Chapter 256: The Graduation Party Part 3
I told her, "Hey want to talk?"
She gazed at me with her big brown eyes. She was surprised from my forwardness. She nodded awkwardly. I head gesture Bella to follow me. We walked to the opposite direction of the party and the guys. Since Bella have been eyeing me throughout the party and she hasn't dare to approach me herself, I decided to take the initiative. We were walking side by side in an awkward silence.
I was waiting for Bella to start talking, and finally she spoke. She said boldly, "when I first was admitted…in there, I hated you."
..Uh..Okay? Where is she going with this?
She continued, "but when I was able to meet..Dr. Hale and his assistant Mr. Masen, I began to see it was all meant to be..I had to go in there to find a chance to get..the help that I needed..so.."
She turned to look at me and she said while biting her lower lip, "I wanted to say thanks."
I stared at Bella in disbelief. I was in shock with what I heard. ? as in Jasper Hale? as in Edward Masen. They infiltrated into the mental hospital? Is that they have been oddly quiet this whole time?
I broke out of my shock and stated as a fact, "so..the Cullens infiltrated the mental hospital."
Bella paused before giving a lifeless laugh, "huh..there really isn't anything I can hide from you. You already know.."
I stared at Bella, waiting for her to explain herself how and why the Cullens did that. Bella swallowed thickly and pushed a strand of her hair back of her earlobe in nervousness. She said while glancing away from me, "when..Alice saw that I was in there, Jasper and Edward decided to go in there too.."
She added hurriedly, thinking I might misunderstood, "they didn't do it to try to take me out of there. No..they actually went in there to help me."
Doubtful, I asked, "how?"
She said while looking at the sea, "you know how..I'm Edward's mate?"
I said, "yeah?"
She continues, "so..like how the wolves have imprinting to find their mate. Vampires find their mates too. Like how for the wolves, it hurts to be away from their mate. Vampires feel the mating bond deeply..so uh, usually when vampires find their human mate, they immediately turn them, but since Edward clearly didn't." She added the last part bitterly "Edward thought that he was the only one who felt the mating bond. He thought I wouldn't feel it since I was still human..but.."
She huffed, "I clearly did. That's why I fell apart when he left. Because I spent so much time with Edward, I began to feel the mating bond even while I was human without knowingly."
Oh…it makes sense why she fell deep into depression. However, it still doesn't justify her reckless behaviors, pushing everyone away and making Jacob as her rebound. I saw tears were building up in her eyes as the next thing she said was difficult for her to say.
Bella said tearfully, "since Jasper knows about the mating bond from the intensity of emotions mated vampires gives out and he got his degree in psychology, h-he and Edward sneaked in there to repair the mating bond between Edward and me. I did a lot of individual therapy first with Jasper. He pulled apart some of my destructive ways of my thoughts that was making the effects of being away from my mate, Edward, worse. Then..when Jasper saw that I became more emotionally regulated, he brought Edward in to do couple counseling with me. It was hard when we first met after for so long…." She was sobbing softly at this point.
She wiped her tears away and trying to not go off track with what she needed to tell me. She said, " It.. was an unknown territory for Jasper because he-he never seen a case like mine before, and seeing how I fell apart with-without Edward, Edward reluctantly was able to accept that I needed to be turned for my sake too."
The last thing that Bella said, it shocked me. She continued, "we were too bonded to each other for me to stay as a human mate for Edward. If he would have to leave even for few days, I would slowly start spiraling apart again because the mating bond was strained for so long. I needed to be turned so that the mating bond will recover."
This..that Bella just told me. This took a different turn from the series. Even though it wasn't the threat of the Volturi that pushed Bella to be turned soon, it was to restore the mating bond between Bella and Edward. Something that Meyers didn't explain in the series. Or probably, she actually didn't know, or it's something out of her control as this is an actual reality that I am in. Many things have changed compared to the series, but key important things still occurred. Bella was still needed to be changed.
Then, this confirms to me that…maybe the birth of Reneesme may just be inevitable.
