Chapter 30(orphan)
(Trigger warning: infanticide references, nightmarishly messed up situation, but still worth reading chapter all the way to the end if you can stomach it.)
Liling was feeling thoughtful as she sat fully clothed in bed on her husband Augusta's face reading a medical journal. The pair weren't having sex at the moment, Augusta in fact was actually trying to sleep right now, but Liling was deliberately sitting in the most irritating place possible just to be sadistic, as she kept up with her medical literature reading.
(authors note: my cat did this sitting on my face thing to me the night before I started writing this chapter, first at 1am and again at 3am, (when I had to get up at 6am for work), it was such a diabolically "Liling" thing to do that I found it inspirational. (The second time at 3am I shut the cat out of the bedroom in case you were wondering))
"I twying to seep," Augusta's heavily muffled voice complained irritably from under her ass.
In response Liling clenched her abdominal muscles and deliberately farted in his face for fun.
Augusta roared at the sulphurous smell of her diabolical stir fried yapyap and grox meat fuelled farts. This dish ALWAYS gave her truly awful farts, and she regularly ate it deliberately just to torture Augusta like this.
Augusta was too submissive to Liling to defend himself from this highly inventive treatment, and just endured it all like a good submissive husband should, as Liling did it over and over again with a sadistic smile.
Liling sadly did not have an endless supply of internal gas to torture her husband with, and eventually ran out of farts.
"Fank you," Augusta said in a heavily muffled voice as the farts finally stopped, wetting her panties slightly with his saliva as he spoke.
Liling had thankfully learned from experience to thoroughly chemically treat all of her clothes to resist the acids in Augusta's saliva, her panties would be smoking rags by now otherwise. Her own tissues had likewise been altered, her cells completely pH buffered to resist strong acidity. She was so immune that Augusta could orally stimulate her with no problems.
Liling wiped the slobbery panties clean on his face, and used his nose to scratch her anus on through the fabric.
"I wan seep," Augusta complained as she just kept keeping him awake with her irritating behaviour.
Liling tried her best to keep tormenting him, but he was soon sleeping under her ass and not responding to even her farts!
Liling sighed and got off his face. She put away her medical journal, kissed his sleeping cheek lovingly, and then snuggled against his giant warm muscular body, adoring him utterly in her own sadistic way.
Liling was still in a very thoughtful mood, and not even tormenting her submissive husband had taken her mind off her disquieting thoughts.
Sister Mary had SAVED Liling from Octavia's terrible acquiescence kiss, saving Liling from a fate worse than death as a slave to the will of the moronic Octavia forevermore! Without Sister Mary's incredible act of mercy, Liling would be done for, and this thought made Liling feel... Guilty, for how she had treated Sister Mary in the past.
It was more than just this, it was also the attack on Ying and the way that Sister Mary had tried to protect Ying, protect her from Sister Mary's own Emperor no less! When Liling had been at her most vulnerable moments, Sister Mary had consistently shown mercy, despite everything Liling had done to her!
Liling was not used to feeling guilty about her behaviour, but right at the moment she felt the sharp pang of genuine remorse in her chest. It wasn't a nice feeling.
Liling had done evil things for a very long time, always murdering and torturing people for her own pleasure, without guilt or consequence. Her patron god Slaanesh had not only not condemned her actions, but had actually delighted in them, rewarding her for her evil acts.
But now something had changed... Liling actually felt... Remorse...
It wasn't just Sister Mary, it was the Emperor. The Emperor had threatened the life of her child, had warned her that if she didn't confess her sins and repent, then her child would die! Liling didn't want her children to die, and she found herself superstitiously FILLED with repentance and guilt to appease the wrath of the horrifying Emperor!
Liling was suddenly frightened and got up to check on her children, she found them all asleep in their rooms, alive and well. Liling didn't want to wake them, merely checking that they were alive and breathing in their beds, before tiptoeing out again.
Liling sighed in relief and went to check the laundry. The laundry slaves were asleep at this late hour, but Liling wasn't seeking them. Liling instead went to inspect her treasured "Cutie-natrix" nightie where it lay soaking in a bucket of cleaning chemicals, to see if the stains had come out.
