Chapter 9

The Replacement

I wake up feeling very excited Christian has promised me we were going sailing today and that first we were stoping by to see Miss. Matteo's designs and then I to can let her know what I want. I am not really sure exactly what I want but I have a few ideas. Christian and talked some this week going to and from his work about what we both wanted in a house. He wants big bigger than I could imagine big. He also wants to build a wing for Taylor and Mrs. Jones and than one for the others that Taylor will be hiring. One I have been told is my new bodyguard. I don't know how to tell Christian that I am not ready for that yet because he is very insistent that I get my own security back. I don't know why I am always with him and Taylor now. I don't need anyone else. At least he has said I get the final say on who we hire. I hear the bathroom door open and Christian comes out wet with a towel wrapped around him.

" Chrisitan, are we going sailing today?"

" Yes baby so you better get up so we can eat a quick breakfast and then go."

" But why did you shower I mean won't we get sweaty out on the boat?"

" We might but I didn't shower last night after our sweet love making you fell asleep in my arms and I just laid there with you. Now get up we need to stop by Gia's too."

" Ok keep your hair on Grey I am going. "

As I get up and head to the bathroom Christian swats by behind. It makes me laugh and smile. It's him and I love everything about him.

Then sun is out and it's a beautiful day. Taylor has stayed back today and we are going on our own. He has some more interviews signed up for today. So, Christian is driving us to Gia's.

" Ana, I was thinking if you would like to stay at home this coming week Gail and Ryan are there. IF you needed to go out Ryan could accompany you."

I am not sure where he is going with this comment had Ross spoken to him.

" Christian I really don't want to leave Gail alone if I had to take Ryan and I would really rather just be with you. I don't mind hanging out at your office. I like watching you work and I just like being with you."

He takes his hand and places it on my knee and quickly squeezes it and I see a smile form on his mouth.

" Ok, baby. I just wanted you to know of other options. I didn't want you to think I was trying to keep you locked up with me all day. I love having you with me."

I light up inside knowing that he was just thinking of me makes me feel better. Christian has always wanted me with him. I remember when we were dating how soon he started asking about me moving in with him. I don't know why sometimes I doubt him wanting me with him. I should know better.

I lean over in my seat and kiss him tenderly on the cheek.

" Thank you Christian for thinking of me. But, things are different now and I would rather be with you than anywhere else."

We pull up outside Gia's condo and after Christian parks he comes around and gets my door for me.

" Come on baby. She said she has a design done and some ideas to see what we liked or would rather change. Remember it's what eve you want. "

" Ok. Yes I remember. "

Gia meets us at the door and she looks so beautiful she dressed in a nice blue dress that maybe a little short for meeting clients with too much of her cleavage exposed and a necklace with a single diamond that draws your eyes to it as it rests right above her breasts. Her hair is just so perfect and she has diamond stud earrings in her ears. She looks breathtaking and for a minute I feel a little under dressed in my jeans and T shirt with no make up at all.I feel a ping of jealousy as she leans in and hugs Christian he he hugs her back and gives her a kiss on the cheek. She returns the favor.

She then turns to me and gives me a quick smile and hello and leads us into her dinning room where I see the plans are displayed on the way I am feeling right now about Gia was the very reason Christian didn't want to use her in the first place. He knows me to well. I quickly take hold of his hand while we stand at the table. He looks over at me and smiles and squeezes my hand as a look of concern shows on his face. I just lean my head against his arm and look at the plans on the table.

" I know you love more of the modern and Contemporary feel Christian. So like Escala and Grey house that is how I designed this home. I stayed away from the traditional warm styles as I know you have always voiced a discern for them. "

" Thank you Gia but, as you know me well this is Ana's dream and I want her to be the one to fall in love with the designs. I am not sure if she shares the same love for the modern look as I do."

I lift my head off of his shoulder and look closer at the designs.

" It's not that I don't think they are any good. I just was hoping for a more warmer traditional look and feel for our home. I mean like the Aspen home it has a more homey feel."

" Yes, Ana, I see your point it's just well this home will be a statement piece for Christian and I think it should be something people are blown away by. "

I feel for that moment she is trying to tell me she knows what Christian needs far more than I do and I really am not appreciative of it.

" Ana, baby, You want a home not a statement right baby?"

See lady he gets me.

