Here we go, I know it's been a while and I'm going to be real, I planned to just let this die, but every time I get a notification saying someone has followed and favorited, I just feel bad. Hope you all enjoy it.

Will I ever post this chapter?

Probably not

'One less loose end, Anastasia Hoshin has now been dealt with…'

[Subaru] "If I think about it like that then it sounds like I killed her!"

[Elsa] "Ara ara, Are you talking to yourself?"

[Subaru] "It beats talking to you, nobody is around so I don't need to pretend to like you right now."

[Elsa] "That isn't very nice, you can't say you don't find me endearing at the very least."

[Subaru] "Not in the slightest, whatever is going on with my head I will never let it get to that point."

[Elsa] "Fufu~ I will tell these times to our children."

Immediately Subaru paused and looked at her with a face of dread, having a child in these messed up times would put him in an extremely tough spot, not to mention it would be with her…..

[Elsa] "Oh? You look pale all of a sudden? Fufu~ you have the cutest reactions."

[Subaru] "Waitwaitwait! You're pregnant!?"

[Elsa] "hmm, I don't think so, but if you like we can try-"

[Subaru] "No! Ugh you have tasteless jokes, don't scare me like that again!"

Rolling his eyes at the giggling women, Subaru began walking faster towards their destination. As he did Elsa nearly instantly caught up and took his hand into hers, her warm slender fingers wrapped around his, and her usual dead smile was replaced with a warm one…

[Subaru] "...I'm only allowing this because of our deal…"

[Elsa] "Then why are you blushing?"

[Subaru] "I'm not blushing, it's just the sun…"

He wanted to hate her, it was only natural for him to hate her, so then why couldn't he? Inside it felt more like she was a stranger rather than someone who had done unspeakable deeds to his soul. Refusing to look at her, the youth faced away to minimize any interaction they had, yet he could still feel her eyes staring at him.

Even though he had many women in his life, he was still a young man and she was an attractive lady, his feelings for her had been reset so it was only natural he would feel a bit embarrassed by it.

'What is wrong with me?'

Not too long ago the two had left the hotel where he and Anastasia had sex, it was quick and his goal was accomplished, she would stay quiet about all the scandals. To solve his problems with such a dirty thing was becoming something of a trend with him, he both disliked and enjoyed it, he knew it was unfair to the already prominent members of his harem but as a man, it would be hard to say no to being with beautiful women.

'Does that make me a scumbag?'

Every hour he questions himself more and more, the isekai dream of being a harem protagonist was great on paper but now that he seems to be living that life he can see how troublesome it is.

[Elsa] "You seem extremely troubled."

[Subaru] "..."

[Elsa] "How can I win your heart if you do not give me opportunities?"

[Subaru] "No matter how I feel about you, that's not an option."

[Elsa] "Ara, you enjoy hurting me don't you?"

Scoffing at her comment Subaru only looked ahead as the sun beat down on the both of them. The two walked continued walking with Elsa continuing to tease the youth at every opportunity she could, deep inside she knew that he would never accept her and to a degree, she was okay with that, but to a larger one it hurt her, she was robbed of any opportunity of normal life, since birth and now was no different.

A lover, a family, all those things were dreams that may never come to fruition, she was given a second chance at those things when her name was erased from the world...Yet the one she wishes to become these things with was spared from the effects and remembers her every last deed. This was both a blessing and a curse, even still, she could not be 'Normal' and so her fate was always to be this way...At the very least she will enjoy teasing the youth and this new life.

[Subaru] "You don't look exactly content with yourself either."

Lost in her thoughts, Elsa was brought back to reality by the person who was on her mind, he had been staring back at her with a small look of concern, which alone began making her feel warm inside. Immediately Subaru could tell he made a mistake for worrying about her because her usual teasing smile formed on her face.

[Elsa] "Does that mean you are worried about me?"

[Subaru] "Ugh, No."

[Elsa] "fufu~ earlier you refused to look at me but here you are holding my hand and looking back to see if I was keeping up…"

[Subaru] "...Oi, I know that look quit it."

Ripping his hand away from hers, the youth continued onward while the black-haired woman pouted as she followed behind. Even though he was annoyed at her, he continued to occasionally look behind to see if she was there…

It was enough to satisfy her. Just enough.

With a warm smile on her face, the voluptuous woman continued with the dreams in her head and confidence in her step as soon they both arrived at Crusch's manor.