The nightie was little improved on what it had been, completely ruined with huge red stains all around the bottom half of the fabric...
Liling sighed, she had LOVED this nightie more than any other clothing she owned! This whole incident had deeply hurt her in so many different ways.
Liling looked at the stains nervously, fearing more words, and to her horror, the fears proved well founded!
The stain formed words!
"Cease and repent," the stain spelled out.
Liling was pale and shaking with terror, but she managed not to scream and haltingly forced herself to speak to the stain. She was TERRIFIED that Ying was going to die if there was another attack, terrified enough that she was willing to negotiate with the Emperor himself through this stain.
"Will you spare my children if I do?," Liling whispered back.
"Yes," the stain wrote simply.
Liling nodded frantically and said, "I will do it, I will stop murdering, I will stop torturing the unwilling, I will be kind to your servants if you are kind to my family!"
"Repent," the stain insisted simply.
"I... I'm sorry for everything... I should not have tortured thousands of people to death like I did...," Liling repented feebly.
The stain didn't seem to be impressed by this and just kept showing the word "Repent".
Liling sighed and tried again, this time actually repenting properly for being a serial killer, going into a passionate monologue about how sorry she was for her horrifying crimes against fellow human beings, and about how she would even use her current position of power to help any kidnapped servants of the Emperor, to do his will on this ship, if only Ying and her other children would be spared from death.
Liling offered to betray the war band, the entire Sevenson family, to do things to help the Emperor. She offered to atone for her murders by preventing further atrocities by the forces of chaos in this war band! She repented like she had never repented before, asking only that her children be spared.
The Emperor was about to have himself a POWERFUL agent inside this ship, Liling thought as she repented from a lifetime's worth of sins!
The stain changed.
"Repent for your REAL sin!" The stain demanded.
"Real sin?, But what sin is worse than torturing thousands of people to death?," Liling asked in puzzlement.
"The sin of HERESY!" The stain insisted.
Liling blinked in confusion at this absurd answer.
"But I am NOT a heretic, not to MY faith, my people have worshipped Slaanesh for ten thousand years! I was raised in a completely different religion from your servants, so by definition of the word "heresy" I CANNOT be called a heretic! And anyway, how is being raised in a different faith tradition POSSIBLY WORSE than being a serial killer with thousands of dead victims?!" Liling spluttered in utterly flabbergasted astonishment.
"The worship of chaos is the ULTIMATE sin! Cease and repent!" The stain replied.
"Um... Seriously?!" Liling asked with growing lack of credence.
"Become MY worshipper instead," the stain insisted.
"I just want to avoid having my children be killed and turn my evil life around into something better, not change my entire religion! I am willing to apologise for the ACTUAL crimes I have committed, which are many and terrible, but having a particular religion SURELY doesn't compare to torturing thousands of people to death?!" Liling responded, starting to get upset.
"Murder is preferable to heresy, your heresy MUST cease!" The stain insisted unashamedly.
Liling started to laugh, she just couldn't help it. These words were beyond insanity. You didn't become a medical doctor without being smart enough to have massive alarm bells go off in your head, when someone claimed that religious differences were more serious than SERIAL KILLING! This Emperor was a complete and total lunatic!
"Ten thousand years on the Golden Throne has clearly taken it's toll I see. I would prescribe you some medications if I could, I think you desperately need them. If you are this insane then I think that I will pass on the whole "working for you" thing. Just don't kill my kids and I will stop killing people, deal?," Liling told the stain, no longer able to take it seriously.
"No, you must REPENT!" the stain insisted.
Liling ignored the ranting of the geriatric old tyrant, she had been a complete fool to try to negotiate with this lunatic! Liling instead started praying fearfully to appease Slaanesh, who seemed EXTREMELY irritated by her little chat with the Emperor just now...
"So you are praying to ME now are you?," Slaanesh hissed angrily in her mind.
"I never wavered in my faith to you Dark Prince, I am forever your servant!" Liling fearfully promised honestly.
"You did not waver in your worship of me, that is TECHNICALLY true, but you pushed close to the line, oh my most FAITHFUL of servants! VERY CLOSE TO THE LINE! I do not appreciate having my supposed worshippers traitorously hedging their bets, by making deals against MY interests with the sworn enemy of chaos, the Emperor of the Imperium!" Slaanesh snarled with divine rage.
