Chapter 3
England.
When we touch down in London I get very excited. I have always wanted to see England. Taylor drives us to our hotel and I just can't stop looking out the window. Some of the greatest authors ever lived and wrote about this country. I just can't believe that I am here. I look over at Christian and he smiles at me and squeezes my hand.
" Are you excited to be here? We are going to have a wonderful time."
" Christian I am very excited to be here. You have made so many of my dreams come true. Over the past two years and on this trip. I love you so much."
He leans over and kisses me.
" I love love you too, baby. I will do anything to make all your dreams come true. I do want to tell you that I have some business connections here in London so though out our stay I will have some meetings to attend. I hope your not upset. "
I really don't know how I feel about that. I want to tell him that I am disappointed but, he has done so well not to work much at all. I know he needs to. So even though I am a little hurt. I know he his doing what he feels is best for us and his company. I smile at him and take his hand in mine.
" Baby, you have made this the best honeymoon of my life and I am not upset I understand and I know you would not be doing this if it was not important. I love you and I will miss you when you go to the meetings but when you get back we will make up for loss time. "
" Ana, thank you. Yes I only did this because the need is there. I promise you I will make it up to you. We will have plenty of time."
We are staying at the Ritz in London it is one of the most beautiful hotels that I have ever seen. The suite is absolutely beautiful. Christian has Taylor and Sawyer staying with us in our suite they have an area that is an extension of ours. He says he felt better with them being right here since he will be gone at meetings he wanted them in the same room as me so they would be right here if I needed anything. He always worries so much about me. I know it's because he loves me.
We decide to eat lunch and then go out and about the London scene.
" Ana would you like to order some food and eat up here or would you like to go downstairs to one of the restaurants and eat?"
" Maybe we could just order lunch and eat up here. I would like to soak in a bath and get ready to go out after and just relax. "
" Ok baby sounds good let's look at the room service menus and I will place us an order. "
While we are waiting for lunch to arrive I go and soak in the tub Christian gets on his computer to confirm his meetings for the week.
When lunch arrives I am getting dressed. I hear Taylor let them in and they take the food to the table. When I come out I see Taylor and Sawyer are out on the patio. Christian is no where out in the living area. He must still be in the study working. I decide I will tell him to come eat.
I knock lightly on the door. I know he wouldn't mind if I just went right in but I don't want him to think I just assume now because we are married he is going to have no privacy at all.
" Come in" Christian says.
I enter the room and he sees me and his eyes light up.
" Did you enjoy your bath?"
" Yes, I did. But now lunch is here and I don't feel like eating alone please can't you be done for today or at least a little while and come eat with me?"
"Ana of course I will come eat with you. Why did you knock at the door you could have just come in."
" I know but I thought you might like to know you can have some privacy. "
" When it comes to you I don't need anything like that. I will let you know or see anything. I don't need any privacy from you. "
" Christian, that is one of the sweetest ways I have ever heard someone tell another that they don't care if they want to be a little nosey. "
Lunch tastes very good and Christian seems very attentive during lunch. He can be so sweet and make me feel like I am the most important thing in his life and nothing comes before me. I can't help but smile while he is telling me that his meetings tomorrow are about his tele communications side of his business. Just knowing that he loves me means so much.
" Ana I have been talking my head off here and you have just been sitting there with a cute goofy smile on your face. Have you heard about anything I have said? "
" Christian I have heard all that you have said. I am smiling because I feel like I am the most lucky girl alive because I have you. You are the best man and I have you all to myself."
" Ana, I am not sure if you are as lucky as I am. But I am glad you were listening because I want to share everything in my life with you. So your not mad that I will be leaving tomorrow for some meetings?"
" I am not mad Christian, I realized that this is what you do to stay as successful and I understand why so I have decided not to feel disappointed when you have to work when we are on vacation. I love you Christian and I want you to know that."
" Baby, I know that. You show me in every way possible that you love me. Let's go out and see some of London after lunch. Then this evening I will prep for the meetings and tomorrow maybe Sawyer and you can get out some while I am gone. Taylor will drive me to the meetings. "
" Christian yes I would love that. What should we do or see first. We could go to the British museum or the Tower of London? I would really like to see that. "
" Ok well after lunch we will head that way. I would like to take you on the London eye as well maybe tomorrow evening. The view of the city is beautiful so I have been told. It will be a first for me. "
I get up from my seat give Christian a big kiss and then hurry into the bedroom to start getting ready. I am very excited to see some of the sites and just be with Christian. While I am getting ready he comes into the room and begins getting dressed and ready as well.
On our way in the car Christian and I are talking about some of the best places in England to see.