Subaru could feel fatigue begin to fill him as he saw the gates in view. Not only that but a sense of relief that he will finally be with those he truly loves.

[Elsa] "It seems our walk has come to an end, what a shame."

[Subaru] "You say a shame but it's more like a blessing."

[Elsa] "Ara, that's rather rude, I have feelings too."

His immediate reaction would have been to apologize but…

'Am I the mean one? Does she deserve any sympathy?... I need a mind-clearing Emilia-tan lap pillow.'

[Subaru] "Maybe, but I probably have a few mental scars that make me not want to believe that."

[Elsa] "Is that so? We've only fought once and it has been more than 2 months since we last met, of course, I will never be able to forget when you came into that cabin and-"

[Subaru] "You don't need to go into detail!"

[Elsa] "Fufu~ still those two times shouldn't be enough for so much hostility."

[Subaru] "...It's not easy to forget almost being killed"

Being directly questioned about the nonsense he usually says was a shocking enough thing, how could he explain what he went through without revealing return by death? He couldn't…

[Subaru] "I'm a weak guy, I get scared easily…"

[Elsa] "hmm, there is something special about your eyes, you claim to be weak and while that may be true there is something frightening and strong inside you, A part of me despises it and another..."

[Subaru] "Thanks?"

Trying to avoid her gaze, Subaru turned away from the woman but as he did she suddenly closed the distance between them and got close to his face, so close that they were nearly touching foreheads.

[Elsa] "Fufu~ it's that frightening thing inside you that makes me want to take you…"

Her usual dead eyes seemed to sparkle with something dangerous and her cheeks turned a shade of red that he could only recognize from the heat of passion. He could feel her breath danced on his lips as she slowly got closer, he wanted to move but it was almost like his body refused, not from fear or nervousness but something inside him said to let this happen.

Elsa expected him to move away but when he remained unmoving as she advanced, her heart couldn't help but flutter with passion. Moving her hands up, the former assassin gently caressed the youth's cheek as she slowly brought her face up to meet his lips. Unlike the few times they kissed before, this wasn't aggressive, nor was it hungry, as her lips met his there was gentleness.

It was almost off-putting, a woman like her who seemed to do as she pleases and gets what she wants, someone who had hurt him so many times in the past was now touching him like an angel…

[Elsa] "mmhm~ This felt better than those other times…"

Breaking the kiss with as much gentleness as she started it with, the black-haired woman backed off slightly to observe the conflicted expression that the youth wore.

[Elsa] "Fufu~ Once we return you will have other matters at hand, I just wished to get in my last kiss before you get too busy."

[Subaru] "What do you mean?"

[Elsa] "Ara? I was sure the purple-haired girl was the last one you were supposed to meet with, isn't your time here done?"

[Subaru] "...Yeah, but how do you know that?"

[Elsa] "My contact told me a lot about you, a very nasty man for sure, I might need to take action if he is after my beloved."

[Subaru] "What do you mean if!? It sounds like he is!"

[Elsa] "hmm, I will take care of it when I have the chance, we should go since you have others waiting."

'Did I just order someone's death?!'

As she said those words Elsa began walking towards the gates of Crusch's manor with Subaru in hand. He wasn't reluctant but he was extremely conflicted, as he solved his problems new issues arise, it was beginning to become tiring…

Not even a day ago he hated every ounce of this lady but now he couldn't be any more confused.

[Subaru] "Why do you even stick around?"

[Elsa] "Ara? Is it not obvious? I wish to be with my beloved."

As obvious as it may be, he just couldn't understand her….

With no more banter, the two continued to walk in silence as the gates of the mansion came closer. Every new interaction with her left him more conflicted than before…

he already had others he needed to worry about, she couldn't be one of them, that is what he decided…

Yet, was she someone capable of change? Even if she was a crazy assassin she didn't seem like that a moment ago? The thought was beginning to drive him crazy as the two continued through the gates…

It was beginning to feel problematic, he was already solving all of them and if new ones begin to form, they will only pile up once more. Although this time it was different, the said problem was happening right in front of him so all he had to do was…

[Subaru] "Do you want to have sex?"

