Chapter 236: The Conversation with Old Quil

I was staring purposelessly at my empty cup of water when I heard Old Quil cleared his throat. I looked up and he was looking at me very curiously with his eyebrows furrowed together. I looked at him confusingly, so he said softly, "I never met someone like you before. It's..amazing."

I froze. My eyes grew big in alarm. I didn't know how to respond to do that. I looked toward the kitchen. Did Jacob hear that? What if he hears it with his supernatural ears? I looked back at Old Quil anxiously, and he raised his hand and said, "don't be alarmed. Young Jacob went outside. He won't hear this conversation..I am not here to harm you..Alegria..and the spirits have notified me about you."

Oh. They did? How much have they told him about me? I wondered, so I said, "oh…you met Alegria?"

He said calmly, "yes, I met her before she crossed over to the spirit world in my dream. She told me to look out for you."

I didn't know to respond to this, so all I said was "I see.."

He asked slowly, "Does..Sam know?"

I nodded my head and said softly, "yeah. He knows..I-I told him."

He sighed softly in relief, and his gaze softened ever so slightly before he responded, "good..good.."

He stared at me again, and the next thing he said surprised me. He said, "come here, child."

He extended his hand towards me, and I looked at his hand wearily. I wasn't sure what his endgame was, but it doesn't look like he is going to harm me. I walked toward him, crouched down in front of him to hold his hand, but then he placed his hand on my face. I could feel the callouses of his hand on my face, and he gently pulled my face to look up to him. He was looking at me with such sad, deep eyes that it was becoming unsettling.

He said, "you have suffered much, haven't you child?"

Out of all things to say, that was the last thing I expected him to say. I was very much in shock. I think my silence showed my confusion because he added, "It's been a long time since I have seen someone carrying so much sorrow in their spirit. When I see you, I can see that you had a difficult time here, haven't you?"

I wanted to say no and that I was fine. With an awkward smile, I said, "Oh, what do you mean?"

He blinked slowly and said carefully, "I think you know what I mean. No need to put a brave face on me, child."

I was going to reassure him that I'm past it now, but them my tears betrayed me. When I felt one lone tear falling down on my face, more and more fell. I closed my eyes tightly to stop crying, but the Old Quil pulled me towards his lap. I laid my head on his lap as he gently pats me in the back, singing a Quileute lullaby to calm me down.

Why am I crying?

I guess. I am still hurting. Not as much as before, but enough that with a simple reassurance from Old Quil, I broke down. I don't why I broke down with Old Quil. Something about Old Quil made me feel safe, familiar. I felt something familiar from Old Quil. It wasn't a mentally conscious thing that I did, but it felt like something triggered this body to react this way with him. As he kept singing lowly, I was starting to feel a vibe. It was a calm, protective vibe that brought my walls, that only Sam had seen, down. As I continued to sob in his lap, I was finally reminded of a deep, single memory from Alegria.

One day in the summer, Alegria caught a cold. Grandma Eva stood next to her, took care of her as Alegria was running with a high fever. Even though Grandma Eva was tired and worn down from the incoming cancer that was slowly spreading her whole body, she still kept a strong front for Alegria. Even when Alegria would cry in her sleep for her mom, Grandma Eva held her hand, stroke Alegria's hair as Grandma Eva would sing a Quileute lullaby to her. Of course, Alegria had no understanding of what she was saying, it still brought comfort to her. The only parental figure Alegria had was Grandma Eva, so it was deeply embedded in her memories that it was affecting me too.

With the strong nostalgic feeling from the memory and my own struggle with loneliness and heartache, Ahh, no wonder I cried. Old Quil reminded this body of Grandma Eva, and he reminded me of..a parent that I lost in my reality. I don't have anybody in this reality, and Old Quil was the closest thing to a parent that I came across with and with everything that I have been through lately, no wonder I broke down on him. It wasn't a protective romantic love that I wanted because I already gotten that from Sam, but a parental love.

I was still sobbing lightly in his lap, when he said softly, "I never met someone like you, so forgive me if I cannot console you in ways you wanted to be. Was it difficult to come to terms with your death, child?"

I sniffed, "it..wasn't easy in the beginning. It was honestly really really hard that.."

He added bluntly, "to the point that you attempted suicide?"

I froze. I still kept my head down because I was too embarrassed to answer that question directly to his face. I said, "I..admit it wasn't my greatest moment..I regret doing that because it hurt Sam more deeply that I expected..but..I'm getting there. It still hurt that I can't..go back to my old life.."

He hummed, "I see."

I asked, "how much do you know about me?"

He said thoughtfully, "Due to an unfortunate death, you are given a second chance in life by coming here. You are someone that the spirits chose to replace Alegria and due to your 'gift'. However, now that I am looking through your spirit, it doesn't look like you possess a spiritual gift. Was your 'gift of precognition' a cover for something else?"

I swallowed thickly and said, "yes..I know certain things about this reality before I came.. I haven't told Sam how exactly because I don't think it is easy to explain without confusing him or myself."

He hummed, "Try to explain it to me. Maybe I can provide some insight."

I pulled up from his lap, and I wiped my tears with my sleeve. I said, "Um, let me sit down."

He said, "go ahead."