" Ana since I have meetings tomorrow. I would like to take you the next day to see some of the places that a Thousand s Hardy fan should see. Let me take you to Lowe Rockhampton his birthplace , his house at Max Gate, Dorchester has a state of him and museum is there you will like. "
" Christian yes that sounds fabulous. I would absolutely love that. "
When we arrive at the Tower of London outside on the grounds they are having an authentic joust. We stay and watch before going into the tower grounds. It is very awesome to see live. I have never seen anything like it before. I have seen it on movies but to see the whole thing play out infant of you is just amazing.
As we walk up a narrow staircase inside one of the tunnels that lead up to the armory I hold Christian's hand.
" Christian can you believe the history these walls hold? This is just so unbelievable. "
" Yes, it is remarkable. There are so many stories of the prisoners and people that were killed at tower inside it's walls and outside on it's grounds. "
" Do you think the jewel house has been upgraded at all? It just doesn't look as old as the tower."
" I am not sure but I am sure they security and how they protect the jewels has changed and has gotten better as technology improved. We will go see the jewels next. I know you will love to see all the items in there."
" I didn't really mean the security I imagined that got better through the years I meant the building. So ha ha."
Christian just smiles I can tell he is trying to hold back a smile. I love his smile it always just lights me up inside. This really has been the best trip of my life. He says he doesn't like to share me. Well, turns out I don't like to share him either. I really can't believe the other girls in his life never caught his heart. I am glad they didn't but I can't imagine some of them didn't fall for him. He is such a sweet and loving person. But, I know like he says they had a different kind of relationship. He always tells me his heart was waiting for me to bring it to life. Christian walks up to me ad drags me out of my thoughts.
" Hey come on lets see the rest and head over to the jewel house."
I take his hand we finish the touring the armory and then we head to what was King Edwards private chapel and bedroom. It is so amazing to see how life was for people back in the early years of the British Empire. The room was so small but very lavish.
Outside we walked across the grounds to the Jewel house. We head to the floors below. We walk through huge vault doors. There are many gold plates and silver items. One of the best exhibits is when we talk a moving sidewalk and it moves around some glass cases that house many Tiara's and other beautiful items.
" Christian I can't believe all these items. The jewels are so big and to think some of these are decades old. "
" Yes many of these pieces have a history that go back 100 years or more I am sure."
" Christian after this we should take ferry back and go see Big Ben and Westminster Abbey."
" Ana we don't have to see everything in one day. We are going to stay here as long as you want. "
" I know but those are some of the things I want to see with you first and tomorrow while you are working and I go out with Sawyer I don't want to see them with out you."
" Ana, I think you are a hopeless romantic…But that is what I love about you. "
" Well at least there is one thing. I love everything about you my cherished husband. I am so glad I have you. Now take me to see that big clock so we can get back to our room sooner. I want to loose myself in you. "
" That will be my pleasure Mrs. Grey. "
Big Ben and Westminster Abbey are even more beautiful in person. Since we are close Christian convinces me to go up in the London Eye with him. He was right the view is spectacular. Sawyer and Taylor went up in a different car than we did. Christian and I have ours all to ourselves. I can't help but pull him to me and kiss him with all my heart.
" Ana, What was that for?"
" Christian don't look like that. I wanted to kiss you and I can whenever and where ever I want to. I know you were thinking about it too."
" Yes, baby I was. I love getting my lips and hands on you all the time. "
After the eye we walk hand in hand toward the area of Trafalgar Square. Christian has made this whole trip so wonderful. I am so happy to be his wife. When we first met he told me that he wasn't romantic and it was so far from who he was. He made me feel like maybe this won't work out. But, as we dated I realized he was a romantic but he tried for years to barry that part of himself. He is a romantic and he has made me his princess and he has spent every moment always trying to make me feel adored. I wan to make sure he feels the adored to because he is my everything.
" How about we go and have a nice dinner before we head back to the hotel. I need to do some preparations for the morning meeting. "
" Yes that sounds nice a dinner and then I am going to read while you work. "
I look over at Chrisitan and he just doesn't look happy he almost seems disappointed.
" Christian, What why the long face? Did I upset you"
" Ana, no baby you didn't disappointment me, I hope I am not disappointing you. I mean I know you really would rather have me to yourself and no work. I am just sorry that I can't."
I stop and turn to him. I wrap my arms around him and put my head on his chest.
" Christian you have done nothing to disappointment me. You are making everything on this trip wonderful. Yes, you have to work and I have accepted that. It is what you need to do to keep your business going and successful. I have really thought about it since our trip to Aspen and I know that you love me and are working this hard to give me and you a long happy life together. I love yo"u for that and for marrying me. Please Christian I love you and nothing about you is disappointing to me. "
I look and he brings his face down to mine and we hold each other in the sweetest embrace I think we ever had. Cherished is how this man makes me feel.