It was such an extreme and sudden question that even the stale Elsa stopped in her tracks and stared at him with a slightly surprised expression

[Elsa] "Ara ara? Have you finally fallen for me?...hmm"

Her face went from surprised to skeptical, her dark purple eyes stared deep into his. It wasn't just looking him in the eyes, she seemed to be looking for something. Subaru stood there unsure of what to do, he had figured she would have agreed to it without thinking twice and the problem would be done with but…

[Elsa] "hmm, It seems not, that's a shame, you had my hopes up for a moment."

With a face that said "Oh well" Elsa turned back around and continued walking towards the mansion, only for her hand to be grabbed and she had to stop once again.

[Subaru] "Wait...so you don't want to?..."

[Elsa] "It's not that I don't want to, if you are completely insistent then I would love to but."

[Subaru] "but?"

He thought this would be the end of it but he was proven wrong. Before, all he needed to do was this so why?

[Elsa] "You don't have that look."

[Subaru] "That look?"

[Elsa] "Yes that look, you don't look at me with the kind of love and affection that you see the others with."

It didn't make sense.

[Subaru] "...wha-"

[Elsa] "As much as I want to become one with you again, I wish to do it once you have that look, only then I will know that you've finally accepted me."

He didn't want to believe it, if he just slept with her then it would be fine right? That's what he thought and that's what he hoped. Yet for whatever reason he ran into a wall, it didn't make sense, can she change? It didn't make sense, was he upset that she didn't say yes?

[Subaru] "I uh…."

That wasn't the case he didn't even want to do it with her in the first place...so why? It should be the solution, right?

[Elsa] "You didn't want to do it right? You already have a bad impression of me, When we become one again I wish that it is something that you want to do and that you will look at me with those same eyes you look at the others with."

[Subaru] "..."

When did she become like this? Never before had Subaru thought she was capable of being compassionate….

His go-to solution wasn't working and the person he thought he understood was making no sense, the whole thing was stressing him out more than it should have yet he couldn't understand why.

[Elsa] "Don't look so distraught, if you truly want to do it then it would be wrong of me to deny my lover."

[Subaru] "...I..no.."

'What did I want?'

There the two stood with a light breeze blowing around them and manipulating their hair. Elsa had been staring at the youth with her usual dead smile except it had a subtle warmth to it. Subaru on the other hand had been staring into her eyes yet his mind was nowhere near the scene...

[?] "Subaru!"

Out of the corner of his eye and behind the black-haired woman, was a nearly glowing half-elf with a wide smile that was running towards him at a speed that wouldn't be safe on collision.

Usually, the sight of his dream girl would have made Subaru's heart fill with joy but even as Emilia got closer, his face did not change. He remained expressionless, the half-elf would have noticed this but she was too excited to pay attention and instead continued to close the distance between her and Subaru.

[Subaru] "ooWAH!"

With a surprisingly light yet fast Emilia crashing into the youth, he finally snapped out of his dilemma as his back hit the hard floor below. He expected his head to follow but he noticed that when Emilia crashed into him she held his face to prevent that outcome.

'Even when she is excited she still thinks of these things!'

[Emilia] "Su-Subaru!? Are you okay!? I'm sorry I was just reaaaally excited to see you back, are you hurt?! Am I too heavy?! Why aren't you answering?!"

Despite her worry and concerns, the half-elf had dropped Subaru's head to examine the rest of his body. With a small thud he let out an 'ow' before propping himself up on his elbows, He wanted to laugh at how cute she was but before he could even speak she grabbed his face one more time and shook him due to his silence.

[Ram] "Emilia-sama has been like this since Barusu left."

Struggling to turn his head due to Emilia's hold, Subaru saw Ram standing over them with her usual deadpan face.

[Emilia] "Eh! Well, Subaru was gone for a while and I was worried! Even Ram was worried too-"

[Ram] "Slander to Ram's name is uncalled for Emilia-sama."

Subaru could only smile at the small banter between the two. Once again Emilia let go of the youth's face as she held her arms close to her chest in protest to Ram's word. He couldn't exactly see it but Subaru could tell that the half-elf had been sitting on his lap with her legs straddled around his waist.

[Emilia] "It's not slander, it's the truth! She wasn't making a ruckus but Ram was worried in her own way!"

[Subaru] "Who even says 'ruckus' anymore."

The woman on his lap wanted to rebuttal but instead opted to hide her now red face. Subaru could only chuckle slightly at the response before something suddenly swept his elbows off the ground and his head fell onto something soft.