I got up, pulled up a chair, and I sat down next to him. I sighed, "so..there was this series in my reality called Twilight series by an author known as Stephanie Meyers. It is a series of four books, and they all majority told through the lenses of Bella Swan. The series start when she first moves in Forks up until few months from now. This series became a major hit and five movies were released based on this series..However, once I came here. I noticed there are some things that are not like in the series.."

He was muttering in Quileute to himself for a while, so I didn't catch to what he said. He hummed with a mysterious look on his face, "I see why you withhold that information from Alpha Sam. Anyone who hears this would perceive it as everything they have come to know was all fabricated by person's imagination. It would question their sense of reality and position in the world."

I hanged my head, "Yes..but what I don't understand is why some things are different from the book. Is it something that Meyers did?"

Old Quil pondered, "the spirit world is more complex than any man can comprehend. There is very little we know about the spirit world because man with a physical body cannot adventure deep into the spirit world without severing ties from the physical world. However, the spirits occasionally help mankind through inspirations without man needing to dive deep into the spirit world. Many times, spirit inspires us to help us for reasons we may never understand. This Meyers individual may have been given an inspiration from the spirits to write the events of this reality through a story. Since they cannot control what an individual do with those inspirations, this Meyers person may have changed some things according to her desires and thinking. Thus..the differences you see right now is the true reality, and the reality you know from the books are slightly tampered by this author."

Woah. That's a lot to digest. I sat there dumbfounded from what I have been told. So, it's not that this reality was made up from a person. It was an actual reality, but Meyers wrote down as a story for her own gain. Ah, so she isn't that omnipotent.

I asked, "So..it is safe to say Meyers was chosen to write down this reality into a book?"

Old Quil sighed, "I don't know for sure, but she was the one who received the inspiration about this reality. Spirit knows why, but I believe it is not something to dwell too much about."

True. It is already hurting my head from thinking about all of this besides the fact that I cried today. He looked at me with a small smile, "Nevertheless, you do know some things about the future. I am curtained you already intervened when you believed it was necessary?"

I nodded, "yes like for example-"

Old Quil raised his hand in a motion to stop me and said, "Ah, I don't think I need to hear. If it has not occurred, then it is best to not say it out loud, or else we may impact the future more than we have already."

I could see reason to that. However, I said hopelessly, "sometimes, I don't even know when it is okay to prevent something to happen and when I have to..What if everything that I am doing would still happen regardless what I do?"

He listened attentively to what I was saying. He said sadly, "then maybe it is what it meant to be. We can't go against what is destined for us. Just because it may be inevitable, it does not mean you simply wait for the things to come to you. Also, it does not mean your efforts were all in vain. Even though you may not change a huge event in the future, you still have changed how and when it comes. You may lessen the conaequences of the events due to your efforts."

He reached over and placed his hand over mine and said, "regardless of everything, I trust in your judgement because the spirits trust your judgement. If they have not, then they would've continue to assign Alegria to watch out for you. Not only that, if the spirits believed someone who have prior knowledge of this world would create problems, then they wouldn't have chosen you."

That's true..

He said lastly with a firm tone, "I am glad that the imprinting bond you share with Alpha Sam is healing your spirit. You have lost much in your previous life, but you have gained much more in this life. You gained not only Sam, but also gained a family within the pack. You are family now, and we will treat you as family, so you don't have to walk around here like a stranger or a guest."

Heh. I guess he noticed how awkward and anxious I felt when I came over to the Black's residence. I responded shyly, "okay."

He leaned back against the chair, and he sighed contently with eyes closed. He said, "I think it is time for you to go home with Alpha Sam."

I tilted my head in question, "Oh, why?"

He said with a low chuckle, "he and Jacob are outside anxiously waiting to be allowed back inside the house. Their wolf spirits probably sensed that I wanted to talk to you individually."

Oh..I said softly, "Thank you..Talking to you, I was able to finally let go this anxiousness with meeting you.." I asked urgently, "But, there is one thing that I need to ask."

He hummed, "what is it?"

I asked worriedly, "Should I let the pack know about me?"

He said casually, "Only if you think it is necessary. However, I don't think it would cause mistrust between you and the pack. You're pack, the Alpha's mate. They'll accept you no matter if you're Alegria or not."

I nodded mutely as I took it in. I said my goodbyes to Old Quil, and Billy on the way out. Once I got out of the door, I saw Sam and Jacob were leaning against a tree few yards away. I guess they smelled me because they looked toward my direction immediately. They both smiled at me. It was only Jacob who walked toward me while Sam waited for me by the tree. I walked towards Sam, said my goodbyes to Jacob, and locked arms with Sam once I met him by the tree.

He asked, "How was it with Old Quil?"

I said with a smile, "much better than I thought. I don't need to worry anything about him."

He said softly, "Good..good."

He pulled me into am embrace and took a deep breath of my scent. I relaxed in his embrace and murmured, "I'm sorry that I made you anxious.."

He said lowly, "yeah..I felt your distress, but I couldn't come to you. But I am glad you are okay now."

I agreed, "yeah."

Since the guys took the truck back to our place, I asked, "so, how are we going back to our place."

Sam said in response with a smirk, "Do you want to ride me in my wolf form back to our place?"

Author's Note:

Im feeling better, so I sent another chapter. I have the next two chapters being done. I might send the next chapter by Saturday or later on Sunday. I am trying to keep my word with being consistent.

Enjoy!