That evening we are back in the room and Christian is sitting on the couch working on his laptop and I am in the bedroom getting a book. I put my hair up and wash my face and then I put on some pjs and go out and sit by him. He looks up when I come in the room and he just smiles at me.
" Hey baby are you to busy for me to sneak a quick kiss? "
"Ana come here sit by me and let me kiss you. I am never to busy for that. You come to me when I am back at work in my office everyday to give me a kiss. I will be the happiest man alive. I love you. "
" Christian I love you too. Be careful what you wish for I might just come with you to work everyday."
" Oh really well when I have some one come in the office for a meeting. You can always make me happy by hiding under my desk. Now that would be so amazing. "
" Christian Grey get your mind out of the gutter!" I try to sound like I am shocked and I fail at that big time. " I would never do that under your desk. "
" Oh Mrs. Grey don't try to sound innocent with me. I happen to know you would do that and you have done that in many more risky places than in my office under my desk. "
" Christian a true gentleman would never call a lady out on things like that. I mean I happen to know you have loved it every timeI have been on my knees no matter where we were you sir are no gentleman. "
" Ana I have never claimed to be a gentleman. You should know that. "
I smile at him and give him a sweet kiss.
" You are right Christian I would never say that about you. But you are very romantic and I love all the risky places you and I have found to take a moment and connect."
I cuddle next to him as he goes back to his research. I open my book to read and I just can't concentrate there is so many thoughts going through my mind.
I find myself thinking about back at home and what life will be like when we are married and home. Soon we will leave Escala and move into our new beautiful house. First we have to find some one to design the house for us. Then Elliot says he can get busy and have his crew bring it to life. Christian says he wants it to be just what I want. I have some ideas in my mind that I know he will like. I want him to have some of the things he likes. Like Italian Marble and beautiful huge windows to sit in a living room by a wonderful fireplace and look out at the
I want a beautiful large romantic master suite with a fireplace and large sitting area. I don't want Christian's office downstairs or across the house. I know he stays up late at night to work so I would like his office connected to our suite or at least next to it. I know he likes to be close to me and I love to be close to him. I want to have him as close as I can so I can sleep better. I hope that he will be ok with that. I think he likes to have his space. He would never say it but, I think he does. All his life he as been such a private person. I don't take it personally because I know that he loves me. So I won't be that disappointed if the office is downstairs. Elliot had told me after the wedding that we could put an music area in the bedroom and downstairs off the living room as well. Christian could have two pianos and he could play me to sleep each night. I thought that would be very romantic. I think that was Elliots way of telling me Christian will not go for his office with his bedroom. He says he won't want to mix business with pleasure. I hate to tell him but we have mixed pleasure in many places in Christian's office at Escala and at Grey house.
I finally start reading my book I find myself getting tired. I lay down and put my head next to Christian. He looks down at me and moves his laptop over to one leg.
" Hey baby lay you head here I want to have you lay on me as a pillow. If you are too tired you can go to bed. I understand."
" No I am not to tired. I want to be with you. I just got tired from reading."
He smiles at me and puts my hair behind my ear and starts playing with it as he reads through some papers.
I am awaked by a kiss from Christan. I open my eyes and I realizes we are not in the living room we are in the bedroom and the light is coming through the windows. I have no idea of how I got to be.
" Good morning Christian. What time is it? Did you bring me to bed?"
" Yes I brought you to bed when I went. It's about 7:30 Taylor and I are getting ready to leave in a few minutes. I wanted to say good bye and let you know that Sawyer says he is ready when ever you are ready to go out. I wish I could go with your. "
I sit up and hug him. " Christian I wish that too. But, I will see you this evening. We can have a nice dinner then. Please don't feel bad. Thank you for waking me. I would have missed seeing you off. Have a great day. Call or txt me if you get a minute."
" Ana, I will I promise. You let me know how your day is going as well. I will miss you every moment."
" Christian don't get a mushy on me now you will make me cry. Is there anyway I could convince you to get back into bed with me ? "
" Ana, believe me if I could I would I would be there already. I have to work. One day you will want a family so I have to provide for that."
" Oh Christian I think you do more than provide for a family. But, I am glad to have a husband that wants to do that for me and our future family. I love you so much and I will miss you every second. Now go to work before I just come with you. "
" I love you Ana talk to you soon. Enjoy the sites today and have fun. Keep Sawyer with you and just know I love you more than you will ever know. "
I start to cry and lean in and give him a big kiss good bye. " Have a great day I know you love me and that is enough for me I will try and have fun but my heart will be with you. "
He gives me one last hug and then he gets up and leaves the room. I hear him and Taylor leave so I decide to get in the shower and then I will get breakfast and talk to Sawyer about where we should go. I would like to go to the Queens art gallery the mule house and Buckingham palace today. Those are things that I don't think Christian would want to see. He really is not into the royal family. He doesn't think any family is any more important than any others. He has such a sweet and caring heart. He never puts himself above any one else. Even though he could but he is so down to earth. I think that is one of the main reasons I fell in love with him.