[Subaru] "Did I do anything to get spoiled like this?"

[Ram] "Barusu is a hopeless man who lusts after every woman, Ram must remind you that Barusu already has plenty of women here."

Looking up, he could see that the soft thing his head had landed on was Ram's lap.

[Emilia] "Yes that's true, I know you have a lot of love to give but we need it too!"

[Subaru] "It's honestly too cute when Emilia-tan gets all possessive and assertive...I feel like I might regret that later."

[Emilia] "I don't understand what you are saying but...since you are back does that mean...you know."

[Ram] "Emilia-sama is trying to ask if Barusu has already taken care of Anastasia-sama."

[Subaru] "There has to be a better way to say that…"

Being reminded of what he did barely an hour ago filled Subaru with shame, it wasn't only about Anastasia but now he was once again reminded of the issue he faced a moment ago.

'It's fine...I'm with Ram and Emilia-tan...it's fine

[Emilia] "So does it?"

[?] "Yes it seems so, when I arrived the two were already cleaning up."

[Subaru] "Gah! When did you get there!?"

Craning his neck back Subaru saw the voluptuous black-haired woman crouching down next to Ram and staring down at him. Her dark-nearly black eyes stared directly into his which he couldn't help but feel uncomfortable at this. His eyes traveled south to avoid her gaze yet they soon landed on a more indecent sight of her…

Normally, anyone would avert their gaze and get embarrassed, but he felt absolutely nothing as he did. Not embarrassment, not flustered, not even arousal, it felt no different than looking at any other part of her body. Similarly, when Ram stood over him a moment ago he could see up her skirt yet, he once again felt nothing…

Not even two weeks ago if he was met with such sights he would be reduced to a blushing puddle.

Still, her having made it there without being detected and slight indecent-ness wasn't what bothered him, but instead, their conversation from earlier was still fresh in his mind. He still couldn't understand why it bothered him to this extent but it did.

[Elsa] "I thought you wouldn't mind, after all a moment ago you-"

[Subaru] "nonononono! Nope, we don't need to talk about that right now!"

Shake his head furiously, Subaru tried his best to silence the black-haired woman.

[Emilia] "Eh!? What did he do a moment ago! Why will you still not answer me!?"

Emilia once again used one hand to grab Subaru by the cheeks and hold his head still as she brought her face close to his. Her eyes looked flustered at the lack of attention the youth was showing her...yet it only added to her natural cuteness.

[Ram] "If Barusu is truly done with Anastasia-sama, you should have the item Roswaal-sama ordered. If you forgot it then Barusu must be even more incompetent than Ram could imagine, kindly disintegrate."

[Subaru] "Why are you bashing me before I even answer!? If you keep saying things like that then one day I'm going to take it to heart."

[Ram] "Barusu should always take Ram's words to heart, they are filled with the truth and love."

[Subaru] "There is no love in words like those! Here just take it before you hurt me."

After struggling to get into his pockets due to a stubborn half-elf who refused to move from his lap. Subaru pulled out a small colorless crystal, it wasn't exactly small but more the size of the one that Emilia kept Puck inside.

[Ram] "Hmph, this task was so easy that even Barusu couldn't mess it up."

[Subaru] "You could at least praise me a little-OW!"

Before he could finish, his soft therapeutic pillow disappeared and his head fell onto the hard floor below.

[Ram] "Ram doesn't understand how Emilia-sama and others can do that so often. Barusu's head is heavy and Ram's knee's hurt."

[Subaru] "Oi you didn't have to drop me like that!"

Ram simply scoffed at his words and placed the crystal inside of a handkerchief.

[Ram] "If we have completed all our tasks then it should be safe to head back to the mansion."

[Subaru] "...I can't imagine what I did here was exactly was Ros'chi had in mind...:"

[Ram] "Doesn't matter, Barusu has managed to finally do some good is all, although you may have done the opposite of our goal."

As the maid said that, her eyes turned towards the mansion and looked up at a window. Following her gaze, Subaru also looked up and saw a certain green-haired duchess watching the group from the second floor.

Even though that was the case, the way the sun shined made a nearly blinding glare emit from the glass, making the person behind it nearly unseeable.

Yet.

The more the youth stared into it, the more he was able to see the beautiful woman. Her usual military attire came into view along with her long green hair. It hadn't been long since their fallout yet every time he saw her, it felt like years since they last spoke.