" Yes Christian I really do. I would love something more classic and traditional. "

He smiles at me and looks at Gia.

" I am glad you have your client in mind Gia but, this time you are not working on a project for Christian Grey. You are working on one for Mrs. Chrisitan Grey and I she has a much different eye and taste for what she wants. Perhaps you could make this with more warmth and family in mind. After all someday we maybe bringing our first child home from the hospital here. "

I look at Christian and I am kind of surprised by his words but they make me feel kind of excited a home for us and one day a family yes that is perfect.

" I see Christian, well I definitely can do that. Why don't I do some work on it and bring the first draft by your office on Wednesday and you can let Ana review them and then let me know?"

She places her hand on his shoulder because I am standing so close to him I feel him tense up. As we turn so she can show us out. I think I see her hand brush quickly over his back side. But surely it doesn't because that would be unprofessional. It must jus the my eyes playing tricks on me because of how I am feeling right now. Christian would have said something to her if it did so I let it go.

Again at the door I get the quick smile and Christian gets the hug and kiss on the cheek. We walk out to the car and I feel my spirits have dropped a little. I hope the drive to marina will bring them back.

" Hey earth to Ana. You ok baby, you seem to have gotten kinda closed off. If going out on the boat has you feeling uneasy we can go back and do something else. Ok?"

" No, Christian it's not that. I am excited about sailing. I guess I was feeling a little less than adequate since our meeting with Gia this morning that's all."

" What do you mean? Baby, you have great ideas for our home and don't let her intimidate you. She was just doing her job and she knows my style well that is why she went in that direction."

" Ok, I won't but that is not really what it is. I wish maybe she knew you a little less."

" Ana what is this about? You must know she and I have only ever had a very professional relationship."

" Yes, I know that I guess I just get the impression that she would have loved to had more than that with you. She is a very beautiful woman the kind that would make for a good show piece for any billionaire."

" Ana, This billionaire already has a beautiful wife who is much more than a show piece. He is pretty much smitten by her and she owns him body and soul. You have nothing to worry about or feel jealous about. It has always been you for me and I will never want nothing more than you."

" I know I am just being silly. Let's go and have a great afternoon on the boat. I am glad that I took sailing lessons last summer it's been great just me and you out there together. "

" Yes I think so too. No more worries about Gia. She is just doing a job for us and nothing more."

Christian parks at the marina and takes my hand.

" Come let's take out boat out and let it just be you and I alone in the world for awhile. Next week we have enough deal to with let's just be us."

I know he is talking about meeting again with Flynn and the lawyers as they are starting to prepare for Jose's trial. That is something I want to forget about. I put my arm around Christian and place my hand in his back pocket of his jeans and walk with him to the Grace.

I enjoy helping Christian get the Grace ready for sail. He slowly drives her out of the mariana I stand between his legs as he sits in the captian's chair and he has his hands on my as I hold the wheel. This is one of my favorite things to do with Christian it just seems so intimate to me. He leans in and kisses me behind my ear.

" Mrs. Grey, this is our first time sailing as man and wife. I love you baby. "

I pull my hands off the wheel and turn around and take him in my arms and give him a kiss that could melt the icebergs if there were any. When I break my hold on Christian he smiling and looks of yummy.

" I promise you I will make time for more of that. But, right now I need to steer my boat but you stay close because i could use more of that kind of kissing. "

" I will hold you to it Mr. Grey. I love being out here with you. I feel like nothing can get us out here. I wish we could stay out here forever. "

" I know baby. But, I promise for now on no matter where we are you are safe. I will never let you out of my sight again. I am so sorry for what happened to you. I blame myself."

" No no Christian it's not your fault. Please don't think like that. I want to enjoy our Saturday out on the water. Please let's not talk about that. I want to be with you and laugh and talk about our new home and this family that you mentioned earlier. Maybe we need more practice on getting one of those."

" Mrs. Grey I think you are very good at how to get one of those. But, I will practice that with you anytime. You make me feel like no one else has and I love you."

Christian finds a nice spot and drops the anchor for a bit. The sun is warm and we put our bathing suits on he dives into the water and when he comes up he looks at me. He seems surprised that I am still on the boat.