When I go out to have breakfast I see that Christian had made sure my breakfast was ordered and being chilled for me. It's my favorite greek yogurt and granola. I have to remember to thank him. He is always thinking of me and making sure I am taken care of. I sit down and begin eating and I start thinking about how I can take care of him. I know he wants me to stay at home and not work. He wants to support me and someday our family. I could stay at home and take care of dinners and the house. I could one day take care of the children too. Maybe that is what I should do for him. He wants me as his wife and that is what I want to be.
"Mrs. Grey do you know where you would like us to head today?"
Sawyer interrupts my thoughts. " Yes Sawyer I would like to go to the Queens art gallery, the Royal mules and tour Buckingham palace. If there is time still left I will see what else I would like to see. Does that sound alright with you?"
"Of course ma'am. Do you know about how much longer you will be? I can go get the car and bring it around?"
" Give me ten minutes just need to brush my teeth and then I can meet you down at the car."
" Sounds good ma'am I will see you down stairs. "
Sawyer leaves to go get the car and I finish my breakfast and head into the bathroom to brush my teeth. It feels weird to me because this is the first time in a long time that I am completely alone in a room or suite. Christian has had Sawyer be my personal body guard for so long I have forgotten what it feels like to be truly alone. I start to feel a little uneasy about going down to the lobby alone and finding him and the car outside.
I stop my thoughts and think Ana why are you thinking like this nothing going to happen. Christian is always over protective and that is all Sawyer is an extension of that. You will be fine you are a grown up. I grab my purse and phone and head out of the suite to go find the car. As I am waiting for the elevator a couple of people come and wait for it too. I step inside and move to the back so more people can fit in. I notice that they push the button for the lobby. I begin to wonder about Christian and how his meetings are going.
There are two men who are standing in front of me one turns around and looks at me and faces front again. He leans over to the guy with him and says something they both smile and laugh. The other turns and looks at me and smiles. I smile back.
" Ma'am, may I ask you a question?"
" Well seeing that you just did I guess you should ask me another one? How can I help you?"
" Well I can tell that by your accent you are from America. Have you ever heard of this man?
He pulls out a newspaper and shows me a picture of Christian. I am not sure how to answer that and with out Sawyer here I don't think I want to say yes.
" Umm yes, I have heard of himI believe he lives in Seattle and that is where I am from. He is very successful. I am not surprised he makes international papers. What is your interest in him?"
" Well apparently we have a mutual friend with him and we were told he was here this week at this hotel. He recently got married and we would love to snap some pictures of him and his new bride for the American papers. Just wondered if you had seen either of them here?"
" Well sir, no I am sorry I can't help you with that. I wasn't aware of his wedding or travel plans. "
After that they both turn around and I am so glad when the doors open and I can get away from them as fast as I can. I step outside and look around for the car and Sawyer. I don't dare turn around because I really don't want to know if the two from the elevator are some where outside too.
I hear Sawyer before I see him. " Mrs. Grey, Mrs Grey, over here or you can wait I will pull up. "
" No Sawyer I will come to you. " As I pass by a taxi I see the two men from the elevator watching me and they are smiling and I know right away they now know that I am Mrs. Grey and I get a sick feeling in my stomach. Ok I just won't tell Christian until tonight so he won't get all paranoid about the situation and worry more than I am sure he is.
" Saywer, do you know where Mr. Grey and Taylor are at for there meetings today? I mean incase I wanted to stop by and see them?"
" Yes, ma'am I have the address. Is everything alright you seem a little shodden up?"
" Yes, I am fine I think I am just a little on edge because I am with out Christian today. It has been days since I have not had him by my side."
" I understand ma'am no worries I am here and I will make sure nothing happens and I will deliver you at the end of day back safe to your husband."
" Saywer I know you will. I don't feel uneasy because of that. I guess I just like having him here with me. I know that sounds silly but, it's true."
" Mrs. Grey I was able to get us tickets to the museum, the royals mules house and Buckingham place as one package. We will be starting at the art gallery first. I got us audio guided tours of each. "
" Thank you sawyer I really appreciate you doing this. "
" Mrs. Grey it's my job but it's also my pleasure to accompany you today. "
Sawyer finds a place to park the car and we walk to the art gallery. It's a quant building and very beautiful inside. We get our audio headsets and we are told to follow the the audio it will direct us to see everything in the art gallery if we wish or to select numbers from the works of art to just hear about certain pieces.
"Ma'am I will follow your lead. I will not leave your side I promise. It seems very crowded in her today. "
" Thank you Sawyer but please if you see something that you want to go see don't let me hold you back. "
" Thank you ma'am but, I am working you are on vacation."
