Here's to the June chapters
I need to get you to smile more Kaneki just have to take it moment by moment and pray you dont go murder pleasure mode. I'm iffy on that perspective
Manga verse Kaneki needs more hugs than anime verse Kaneki. My heart wouldnt be able to take so much suffering, Kinda glad anime didnt show much until RE My heart will never be ready for manga verse Kanekun
KANEKI DESERVES A UNIVERSE HE CAN BE HAPPY NO MATTER WHAT...as if that'll ever happen Heart will shatter if I go manga verse and look for how kanekun turned into Haise
I prefer awkward WTF IS MY LIFE!? Kanekun over delusional demon turned amnesiac demon hunter any day
"I can't readily play 'Eeny Meeny Miny Moe' in my head. Its like having both options on both sides of me as my eyes tick away; left, right, left right...it wouldn't matter which was which." thinks Ken turning his head to face Hide.
"We doing both?" wonders Hide.
"Y...yeah." says Ken shyly.
"Which comes first? Feeding your best friend turned mate or staying in the comfort of the bed proving your love for me?" wonders Hide amused.
"Tooo damn close for comfort." thinks Ken eyes darkening.
"Kenny the batty Centipede? Yin Yang creeper?" wonders Hide frowning.
Hesitation filled Ken's lungs, gulping away the first to come to mind.
"Earth to Kaneki. Which is most appealing and in the moment?" says Hide curiously poking Ken's cheek.
"Lo...logically, you should eat before we attempt to face facts and start putting ourselves into some sort of situation the doves will kill us for doing." says Ken not sure what mood to be in.
"Pretty much got the second thing down mister one eyed ghoul. That eye is still in ghoul form. Both would make sense if your craving for blood is numbing your mindset. Feeding me would be the wisest choice to start off with." says Hide teasingly sitting up.
"I'd much rather chat with my human form not go into Rize ghoul mindset toward you." groans Ken sitting up pouting.
"It's your emotions mixed with her ghoul cravings. Put your feelings toward me and mesh them with your inner Rize demon urging to bite my skin while knowing not too. Conflicting thoughts and information about how to face your actions with mutilation to my body." says Hide happily getting up.
"I don't wanna go to overboard. What do I even make you and how much?" wonders Ken jumping up to grab Hide's arm.
"Paranoia shouldn't keep you from picturing it in your mind. What actually happens and what goes on in the over thinker's mind are 2 different outcomes." says Hide.
"I have to question my actions at every given moment before I feel relief." sighs Ken.
"It's all good. I'll be at the kitchen table waiting once I get the Deku merch on. Force feeders lovingly feed their mates for life!" says Hide pulling his arm away to leave the bedroom.
"I'd rather stick needles in my eyes but I did say Hide was the exception." says Ken irritably.
"Exception to everything ghoul related I detest...THE HELL WAS I GOING ON ABOUT IN MY HALF ASLEEP STATE!? Whatever I said, Hide heard clear as day as we passed out on the bed the other night." thinks Ken staring at the bedroom door.
'...not big enough to be squeezable and sensitive to the touch...' says his tired voice repeatedly in Ken's mind trying to remember why he randomly decided showing ghoul appendages as a good thing to do while being dead tired.
"...Hide being squishy for my hands and tentacles...sensitive enough to barely talk..if he can." says Ken freezing up at the thought.
It took Ken a few minutes of blankly staring at the open door before he got himself to head to the kitchen to figure out what to feed Hide and how much of every food item. Ken itched his head going toward the fridge and freezer to see what all he could grab at.
"Hey, Hide, I know I claimed I should get you squishy regardless if I press into you with my hands or tentacles. It just came out in my tired haze. If my ghoul eye is really still around as you claim, it makes it seem like I'm deliberately giving into what my 'yin yang twin' told me about if 300+lbs looks good on you or not. I told them I'd sink my teeth into a plusher Hide and that became a thing before my body moved on its own to feed you as much as possible. I wouldn't mind feeding into it as long as I can leave on occasion to search for your coworkers and any hungry ghouls around this house." says Ken before realizing how he worded it and sucked in his breath listening for Hide.
A tense quietness filled the air as Ken looked behind him at the kitchen table to see a quiet Hide staring back.
"You didnt hear that...right? Right?" wonders Ken closing the fridge.
"What was I supposed to hear? Anything dark and secrety like whatever you were babbling on about?" wonders Hide.
"Be nice if you answered instead of making it seem like you werent around." says Ken.
