Chapter 239: What Is It That You Really Want To Do?

As I walked towards Kim, the ladies who were sitting around Kim all turned their heads to me. There were three of them. I nor from Alegria's memories couldn't recognize them. Since they are in this bonfire, they are mostly likely in the know of the secret. Two of them where in their late 50s while one of them seemed even more older, but I couldn't guess how much older. They all were wearing a traditional Quileute dress, but all different from each other. I guess it's to show their personality. The older one had long braid on her right side, while the other two had their hair in a low hair bun. Nevertheless, the older one gave me a small knowing smile. She murmured lowly to the other two, and all of them got up.

I exclaimed, "Oh, you don't need to leave. You can stay with us."

The older one shook her head and said with a thick accent, "it's alright. I can sense you two need to converse without our interference."

I responded, "Ohh. Okay."

The second lady smiled kindly to me, reached out her hands to clasp my hands with hers. She said softly, "May the spirits bless you and Alpha Sam abundantly."

I nodded my head gratefully. I wasn't sure what to do here. Alegria never interacted with the people in the reservation besides Grandma Eva and Billy Black.

Then, the third lady gasped, "Is that a claim mark?"

She pointed to my shoulder where they could see my claim mark peeking out of my shirt. Everyone looked at my shoulder. The older one hummed in approval, "it seems like things are finally going back to order how it should be, right sister?"

The second one responded, "yes..we all were..anxious for the new alpha couple, but I can see that there is nothing to worried about."

Uhm..Not sure how to respond to that, but I don't want to be disrespectful, so I simply smiled tightly. Before I even ponder the underlying message from their words, Kim said as she looked each one of them, "Well, it was pleasure meeting you, Mar, Juniper, and Sage."

The older one was Sage, the second one was Mar, and the third one was Mar. Sage looked gave a slow, knowing smile, and said, "it was pleasure seeing the first pack child in this generation."

She looked directly to my eyes and said, "if it wasn't for the Alpha's mate, then we would've lost our first pack child and more lives would've been lost by that cold one. It has been an honor meeting you."

I nodded, and they all got up from sitting on the ground and walked towards the councilmen who were grilling the meats from the distance. I sat down next to Kim. She was sitting on a huge handmade blanket with Amelia sleeping away covered in blankets inside a handmade basket that was made from flowers and roots from some plant that I can't recognized. I guess Kim received this from the councilwomen. But, it seemed so satisfying to look at.

I turned to Kim, and she was smiling very widely at me. She said, "I see that you finally let Sam claimed you."

I responded shyly, "yeah.."

She leaned forward in eagerness, "so how was Sam? Was it amazing?"

Huh? I said with a frown, "Uhh..he only marked me..We haven't had sex yet if that's what you're wondering about.."

Kim gasped dramatically, "What?"

I nodded awkwardly, "Yeah.. He marked me outside of Jake's house this morning after stopped by at his place."

She stood there with a gaping mouth, then she started laughing hysterically. I asked, "uhhm.. what's so funny?"

She was wiping tears from her eyes and said, "oh, girl. It is going to be a struggle for you now."

I asked with anxiety slowly coming to my heart, "why?"

She said with a blushing face, "normally, they tend to claim you in the middle of sex because claiming is done physically through the act of sex and by marking you." She trailed off as she tapped a finger to her chin, "but..for some reason, Sam to only marked you so far.."

Then, I realized. Knowing the answer, but I still asked apprehensively, "what do you this mean?"

She sighed, "it means that he couldn't hold himself and his wolf spirit back from marking you to ease the anxiousness from not being one with you. It is a natural drive of a wolf when they meet their mate to claim their mate as soon as possible. It helps them to feel secured that their mate is theirs especially in the presence of unmated wolves. Even though the man knows their mate won't cheat on them, it still an innate fear of the wolf spirit. That is why, Jared marked and claimed me within days. For Sam..since he is Alpha, the fear and anxiety is even more intense..so it's a surprised that Sam have been holding back this long. "

She added sadly, "maybe that is why he accidently marked you without completing the claiming because He loves you so much that he is willing to be at odds with his wolf spirit for your sake."

I felt my face getting pale, and I asked, "But then, why is it so bad that he marked me without claiming me?"