He smiles at me and we begin out tour. I hate that he thinks he can't enjoy a little of this place that he must always be working. I am mean he is in England and he was in France. He needs to let go and just have fun. But I guess Taylor would never do that so why should my body guard either.
There are so many beautiful paintings and sculptures that I could spend hours in here if I left myself. But, I don't want to take up my whole day and not get back to the hotel when Christian gets back. I wonder how long he will be today. I haven't heard from him yet so he must be in meetings all morning. I decide I want to txt him even if he doesn't get it until later. I want him to know I love him. So I stop a moment and get out my phone and send him a txt.
Hey baby, I am at the art gallery and I am thinking about you. I miss you so much. I wanted to let you know that I love you and no one on this earth could ever make me as happy as you do. Call me if you have time on your lunch. I would love to hear from you. I gotta go Sawyer and I are heading to the horse stables and then Buckingham Palace so I don't want to be too long here. I want to be back when you get back. Christian I love you never forget that. Love your A forever.
I see Saywer at the other end of this huge exhibit hall and I decide I will go and see if he is ready to move on to the next part of our tour. I turn and bumped right into a person who I must say was standing much to close. I look up and oh great its one of the men for the hotel elevator.
" Well excuse me Mrs. Grey. It is Mrs. Grey isn't it?"
" Yes as a matter of fact it is. Now if you would excuse me I must be going. I hope you gentlemen enjoy your stay in London. "
" Why would you try to hide who you were to us in the elevator? Why not let the world know who you are? "
" I am a very private person and I don't just go around letting strangers know who I am. You never asked who I was you showed me a picture of Christian and didn't ask me anything about myself other than did I know who he was. Now gentleman I must be going."
I begin walking away and in the direction of Sawyer. I am so glad that no cameras are aloud to be used in this gallery.
" Mrs. Grey are you alright where those two men bothering you?"
I decide to let Sawyer know all about the evaluator and the outside the hotel and now here.
" Well, that is troubling I better let Taylor know what is going on. He will want to make sure that all this doesn't happen again. It's my fault for not waiting with you instead of going to get the car. I will not make that mistake again."
" Sawyer please no don't say that it's not your fault besides I don't need to be watched every second of my life. They were just to nosey that's all they didn't do or mean any harm. I love that sometimes you give me space I am not used to this and I don't think I ever will. Let's go and see the carriages and then the palace."
When we are outside Saywer decides to call Taylor I sit down on the ledge of a stone wall as he walks little bit away and makes his call. As I am waiting for him my phone rings. I look at it and it's Christian.
" Christian hey baby. How is your day going?"
" My day is alright. I wish I could be with you. I really am missing you. Ana are you alright? Taylor gave me a message that says you and Sawyer were being harassed by some guys? I am so sorry you can't just have a nice trip and vacation?
That is why he sounds so sad he thinks I am not having fun because well people are curious about him. I have to let him know not to worry.
" Christian I miss you too. I wish you were here with me. But, I understand. Baby, I am not upset about those men and there questions. I love that I am married to Christian Grey not because he is known world wide and people notice him and I. I just love that I know so much more about you than the public at all. They don't know you like I know and love you. Baby, I am having a great trip. Please don't be down. "
"Ana I just want you to have the normal life you always had with a few perks. I feel that I am bringing a lot of chaos to it. Maybe I just am feeling this way because I am having to work and we are suppose to be on our honeymoon and I know you really don't like it. "
" Christian I am so glad I don't have the same normal life I had before you because. I think my life with you is more wonderful than anything. I know you don't want to work right now. I am not upset about you working. I am sad because I a can't be with you all the time but we can have another honeymoon and you can spend the whole time with me."
" Ana you always put my mind at ease. Thank you baby. I gotta go back to it now. I will call you later."
" Ok Christian Sawyer and I are off to see the Queens carriages and the palace. I love you more than you will ever know. I have a surprise for you when I see you tonight. Have a good rest of your day Christian. I love you bye."
When I hang up I don't see Sawyer anywhere surely he wouldn't have just walked away he said he was not going to let me alone again. I just stay sitting down maybe he saw I was on the phone and went to take a pit stop before we headed over to the other sites.
I finally see Saywer walking back to me.
" Sawyer where were you? "
" I stepped away for the moment so I could speak with Taylor and Mr. Grey in private. "
Oh I see they had to talk in private about how to keep me safe I am sure. I love how they all always think I am in danger. It makes me smile too because Christian is always making sure he takes care of me.
" Ok well lets head out we have other things to see. I want to be back to the room when Christian gets back. He seems a little down and I know will light up when he sees me. "
" Yes ma'am."
