Chapter 218: Letting Sam in..

I woke up feeling very warm. I know it was because I sleep next to Sam, but I feel more warm than usual.

Why does my stomach feel hot? Oh, right. I was sleeping in Sam's embrace.

I guess I moved in my sleep, and I laid on top of him instead. I wasn't sure how that was possible considering how huge he is, but eh, I didn't think much of it. I felt Sam's arms wrapped snugly around my waist. I lifted my head up without opening my eyes, and I felt my chin graze something soft and warm. Intrigued, I opened my eyes, and I was nose-to-nose with Sam. I was looking at him at first confused, and when I realized the position that we were in, my eyes widened. I wasn't sure what to do here. I didn't realize I was this to close to his face when I woke up, whoops.

He was looking at me with amused eyes, and his eyes glowed slightly golden by the moment. Then, I was reminded by Kim telling me to trust my instincts, and I slightly leaned forward, but I stopped myself. No, that isn't good enough reason to kiss him. I-I only him for almost a week, it just doesn't make sense to me.

However, Sam noticed it and he took that minuscule chance to lean forward and kiss me. I gasped softly. When he first kissed me, it was soft and careful. Then, I closed my eyes and I responded to the kiss. He growled lowly in satisfaction, so he pushed his body up from the bed, and I adjusted myself to be laying on his lap. H pulled me closer to him. He quickly leaned forward. He continued kissing me, but this time with passion and hunger. He was kissing me as if he won't get the chance again. I felt my lips getting slight bruised, and he deepened the kiss even more. He licked my lips, and he started kissing harder to give him entrance to my mouth. Hesitantly, I opened my mouth slowly, and I heard him purr in content.

He dipped my head lower as his hands were intertwined with my curly hair, and I felt him exploring my mouth. I was too nervous to jump in with the French kissing, but I felt him biting my lips, and my heart raced in anticipation. My heart starting to thump loudly, and I was wondering what he is going to do next. I think he heard the increase of my heart rate, so he started biting my lips even more. I squealed softly when he pulled out from the kiss and started nibbling my ear. He also nuzzled me in the cheek, smelling my hair and purring in content. He stopped nuzzling me, and he started kissing me down my neck. He left a trail of small kisses up until he was at my collar bone. I heard him take in a deep breath of my scent and exhaling in content. He licked my throat. It felt..different. Not bad, but different. I know it wasn't degrading or anything because he is also have wolf-like tendencies. It was sort of ticklish, so I shivered.

Then, he froze, and pulled his head out immediately. I glanced at him curiously, and he gave out a huge sigh. He looked down at me, and his eyes were glowing very vibrantly gold and his eyes were dilated as well.

He said thickly, "If-If I keep going, then we'll mark you, now."

He winced like it was painful for him to say, "but..I know you aren't ready for that..Give me a minute to calm down."

I nodded slowly, turned my head away from him, wrapped my arms around his waist as he did to mine and I laid my head onto his chest. I could hear his heart racing frantically and he was trembling like he is trying hold himself from phasing. I did the only thing I could do. I pat him gently on the back. I did it until he slowly stopped trembling, and he gave out a long sigh.

Me on the other hand, I was still thinking about the kiss we had. I really enjoyed it, and I lowkey wanna kiss some more, but at the same time I wasn't sure. Was I taking this too quickly? I mean…I like him. He is charming even if he is a bit an ass at times. It usually takes time for me to get used being around a guy, but I got comfortable rather quickly with him. Maybe it is the imprinting pull, but..I want to trust it like others have told me.

Unless, am I thinking too hard on this?

However, I looked back up to him. His eyes were back to normal, and he looked at me tiredly, "thank you."

I smiled gratefully, and he said with a sad expression, "I sense your confusion…do you regret..?"

I shook my head, "no..I enjoyed it and I grown to like you Sam, but..I don't know if I am going to fast when I barely got to know you…"

He hummed in agreement, and he said, "you don't have to have all of your feelings figured out now. We can figure it out as we are together. I don't think anyone knows a person perfectly when they start dating."

I acknowledged it, so I said in response, "true, but don't they court each other first? That way they have an idea what they are getting themselves into."

He hummed, "true, but we aren't like normal couples. Instead of courting, we have the imprinting to do that work for us. Imprinting already confirmed for us that we are compatible in many ways, and since I'm Alpha, my wolf already sees you as his mate."

He asked, "did your precognition ever tell you who I am?"

I looked at him about to say no until I froze. Wait. I do know Sam to a degree. From the kind of guy that I pictured him to be in the book and from the looks in the movie, he is a kind of guy who has a strong sense of duty for his pack and tribe that he was willing to abandon his scholarships to be Alpha and follow diligently to the words of the council. He tries to be mature, and he is a very cautious guy. Because of..what he did to Emily in the series, he matured rather quickly. He learned how to control his temper, and he tries to avoid a fight if possible. I remember he was very physically affectionate to Emily, and he was constantly reminding her how much she means to him. However, he was very messy when it comes to relationships. He didn't resolve things with Leah nor when she became a female wolf.

