Chapter 264: The Truth, Jake
A/N: I swear Edward isn't Jake's imprint.
Bella , Emmett, Rosalie, and Alice were at their living room. From what I could hear while I walked down the hall to the kitchen, they were playing videogames. Once I got to the kitchen, I saw that Jasper, Edward, and Carlisle were leaning against the counter with Jake sitting at the very edge of their dinner table.
Esme helped me sit down from the opposite direction of Jake as I waited for her to bring my lunch. It was quiet in the kitchen. Jake was avoiding everyone's gaze, and I was avoiding his gaze as well. I guess it hurt his feelings because when he saw I was ignoring him, he gave me a heart-broken expression. Esme eventually came by to give me clam chowder and a side of salad for me to eat. It was awkward eating on my own. I seriously don't know how Bella be comfortable eating like this. I finished eating, and I straightened my back, rubbing my sore back from the weight of the twins.
I said while staring down my plate, "jake."
I heard him say, "yeah?"
I said firmly, "I need to know the truth."
I turned to look at me. Jake looked taken aback. He said feigning ignorance, "but I did?"
I narrowed my eyes and I stressed, "The full truth. I can see there are more to what's going on than what you are telling me, Jake. I'm not gullible. Does Edward have some dirt against you? Why..Why doe it look like you are following him reluctantly? You couldn't break away from the pack just because you didn't agree with Sam.. I know there is something more to that."
I turned to stare at Jake. He wasn't looking at me. He said sighing as he ruffled his hair, "Fine.."
He finally looked up with sad eyes, "you know how after the newborn fight, I have been..distant?"
"yeah..?"
"I know you know that I have been trying to let go of my wolf spirit.."
"yeah.. Sam and I suspected that you were trying to do so..How does that got to do with this?"
"so..I have been researching to see in the archives if anyone has purposely let go of their wolf spirit..but I ..found nothing."
Jake said it with such emptiness and grief. His expressed turned dark.
"I went to the elders even Old Quil to help me..but they told me that when it is time for me to let go of my wolf spirit, then the wolf spirit would leave me, so I couldn't force it to leave.."
I frowned. This is news to me.
He continued, "Old Quil said that the wolf would only leaves once they have fulfilled their role."
Ohh..now I see where this is coming from.
Jake saw my scowled expression and he exclaimed, "exactly, they were still pushing me to take on the alpha role, but its not what I want!"
He slammed his fists on the table as he was breathing heavily. Flickers of silver were seen from his eyes. He continues, "then…I started fighting with my wolf spirit…it made me harder for me to try to let the wolf spirit go..time and time again I went on spirit walks to push my wolf spirit out..but.."
He said bitterly, "it made it so much worse. My wolf spirit began to fight control of my body…since I couldn't depend on the elders to help me, I thought Carlisle and the Cullens would."
I asked, "..how?"
He sighed, "Bella told me once how old he was, so I thought he probably knew something..But.."
He trailed off with deep sadness to his voice. I finished his sentence, "you couldn't find what you were looking for?"
He nodded as he scratched his head. He said, "yeah..since he's a doctor, he prescribed me an antipsychotic medication, Zyprexa and he got it sent to Forks hospital. That way I wouldn't have to meet Carlisle nor the pack finding out that I am still in contact with the Cullens. The medication calmed my wolf and for a while it worked.."
It occurred to me. Is it that why the Cullens moved close to Seattle? Was it because of Jake?
Edward, hearing my thoughts, he growled lowly, "yes. That's right."
Jake frowned at him. Edward side-eyed him, "Bella heard that Jacob was getting antipsychotic medications. Because of how good-hearted she is, she begged us to move closer to Seattle to help Jake after her first semester in college. She wanted to do something for Jake before she turns into a vampire and cut him off from our life. Since Jake protected her while we were gone, we decided to fulfill the debt that we owe to him."
Edward hissed, "but it was our mistake to put our faith in this mutt. He manipulated her."
Jake slammed his hands on the table, and he roared, "how many times I have to explain myself? It wasn't me! It wasn't my fault!"
Emmett was immediately in front of Jake, shielding Edward from him. Emmett and Jake stared each other. Jake was trembling, but then he turns his focus to me. He looked at me frantically with wide eyes, "my wolf made me do it. Please believe me, Ale. When my wolf notice that I was purposely taking drugs to tune him out, my wolf starting to fight for control even more."
I asked plainly, "so you decided to be Alpha?"
He stammered, trying to plead innocence to me, "No! I didn't want to fight Sam to become Alpha. The pack was harmonious. Why would I tear the pack apart because my wolf wanted to be Alpha? Sam is a good Alpha!"
Things starting to make sense. I stated, "so you-your wolf, convinced Bella to move closer to Seattle to purposely create conflict in the pack, so you would have no choice but to become Alpha."