During the tour of the Royal Mules and the carriages I see a different side of Sawyer. He is funny and he is has a sense of humor that I never would have thought some one as serious as he seems could have. I am not sure if he saw how down I was getting as the day went on and missing Christian that he started making sure I was laughing. He made jokes about seeing one of the Royal horses was named Ana.
Out of the corner of my eye when we are looking at the carriage that is made of Gold I see a camera lens. I know its them and they have followed us and they are taking pictures. I am having fun and I don't want to tell Sawyer because I just want this it be normal so I ignore them. I am not sure if Sawyer had seen them as well but if he did he never said a word. I just couldn't wait to get to the Palace tour because I knew if they got in there was again no pictures.
As we are walking out of the stables I trip on a raise ledge on the floor. Sawyer catches me so I don't fall on my face.
" Ana, I cant have you hitting your face on the floor. If I return you to Mr. Grey less than perfect he will have my head and my job for sure. "
" Saywer I wouldn't let him I mean he should know that I am uncoordinated and clumsy but thank you for saving me. "
When we get to the palace the entrance has a metal detector and a an x ray machine for bags and other loose items. I feel like I am at the airport. But at the same time I am very excited to see the oldest working palace in the world.
It is very beautiful inside the pictures on the wall of past kings and queens are breathtaking to think some of them are over a 100 years old.
We walk through the blue room and the green room. It's all just so Royal and it's like a dream come true. We even get to see the room where Prince William was Christened. It was the Blue room I think. At the end of the tour we exist out the back onto the back lawn where so many of the royal parties and events are held each year. We see some of the Canadian geese that were given to the queen. We then walk the pathways around the grounds and look at all the trees and flowers. It's very beautiful. There is a little ice cream stand so we stop and get a small ice cream. We sit on a bench and eat and talk about the tours and what our favorite parts. Well I say we talk. But, really I think I do most of the talking and Sawyer listens and shakes his head. He has become his serious stiff self again. My paranoid self wonders if he has seen the photographers again and it has put him on alert. I decide I don't want to know. I am enjoying myself and I don't want to worry.
We start heading back to the car so we can go back to the hotel suite. I get a txt on my phone from Christian.
" Hey baby I hope the palace was all you had hoped. We have been asked to dinner tonight with the men I had a meeting with today. I hope you don't mind but, I accepted for us. Please when you get back to the room freshen up and find one of the beautiful dresses you bought and I will be there soon to get ready and then we will have a wonderful dinner. I have missed you today.
Love, Christian."
I smile and I am so happy to hear from him but a little disappointed because I didn't want to share him anymore today. But I am sure I can make it through dinner at least this time I get to be with him.
I text him back. " Christian, We are on our way back to the hotel now. Yes the palace was wonderful. Dinner out tonight will be great. I will get ready and I am sure I have a dress to wear. I can't wait to see you tonight. I want to hug you and never let you go. Love your A forever. "
Back at the room I go and run myself a bath. I am disappointed I hoped Christian would be back so I could have him take a bath with me. I can't believe how much I have missed him today. I guess this is how it will always be for me when Christian and I are apart he is my soulmate and I feel like a part of me is gone when we are apart. I sit in the bath and lean back and close my eyes and just think about what our new house will look like and what the future has for us. I hear the bathroom door start to open as I am relaxing.
" There she is my beautiful wife. Any room in there for me?"
I smile he is back and I have missed him so much. I turn around and look at him and smile.
" Yes, there is always room for you. Why are you still dressed. Come get in and hold me. I have missed you so badly today."
Christian quickly takes of his clothes and then he gets in the bath with me. He holds me very tight and kisses me. It starts off slow and sweet but I feel the passion heat up inside of me. I grab a hold of his hair and pull and sits up and puts me on top of him. I slowly slide down on him letting him fill puts his hands on my hips and helps me move up and down. I wrap my arms around him and begin kissing him again. I am so glad he is back. I hate being away from him. I feel the need inside of me increasing I know it's not long now I start moving faster and he matches me. We both find out release together.
" Baby, I have missed you so much. I never want to let you go. You make me so happy. Ana I love you. Thank you so much for marrying me and making me the happiest man on earth."
" Christian I love you so much. I missed you too. I am glad you are home here with me. You know how I told you I had a surprise for you. I want to tell you before we go out tonight. "
" Ok baby. Well do you want to tell me know. I am listening."
" Ok, Christian I don't want to go back to work. I want to be your wife full time and spend my time being Mrs. Grey maybe helping charities and causes but I want to just be there for you 100% of the time."
" Ana, I first want to ask if you are sure? I mean I know you love having a job.I don't want to take you from that. "
" Christian I like having a job but you are my life and I want you more than any job. I want to be able to surprise you at the office in the middle of the day to get up and cook you breakfast or eat breakfast with you in the morning and kiss you goodbye. Maybe ride each morning with you to the office. "
Christian takes me in his arms again and kisses me.