Then again, I really can't use what I know of him from the series as something to back up on since this Sam is different. This Sam, he.. wasn't messy with relationships. He broke up with Leah decently in high school. From the looks of frames in the hallways, he was able to get his associates degree from Seattle community college. I have a strong feeling that he got this degree before he phased to a wolf. Most likely, he phased in a middle of college, and he moved back to the reservation to be alpha since I didn't see a bachelor's degree on the wall. However, he still a matured wolf. I think, He hasn't lost his temper on me. But, I did see how he interacted with Paul, so he is more dominant than the Sam that I know.

I said, "yes..only briefly..you were stuck as a wolf for a month before you accidently phased back as a human, no?"

He avoided my eyes, and he said, "yes..that it is why out of everyone in the pack I am the most in tune with my wolf. I guess, I am more wolf-like than the other guys besides the fact that I am Alpha."

I nodded, "I-I see…I know you have a great sense of duty to your pack and tribe. You take time with decisions. You are serious, but you can be very affectionate if you want to be. I know..that your father abandoned you and your mom when you were young. You went to college, but I don't think you finished, didn't you?"

He nodded with a sad smile, "Yeah. I finished my associate in business and management when I first phased. I would occasionally come down to the reservation to see my mom, Allison. Every time I come back from the reservation, I noticed that I would..grow crazily out of nowhere and my blood temperature increased. I couldn't go to the doctors. I was too afraid to go. I thought it was just me, and I couldn't voice these concerns to anyone. I thought I was losing my mind. Then, I came back in the summer before I was about to go back to college as a junior. That is when I first phased..Once I was able to phase back, the council found out. They looked through the family history, and they realized that Jared and Paul were still in college. They demanded those two to finish the rest of their year online and to come back to the reservation if they wanted the tribe to continue supporting them in college. They obeyed reluctantly then few months later, Jared first came and Paul came eventually. Thankfully, they were able to finish their two years of college, before..our lives got taken by phasing."

I see. I feel sorry for them, but in a way, I am glad that they still at least went to college before their lives got ruined by becoming a wolf out of nowhere. Unlike the series counterpart, the pack never went to college. Some of them couldn't even finish high school, of if they did, barely.

I said sincerely, "I am sorry."

He gave me a sad smile before saying, "at first I was…but it led to me you and meeting you has been the best thing that has happened to me in a very long time."

I don't know about that…I didn't say anything in return. My silence said what I didn't verbally say. I knew Sam caught on because he nudged me lightly and said, "look at me."

He was looking at me sternly with a hint of sadness to his frown, and he thrusted me. I could feel his hardness rubbing against my pajama shorts. I blushed in embarrassment. Shit. I am feeling all hot in the face with embarrassment.

I lifted my head to meet him at his eyes. He said, "you see how much I want you?" as he continued to grind himself against me "How much I want to lavish you and take you under my arms? It's not because of imprinting that is confusing my head. I am sane, and I know what I feel. I feel you, Alegria. No matter what imperfections you think you have, I want to see it all and experience it all with you. I am not perfect myself either, so you don't have to hide from me."

He surprised me as he leaned down to kiss me at the cheek, and he whispered to my ear, "I know you think that you are not ready for a relationship, but the fact that you are mated with me tells me otherwise. You do want a relationship. The spirits wouldn't force you to be in a relationship if it wasn't so. You just need to have a little confidence in yourself…"

He nibbled my ear and purred as he nuzzled me at my check. Then, he said in a heartbroken tone, "just..let me in. I..We can help you…You don't have to be alone..Isn't that lonesome? To be with someone and still feel alone?."

He..isn't wrong. I knew I was keeping my distance from him at the same time getting closer to him I am being hot and cold, huh? No one likes that. I need to either go all in or not.

I need to tell him the truth.

I could tell he was looking at me from the side of my head, and I said looking at the bed frame with a crack in my voice. "True, but when you find out who I really am. I'll have to face the wrath from..you, the pack, and the council. I-I don't know if I am ready for that."

He pulled himself abruptly turned to me and barked alarmingly, "what?"

Fuck. Maybe, I shouldn't throw the bombshell like that, or say anything period, but knowing me, I wouldn't have the guts to tell him. I know he is going to remind me later. He was about to open his mouth to say something else when I heard a loud knock. Sam growled in frustration, and he said to whoever was at the other side of the door, "I'm coming."

He didn't look at me, but he was rubbing his face in frustration. He said, "we'll talk..about this later, but the pack is here. We already set the plan to take down the Victoria tonight. We have everything we need. Jared is going to bring Kim while Jacob is going to bring Bella over in few minutes. Do you mind getting ready while I go debrief with the pack the plan just one more time?"

