Chapter 17 Decisions

I wake with a jolt I look over and see Christian asleep beside me wrapped in the satin red sheet in

the playroom. He looks so yummy. He won the pool game again but, I am not complaining we

ended up in here. I really don't want to spend the whole night in here. My dream that I was

having was not very pleasant me in a playroom like this but not with Christian. I was tied up and

couldn't get away from them it was Jose and he had a cane in his hand. I try to shut the memory

of the dream that I just had so I lean over to Christian. " Christian wake up sweetie. I want to

back to our bed and sleep. I don't feel comfortable in here tonight." He has opened his eyes and

he is looking at me very concerned. He reaches up and strokes my cheek. " Hey Ana it's alright

let's go to bed in our room. Are you alright you seem a little shaken and you are very pale."

" I just had a bad dream and I was so happy to wake up next to you. "

" Hey baby come here let me carry you to our bed. I will never leave you. I will be here for you

always. No harm will ever come to you again. It kills me that because of Jose you feel afraid and

not so secure anymore. " He scoops me up and carries me to our bed. I wrap my arms around

him and lay my head on his shoulder as we make our way to our room. Christian lays me down

on my side of the bed then he gets in on his side. When he lays down I immediately snuggle

close to him. " Hold me please. I need you to hold me tight. " I can't fight my tears back as I ask

him to hold me. " Ana come here. Oh baby I hate to see you cry and so afraid. You haven't had

this kind of night for awhile. It must have been the talk we had with my dad that has stirred these

emotions in you. I am here for you and I will not let you go ever. " He tips my face up to his and

our lips meet. I open my mouth to grant his tongue access to my mouth. I reach up and touch his

face. When I pull away I look up at him and smile. " Christian please make love to me I want to

forget everything except us. "

Christian pulls my mouth to his and slowly begins to kiss me and his hands start to caress my

body and soon. I am lost in him and we are the only two people who exist in the world.

When I wake in the morning it is raining outside. I know the alarm will be going off soon.

Christian has to go into the office today so him and Ross can get ready for China. We leave

tomorrow. I lay back down and snuggle closer to Christian he takes his arms around me and pulls

me closer to him. He doesn't ope his eyes or say anything he just holds me close. Having his

arms around me means the world to me. Far to soon the alarm goes off. Christian reaches over

and shuts it off. He looks over at me and he smiles. " Good morning Anastasia did you sleep

well?"

" I did thank you. I always sleep very well when I am in your arms. " I smile at him and I let my

fingers tenderly stroke his stubble on his cheek. I then bring my face up to his and kiss him good

morning. " Do you have to get ready right now or do we have time for some morning fun?"

He smiles and looks at me and says " Baby I thought you would never ask. He reaches down and

begins kissing me very gently but it grows more intense. Soon his hands are sliding my night

gown up my body. He used his legs to part mine farther apart. He looks into my eyes and feel

him filling me up with him inside. I love him so much. I wrap my arms around his neck and my

legs around him. " Christian I love you. " He smiles and kisses me as he is making the sweetest

love to me. But it is over far to soon. " I am sorry to rush off baby but I have to shower as much

as I want to spend the day in bed just holding you I can't."

" I know Christian. I wish you could too. Can I come in the shower and wash your back? "

He smiles at me and says "I think that sounds like a great idea." Soon enough the shower is over

and as Christian is getting dressed I put on my robe. I will shower once he goes. I want to eat

breakfast with him first.

As we are eating breakfast Christian is telling Mrs. Jones some things she needs to pack for him.

Of course suits and ties, formal evening wear and jeans and shirts and the other regular items.

" Is there anything I should make sure to pack for myself ?"I ask him.

" Yes, I would think you may want to take some cocktail dresses and maybe a formal gown.

Other than that just casual items baby. This is your time to relax and just be with me. "

" Christian who is going for security? " I hope he can't hear the nervousness in my voice or the fear on my face.