" Come on in Ana the water will cool you off. "

" I don't think I feel like swimming right now. I will stay here and watch you. Please just don't go to far. "

" Ana come in. You will get to hot out in the sun. If you don't come in I am going to have to come up there and make you come in. "

" Christian you wouldn't force me to come in the water. I mean that just wouldn't be very chivalrest."

" Oh who said anything about that. I just think you need to cool off."

Before I know it Christian climbs back on the boat and grabs me and throws me in the water. I feel him jump in after me. In the few seconds that I am under the water I feel myself panic the water is nice but the darkness makes me think of places that I don't want to remember. When I surface Christian is smiling at me.

" There see don't you feel better all cooled and now come here I want to hold you. "

I don't say anything to him I just swim over to him and wrap myself around him. I think realizes something is wrong because his hold on me becomes stronger and he whispers in my ear.

" I got you baby. I will always have you and I won't let go."

I start to feel my eyes fill up with tears. I know he is just wanting to have fun today I want to too but my memories just won't let me escape. I don't want him to know that he will want to go home.

I find the strength to hold back my tears I let go of him and splash him and then laugh as I swim a little away from him. The surprised look on his face is so funny as he swims towards me.

After our swim he carefully dries me off on the deck and then picks me up and takes me inside to the main cabin. He gently lays me on the bed. I look up at him and smile. I know that he wants the same thing I need right now. I hold my arms out to him. He crawls over to me through my legs. He takes me in his arms and kisses me like our lives depend on it. I feel his arms at the sides of my hips as he unties the strings on my bathing suit. Before I know it he rolls over so I am on top of him and he is undoing my top.

" Baby role over I can't take off your suite when you are laying under me." I whisper softly to him. " Please Christian I need you naked. "

He sits up with me and stands up with me in his arms. When he does that I use my feel to take his trunks down. He sits on a the bed again and this time he lays back and I lower myself onto him. I close my eyes as I feel him fill me. His hands reach up and caress my breasts I arch my head back and push them further into his hands. The pleasure through me starts to spike as I move on top of him even faster. He sits up and begins to take my nipples in his mouth. I feel his teeth sink into one but the pleasure I am feeling out weights the erratic pain that flows through me. I am just about to come when I feel him put his arms around me and he manages to get up he breaks out connection and throw me on the bed again. He gets on top of me and takes my hands behind my head and takes me the rest of the way fast and hard. Memories of some of our first times flood my mind and he has helped me loose all my worries and just think about him. He knew exactly what I needed and I didn't even have to say it.

" Christian could we just stay out here tonight? I know that is not what we had planned but please is their anyway?"

" Ana, we don't have enough supplies I mean food for dinner or breakfast. I am not so sure it's a good idea."

" I know I just don't want to go back. I want to just be with you please."

" I can't say no to you. Ok we will try but if I think it's better for us to go home that is what we are going to do. Let me go get my phone and call Taylor so he won't worry about us. " He gets off the bed and gets dressed back into his clothes and picks up his phone and calls Taylor. I get up and get dressed to. I put out bathing suites back in our bag and put my hair up in a pony tail.

After his call we go back on deck bring up the anchor and sail some more. The sun is starting to go down and there is a chill in the air.

" I am going to go down in the room and get my jacket. Christian can I get yours too?"

" Yes, thank you baby."

When I am down in the room. I get a txt from Kate.

" Hey girl did you hear there was a third arrest in connection to your kidnapping. It was the owner of the house you were staying in. Apparently she is Alicia's sister and an old lover of Christian's. "

I text her back right away. " No I didn't hear anything like that but we have been out on the boat all day. I will ask Christian he just spoke to Taylor so maybe he mentioned it to him. "

" When will you guys be back Elliot and I were going to swing over and visit for a bit."

" We are staying out on the boat tonight. Maybe we could all do dinner tomorrow?"

" Ok well just let us know when you both are back then. Talk to you tomorrow. "

I grab the coats and head back out on deck.

" Here is your coat."

" Thanks baby."

" Kate and Elliot were going to come see us tonight. I told them we wouldn't be home so they asked if we wanted to do dinner tomorrow. Kate txt me when I was back in the room."

" Yes I am sure that would be fine. Is that what you want to do?"