Jake responded bitterly, "yes.. but I of course, fought against that. I didn't want to create division in the pack..With how messed up my mind has been lately, I didn't want the pack to find out. After I argued with Sam, I left before the pack see anything else in my mind..but…"
I groaned, "you ended up as Alpha regardless. It was a calculative plan from your wolf. The only way you become Alpha besides taking the pack by force with challenging Sam for the position is if you purposely leave the pack."
Jacob said mournfully, "yes.."
I said angrily, "Then, it was you..your wolf that arranged me and Sam to run into Edward and Bella that day. You knew Alice can't see the pack in her vision and since Alice can't see Bella because of Renesmee in her womb, it was simple to start a fight between the pack and the Cullens."
Trying to piece everything together, I asked, "but what I don't understand…Did you knew Bella was pregnant before Sam and I ran into her?"
Jake shook his head frantically, "no! she didn't tell me, so that was surprise for me too. When Sam showed us the memories, I..then realized I made a very very big mistake. The Cullens were gonna die because I couldn't make peace with my wolf spirit, so I ran to the Cullens to warn them about Sam ..even though it was risking my life."
Edward jumped into the conversation with him growling lowly, "once he came to us, I was able to read his mind and see everything."
Jake didn't say anything as he hang his head, avoiding everybody's eyes. Edward sneered, "If it wasn't for the treaty and Bella's plea to save his miserable life, I would've rip his head off for endangering my family's life."
I felt like color was draining from my face. I was afraid of the answer for my next question, so I said, "..since this mess was Jake's fault..you told Jake to bring me here regardless I wanted to or not, right?"
There was silence in the room. Edward responded, "Yes.."
With how weak-minded Jake became from dealing with his wolf spirit and being forced to become Alpha, Edward manipulated Jake to follow their plan on how to survive. Now I am doubting whether kidnapping me was the only choice or not. What if Edward did it out of revenge?
Edward snapped at me, "no. I wouldn't dare bring another person into my problem with this mutt. Kidnapping you was really the only way for us to survive."
Carlisle warned, "Edward. That's not the way to treat out guest."
Edward stiffened and he said, "sorry, Carlisle. I momentarily lost control of my emotions."
I sighed and placed my head down on the table. I clenched my hair tightly with my fists. This was a lot of information. It was simply too much. I was feeling so many emotions. Part of me want to feel sorry for Jake..but
I whispered, "Jake…why didn't you come to me when you first were struggling with your wolf spirit?"
Jake responded after a long pause, "I didn't want to bother you."
I sighed exasperatedly, "that's not a good reason, Jake."
Jake spat, "okay, fine! it's because of Sam."
I lifted my head with a confused expression, "what about Sam?"
He rolled his eyes at me as he said, "Sam's wolf doesn't like me because he knows I am a threat to this authority, and if I go near you, then I will be constantly fighting with Sam.."
Jake turned away and said, "it was another tactic that my wolf tried to get me to do so I would have no choice to fight Sam and take the Alpha position by force.."
I was stunned. I said, "but Jake..if you had come to me from the beginning, we could've prevented all of this from happening. There might be a possibility that you would've fought with Sam, but Sam listens to me. Despite of his wolf, Sam would've helped you to be free from your wolf spirit. I strongly believe Sam's wolf would be reasoned at some point if the wolf comes to understanding that you were only around to figure out how to let go of your wolf spirit."
Jake was quiet for a long time. Jake looked down, and he said, "Well…it's too late now."
Damn, right it is. I am so disappointed and angry with Jake, but part of me wants to be sorry for him. All of my hardwork to prevent the pack and the Cullens from fighting, it all went down the drain because of Jake.
Jake said sadly, "and now..Bella doesn't want to even look at me. She doesn't want me to be anywhere near her."
I don't blame Bella for being that way. I don't want to be around Jake too.
I asked, just making sure, "are you..still in conflict with your wolf now?"
Jake shook his head, "no. he is actually silent for once now that I became a lone Alpha. It's actually scaring me of how quiet my wolf is."
I didn't know how to respond to that. I don't even have the energy to even feel pity for Jake, so I simply nodded. I turned to Esme who was beside Carlisle, "thank you for the meal, Esme…I think I want to be alone right now."
Esme said empathically, "of course, Alegria."
Esme grabbed my plate to wash it as I got up from my chair and slowly walked upstairs back to my room. I closed the door, and I slid into Carlisle's bed and I began to cry once more.
I just..don't know what to do anymore.
I fell asleep crying when I woke up with howling come from outside. I slowly got up and walked toward the window. There was a light by the front porch. I couldn't really see from how dark it was from outside. I notice close to the light, Jacob had phased. He was growling lowly at whoever was approaching the house.
Few moments later, I saw a wolf approaching. The wolf had sandy-colored fur, and it was much leaner than buffy reddish-brown wolf. He was whining as the sandy-colored wolf crawled towards wolf jake with his ears tucked down and lowering his head in submission to Jake.
Seth.
Author's Note:
I hope this cleared up some confusion! Just a reminder, Jake is not going to imprint on Reneesme.
Enjoy!