"I am your's alone Slaanesh! I never intended to follow the old fool, it was just harmless talk! My faith in you is beyond any doubt or question blessed Slaanesh!" Liling promised fearfully.
"I demand PROOF of your "beyond any doubt" devotion! You would seem to in fact value the life of your daughter Ying over your devotion to me... I think it's time for a murderous little test of your faith, a little 5 year old human sacrifice from your own loins..." Slaanesh purred with psychopathic cruelty.
Liling blanched pale white with horror!
"Not Ying! You CAN'T mean my little Ying!" Liling stammered.
"I DO mean Ying and you WILL kill her for me. You have killed many thousands in your murder spree over the years, killed people of all ages including children, tortured them to death even as they screamed and begged for mercy, so one more 5 year old should be a simple matter for you, my entertaining little serial killer." Slaanesh laughed musically.
"But but, but she is MY little girl! I LOVE her! I didn't love any of my murder victims!" Liling pleaded.
"Do you really suppose that you can keep Ying alive against my will and yet remain my SERVANT?, Do you think that I will show mercy and change my mind just because you LOVE her?, Ying has been chosen by me precisely BECAUSE you love her, to PROVE to me that your OBEDIENCE to my will comes ABSOLUTELY first!" Slaanesh pressed mercilessly.
"PLEASE HAVE MERCY! WAIT I mean, please be too CRUEL to let her escape from the agony of life!" Liling tried desperately.
"Have no fear beloved, I can be VERY cruel to Ying in the afterlife if you are worried about THAT," Slaanesh purred sensuously.
"NO! No please don't be cruel to her soul! Nice afterlife, NICE AFTERLIFE!" Liling backtracked desperately.
"A nice afterlife IF you kill her YOURSELF, otherwise it might be... Less, nice for the soul of sweet little Ying...," Slaanesh drawled.
"The Matriarch will kill me if I kill one of her mortal brood of descendants like this!" Liling begged, desperate to find any excuse to get out of this HORRIBLE predicament.
"The Matriarch is MY servant and will not question my will! You are all MY servants and shall NOT question MY will! Kill Ying for me and prove your faith in me! If you continue to argue to change my mind, I will make it TWO of your children rather than just one!" Slaanesh growled at Liling in her mind.
Liling vomited heavily all over the laundry floor in sick despair as she wept in grief, with purest dread and horror filling her heart!
Liling dared not continue arguing, lest Slaanesh make this horrific situation even worse. She instead forced herself to give the smallest of nods, a nod almost imperceptibly small but yet taking more effort than all the other nods in her life combined. She didn't know HOW she would find the mental strength to actually do it, but she WOULD kill Ying for Slaanesh... Um, EVENTUALLY is ok right?
"No Liling, you will NOT play this out for time with your vague "eventually", you will do it SOON, and you KNOW what I mean when I say SOON!" Slaanesh growled in Liling's mind.
Liling knew EXACTLY what "soon" meant. Soon meant long enough to let everyone know that this was happening as part of Slaanesh's will (,lest the Sevenson war band punish Liling for murdering one of their blood,), long enough for the family to say their proper goodbyes to Ying and set up the human sacrifice ritual. Long as it reasonably needed to be but still SOON!
The Sevenson family had been faced with so many of these sorts of horrific "tests of faith" in the past, that they actually had a PROCEDURE for handling exactly this situation. Liling would be given all the family support she could ask for as she struggled through this test of her devotion to Slaanesh. She was going to NEED it, ALL of the help she could get!
Liling forced herself to stand and walked forward. One tiny trembling step at a time, trying her best not to faint.
Liling immediately went to the nearest wall vox, as quickly as her trembling steps could carry her, and called her Mother-in-law Wendy, explaining the situation...
It was a long conversation, one of the longest and hardest conversations in her life, with many tears, tears on both ends of the vox line, as Liling explained EVERYTHING to Wendy, confessing it all, confessing how she had tried to work with the Emperor to save Ying, confessed that she had been willing to betray the rest of the family to save her own children... And confessed that this mad folly to try to protect Ying had now cost Ying her life...