Slowly, the duchess came closer to the glass, each step was shaky, each breath was hesitant. She was focused on the youth that was surrounded by women. Even though that was the case she didn't pay much mind to them, instead, her eyes were solely devoted to the black-haired boy.

Each time he entered her sight, her heart would scream, she wanted nothing more than to melt into his arms and spend the nights with him...yet she was determined to stay strong.

'Easier said than done…'

There wasn't a moment where he was alone, he always had a posse of women at his heels. She chose to separate herself from him for that reason but at the same time, something about that also made her want him more. Competitive, jealous, heartbroken, alone, there wasn't a word she could think of to describe it.

Then again.

The whole relationship was a mistake that she should have never let happen. She was a royal selection candidate, she had a status to protect and a name to uphold. He was simply a hero from another camp…

The thought of it only left her with a constant bittersweet taste. It was in fact for the best….

[Crusch] "That does not mean I have to like it…"

For the past hours that the youth was gone, she had managed to distract herself from the pain, but now that he was back, all those previous feelings rushed back into her with no hesitation.

This leaves her to where she is now, her feet reluctantly kept moving closer to the window. In doing so Subaru was able to get a better look at her.

Even though she had been on his mind as he left that hotel, for a moment all he had forgotten about her. This moment where he was enjoying the company of these women while also stressing over his dilemma with Elsa, just for then did he not think about the lady he left sad…

Each step closer to the window brought back the pain and pleasure that they both felt.

Any further would be dangerous.

The two were nowhere near each other yet the longer they stared at one another, it was as if they were connected…

[Crusch] "no….n-no…."

The duchess's hand that had been reaching towards the glass was grabbed by her other. Every time she fought this battle between her logical side and her feelings, Crusch would be overwhelmed, now it was no different.

Subaru who was powerless to help could only watch as the green-haired woman stood there with a frustrated expression. It was his fault that she was this way, it's his fault-...the repetition was useless.

He knew all this already, it came down to what was the best next step…

Would it be better to leave her and hope she moves on? Even if he did talk to her, what good would that do? All he wanted to do was help her, yet no matter what he did, it only leads to more pain.

[?] "Subaru you have been staring at the window for a reaaally long time now."

[Subaru] "Huh?..."

With a light tug and a gentle voice entering his ears, Subaru turned his head to see Emilia with her face barely a few inches from his.

[Emilia] "Are you okay?...say something, if you just stare at me so closely then it's embarrassing."

[Subaru] "You're the one who put your face close to mine."

As he said that, he once again turned his head back towards the now empty window. The person who he wanted to save wasn't there anymore which left him slightly sad.

[Subaru] "...Guess it's time to go inside…Emilia-tan?"

Subaru tried getting up, but he was quickly reminded of the person weighing him down.

He expected her to move as he said to go inside yet she remained unwavering and with a pout.

[Subaru] "Emilia-tan I can't get up if you stay on me like this. Of course, I always love when you are on me but at the moment it's pretty obstructing…"

In response, Emilia only crossed her arms and tilted her head upwards. He could tell she was frustrated at him but the exact reasons weren't the clearest to him.

There the 4 of them would remain until the half-elf finally gave in with a continuous pout. Eventually, they would head inside and reside in Subaru's room while both teasing and trying their best to win his affection, each in their way.

Those interactions the black-haired boy enjoyed yet they were very tiring. Being the mutual party meant he had to be the center of attention and with so many people to entertain, it left him a little exhausted especially when half the time he was denying their advances

While those 3 got to enjoy spending their time with the black-haired boy, There were still a few others that were left out of the equation.

Crusch, A duchess who tries her best to do the smart option. Priscilla, a fiery redhead whose pride and sudden feelings make her both angry and sad thinking about the youth. Rem, a self-hating maid who can't help but wonder if her Subaru-kun will still love her when he gets back. Finally, Anastasia, the only one who wouldn't mind not being able to be with Subaru again, yet would feel awful if she didn't hear from him soon…

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[?] "You've had that same face for the past hour princess, still thinking about that boy?"

[?] "Shut up, How dare you make assumptions about mine mind?"

Sitting on a throne in a room of primarily red was a certain lady who for the past few days, had been uncharacteristically moping. She found this odd depression disgusting which made her even more upset at it.