" Yes sure. I think a dinner out with family would be fun. Did you know that the house I was in belonged to Jose's Financees sister? "

" Yes I did. Her name is Abbey she was an ex of mine. Many years back but yes I recognized the house whenI saw it. I had been there before. "

I drop my head and stare at my hands suddenly I know that Christian had been in the very room I was in with her and found pleasure. I know he has a past but, sometimes I don't like it.

" Hey what is it? She means nothing to me and frankly right now I am very pissed at her. She tried to lead me off the trail of finding you I think. She visited me the morning you went missing and tried to convince me that you were going to take my money and run. I didn't believe her but I can't believe she would do that to me and you. "

" I don't know sometimes I don't like to think about what you did with other girls before me. I guess I just feel jealous or like maybe doubt that you are finding what we do enough and fulfilling. "

" Ana, please don't feel like that. I find my time with you more pleasurable than any of the old times. You please me both in the bedroom and every where. I have so much fun with you no matter what we are doing. I don't want that old life I want our life. Yes one day I want to have a baby with you. I want to grow old with you and only you. "

" I know I guess sometimes I just need to be reminded of it. I don't doubt you Christian I just think of myself as lacking. You never give me anything to think otherwise I just let my head turn in the dark areas sometimes thank you for your reasurance."

" Come back over here and help me steer our boat. I want to hold you Mrs. Grey because never for one minute since I meet you have I every stopped wanting you or loving you. Ana just know that you complete me. "

While Christian is steering the boat I go down into the galley to see if what we packed for some food will make a good dinner. I grab one of the bags from the floor and notice it's a recycle bag from one of my favorite markets close to Escala. I never used these types of bags before one faithful friend and body guard told me how much better it was to bring in your own bags when you shopped.

" Mrs. Grey, I really think you save on plastic bags if you just paid the $1.00 for one of these bags and then brought it with you when ever you shopped in here. I mean it's not like Mr. Grey can't spare a dollar or two.?"

" I know Sawyer I just don't come here that much I would probably forget to bring it with me the next time I came to shop. "

" Here Buy two this time and I promise I will not let you forget it the next time you are going shopping. "

I have to look at him and laugh for a moment. " You know Sawyer your persistence sometimes reminds me of my husband. Maybe that is why there are days I just want to escape from you. "

Sawyer and I had a brother sister relationship from day one. I spent so much time with him he was one of my best friends in the world. He was always there for me. He never let me cry alone and now I will never see him again. Taylor is finding a replacement that will never happen you can't replace a friend I don't want another body guard. I just want Christian if there is no Sawyer I will never be safe again unless I am with Christian.

I start crying as I am preparing some turkey sandwiches I haven't realized how much I missed Sawyer. I will be lonely without him. When Christian was injured in Aspen I was up late one night eating ice cream and i was sitting in the living room crying. Sawyer got up and he heard me crying he brought me a tissue and another spoon and sat up all night with me eating ice cream and making me laugh and letting me cry. He always told me Christian would be ok and not to worry. He was always right. Like in New York it was better for him to be with me in the night clubs than with out him. I think Christian liked him a lot because he did is job and he did it well. He took my protection and safety very seriously. Sawyer knew that Christian would have expected nothing less from the person who was put in charge of me.

I just don't feeling like eating anymore. I just feel so lost and empty inside. I put the sandwiches in the refrigerator and go back up to Christian.

" Hey baby, what's wrong you look like you have been crying. Is there nothing for us to eat?"

" No I made some sandwiches. I was just thinking about Sawyer that's all. Christian I miss him so much. There is just no way to replace him."

" Ana, come here. Honey we are not replacing him. Think of it like we are just hiring some one new. I know Sawyer will never be replaced. I also know you too had a very special bond and I was so happy about that because I knew Sawyer had your back every second of everyday. I promise we will find someone you like. We won't hire anyone until you are ready to."

" Ok. I think I would just rather be with you and Taylor and not some one else."

" Ana I have told you that is fine with me as long as you need it baby. I am not in any rush. "

We both stay at the wheel and look out at the water for awhile in silence. The day begins to get dark. Christian finds a cove and drops anchor. We go down stairs and eat dinner at the little table. He tells me stories about when he and Taylor first hired Sawyer and how he was surprised to learn his main job was to watch after the boss's girlfriend. Taylor told him that his job of watching me was probably the most important job anyone could have in Christian's eyes because I was the most important thing in his life. Christian says Sawyer made him proud everyday because he took the job very seriously. Even on days when I would try and escape him it would stress him out but he was always relieved when I was back in his watch again.