Wendy was... Upset. Actually she was a lot more than just upset, there were some words said that were later apologised for, anger, sadness, grief, just so many emotions. But after this there was acceptance, and Wendy listened as Liling poured out her heart.
Wendy then told Liling that she had been a fool, actually she called her a lot worse things than just a fool, but she then told Liling that as she had been only trying to save her child's life, that her motherly motives had at least been perfectly understandable. Wendy promised that Liling would not be punished for her folly, as this test was already so much worse than any other punishment, and that Liling should just focus on getting through this.
Wendy told Liling that she would handle organising everything and promised to immediately gather all the family onboard to say their goodbyes to Ying.
The family would have a huge goodbye party with Ying, like they always did when one of their own was required as a sacrifice, and the family would explain very gently to Ying that she was going to go away to be with Slaanesh in paradise now, and promise Ying that it would all be ok, just a lovely holiday to heaven... Ying would be given all of her favourite things and everyone would get to say their goodbyes... Liling sobbed.
Ying wouldn't suffer, Liling would see to that. She would be calmed right down, given the most blissfully comforting sedatives imaginable, and would not feel it when she... Died. Liling would then harvest Ying's ovaries... To, to breed more Sevensons, and... And, that would be that... Liling sobbed even more.
Liling hung up the vox after speaking to Wendy, and then simply collapsed to the floor, weeping hoarsely until the entire house hold was awakened.
"Mummy what's wrong?," Ying asked from a doorway in her tiny voice, rushing to give Liling a beautiful warm little cuddle.
Liling just cried all the harder at this sweet display of affection. Oh Slaanesh this was BRUTAL!
Liling sucked in great big sobbing gasps of air as she just hugged her warm sweet loving little 5 year old daughter with all her might. Ying was so small and hot and gentle in her arms, and Liling LOVED her SO MUCH! How would she EVER be able to snuff out this little life!?
People started to gather around Liling as she just held Ying and sobbed. The whole family would have heard at least a quick overview of the news by now, and were beginning to gather in solemn silence around Liling as she grieved. Reassuring hands patted Liling's back and Ying was still not sure what was going on or why Liling was crying, but Liling was oblivious to all else around her, just hugging her little girl...
As the grief and regret drove Liling half mad...
***...
The family was wonderfully supportive over the coming hours as they organised Ying's "going away party" and got everything ready. Ying was still alive, for the time being, and she was being given a wonderful party with all of her favourite things.
The family very VERY gently sat little Ying down and explained that she was going to be sacrificed to Slaanesh. To her credit, Ying took the news well, all things considered. She cried a bit as expected, but actually far less than Liling did. But the one who really responded the most strongly was Sister Mary when she heard what the family was explaining to Ying...
"For FUCK'S sake just REPENT like the Emperor said and HE will protect Ying!" Sister Mary roared at Liling, upset enough to actually swear!
Liling snarled at the nun in grief fuelled rage and HATE! Liling had NEVER HATED ANYONE MORE than she HATED Sister Mary right at this moment!
"YOU DID THIS! YOU planted these doubts in my mind! YOU caused this!" Liling shrieked with rabid raving hatred.
"You have a CHOICE Liling, a CHOICE between murdering your own child for Slaanesh or keeping your child alive by converting to worship the Emperor! Which is it going to be!" Sister Mary shouted back.
"You BITCH! The Emperor is a LUNATIC! He told me that heresy is worse than MURDER! I will NOT trust a fool like that!" Liling spat back with venomous hate.
"THIS situation is WHY heresy is worse than murder! A murderer commits ONLY murder and can always decide to spare victims, can CHOOSE to walk away! Heretics are compelled to obey the blasphemous powers of evil, and will be FORCED by the Dark Gods to commit not ONLY murder but ALL sins! INCLUDING being forced to murder your own children!" Sister Mary proclaimed hysterically.
"Dear that is not nice to say to poor Liling. Ying is not being "murdered" but merely getting called by blessed Slaanesh to enter paradise a lot earlier than expected. The souls of other Sevensons who have died contact us from the beyond during rituals every year on selected holy days. They appear in these magic chalk circles and tell us about their lives in Slaanesh's paradise." Octavia said to Sister Mary with uncharacteristic intelligence, her brain still not fully safely back to normal after her relapse, only partially subdued by Hyacinth's spell until Liling could use brain surgery to provide a more long term solution.