Ever since Priscilla spent that time with Subaru, her feelings had been a mess. Her pride refused to let her believe that she felt anything towards him while deep inside it was impossible to deny that she did. Even though their time was short it was enough to make her feel something she never felt towards another person.

All those combined left her in a constant state of conflict. On one hand, she wanted to march up and take Subaru to keep for herself, on the other, she shouldn't even care about him, if anything he should be doing that to her….

[?] "...Hello? You still with me?"

[Priscilla] "...huh...Hmph, that fool has no place in my mind."

[?] "I'd like to believe that but whenever I bring him up you space out. You won't even say what he did or was here for so it's not like I can be of any help."

For the past hour or so, Priscilla had been sitting on her throne with a hand on her chin and her legs crossed. In this time she had been dead silent and simply stared off at the floor.

Al noticed this strange behavior since the day Subaru visited. Usually, he would have been around for such meetings but due to Ram accompanying the youth, he chose to step out for the time being.

Since then the redhead has had fluctuating moods. One moment she could be nice by her standards and the next she would be perceiving everything as an insult and would go off on anything and anyone. It was usually Al's job to calm her down after these rants, Which is easier said than done.

Mood swings aside, today she had been a certain type of strange. Throughout the day Priscilla was unusually quiet, almost as if in constant thought.

[Priscilla] "Hmph, as if mineself would need help from someone like you"

[Al] "You can say that again."

Shrugging his shoulders and lowering his head slightly, Al walked away in slight defeat. Either way, as long as she doesn't cause too much trouble then he shouldn't be worried.

Watching the one-armed man walk through some doors; Priscilla leaned further into her hand and slumped down slightly.

Even she didn't know why she felt this way. Even though she gave her first time to him…(A/N: yes I'm changing it, y'all complained too much)

Such a privilege was supposed to be reserved for the man she loves, not wasted on some silly jealousy…

It was unlike her, something was wrong, none of it made sense. Unknown to her, the witch's miasma which was emanating off of Subaru, was especially strong due to his encounter with the witch.

The witch's love was so strong that it affected the princesses way of thinking. That being said, it was a temporary effect that only lasted until the end of their "date".

In the end, when she sobered up, she could still feel faint bits of that love lingering within her.

[Priscilla] "There is no way I would fall in love with a fool like that."

Even though she told herself this, doubt was written all across her face.

She didn't want to believe it, the feeling was too foreign and faint for her to say it was love, all she knew is that deep within her was the urge to meet with this boy.

[Priscilla] "How pathetic!"

It wasn't like her to feel this way about Subaru, but it is even more unlike her to just sit down and sulk.

[Priscilla] "I will make him pay for this!"

As threatening as her words sounded, her face lit up in delight at the prospect of meeting with the black-haired boy again.

Priscilla wasn't one to sit down and let the world pass her by the world was in her favor. If she wanted to meet this boy then she would, nothing will stop her.

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[?] "You have been cleaning very diligently lately."

[?] "Does Rem not always clean like this?"

[?] "That is true but you also seem to get happier with each passing day."

[?] "That is because Subaru-kun and Emilia are to return tomorrow."

As the day came to a close, two maids relaxed as their day of work had ended. In the two weeks that Ram and Subaru had been gone, Rem and Frederica took care of the mansion way better than the former could ever.

Whether it was because the former were bad workers or that the latter was better, it did not matter since the work had been completed.

Currently, they relaxed in the bath after a long day.

[Frederica] "You must miss them."

Frederica's caring words resonated with Rem as they both sunk more into their bath.

[Rem] "Hai, Emilia was supposed to return but unfortunately, that was ruined…"

Rem could feel her rage begin to build up as she thought about the witch cult. Had it not been for the sin archbishop of gluttony, Emilia would be there with her.

[Frederica] "Sadly that is true but fortunately, everyone made it out safely. If Subaru-sama had not been there to save them then it could have turned out worse."

Frederica's opinion of Subaru had greatly improved since finding out about his "adventures". She did not know the full extent of it, only that he had been with Rem and Emilia.

Since then, Rem had been speaking about his achievements nonstop. All of them were impressive and since hearing about the most recent situation Frederica couldn't help but have great respect for this man she never met.

[Rem] "That is true…Rem just can't wait for tomorrow to come!"

Frederica giggled while holding her hand to her mouth. Even with Rem, she didn't wish to show her smile.

