On our walk to the front of HQ, I kept thinking about the talk I was going to have with Throttle, but I was also worried about what he could say or do. Especially, since I know his use of drugs and alcohol.
I also knew that Prime could feel what I felt right now. He looked at me and I looked at him. I saw the look on his face. He then looked to Ironhide and asked him to wait for us outside. Ironhide nodded and went on ahead of us.
Prime and I stood in the middle of the hallway and just looked at each other. It felt like forever, but in reality, it was only 5 min. He finally broke the silence.
"You're feeling conflicted, aren't you?"
I nodded my head. "I don't know what to do, Optimus. I love you both very much, but I can't bare to see either of you hurt." Then I looked at my wedding ring on my left hand.
Prime let go of my left hand and brought his right hand up and raised my head by my chin. He noticed the tears staining my tan fur. Seeing me cry made him want to cry, too.
"I don't like when you cry. It makes my heart ache seeing tears on your tan fur. I know its hard for you to decide who you want to be with. I want you to be happy with whichever one of us you choose. If you choose Throttle, then I won't get in the way. If you choose me, then I would expect him to not get in the way. I know you don't want to see him go back to drug and alcohol abuse."
I had shock written on my face as well as in my eyes. Was he really telling me to go back to Throttle? I had to step back a bit and really look at what was going on.
"It sounds like you're telling me to go back to Throttle just so he won't drink and use drugs. Is that what you're doing? What about Vince? He loves us so much. If he finds out that we're not together, its going to crush him. You really want to do that to our son?"
"No, I don't, but I don't want to see you unhappy with whoever you choose. I'd hate for you to be unhappy with me because you didn't go back to Throttle. I saw the look in his eyes. He really wants to get back with you. And I know you want to get back together with him. I can feel it in the bond. I know you can, too. Like I said, I won't get in the way. Go back to him, Wolf. He needs you and you need him. Have the family that he wants. Make him happy again."
"How can I make him happy when I know that you will be unhappy without me? I don't think I can do that knowing that I'm going to break your heart."
"I'll be fine, Wolf. I promise you. I will be ok with this. I wouldn't be telling you to go back to Throttle, if I wasn't ok with this."
"But Prime�" I was practically pleading with him. I didn't want him to leave me.
He started walking towards the front of the base. I couldn't believe what was happening. I watched him walk away from me.
I stood there with even more tears streaming down my face. My heart was already breaking. Despite what just happened, I pulled out my cell phone and text Vince. I told him that his father and I are no longer together. That he wanted me to go back to Throttle and have the family he wanted.
I was about to put my phone back in my pocket when it rang. I looked at who was calling me. It was my son, Vince. I answered it on the 2nd ring.
"Is the text you just sent me for real, mom? You're not just pulling my tail?"
"Its really true, Vince. Your father broke up with me. The only reason why he wants me to go back to Throttle is so he doesn't go back to drinking and using drugs. He doesn't want to see him relapse. So, the solution is for me to get back with Throttle. I love your father very much, Vince. I'm already heartbroken."
Vince could hear the shakiness in my voice.
"I'm so sorry, mom. I wish dad hadn't left you like that."
"I wish he hadn't, either. How do I tell Throttle? I know he's going to be happy that we're back together, but when I tell him why, he may not want to be with me anymore. I'm scared, son."
"I know you are, mom. I can hear it in your voice. Where's dad now?"
"Heading into the city with Ironhide. We were going to get some new furniture for your father's room. Guess he's going to pay for it all now, cause I'm not."
"Why don't you and I go do something then, mom? Maybe teach me how to play football?"
Even though he couldn't see my smile, he could hear it in my voice when I told him that I would love to teach him how to play football.
"In fact, let me text Vinnie and Modo to see if they would like to play, too."
"That would be cool."
I pulled out my Bluetooth and connected it, then text both Vinnie and Modo.
Modo got back to me, asking if Charley and Rimfire could watch.
I told him that it would be fine if they came to watch.
Vinnie got back to me shortly after I sent the text to Modo.
He told me that him and his twin sister are going to go back to Chicago. I wished them a safe ride back.
"So, it seems that its just you, me and Modo."
"That's fine. I'm just glad that you and I are doing something together, mom."
"Me too, Vince. Me too."
Just outside of the city, Throttle was on his way back to the Autobot base when he passed by Ironhide. He noticed that Prime was in the passenger seat and Ironhide was driving. He looked back in front of him and shrugged it off.
"It feels so good to be on the open road and with an old friend. I missed you, girl. Wolf kept you in excellent condition and she also kept you clean." He patted the gas tank lovingly. He missed riding.
Modo, Vince and I were out front of the base and having fun. I had forgotten how much fun it is to be with my son and friends.
Throttle had just pulled up and saw us playing football. He sat there on his bike with his helmet off and watched us get tangled up. Throttle saw Charley from the corner of his eye and looked her way.
Charley looked over at Throttle and smiled and waved. He waved back. He decided to get off the bike and walk over to where Charley was sitting with her son.
"Wow! I can't believe how big he's getting, Charley-girl. Did you and Modo ever decide on a name for him?"
"Modo named him after his nephew, Rimfire. I told him he could. Modo told me that Rimfire was only 20 when he was shot and killed."
"That sounds about right. When I saw him last, he was 18. Its nice to see Wolf having fun. She so needed it."
"Especially after what happened."
Charley looked at him with a perplexed expression on her face.
"What do you mean? What happened?"
"Prime broke up with Wolf. He told her to get back with me and to have the family I've been wanting with her."
"That doesn't sound like Prime. He loves her so much. Despite what we're seeing here, I know she's heartbroken. I know I would be, but I would also hide it. Which is what she's doing right now."
"Wait 'til you hear why he told her to get back with me. He doesn't want me to relapse and start drinking and using drugs. That's the reason why he told her."
"Other than your death, you've been sober for what, 6 yrs now?"
"That's about right. I really haven't kept track. Don't get me wrong, Charley. I love Wolf and I want to get back with her, but not like this. I want her to make the choice, not Prime. I understand why he wants her to get back with me, but she doesn't feel the same way. The bond her and I have is still strong, even after I had passed. She never stopped loving me, even after moving on. I think her and I need to talk."
"I agree, Throttle. Prime shouldn't make her get back with you if that's not what she wants."
"Exactly. Thanks, Charley-girl."
"For what?"
"Listening and for being the best friend a Martian Mouse could ask for."
"You're welcome, Throttle."
He got up and walked over to us. "Hey."
"What's up?"
"Can we talk, Wolf? I know what happened. Your son text me what Prime did."
I looked at Vince. "I thought he had a right to know, mom. I'm sorry."
I smiled at him. "Don't be sorry, Vince. I'm not mad." I looked back at Throttle.
"Yeah, we can talk. Where you wanna go to talk?"
"How about your room?"
"We can do that. How did she ride? Was she just like you remembered?"
"Yeah, she was. It was like seeing an old friend. Is she going to be safe outside?"
"Yeah, she'll be fine. Modo's out there."
My room. Throttle sat down on my sofa while I grabbed 2 root beers from my mini fridge. I popped the tops off and handed Throttle one of them. Then I came over and sat down next to him.
"I can't believe that Prime would make you get back with me. I understand the drinking and drug use, but I don't like the fact that he's making you get back with me. Do you want to get back with me or do you want to go back to Prime? I want you to choose who you want to be with."
"I want to be with him, but I don't want to hurt you or watch you relapse again."
"I understand that, but what if he tells you to come back to me? Then what will you do?"
"Then I'll come back to you and we'll try to work things out."