"Octavia, for once you have said the smartest thing here!" Liling gasped with wonderful relief at this simple reminder that Ying would simply be sent to be with loving relatives in paradise!
"I will see all of my dead great aunties and great uncles?," Ying asked hopefully, with childlike faith reducing her fear.
"That's right Sweetheart, every Aunty and Uncle and Cousin and Second Cousin and Grandma Talon, and everyone else who ever died. They will all be with you in paradise to take care of you, and you will get to see us every holy day when we commune with the departed." Octavia reassured Ying sweetly with childlike faith of her own.
Liling desperately needed to hear more stuff like this and urged Octavia to keep talking.
"This whole situation is EVIL! You are talking about killing this little girl! I won't LET YOU!" Sister Mary raged.
"Do you think I WANT to do this!?" Liling snarled hatefully at the nun who had wrecked EVERYTHING!
"Why do you value Slaanesh over your own daughter! What could POSSIBLY be offered by Slaanesh that is WORTH your daughter's LIFE?!" Sister Mary raved.
"Your words are POISON! GET OUT!" Liling roared in deep pain.
"If you try to murder this little girl, I will kill you myself! You shall NOT murder this child! I will DIE to protect all children!" Sister Mary threatened with utter certainty.
"Then do it, kill me right now if you think you can!" Liling spat bitterly.
Sister Mary looked around her for a weapon, and grabbed up a knife from a nearby party table covered in food. Sister Mary turned to face Liling with trembling limbs, clearly not a killer, and advanced on Liling with the knife raised to strike.
Sister Mary didn't get within stabbing range before the Chaos Lord grabbed hold of her leash and pulled her backwards off her feet. Before Sister Mary could recover he disarmed her and handcuffed her hands behind her back.
"I understand your sentiment little nun, we ALL understand your sentiment, and for that reason I shall not kill you right now. None of us are happy about this situation, all present feel grief, and none more so than Ying's parents. Do not add to Liling's difficulty and stop upsetting Ying at her own going away party, or I will drag you away from Octavia and lock you in a cell until this is over," the Chaos Lord snarled gently but adamantly.
Sister Mary ignored the warning and just kept screaming at them not to kill Ying, until Sister Mary was eventually carried away to be put in a holding cell. Everyone sighed in relief when the nun was gone.
The party was much more bearable after that, and Ying got to eat all her favourite foods and play with a mountain of toys. Everyone went out of their way to make Ying as happy as possible, and reassure her about the lovely journey she was going on. Ying returned to cuddle her parents a lot, and was clearly scared, but she was still surprisingly happy at her party, young enough to not fully understand mortality.
Hundreds of relatives said goodbye to Ying, hours and hours of goodbyes and cuddles with relatives, as Liling desperately prayed with Augusta for the strength to do this. Augusta was extremely stoic and grim, barely saying a word as he dealt with this in his own way. He was angry with Liling about this, TERRIBLY angry, but he was nevertheless supporting her as she tried to somehow find the strength to sacrifice her own child.
The other kids were extremely messed up by this, and were hanging around Ying constantly, very subdued as they played with her. The coming months would be hard on the entire family, today was just the beginning of their sadness. This entire situation was simply horrible, with no silver linings, it would leave them all with deep emotional scars.
Liling willed the time left to slow right down, to let her experience Ying being alive for as long as possible, but Slaanesh was far too cruel for that, and if anything the hours seemingly shot past with unnatural speed! In seemingly no time at all, the hour had come!
***...
Liling vomited heavily with dread as she saw the sacrificial circle that Hyacinth and the other psykers had prepared, and fell to her knees weeping with grief, lacking the strength to go on yet.
Ying had been holding her hand, and was now giving Liling a cuddle to cheer her up.
"Mummy, don't cry," Ying encouraged Liling.
Liling spat away the vomit and hugged Ying as she wept, unable to go through with this! NO mother could do this!
"Liling, it is time," Wendy urged gently.
"I CAN'T do it!" Liling pleaded.