" Ana baby, You make me happy all the time and I would love for you to just be my Mrs. Grey and I wouldn't have to share you with anyone. So yes I can't wait for that to happen. But, I want you to know at any minute if you want to go back to work I want you to tell me. I will not be disappointed. I will support you in anything you want to do. "
" I know you do Christian and I want to support you too. Right now I just want to focus on you. But, I promise if there ever comes a time I want to go back to work I will tell you. "
He smiles and kisses me and he just holds me in his arms and we sit and just relax in the bath. He starts to wash me with a sponge so tenderly. I feel so loved and cherished. I would do anything for this man. My sweet romantic husband.
I decide on wearing my hair up for tonight. I wear a beautiful white dress that I got for the honeymoon. It is strapless and has a sweet heart neck line. I think it makes the girls look very alluring I hope Christian won't make me change. I put on just enough make up to add some color to my face. I leave a few pieces of my hair hanging down to frame my face and I add some curls to them. When I am done. I go to find Christian.
He is wearing black pants and a blue shirt and a black dinner jacket. He looks very yummy. He gets up and walks over to me.
" Ana you look so wonderful what a vision white you are. Are you ready to go? I want to show the world what I have and they don't."
" Christian you are so sweet now lets go before I take you and lock you in the bedroom with me for the night. "
Dinner is at a lovely restaurant in the heart of West London. We are the last to arrive and to my surprise none of them bring a wife or girlfriend with them. So it's me Christian and three London Businessman at dinner. I find the conversation a little boring and there is not much I can contribute to nor do I get a chance. Christian keeps holding my hand or stroking my leg under the table he knows that I am uncomfortable and nor really enjoying myself. I keep my arm around him and I am rubbing his back. He looks over at me from time to time and smiles I return the smile as well.
I feel relieved with dinner seems to be wrapping up. Then I hear one of them ask Christian if he would like to go and join them for a drink at one of there favorite night spots. Christian pauses for a moment and looks over at me. He excuses us for a moment.
We leads me to the lobby. " Baby do want to go for a drink? "
" Christian I really don't want to go for a drink. But, I know this might help you get the deal you are working on. I will be alright if you go. Taylor and Sawyer can take me home I will be alright. "
" Ana I don't want to do this to you. Baby, if I go I will only go for an hour. Are you sure. Why don't you just come with me just an hour?"
" No Christian please just go and don't worry about me. I will be waiting up for you I really just need you again. So please come home tonight wanting me too."
" Ana baby I love you and always want you. I love you baby. "
We head back to the table and Christian lets them know he will go but he is first going to walk me back to the car with Sawyer and Taylor. Sawyer and I end up going home and Taylor stays with Christian for the evening. He kisses me goodbye before he heads back inside to meet up with the three other gentlemen.
Back at the suite. I get undressed and put on Christian's t shirt and sit down and watch TV, I laugh because I think about how Christian would call it God awful TV.
" Ma'am would you like me to order you some room service? I was thinking about getting some chocolate ice cream."
" Sawyer thank you that would be wonderful."
I really don't think he wanted ice cream. He never eats anything like that. I think he is getting the ice cream for me because he knows I am feeling a little sad about Christian not coming home and going out. I won't tell him that I am on to him. He is doing a very sweet thing for me. I am glad I have Sawyer here to feed me when I am down and protect me when Christian can't be with me.
A while later Sawyer brings in the ice cream. He gives me my bowl and then he heads back to his room. I see there is a ice box that has the rest of the ice cream in it just incase I want more I guess.
As the night rolls on I see that it has been more than an hour since I thought Christian might be home. I am starting to get kind of tired. I lay down on the couch and turn off the TV. I quickly fall asleep. I am not sure how long after I fall asleep that I feel myself being picked up and carried to bed. I am laid slowly down on my pillow and I feel the covers being placed over me. Then I hear footsteps and the door closed. I sit up why would Christian not come to bed. I sit up kind of angry for a bit. I decide to go and confront him. I hear the TV on I find that weird Christian doesn't watch TV. I oped the door slowly just to look out in the living area. I see Sawyer sitting on the couch watching TV. I go and lay back down in bed. I guess Christian isn't home Sawyer must have put me to bed. I really don't know what to make of it. Or how I feel about that.
I decide I am tired so I am just over thinking this. He was just being nice. He is dating Hannah from work and he never is anything but professional. I think maybe tonight he just feels sorry for me. I mean it has been hours and there is no sign of Christian at all.
I lay back down and I find that I am now awake and I feel kind of heart broken. He didn't come home early and now it's late and I won't see him because I am sure I will fall asleep soon. Then tomorrow he has to go back and work some more. I know I told him to go but I guess I really didn't want him too. So it is partly my fault. I start to cry into my pillow. I don't want Sawyer to here me crying.