[Frederica] "Yes it will be great to meet Subaru-sama and see Ram again."

Hearing this Rem turned towards the Demi-human with glee in her eyes. She saw what she said as an opportunity to talk more about Subaru. Frederica didn't mind it; although, it was all Rem spoke about for two weeks…

Alternatively, as those two women entered the bath, a small, lavender-haired merchant had already finished hers.

Anastasia Hoshin, Subaru's most recent lover and possibly the only one who didn't care all that much about the boy. Their time together was more of an experiment.

[Anastasia] "No, thinking of it as an experiment is pretty heartless."

Lying down on her bed, the merchant stared up at the ceiling wondering what to think of the situation.

[Anastasia] "It felt good...I wouldn't mind doing it again…"

Her feelings went hardly any further than that. Intimacy between two people should be sacred and filled with love. Instead, they did it purely because she wanted to see if the hype was worth it.

[Anastasia] "Eh, even if that is all it is, I can't afford to share that around."

The more she thought of it, the more determined she became to have the youth to herself…

While the various women of his life thought of him, Subaru had been busy keeping his current company entertained. A task easier said than done, especially when most of the time he was the center of attention, he could only do so much by himself.

[Emilia] "Subaru should be able to sit anywhere he wants!"

[Ram] "Yes and Barusu chose to sit with me."

[Subaru] "I didn't choose you, you just grabbed me and won't let me go!"

Using all his strength, Subaru pried his arm from Ram's vice grip. Currently, the three women sat on his bed while he tried his best to converse with each equally.

That was the plan but there were many problems with it.

For one, Ram would constantly grab Subaru and try to keep him for herself. Emilia was no better, every chance she had, she would hug him and maybe sneak a kiss. The only person left out of this was Elsa…

Ever since earlier, her words had taken up nearly all the space within his mind. It was as if she had hit something he didn't even know was there.

"You didn't want to do it right?"

It wasn't that he did not want to have sex with all these beautiful ladies. Then what was it? Even after all this he just couldn't find it in him to be….

He felt sick.

[Subaru] "I gotta head to the bathroom"

[Emilia] "Are you okay? You look a little pale."

[Subaru] "Ah Emilia-tan worrying about my condition would instantly cure any disease I would ever have!"

[Ram] "If Barusu can say all that then he is fine"

Doing his usual EMT shenanigans, Subaru chuckled at Ram's words as he reached towards the door handle.

Just as he exited the room he locked eyes with Elsa, her face had her usual dead smile...it was unnerving.

Walking down the hallway, her dead smile replayed in his head over and over again. The more he saw it, the more it began to morph. The image began to distort slowly, with each blink it transformed slowly.

It was strange but the more he thought about her, he realized it wasn't Elsa he was thinking of, but instead, it was her words. Her smile turned to words.

"You didn't want to do it right?"

What did he want to do?

Now in the bathroom, Subaru splashed water on his face. The situation was disorienting, what is it that he wanted? Each droplet that dripped down his face kept echoing those words into his mind. He didn't know how much longer he could handle it.

Grabbing a nearby towel, Subaru wiped himself down before turning towards the door. Even if he couldn't figure this out, he didn't want to worry the girls. Stopping midway, Subaru stared at himself in the mirror, his reflection hardly showed any of the distress that he was feeling.

[Subaru] "Good."

Mentally patting himself on the back for hiding it so well. Subaru opened the door only to be greeted by someone.

Standing in the doorway in her casual clothes was Crusch Karsten.

Just like that, all Subaru's stress from before rushed back to him.

Wow okay, I know it's been a while but let me explain. First off sorry if this chapter is not what you expected or wanted. It's what I wanted. I realized something about my writing, I cannot write any more than 5-6k without feeling really tired or bored. So I will write with the word count I am comfortable with. Even though I want to write some 15k epics, I will stick with the low word count.

Secondly, I thought really hard about what to do with this story. The easiest thing would be to just walk away. The thing is every day when I see a notification of a new follower or favorite, I get happy and sad. For one they like my story but on the other hand, they have to wait for a dead story. Im probably in the best mental state of my life right now and I have to thank all of you who supported me for that. And for all that support I will not stop writing Subaru's Isekai dream. I will finish it in time. I was scared of high chapter counts but I don't care, lets get the highest chapter count on here. It's great to be back. Ill see yall soon enough.