"Yes you can, we will support you every step of the way. Prove your devotion to Slaanesh," Wendy encouraged gently but with authority.
Liling knew that Wendy was right, and tried to keep moving towards the elaborate chalk circle, but she collapsed after only a few inches and had to be carried the rest of the way.
Liling was far too distressed to even notice the elaborate details of this sacrificial circle or even the room she was in, she didn't CARE about any of that! The ONLY thing that she saw was her little girl being gently placed on a hospital bed in the middle of the circle!
Liling almost fainted as she was given the lethal injection syringe to hold and was stood next to the bed, vision going grey as adrenaline pumped through her veins, heart pounding. She was about to kill her little Ying!
Ying was getting scared now, and started to cry. Ying scrambled to the side of the bed and cuddled Liling furiously, screaming "Mummy! I don't want to leave you! Mummy I'm scared!"
Liling's heart broke at these words, and she looked around for an escape, wanting only to grab Ying and run away to safety!
Wendy was standing ready for this and spoke.
"Ease down Liling, ease down. Breathe deeply and don't let your emotions get the best of you. Ying is going to paradise forever, she won't suffer. Just send her on her way as Slaanesh wants." Wendy reassured calmly.
Liling remembered what Sister Mary had said, that it wasn't too late to repent and save Ying. These words were SO tempting right now!
"What's it gonna be Liling, are you mine or not?," Slaanesh whispered in her mind.
Liling paused and thought about it, was she REALLY so devoted to Slaanesh that she could do this monstrous act?. Would Liling be just a sick serial killer who killed even her own daughter, or would Liling repent of her heresy and become something new and better?
Was it WORTH the cost?
Who was Liling going to be?
"Mummy please don't leave me!" Ying sobbed in her arms.
"You have to decide NOW!" Slaanesh commanded.
Liling looked into the face of her crying child, and she decided where she was going to stand as a person.
Liling prepared her muscles, and put the needle in Ying's arm...
Ying gazed at Liling in horror for a moment, and then started to smile as the blissful overdose of sedatives made her feel absolutely wonderful. It was the most pleasant way that it was possible to die, and Ying died with a blissful smile...
The syringe clattered from Liling's hand and she began to howl with unimaginable grief.
"You have done well Liling, very well. You have proven yourself worthy my newest CHAMPION!" Slaanesh said in proud delight.
A blazing pink brand of Slaanesh appeared on Liling's right cheek of her face, marking her as a Chaos Champion of Slaanesh as a result of her despicable evil act!
Liling looked down at her dead child and touched a hand to her new chaos champions mark, wondering if this had been worth the terrible price.
She threw herself on Ying's dead body and sobbed with terrible grief for a long time, a long long time.
The body then moved underneath her!
"Mummy! Mummy it was so wonderful in heaven! Aunty Hyacinth took me to see all the relatives in heaven and then took me back home again!," Ying's voice said excitedly.
"YING!" Liling shouted with joy!
"(Squawk)... Slaanesh only... Said you... (Squawk)... Had to... Kill her... (Squawk)... Never said... I couldn't... (Squawk)... Bring her... Back again!" Hyacinth squawked smugly.
Liling gasped in joy and looked to Wendy for confirmation.
"It's legitimate, I checked first with Slaanesh to see if he would allow this. It's perfectly within the rules for someone else to resurrect her after you killed her," Wendy said happily.
"But YOU DIDN'T TELL ME! YOU BITCHES LET ME THINK I WAS KILLING HER FOREVER!" Liling shouted in an odd combination of joyful relief and complete outrage!
"It was a test of your devotion Liling, you HAD to think that it was permanent death. Slaanesh only allowed the resurrection on the condition that you were not told about it beforehand," Wendy explained happily.
Liling laughed with mad joy and hugged her daughter, thanking Slaanesh for this outcome.
"Congratulations on becoming our newest Chaos Champion by the way, I am so proud of you," Wendy said happily.
Liling smiled, she would never question her loyalty to chaos ever again! She now had a shot at becoming a Daemon Princess one day! She got to kill her Ying and yet still keep her too, she had been rewarded for her evil act without any negative consequences!
Liling knew who she was now, Liling was a serial killer!
***...