Kim said with a half-smile, "because the next natural step is to have sex to be truly one, so you two would slowly start feeling the desire or pull to do it. Well, that is what happened to me. Once I got marked, I felt a strong desire to want Jared, and he felt it too. So we went at it almost the entire night on the day that I got marked including the time I passed out in the middle of sex."

Oh..

Kim asked curiously, "don't you feel it?"

I said in a higher pitch, "Y-yeah..I noticed it..but, I wanted to see if Sam was going to bring it up on his own, but he hasn't... no wonder Sam's touch and affection seemed different since he marked me."

Kim squealed with a hand covering her grinning expression, "omigosh. He's subtly letting you know that he wants you."

I groaned with my head in my hands, "I want him too, and I know he feels what I feel, so I don't know how to approach this with him. Not going to lie, It feels embarrassing on my part to be acting this way."

She laughed, "Embarrassing? No No, it shouldn't be anything to be embarrassed! It's natural to be like that with your mate. It's actually a good thing because it shows Sam that you want him too."

I see.. I asked, "But, why didn't Sam claim me immediately once we got back home? Since it's a natural step to do?"

She said giggling and loosely covering her mouth, "this is something that I learned by being with Jared. The wolf spirit loves to play chase with their mate. Most likely, Sam's wolf spirit wanted to push this as far as you possibly can. Then, also because as Alpha, he is the most possessive wolf. He wants to show the others that you are off limits from the obvious display of affection between you two during the bonfire."

That makes sense. I asked, "…did Jared do something like to the guys?"

She nodded, "Yup. Once he claimed and marked me, he kept on showing his affections towards me for almost good two weeks towards Sam and Embry. Sam got irritated by it, so he made Jared be off from patrol until his wolf spirit feels comfortable again with the rest of the pack."

I responded, "oh.."

Kim modded eagerly and asked excitedly, "but, how did the trip go?"

I smiled from recollection, "it was really nice. It went much better than I thought. I bought some things for our house to make it a home for me as well. I was able to spend time with Sam and get to know him a little more..There were times that it got embarrassing."

She asked eagerly, "oh, do tell."

I chuckled, "Uhh. I took Sam to Victoria's secret to buy some undies and bras for myself. He got stopped by the sale associates since the way he looked and how big he is, they thought he was suspicious. I had to step in for him even though I know he can handle himself. I just felt like I needed to. Then, one of the sale associates convince me to get this black laced lingerie for Sam since we noticed he was looking at it."

She squealed, "oh my gosh. That's so cute. When are you planning to wear it?"

I said with a blushing face, "uhm, I guess sometime soon since..the pull..and everything.."

I gulped anxiously and looked away from Kim. I was staring aimlessly to the ocean. I could feel my face getting red, and my heart was beating so strongly that I can hear it from my ears. At the point where we are going, probably tonight or very soon. I don't know, man. What if we do it tonight? Will he take it slow for me or go at it hard and fast? Is he going to be aggressive?

Oh, lord. Thinking about it, I am not too against him being aggressive with me. it actually sounds pretty enticing and nice. Is he the type who talks dirty during sex? Oh, is he going to expect me to talk dirty? What if I actual become a potty mouth surprisingly? Hell, I don't think I am gusty enough to pounce on him. Maybe it is because I haven't had sex with anyone now, so I don't know if I would like it. Maybe I should ask Kim.

I glanced back at Kim and said, "Kim?"

She was slowly rocking the basket to keep Amelia asleep. She responded softly, "hm?"

I asked, "Was-was Jared aggressive with you while you have sex? Do you know, they like us being submissive during sex?"

Kim smiled smugly, "Oh, he really was. I was not expecting it from him at all because he just doesn't seem like the type you know? But, he is something else when he and his wolf spirit gets aroused."

Noted.

Kim said knowingly, "You're getting really attracted to him aren't ya?"

I said quickly, "Yeahh, I mean I live with him. It would be bound to happen eventually, right? I mean..I was attracted to him, but…with everything that happened to me, it wasn't on my mind until recently…you know?"

Kim nodded slowly, "I can see that..your mind was so occupied that your attraction toward Sam was put on a halt..Once you start to manage yourself, slowly the attraction you had with him begin to come back little by little. Then, with the marking, it was like your attraction towards him just went from a snail pace to a cheetah in a matter of hours."