That night I trouble sleeping. I don't have my sleeping pills that Grace had given me. Christian lays awake with me holding me tight until I fall asleep.

I am walking in a parking garage with Sawyer. He is just a few steps behind me as always. I see some men watching us from the right side of the garage. As we pass I hear Sawyer tell me to start walking to the car a little faster and if he tells to me run I should do that. I speed up and I also hear him do the same. From behind us both I hear foot steps too many foot steps.

" Mrs. Grey I need you to run for the car and don't look back. "

I begin to run but, I don't hear Sawyer running. I turn and I see that he is surrounded by the men who were following us. I turn around and still head for the car. I hear some one running towards me from behind.

" Mrs. Grey run faster ma'am get int he car. I glance quickly and Sawyer is running after me. Soon I see a man from behind him draw a gun. I yell out.

" Sawyer" but it's too late and he is shot laying on the ground.

Time seems to stop and I have no idea where the men have gone. I rush over to Sawyer and turn him over. I start to cry as I cradle him in my arms. He is is breathing and he opens his eyes. There is blood everywhere.

" Stay with me Sawyer please I will call for help. You have to stay with me. I need you."

" Mrs. Grey please you need to get to the car and go it's not safe. "

" Sawyer I am not leaving you. I can't leave you. Please don't leave me."

" Ana I couldn't protect you once and they took you. Please don't make me make another mistake and loose you again on my watch you have to get to the car and drive away. Don't make me fail you again."

" Sawyer you didn't fail me I left you and failed you. I should have waited and went with you. You would still be here if I did that. I am sorry. "

I hear foot steps and I look up and the men are coming back. I freeze I don't know what to do. They grab me and pull me away from Sawyer as I let him go his body falls limply to the ground. I scream out…..

" SAWYER! NO SAWYER"

I sit up and the tears are just pouring out of my eyes. Christian sits up almost as fast as me. He takes me in his arms.

" It's alright baby. It was just a dream. I am here you are safe. I am here."

The rest of the night Christian sits up with me and holds be and rocks be back and forth telling me it will all be ok. That I am alright and safe. I want to tell him I know but, I can't he wants me to one day have a new security guard and too feel safe and I just can't do that. I can't I lost Sawyer because I didn't listen and I don't want anyone else.

At sunrise Christian and I get dressed and head up to the deck to head home. He is so tired and I can tell it is hard for him to stay awake. The wind seems to be helping him it brings a chill to our faces. I snuggle up to him and talk to him and tell him stories. I make sure he stays awake the whole way home. He doesn't say much he just steers the boat. I know he is concerned for me.

" Christian thank you for letting us stay out here on the boat last night. It was very nice."

" Your welcome Ana, yes it was nice just to be away from everything wasn't it."

For the first time all morning I see him smile and he takes one hand from the wheel and wraps it around me for a moment.

Back at Escala Christian undresses me and tucks me into bed. He brings me a glass of water and one of my pills.

" Here baby take this. You need your sleep."

" Thanks you do to are you going to lay down too?"

" Yes, I will for a bit. "

He lays down but not for to long just as the pill hits I feel him get out of bed. I am to far asleep to turn our say anything.

" Hey baby get up. We have to shower and wash up for dinner with Kate and Elliot. I have a surprise for you as well."

" Christian did you let me sleep for the whole day? Did you sleep at all?"

" I slept some yes and yes I let you sleep. Come on shower with me. We need to get ready."

I get up and follow him into the shower. He gently starts to rub my shoulders and then he takes a sponge and starts washing me. It feels so nice to be clean. U take the shampoo and put some in his hair and wash it for him. We don't say much to each other while we shower but Christian seems to be liking the view and I do to. I put my arms around him for a while and just stay like that and he holds me for as long as I need. I let go and he shuts the water off and we step out and begin getting ready to go to dinner.

When I go out to the great room. Christian is in Taylor's office Gail tells me so I sit down and wait for him. Part of me hopes Taylor will drive us tonight I just want to sit in the back with Christian and cuddle next to him. Also I think Taylor being there may help me relax.

Christian and Taylor come out of his office with some one I have never seen before and suddenly I know who this is. It's the first of the interviewees they are wanting to me to meet. Many of them have never made it to the stage of meeting me. So I start to think they think he is a contender. Well we shall see.