But, what about Jacob? Is he still fated to be imprint on Reneesme.? That fate..it's just too cruel. He would outlive all his pack brothers and family. He is going to be alone. My heart felt heavy for Jacob. He isn't as obsessed with Bella like in the series, so I do have a small hope that he might avoid that fate. However, what else can I do to make sure Jacob definitely doesn't have that fate? If I do try to prevent it from happening, then what if I would be fighting against fate and upset the spirits? Would I be punished for intervening too much this time?
I sighed deeply.
This is a lot of information to take in. I sat down the sand and pulled my knees close to my chest. Bella did the same and sat down next to me. She would occasionally look at me to see my reaction.
After few moments of silence, I asked in a hollow-like tone without looking at her as I stare aimlessly to the sea, "what are you going to do now Bella? Are you going to get married with Edward then turn?"
She gave a contempt smile, "actually no. Since Edward had no chance to redeem himself to my dad since I was in..there, I-I am not going to have a public wedding. I will be going back to Port Angeles to finish the sessions toward the end of the month. Then, the plan is to tell Charlie that I will be going to Alaska to do some more sessions with Jasper during the summer until I start university of Alaska. The time that I am in Alaska, I will have a small wedding among the Cullens and Denali's. After that, I'll go in a honeymoon then get turned during the summer. I will be taking classes online while I am adjusting my new life as a vampire, then I will fake my death in a car accident…"
I winced the fact that Bella would fake her death and still hurt Charlie regardless all the planning she does to lighten the blow to Charlie's heart. It will still hurt Charlie. Bella glanced at me and said, "I know..it will kill Charlie, but because I had gone to college, I think it will..lessen the pain. He will have seen me 'go to college' after recovering, so I don't want him to live with the rest of his life in guilt for not doing enough for me. He also has the pack, Billy and Sue. I-I know he won't be alone while he grieves, and I trust that y'all will be there for Charlie."
Wow. Thanks for pushing the responsibility onto us Bella, I said sarcastically in my mind. Charlie is family for the Blacks and the Clearwater, so I know we will be there for Charlie. From the explanation that Bella gave, it seemed like this the good plan and cover she has for her turn. However, what if she becomes pregnant during her honeymoon like in the series.
Shit. My face grew pale from that thought. I immediately asked, "when are you leaving back to Port Angeles?"
She frowned, "I am going back in two days for the weekend…"
She added pestering for more information, "why? what do you know?"
I sighed, "some of your decisions will have specific consequences that will impact others if you don't prepare well in advance..I..will send you a letter with everything that I know and only you and the Cullens are allowed to know what it is contained in that letter. You can't ever let Jacob or anyone in the pack knows, or else we all be in trouble and their might be war.."
Bella's eyes were widened in terror. I didn't meant to be dramatic, but..when she decides to keep Renesmee, the pack will try to kill her and Bella while she is still human. The pack and the Cullens will go war, and war is what I want to prevent.
She nodded quickly, "okay, I-I be waiting for the letter. I will read it once I get to Port Angeles."
I nodded. Emotionally tired from hearing everything that I was told. I still had the lingering question of why Bella's telling me all of this and wanted to grab my attention throughout the party.
I asked flippantly, "why did you tell me all of this and wanted to talk to me?"
I turned to look at Bella this time. Bella looked down and said softly, "Edward told me to tell you everything.."
I asked, "why?"
She said slowly, "because..Carlisle and Edward thinks you're someone who has everyone's best interests in mind and you can keep a secret..I-I can't tell Jake about this..We were started getting better as friends again. I-I don't want this to break his heart. I already hurt him far too many now..and Edward wanted to know if there is anything else that the Cullens and I need to know before we move. Since you will send a letter about it, then I got what I wanted."
She put a hair strand behind her ear in nervousness, "uh..that's why I was trying to get your attention.."
I inquired bluntly, "is..that why Edward let you come down to La Push?"
Knowing Edward, I was surprised he was okay with Bella coming down to La Push. Alice would have seen Bella's future disappear.