I don't know how, but I could feel Sam's gaze on me throughout my conversation with Kim. Even though he was playing football with the guys in the distance closer to the shore line, I could see from my peripheral vision, he would still occasionally look at me.

I didn't realize that I turned my head toward where Sam was, and our eyes met for a second. He winked and continued to play with the guys. I didn't know how to respond to that.

Kim said teasingly, "oh, I saw that."

I sighed and let out a groan, "gosh. I feel like I'm a pervert, Kim."

Kim laughed, "No you're not. Just go with your feeling. You keep approaching him with your head". She tapped to her head, and she pointed to my chest, "Listen to your heart and the bond. What is it that you really want to do?"

I looked at Kim blankly.

I…

Before I got the chance to finish that thought, I flinched from Sam's booming voice saying, "let's go. It's time for dinner."

Both Kim and I looked toward Sam. The guys were jogging toward the direction of the food, and I saw councilmen bringing trays of grilled meat to the table where the councilwomen, Harry, and Sue were all setting up to serve the pack. Sam came to me to help me get up as Jared was doing the same to Kim. Jared helped carry Amelia and let Kim walked comfortably side by side to him. I had my hands intertwined with Sam's as we went toward the food.

Once we got there, everyone were few feet away from us. I looked at the guys confusingly when I listened to Billy welcoming everyone to the bonfire. He said a small speech congratulating the pack for their hard work these past few months. Then, the councilmen and councilwomen made a toast to Sam and I and Kim and Jared. The guys cheered and clapped for us. I wasn't comfortable being in the spotlight, so I sticked close to Sam. He had me by the waist.

Then, Sam was the next person to speak.

He turned his head towards me, and he said with such devotion and love emitting from him, "all of this wouldn't happen if it wasn't for my mate. I can't see how I would've continued my life without her, and I am thankful that I am Alpha. The responsibility of an Alpha is great, but it has become more manageable with my mate by my side. I have tasted what it is like to have a mate, and I can't trade her for anything."

Even if there is a possibility that you could've been mated to Emily and not become a shapeshifter? I felt like I was hit tremendously from the weight of his words. Not in a bad way of course, but like I already understood how much I mean to Sam, but now, it feels like the depth of his love and gratefulness is just endless. When I already come to grasp to the meaning of my presence to Sam, Sam continues to surprise me even more.

I felt water building up to my eyes. I buried my face to Sam's chest to hide my tearful expression from everyone. I wiped my tears away from my hands, and suddenly, Sam gently picked me up from the waist and kissed me all over my face. It took me by surprise, but I welcomed it by wrapping my arms around his neck. I turned my head and with one hand, Sam pushed my hair aside to reveal my claim mark to everyone, and he kissed it boldly in front of everyone.

There were multitude of gasps, then the guys whistled. Once Sam put me down, I playfully slap Sam in the arm for doing that, but I was happy. When I turned around, I saw a confused Quil looking at me and everyone. He was eyeing everyone suspiciously, but he didn't say a word. He shrugged and went in line to get food.

I was observing Quil as everyone was getting something to eat. I saw that Quil was with Embry and Jacob. He looked happy even though he had deep eyebags. It was true. Quil was struggling to cope with not having Embry and Jacob around. I am glad to see that we were able to get these three together again. All of the secrecy hurt all of them, and it was time to put an end to the way we have been handling the secret.

We got to sit down, circled around the bonfire to eat together. I was sitting in Sam's lap as we ate. The barbeque that the councilmen made was delicious. It was like a huge bonquet. Sam finished eating first before me, so he wrapped his arms around my waist and dipped his head to the back of my neck. He was purring very lowly while I continued to eat with a blushing expression. I felt his lips on my neck, nibbling my claim mark. I inhaled sharply when he did it. I was not expecting it, but it wasn't unwelcomed either. I could feel him breathing heavily as he was nibbling my claim mark.

I don't know why, but every time he touched my claim mark, I would get jolted with energy and my heart racing. Then, Sam went to nibble me another area on my shoulder, close to my claim mark. I knew very well that Sam was leaving hickeys on my shoulder. When he was giving me a third hickey, I felt a shiver going down my neck, and I felt like I needed more. I want him to touch me more.

I shook my head internally. Stop. But, I was reminded by what Kim said earlier.

What is it you really want to do?

