who really fathered Embry, so Embry still feels the odd one in the pack when he already been living like that as half-makah in the Quileute reservation.
Sue said teary, "Ale is right, Harry. He'll need us. I don't think I would be able to stand it to see Seth struggling to find himself while we sit back and watch."
Harry glanced at her, stared for a moment before nodding solemnly. He sighed, "I understand, Ale. I do because I am a parent, so I am more of favor of your perspective. The others, they will have a hard time to convincing."
I said doubtfully, "hm…would they? Since I am ..apparently" shit. I shouldn't have said that "the Alpha Female, should I have a say how my pack members are treated and protect them? Since he is going to be part of the pack, I am pretty sure it is my duty to know how he and others are going to transition into the pack."
They both grew silent. Then, I heard a loud knock by the door. We all turned to look, and Dr. River came in with a pale expression on his face. There was someone behind him, and when I looked up, it was Sam. When he saw me, he had the warmest smile on his face. Even though he had dark bags under his eyes, he was looking at me like I am the greatest thing that he had ever seen.
Did he hear what I said?
Author's Note:
I'll post sometime on Friday. Enjoy!