Bella shook her head, "no. I actually wanted to make my amends with the pack before I leave Forks and..Edward actually respected and trusted me enough to go to La Push without him worrying over me."
Huh. I didn't expect that from Edward. I thought it took more for vampires to change. Then again, he only let her go just to get information out of me.
Bella pleaded, "would you let me tell Jake about everything later on? I didn't want to ruin his graduation party. He deserved to be happy for once and I didn't want to ruin it. Are you also going to tell Sam?"
I don't want to get involve between Bella and Jacob again. I thought about it, so I said slowly, "Yeah, you can. I won't say anything to Jake. Also, no..I don't think so. I don't think he needs to know." I personally don't think Sam cares to know. "He knows you are in contact with the Cullens so when he hears 'your death", he will know that you got turned and went with the Cullens."
Bella sighed in relief, "okay..okay, that's good."
I nodded mutely. Bella added, "thanks, Ale."
I responded lightly, "no problem..I like the Cullens. Even though they got some..faults, they are genuinely decent people regardless they are vampires. "
Bella exclaimed, "yes! I don't know how many times I argued with Jake that Cullens are not the enemy. They are actually good people."
I nodded, "yeah. Even though..they didn't chose to be vampires, they try to be more than what they are made to be and not give into their instincts. They aren't monsters. I know humans who act more monstrous than the Cullens.."
For the last thing I said, I looked away from Bella, "The Cullens and I are more like than you think, so it is..probably why I have a soft spot for them.."
Besides Bella, the Cullens didn't chose to be vampires. They try to make the best out of their lives. Like me, I didn't chose this life, but I am trying to make the best out of it. I understand..their pain of unable to go back of who they used to be. I'm similar that way. However, I was in no mood to open to Bella of all people.
Ah..maybe I shouldn't have said .
I quickly got up, shook off the sand from my shorts and said to Bella, "let's go before they try to go find us". Bella was slightly confused from me changing the topic, but she finally nodded. She also did the same and shook off sands from her dress She followed few feet away right behind me.
As we approached everyone else, I saw Leah with Quil and Claire. I heard Leah saying, "let's go, Claire. It's getting late. It's almost 10pm."
Claire had her arms locked with Quil. She looked back from Quil to Leah with pleading eyes, "Can't I stay a little longer?"
Quil eyes flashed gold for a second, but he asked Leah while pouting and restraining himself from losing it in front of Claire, "come on, Leah. It's Friday night."
Leah saw that Quil was getting tensed, but she still huffed, "no Claire..Your mom told me specifically to not let you be out so late, I don't want to get in trouble with her if she finds out . Not only that, you are also still a minor.." she gave a long pause with a strained expression , "But.. you can see Quil tomorrow, Claire."
Claire relieved that she can still hang out with Quil, she cheered, "oh thanks, lee-lee!"
She let go of Quil and hugged Leah around her waist while exclaiming, "oh, thank you, thank you!"
Leah tightly closed her eyes and said, " alright, alright. Enough with the sappy stuff. Let's go. I still got finals to study for."
Quil gave a small grateful smile to Leah and said, "thanks..for understanding."
Leah didn't respond and nodded curtly. She heads gesture Emily and Claire to follow after her. Leah went ahead to start the car as Emily and Claire waved goodbye to everyone including the elders. I looked back at Quil, and he looked like he was in pain. The first few days for the wolves are the hardest. Sigh. I hope things get better for Quil.
Then, I heard a honk from the distance. From the headlights of the truck, I knew instantly that it was Sam's truck. Sam and Jacob finally came back to bring the motorcycles, so I can compete with Bella and Jacob.
When they got out of the car, Leah and the girls were driving away. Jacob got out of the truck, and he froze. He sniffed around with his tilted in confusion before shrugging it off and helped Sam to bring the motorcycles. That's odd. Why did Jacob do that? Maybe he hasn't seen Leah and the girls before, so he confused with the new smells? I don't know.
Sam whistled everyone to approach them.
Author's Note:
Surprise again. I'm not sure when I will post the next chapter, but I will try to push one out within two weeks.
Enjoy!