Fuck it. Let's roll it since I am feeling pretty mischievous. If Sam wants to play around, then I will go ahead play this chasing game with him. He can't get all the fun to himself. Let me show that just because I am his mate, it doesn't mean I can let everything he has been doing to pass.

What can I do? Hmm. Oh! I think I know. I thought mischievously.

I shifted my sitting position to grind against his crouch. Sam growled and nipped me playfully in my neck. I yelped in surprise.

He murmured, "you don't think I know what you are doing?"

I said innocently, "oh, what am I doing?"

He chuckled lowly, "you're going to pay for that later.."

I said in a mocking fearful tone, "Wow..I'm so scared."

I felt him placing his hand on my leg. I continued to eat slowly, trying to feel what Sam is going to do next. I felt him slowly putting his hand under the shorts up to my bikini. My heart was starting to race more and more in anticipation as he got closer to my private area.

Luckily, the guys were focused on eating to see what Sam was doing to me. Or maybe they did, but they aren't saying anything about it. Out of nowhere, Sam pulled his hand out. I froze.

What? Just like that? He is so sneaky!

I couldn't help but laugh loudly. I bend over to laugh. Paul and Jared gave me a confused look. I shook my head as I was trying to stop laughing. I turned my head to see what was Sam's expression, but I was given a quick chaste kiss on the lips. Now, that got me to shut up. I tiled my head to look at Sam, and he gave me a smirk. I blinked in response.

Then, I heard Billy said, "Alright. It's time for storytelling. Let's clean up first then we can start."

Everyone got up to clean up, and I got up as well to throw our trash out, but Sam stopped me. He wanted to throw them out for me, so I relented. I sat down in my seat waiting for everyone to get ready for storytelling. I was also anxious for Quil since he is going to be told the truth. As everyone got back to the seat. Quil, Embry, Jacob, Billy, Old Quil, Sam, and I were sitting close to the bonfire. While everyone else was behind us in the circle around the bonfire.

By this time the sun went down, so Billy began telling the legends. With the sky turning into night and stars coming out for us to see, it made the way Billy told the stories to become more mysterious and ancient. It reminded similar to how Bella described it when Billy told the stories.

Now, I was able to get what she meant because I am experiencing it myself. I glanced at Quil and he was sitting between Embry and Jacob. He was looking very attentively at the fire. He was registering what Billy was telling, but when Billy started explaining about the signs when someone becomes a shapeshifter, Quil's face got pale, and his eyes became widen from realization. I knew immediately that he figured it out. Quil jumped up quickly. Embry tried to reach for his arm, but Quil pulled up quickly. Instantly, Embry's expression became hurt and pulled his hand back from Quil.

Quil was facing back and forth before stammered as sweat was building from his forehead, "Im-I'm sorry. I didn't mean it like that. It's just.. so much to grasp. So-so all of y'all are shapeshifters?"

Jacob nodded, "Yes..Quil..that's why we disappeared…we didn't want to push you away, but we had to for your safety. We..phased, that's what we call it when we shift to a wolf, for the first time. We needed time to control ourselves before getting close to others again. "

Quil nodded slowly, but then he turned to look at Old Quil with a furious expression, "you knew, didn't you?"

Old Quil was looking calmly to Quil. Not even fazed by the tone that he was being spoken to. He nodded slowly.

Quil said bitterly, "why tell me now? I have been begging for answers from you Grandad. They were my friends; I know they aren't going to attack me!"

Embry said with his head down, "actually..because I was still new as a wolf, I accidently phased in front of my mom. Thankfully, she moved out the way..but it took a long time for my mom to feel safe around me. I didn't want to put you through that.."

Quil sighed and rubbed his forehead in distress, "I get it..but you couldn't tell me the truth? I could've backed off and wait until y'all were okay with being around me. You didn't have to brush me away so coldly whenever I tried to find you two.."

Jacob sighed, "no..we couldn't. We were told not to."

Quil said angrily, "by who?"

Oh no. Quil is getting angry. I could see that Quil was shaking in rage. He might phase here and then. Both Embry and Jacob got up, but they stayed pretty away from Quil. From their body language, I can see that they weren't sure the more they got closer to Quil, the angrier he gets.

Thus, Sam got up, sensing that Quil might phase if he doesn't try to calm Quil down and walked closer to Quil passing Jacob and Embry. He said, "me. I'm the Alpha of the pack. Whatever I command with the power of Alpha command, the pack must listen to what I say. I commanded them to avoid you as much as possible, because…the council believed firmly that the truth would be told only after you first phase and those who are in the pack and are imprints are allowed to know the truth."