I get up and walk over to Christian. The look he gives me tells me he knows I don't want to meet the person but to please just try. I decide ok for him I will.

Taylor steps forward " Good evening Mrs. Grey I wanted you to meet Mathew. He had his second interview with me yesterday for the vacant security position. I wanted you to meet him."

I step forward and hold out my hand " Mathew, nice to meet you. What is your first name?"

" Pardon me ma'am my name is Mathew Clark. It's a pleasure to meet you Mrs. Grey. Taylor has told he a lot about you. I understand if hired I will be in charge of your personal security. "

" Yes, well he is right. I am sorry Mathew most of the time I am introduced to the security by there last name. "

I drop his hand and take my place next to Christian, I am not impressed at all. He just doesn't seem to me like he could possibly have the photographic memory that Sawyer and Taylor both have.

" Mrs. Grey Mathew is going to accompany us out to dinner tonight. I would like him to see what an evening out would entail. "

" Ok well that sounds good. I hope you find it interesting Mathew. Christian should we go and meet Elliot and Kate."

I walk over to the elevator and wait for them to catch up. Christian stops and tells Taylor to take Mathew and go down in the service elevator and get the vehicle so he can learn that route. Then he comes and pushes the call button and we take the elevator.

" Ana, please are you sure you are trying as hard as you can with this? I mean you came across kind well less than welcoming."

" Christian he is an employee not a friend so that is as welcoming as I feel I need to be. Anyway he is the one who has to show me he is worthy of the job. I need to start this relationship out right. He must know I am in charge."

" Ana if I didn't know better I would think you are trying to make him feel a little to uncomfortable and unwelcomed."

" Christian he is unwelcomed. I have you and Taylor now for security I don't feel I need anyone else.."

" Ana ok, I understand, just see how tonight goes. Taylor says he is excellent at what he does and his credentials are excellent."

" Oh really ex FBI?"

" Ana I know what you are doing? But, no not FBI secret service."

I glare at him because I feel like he is trying to push this stranger on me. I don't feel comfortable with that yet.

" Fine well I guess that is good.I am not sure if it's as good as ex FBI but I guess. Does he like ice cream?"

He laughs at me and hugs me.

" I am not sure if Taylor asked him that. But, I promise to find out."

" Ok because I will not trust a man who doesn't eat ice cream. "

" Ok Ana, I know baby I know. If he doesn't like ice cream than we will send him walking."

In the car. I don't say anything I just sit close to Christian and rest my head on his shoulder. He holds my hand the whole way there.

At the restaurant it's so nice to see Kate and Elliot. I haven't seen them since I Sawyers memorial. Kate gives me a look when she sees Mathew walking in behind us.

" Who is that with Taylor? Elliot told me you Taylor was bringing someone else tonight as well. I just assumed it was Ryan?"

" That is Mathew. They want him to be my new security. Frankly he may be bette for Gail maybe I should consider Ryan for myself. I mean I know him already. "

" Oh I see Mathew is not your choice. "

" No I don't think he will work out. I mean he has light brown hair and brown eyes and he doesn't look tough enough to be in security and I don't think he likes ice cream."

" What ice cream? What does that have to do with anything?'

Christian grabs my hand at that moment and interjects into our conversation.

"Apparently number one on Ana's list of qualifications is an ice cream consouir. I don't think Taylor or I knew how important that was. "

I think they all start laughing at me. I for one don't think it's funny. I mean if a body guard won't eat ice cream than you will have to cry alone. They will never understand. I am really missing my Sawyer at this moment. He wouldn't like Mathew anyway.

" Christian I got a call from Gia yesterday she is very excited to be working on your home with me. I told her as soon as you all approve the plans we were going to make a plan to break ground. She also tells me that Mrs. Grey didn't seem to like the plans. "

" No Ana wants to go in a different direction. I knew Gia was quite upset but, really it's Ana's home not hers."

" Christian Kate and I are going to use the ladies room."

" Ok baby take Mathew with you please."

" I think we can find the bathroom ourselves. "

"Ana that is not an option. "

" Fine. Mathew could you accompany me and Kate to the ladies room please?"

He gets up and follows us through the restaurant he waits outside the door.

" Ana he seems to know protocol quite well."