I stop crying for a minute I here Christian and Taylor outside talking with Sawyer. I hope he doesn't tell Christian that he thinks I was upset about tonight. I hear foot steps coming toward the door. I roll over and face the other way so Christian will think I am asleep. I here the door open and I can feel him standing for a moment and looking at me then I hear him go into the bedroom. I know I will have to face him tomorrow but for tonight I will let him believe I am sleeping.
He comes out of the bathroom but, instead of coming to bed I hear him leave the room and head back into the livingroom. I turn around and just stare at the door. What is going on? I don't understand why he didn't come into bed and hold me like he always does. I get up from the bed and I go to the door. I open it slowly and I see Christian, Sawyer and Taylor all sitting in the living area and they are talking. I sit on the floor with the door cracked hoping I can hear what they are talking about.
" Ok so today Mia and Kate's cars were vandalized and more notes were left. It seems some one knows that they told my family and myself about the notes. We need to find out who is doing this and why. Sawyer Taylor and I were informed of it today while you were out escorting Ana on her outing. We decided to tell you later we didn't want to alarm you and Ana. I want her to have a good trip. England is some where she has always wanted to see. "
" Sir if you don't and me saying. I think Mrs. Grey would really have rather have seen England with you not me."
" Sawyer I know she would but work is important for me to do. She understands that. I know she hasn't always liked my work ethic but I think she will enjoy this life style."
" Yes sir you are right excuse my bluntness."
" No problem I am just worried about my sister and my brothers wife. I really don't want to take my own wife back to the states because I would kill myself if anything happens to her. I feel like if she was their she would be the target not my sister or Kate."
I can hear the pain and fear in his voice when he says that. Right then I don't care about how late he is I need him to hold me because after hearing all this I am afraid to. I begin to cry and I get up and run into the room and crawl onto his lap and in his arms.
" Ana, baby what is it? Did you have a nightmare? It's ok baby. Your safe I am here."
" Christian I over heard you all talking and I am scared. I don't understand any of this. Why is someone going to such lengths to make you think that I don't love you. What is going to happen?"
" Ana nothing is going to happen to you or me and I will never believe you don't love me baby. Who ever thinks they are going to do that are crazy. I will not leave you alone ever. I am sorry we were out so late tonight. Taylor and I got stuck on the phone with my dad and Elliot for awhile and then I had to cool off I was so angry. Baby I don't know if I want to take you home ever."
" Christian we can't vacation forever. "
" Yes we can I can work from anywhere and now you said you don't want to work. So we just buy a home here and we stay until until home settles down. "
I just don't know what to think about what he just said I just put my head on his shoulder and I just cry and he holds me so tight. He, Taylor and Sawyer start talking again as Christian holds me as he strokes my head and kisses my head. He holds me so tightly. He whispers in a my ear a few times.
" I love you baby, don't cry Ana you are safe and you always will be with me."
"Sir, I think Mrs. Grey is tired perhaps we should talk in the morning and maybe she can sleep. "
" Your right Taylor we will talk more in the morning there is nothing we can do right now."
I hear Sawyer and Taylor leave the room. Christian stands up with me in his arms he lays me down on the bed and gets undressed and gets into bed and holds me in his arms. I am still crying a little and he just holds me and lets my tears fall. After a while I fall asleep and I can sense that Christian is still awake and I also know he is more worried than he is wanting me to know.
The next morning I can feel the sun coming into the room and I can hear the shower but I don't want to open my eyes. My head feels so heavy that I just want to sleep longer. I reach over to the other side of the bed.I don't feel Christian so I know it's him I hear in the shower. It must be so early and I know he was up for most of the night. I wish he could just stay here today and sleep in a bit more he just doesn't sleep enough. He always worries about me but, I worry about him.
I hear the shower shut off and a few minutes later Christian comes into the room. He sees that I am awake.
" Hey baby. I am sorry did I wake you?:
" No Christian I was waking up before you came in here. Can I ask you a question. I think we should just go home not move here and run from this. I mean I think our family needs us. I know you want to protect me but I feel we should go home and help. I will have you at home so I will still be protected because you will be there with me. Please can we go home?"
" Ana are you sure you want to go home? I don't want to take you away from our trip I know you want to see England.?"
" Christian I ca see England again I know you will bring me back. I feel like now we need to be at home with the people we love."
He gets in the bed and crawls over to me.
" Ana you are the most important person in my life I just want to keep you safe. But if you will feel better at home than we can go home. I won't let you our of my site when we are home."
" I know Christian and I won't let you our of mine. Baby. yes let's go home that is the only way we can help our familiy."
The next day we are on the jet heading back to Seattle. I will miss our time in Europe and just having Christian but I know we are doing what is most important.