Quil's jaw clenched and said, "okay, but why now? And what is even a 'imprint'?"

Sam stated, "Remember the third wife story? She was his imprint. There is a thing called imprinting where after a wolf phased, once they see the eyes of their imprint, they get bonded. The wolf is anything that the imprint needs. It can be friend, protector, lover or what we call it mate. Alegria is my mate. I recently imprinted on her, and she has the gift of precognition. She..persuaded the council to let us tell you the secret because she saw things in the future that what we were doing was doing more harm than good. Since you are close to phasing, we decided to tell you the secret, so when it is time for you to phase, you won't be thrown into it like all of us.."

Quil stood there until he said slowly, "kay..so what now? I am going to be a spirit warrior soon? I am feeling the heat, and only bit of the anger."

Old Quil nodded, "Yes.."

Quil's expression turned from anger to fear. I guess he realizing more that he is going to be one too. I couldn't help but feel for sad for Quil. Its not something that I want to experience. I did my best to stop from this reality following exactly from the book's plot line, but there is so much that I can do. It's already stressful enough that Quil is going to be imprint on a mere child. The spirits may become disappointed in me, but I don't care what they say. It is just wrong to imprint on a child. Its not right at all, and I will do anything to stop it from happening.

That is why Emily..needs to stay away from the reservation. I know that it was Emily who brought Claire down to the reservation, and that is how Quil imprinted on Claire. But, if Emily is not in the picture..What if Claire is not going to be imprinted by Quil? I need information..I need to talk to Sue and ask her about Claire before I do anything.

Some time has passed, it was deadly quiet until Jacob said sadly, "are we cool, Quil?"

Quil both looked at Jacob and Embry with mixed expression. It was a mixture of hopelessness, sadness, pain, and happiness. He sighed with a small smile, "yeah we cool. Im still pretty pissed, but I'm happier that I got you two back."

Sam stepped back to let Jacob and Embry get close to Quil. Those three hugged each other. It was pretty moving moment. I was glad things were able to get better for those three. For a moment there, I honestly thought Quil might've lost it and phased in front of everyone. Maybe we shouldn't have told Quil the truth so close to everyone..It could've put everyone in danger, but It didn't happen, so no need to stress more about it.

After that, we decided to celebrate even more. We headed toward the beach to get into the water. Kim stayed back with Quil, Embry, Jared, and Jacob. It seemed like those three wanted to talk more to themselves and Jared didn't want to leave Kim alone in the beach. I threw my shirt and shorts, and I ran toward the beach. I was itching to finally get into the water. I was immediately stopped my Sam.

He said behind my ear, "where are you going?"

I said cheekily, "uhh. Away from you?"

Sam dramatically gasped, "oh, you hurt my feelings."

I turned around to look at him, and he was putting his hand to chest. I rolled my eyes and said, "you be fine."

Sam chuckled, grabbed my hand and head toward the ocean. When I first get in the water, it was super cold, so I leaned closer to Sam for his hot body temperature. Over time, I was able to get used to the water temperature. Seth brought a volleyball net and the ball to play water volleyball. It was Paul and Seth vs Sam and I. Since I couldn't jump due to my braced leg, Sam would catch the ball for me, and let me spike without jumping.

It was amazing. I never played volleyball in the water before, but of course, Paul and Seth were winning. Nevertheless, we had fun. We kept playing until I saw from the distance, the council were putting up the tables, and Kim and Jared left the shore because the air got too cold and windy to keep baby Amelia out.

Sam shouted, "alright. It's time to go home guys. Go help the council with cleanup."

Seth took the volleyball net and the ball back to the shore while Sam carried me back to the shore. I was shivering from the cold, and I lost feeling in my legs from the cold. As everyone cleaned up and said their goodbyes, I wrapped in a towel and placed in Sam's truck before he got on and drove back to our house.

Author's Note:

Here is another chapter! I was thinking of splitting this chapter into two but decided against it. Also, whoever added me to the community for this story, thank you! I very much appreciated it. I also got one of my wisdom teeth taken out, so I might be a little slow with updating this week. I am pretty much drugged from the pain meds, but I promise to keep updating.

Enjoy!