" Ana don't worry we have Ryan and Reynolds and they will stay with you. I will have Taylor

with me. Here for Mrs. Jones she will have Prescot. Does that sound good baby?"

" Yes, it does thank you." Out of the corner of my eye I see Taylor enter the room and I know it's

time for Christian to leave.

When Christian gets up I take his hand and follow them to the elevator. " Have a good day at

work. I will miss you. "

" I will miss you too. Call, email or text me if you need anything OK? "

" I will. I am excited about getting away for a few days even though you will be working . It will

just be nice to be away for a bit."

" Me too Ana" He wraps me in his arms and kisses me goodbye. When he lets me go he gets in the elevator with Taylor and they are off. As I turn to go back to the main living room. Ryan

comes out of the office. " Mrs. Grey is there anywhere you are wanting to go today?" I think

about it for a second and then decide we should take Christian some lunch. " Yes, Ryan I would

like to get Mr. Grey some lunch and take it to him. Could get in touch with Taylor and let him

know it will be a surprise. But, maybe he can keep him from going out to get anything. "

" Yes, ma'am I can do that. We should be ready to leave by 11. "

" Thank you Ryan that sounds perfect." When I go into our bedroom Mrs. Jones is just finishing packing for Christian. " Ana are you sure I can't help you get packed?"

" No, it's fine I will do it. It will give me something to do to pass the time. I will take a quick

shower and then get it taken care of. Mrs. Jones would you mind making a lunch for Christian

and I. Something I could take to him for us to share?"

" Of course not I will get on that right now. " She leaves the room with a smile on her face and I

turn and get in the shower. After I am dressed I grab my phone to send a message to Christian.

But he has already sent me one.

Ana, missing you I hope your morning is going well. I look forward to seeing you tonight and spending the week with you and taking you to explore some of the best places to see in China.

I smile and write back.

Christian I am having a good morning. Missing you as you know I have never been to China so I

would love to see some of the places. But as I know you will be working so just having you to

myself each evening will be wonderful.

I grab my bag and toss my phone in and go see if lunch and Ryan are ready to go. Time to

surprise Christian with me and lunch. Mrs. Jones has the lunch packed in the picnic basket

Christian and I got in London. Ryan takes if from me to carry to the car.

Ryan parks the car at Grey House and we go in the front door. Security looks at me and says

"good morning Mrs. Grey is your husband expecting you?"

" No he isn't I was taking him a surprise lunch. Could you please not ring upstairs and announce me? "

" Of course I won't but you and your security need to take a visitor tag and sign in please. "

I sign first and wait for Ryan to sign in as I am I see people walking and getting off elevators.

As I am watching I see Gia Mattoe leaving the building. I am not sure if she sees me and I didn't

see which elevator she came from. I hope not the one that you use to get only to Christian's floor.

She would have no business to be on that floor. She may have a different client in the building.

Ryan and I head to the elevator and he pushes the button to call it. I really start to wonder if she

was here to see Christian. Was it a planned meeting? If she just showed up he will not be happy

about that. The elevator opens and I see Andrea sitting at her desk.

She looks up and seems surprised to see me. " Mrs. Grey, what a surprise Mr. Grey didn't

mention you were coming in today. It is great to see you."

" Thank you Andrea. It is good to see you as well. I am surprising Christian with lunch so he

didn't know I was coming. Is it alright if I go into his office now or is he in a meeting?"

" No Mrs. Grey his last meeting ended about 10 minutes ago. Go ahead and head in I am sure he

will be very surprised to see you. "

Ryan hands me the basket and goes and sits down in the waiting area.

I open Christian's door and he is sitting in his chair looking our the window. When he hears the d

oor he turns very quickly to see who it is. He looks at me and smiles a wonderful smile and is

out of his chair and next to me in seconds.

" Ana, what a wonderful surprise. I am so happy to see you baby. What have you got in here?

Let me take it we can sit at the table and eat. "

I follow him over to the table. But once he places the basket down. He wraps me in an embrace

and one of the most intense passionate kisses yet. It leaves me breathless.