I nodded, and he helped me get up from the bed. He walked out of the bedroom, and I went to go grab clothes to take a quick shower. After I showed, I clumsily leaned onto the bathroom's sink. This boot makes things hard to walk around in the bathroom from the tile floor that Sam installed. I got used to it, but I still had to be careful to not slip. I put on black shorts, black bra, and a navy-blue tank top that hugged my wide hips. I even decided to try a little harder in my looks, so I braided my hair in a mohawk braid without braiding the ends of my hair. Since it is curly, I rather want my curls to be shown, but at the same time not all over the place due to this thick, long waist length hair that I have. I put a blue scrunchie to tie the ends of each braid and let my curls flow out the ends. There were few small curls on my face, but since it was too short to tie them in my braids, I let it fall on my face. I added more of my leave-on curling cream to make sure they stay curly and not get frizzy.

I looked at myself in the bathroom mirror. Even though I look ghastly from the events these past few days, my eyes were shining some light that I haven't seen in a long time. I feel accomplished and proud of myself. This is the most that I have done with my looks these past few days, I think I am doing better that I thought I would be.

I walked out of the bedroom, and the guys were talking at the dining room. I turned my head to the direction of the living room. Kim was on the couch, and she was biting her nails in anxious. She had a sundress on, and she was simply glowing. At the other end of couch, I saw what it appears to be Bella. She was curled up and she had her head between her knees. Her long, mahogany hair was put up on a loose, messy ponytail. She had a green jacket on with jeans, and black boots.

Huh. So that's Bella. Never in my life I would've thought I would ever meet Bella Swan in person. Even though I couldn't see her clearly, the books and the movies didn't due justice to her beauty. No wonder Jacob was so fascinated with Bella, and I think I read somewhere that Embry sort of had a crush on Bella before he phased. I wasn't too sure about that information.

Sam was in the front of the table while the guys were huddling looking from what it appears a map. The moment I came to the dining room, they all turned their heads. When they saw what I was wearing, they straightened their backs. Jared, Paul, and Jacob were beaming with a toothy grin wile Embry was giving a small smile. I glanced at me, and I saw that Sam was mesmerized from the glaze look from his eyes and droopy smile.

I blushed and looked away. I was rubbing my right arm in anxiousness until Sam said, "you look nice..Ale."

Then, I heard multitude of voices saying,

"Hell Yeah!"

"You look amazing, Ale,"

"Nice way to send us off to a fight, huh?"

The last one was Paul, and I couldn't help but giggle from the comment. I said teasingly to him, "yup."

He smirked, and Sam cleared his throat. Huh, he is still a bit jealous. He said, "Alright..We know the plan, so lets head off with the vials here."

The guys' expression changed to serious and nodded as some of them were given a full vial while others were given an empty vial."

They were walking out to the dining room. Jared was kissing Kim, and I saw a trail of tear from her eyes. I looked away to give them privacy. I glanced at how Jacob interacted with Bella. Jacob gave a short hug to Bella and walked out with Bella looking longingly with tears in her eyes. She turned around, and she saw that I was looking at her. I was able to have a good look at her. She looked almost dangerously skinny. She had dark bags under eyes, and she looked a bit ghastly even more in comparison to me. Her eyes widened with her mouth slightly opened. She gave an awkward half, sort of forced, smile and greeting.

Typical Bella. I bet she is judging me in her mind at this moment. I gave a small smile in return, and I looked back to Sam. He pulled me to a embrace, and I said with tears building up in my eyes, "..be careful, okay?..I lost..so much.. I-I can't lose you too."

I have grown to care for Sam and being with him is something that I can call as my own despite of living Alegria's life. What the pack are doing is totally different from the series's timeline, so I really don't know if it is going to go well or very badly However, I guess he is the male lead of my story in this reality, so he can't die right? It wouldn't make sense for him to die so quickly in this reality when I barely got here. Then again, I can't help but worry and be anxious because it was my ideas that changed the plotline of this reality. If things go south, then it'll really be on my head.

I chill went through my spine from this realization. Sam hugged me tightly and gave me a peck on the lips. He had both of his hands cradling my face, and he said lovingly, "I-I'll come back to you. I won't leave you behind, okay?"

I blinked slowly in response, and he gave a small smile. He glanced both at Kim and Bella, and he looked back to me. He whispered, "watch over them while we are gone, okay?"

I responded softly, "okay."

He sighed in relief, and he gave me another peck on the lips before leaving out the door.

Author's Note:

So..how was this chapter? It's okay, or too forced? I know I somehow made Sam like an ass, so I am trying to adjust his character to make Sam and OC like each other. I am not used to handling him if you guys have read my first story. I am used to handling Paul.

I know its all stress now, but I'll make them bond even more throughout this story.

Enjoy!