" Kate I had to tell him to come Sawyer would have just gotten right up when we did. "

" Ana I am sure if he would hired he would do that. Right now he probably doesn't know what his boundaries are for tonight. Are you sure you are giving him a fair chance?"

" Kate I am giving him as fair of a chance as I would give anyone right now. You sound like Christian. I just think it's to soon."

" Ok Ana fair enough."

When we leave the ladies room Christian is standing in a corner on his phone. His back is to us.

" Mathew please take Mrs. Grey back to her table. I am going to stay with my husband."

" Yes ma'am. "

I walk over to Christian and put my arms around him. I feel him put his hands on mine. I lean my head on his back and just listen to him.

" Yes,I will be in tomorrow for 8:00. I know we need to get those contracts signed. Well I think we could plan a trip quite soon if we can move on it. Yes she is. I see but for right now that is how it will have to be played out. No I am sorry I don't see it that way at all. Well I am sorry to hear that but, that is something you will have to work through on your own. I will see you in the morning. Enjoy the rest of your evening Ross."

" Hey baby. Are you ready to head back and eat? Why didn't you go with Kate and Mathew?"

" I saw you here and I wanted to be with you. I missed you."

" Come here. I love you Mrs. Grey. "

Christian gives me a kiss and then we walk back to the table. I can't help to think that some of the conversation has to do with me. That's only because I remember what Ross said to Andrea last week when I was in the office. I will ask Christian about it later.

We sit down at the table and Christian leans over to me and whispers in my ear.

" Well it looks like he got Kate back to the table ok and in one piece. But,I know we still don't know about the ice cream question yet."

" Christian that really is not funny. You know I am not ready to say yes to the first person Taylor parades in front of me."

" Yes, Ana I know. I was just trying to make you smile. You seem so tense all of the sudden. "

" I am alright Christian please don't worry. Let's just enjoy the wonderful meal. "

After dinner on the drive home I sit in Christian's lap. I hadn't done that in so long it feels so nice. We spend the whole time tangled in each other's arms. His tongue gently exploring the inside of my mouth and his fingers gently playing inside of my panties. I want this man my husband and I wish Taylor would drive faster. I don't even give a second though about Mathew until we are back home. When Christian and Taylor tell him good night. I shake his hand and we watch him drive away. The three of us head up in the elevator together. I am little disappointed about that because I wanted Christians hand back inside of me again like in the car.

Once we are in the bed room Christian removes mine and his clothes. Then he lifts me on the bed and from under it he takes out the spreader bar. He tells me to lay back and I do as I am told. He takes both of my ankles and hooks them inside the cuffs. Then before I know it he clicks the bar and my legs are spread wide apart on the bed. He he then crawls up my body and finds with his tongue where his fingers left off in the car. It feels so good that I immediate cum around his tongue. Then he jumps up and grabs me a flips me over and pulls me onto all fours grabs my hair and takes me hard and looses himself in me.

I lay down flat and he removes the bar. Then we gets my pills and water turns on my bed side lamp and hands me the glass. I am very happy when he pulls me next to him be are both naked and this could be great for the morning.

Before I fall asleep I decide I should ask him about the phone call.

" Christian the other day when I was in your office. Ross said something Andrea about me being in the office and how maybe I was going to be a distraction and I should probably stay home. Tonight on the phone when you were speaking to her did she mention to you something about that?"

" Ana I don't want you to worry about that baby. I am sorry she said something like that in front of you. Why didn't you tell me?"

" I don't know I guess because I thought it if she really meant it she would talk to you about it. I really didn't want to be in the middle of that."

" Ana baby, I don't want to hurt you but I won't lie to you either. Yes she doesn't seem to think it looks very professional for me to have my wife with me. Well I really don't care at this time what it looks like. Tomorrow you can wear a suit and I am going to make you my assistant. Then she can say what she wants but you will be sitting right by me. That will solve that."

" Christian you can't just hire me so it looks ok. I mean that would make you sleeping with your assistant. "

" Well it wouldn't be the first time in a place of business a man slept with his assistant. Any way I am not into Andrea that way so I need to have you there as my assistant because that is one fantasy I want to play out."

" Oh Christian I can't believe you said that. Go to sleep tomorrow we will go to your work and you can try and hire me. But I am afraid you won't be able to afford me."