" I wanted to surprise you with lunch. I missed you and thought it would be great to have lunch together. "

He pulls out a chair for me and I sit. " Ana that is a great idea. I am so glad to see you. Did you

drive here alone?"

" No, Ryan drove me he is in the waiting area. You should know by now that I mostly likely won't go anywhere by myself again. "

Christian looks and me and smiles as he is takin the lunch out to the basket. " Yes, I know Ana

but I must day one day I hope you discover your bravery again. I hate that they have taken part

of your spirt away from you. Not that I don't like it better knowing you are always being

protected but I just want you to one day be healed from all of this. "

" I know Christian Dr. Flynn and I are working on it. One day maybe but, I am taking baby steps.

I am glad that we are doing the deal and that maybe Jose will stop with all the stories about you

wanting this to be done. I do want my life and our life back to some normalcy. I have been

thinking though about some things. I was going to talk to you about it after the trip to China. But,

I might as well say it now. I don't want to go back to work. I want to start a family with you and

raise our children at home. No nannies just me and you as parents. I also want to be your wife

full time. I want to be there for you always and give 100% always to you. "

" Wow Ana I must say I knew one day we would talk about kids and how they would be raised of

if you would continue to work or not. But, first let me say I don't want you to think for a minute

you have not been a great wife and there for me. I think you are excellent at that job and you are

always there when ever I need you. I hope to do the same for you. I would love to start a family

with you and of course if you want to be a full time mother. I will not stopped you. But, are you

going to continue to work until then? I mean up until now you have never wanted to not work. "

" I know Christian but with all that has happened to me I don't want to give any of my energy to

anyone except to the people I love. I want to stop working now and just be your wife and love

you and be there for you. I want to be Mrs. Grey always. Do you mind if I quit working now?"

He looks at me with a smile on his face but he also looks a little puzzled like he is wondering

where this came from. He reaches over and takes my hand and says. " Ana all I want is you

happy and if you don't want to work now then that is fine. But, promise me if you ever want to

go back either after we have a family or before you will be honest and go back. I can't think of

anything better than having you there when I get home to kiss hello and someone to take care of.

But, I want you to know I am always happy for you to one day work again if that is what you

want. "

" Thank you Christian I promise to let you know if I change my mind ever but, at this moment I

don't think I will. Before I forget do you know why Gia Matteo was here at Grey House today. I

saw her when Ryan and I were signing in she was leaving. I don't think she saw me. "

" Yes, I know why. She was here to see me. She came unannounced she demanded from Andrea

that she let her see me. I told Andrea to turn her away. Apparently she wanted to come and

apologize and see about getting her job back. That is what Andrea said she said. It would not

have mattered because the new architect is brilliant and Mrs. Grey I think he is going to make us

a wonderful family home. "

Lunch with Christian was wonderful I can't stop smiling on the way home. I am so glad to have

Christians support on what I want to do with my career and family. But, Christian has always

been supportive of me even in times where he might have tried to steer me in a direction in the

end he always ended up on my side and letting me spread my wings. I get out my phone and

send him a text.

Thank you for being so supportive of me and loving me. I love you so much. Love, your A. f

forever. xxx

He responds back immediately. Ana I will always support you in everything you do. That is

what a loving husband does. I am very excited to have you all to myself and not having to share

you for awhile. I will see you tonight. Love, Your Christian.

Once Christian is home we have a wonderful dinner and I finish my packing for the trip. We put

all the luggage out by elevators because we have to leave very early in the morning. Christian

and I spend the whole evening together talking, about things like the house. He shows me the

plans that the new architect has sent over and they are beautiful. Elliot has agreed to over see the

final drafts and send them to us. But I love all that he has proposed and Christian does too. We

go to bed at about ten so we can be up early. Christian pulls me into an embrace and we get lost

in each other and I feel so loved and where I am suppose to be.