"You just werent paying attention. I said I'd be in here after changing outfits and you didnt hear me come in. I did hear the last of what you were saying. You want a ghoul's version of fast food whether its random humans for ghouls on the prowl but you love being by my side as if your protective side outweighed your guilt toward eating humanity and any ghouls who attempt to eat humans and fear of the CCG doves breaking down the door any second." says Hide.
"I cant very well leave you alone with your soon to be lard ass and jelly belly if ghouls catch your scent." mutters Ken.
"You're enjoying the idea more than you let on." says Hide.
"I'm taking it day by day. A chef needs to be prepared at all times." growls Ken.
"Wonder if the Anteiku staff are pissed at Touka and Yin Ken for going around town without their consent?" wonders Hide.
"I can't really call it us being on bad terms. Touka and I were face to face at some point and she screamed while trying to punch me until I was on the ground. She kept wondering why I ditched the only home away from home I knew with a family of ghouls made up of friends. Instead of going back to Anteiku, I let Touka furiously beat me while I stood there, pouring her heart out. I had to stick to being the crazed Centipede but Touka wanted me to return to Anteiku so we can rekindle lost times together from when I was my black haired self. That's one of the best things this version can give my black haired self as long as he enjoys Anteiku like I did. I'm sure most, if not all would be understanding toward giving him a new way of looking at life. Out of all of them, Touka would drill him like I never really minded. You can ignore all that. Cycle 2 has its own ways of going about things and now 'Yin Ken' can have the bitchy yet kind Touka and you won't feel alienated from everyone. We technically are going our own paths sorta speak." says Ken partially wanting to know too.
"Uhhh...huuuuuhhhh...that explains you muting the moment Touka tries to converse with you." says Hide.
"I think she had feelings for me but I ignored them to stay in the raid battle, never thinking I'd see your face smiling in the darkness of the broken down building that gave me so many memories." says Ken going over to the table.
"Double KO as fighting games would say in Saiko's case." says Hide.
"Not funny trix rabbit." says Ken sitting on the table.
"I'm not laughing." says Hide.
Ken's eyes squinted suspiciously before trying to make sense of Touka's side of their friendship turned one sided love? Was it like that? Seemed like love bloomed in Touka when he turned more ghoul than human. Never caring about his black haired self then furiously attempting to take him back to the cafe gave him doubts the more he pieced it together in his head.
"Before I turned albino psycho, I'm pretty sure she wanted me as her mate but I was to busy trying to pretend I had a restraining order that didnt help at all against Tsukiyama. Nishio was an ass in the beginning but he came around. He acted like he didnt give a shit about anything but he meant well. Touka of cycle 1 and 2 may as well be the same person. A beautiful blue-purple haired waitress? Looked dark blue? Navy blue? Was a blue shade of hair with blue eyes to me. She was pretty for a waitress but oy...her attitude toward black haired me made her look like my personal bully. Maybe that was her way of saying she loved me since she constantly picked on me. Touka had to of sunk her teeth into me when I started off as a ghoul. Cant remember how that came about but Touka had her own ways of showing how she felt toward me." says Ken.
"Neither straight nor gay...you were bi without knowing it." says Hide.
"I would've preferred a different way to tell you two who I loved the most instead of straying away as if the freak of the world was the most alienated out of everyone." says Ken.
"Well Yin Ken is slowly coming to terms with socializing again and you are still in hiding more or less while keeping me happy with how we've been going about things. It's a win-win to both sides of this oddly placed love triangle." says Hide looking like he was pondering.
"I'm not getting into that. Felt more like a love square with Tsukiyama always in my face screeching praises at me with lust filled eerie expressions. Let's just get this over with." sighs Ken standing up to prepare the meals.
Antieku...
"Big bro! Read with me!" says Hinami running up to the bar.
"By big bro you mean me? Don't you have any other brother figures?" wonders Ken watching Hinami sit in front of him.
"You're part of the staff so of course you'd be big brother! Touka is big sis, you are big bro, Yoshimura is grandpa, Koma and Touka's uncle are uncles, get it? There's only one big sister and now there's a big brother I can hang out with." says Hinami happily.
"You would actually hang out with me?" wonders Ken raising an eyebrow.
Hinami nodded.
"Touka keeps hogging you. Its my turn to spend time with the loner of a new member." says Hinami.
"Loner of a new family member\cafe worker?" wonders Ken feeling hurt.
"Mom would always let me read to her while she quietly turned the pages when I was younger. As I got older I started bringing over my favorite book to read to her while she patiently enjoyed the story, smiling away." says Hinami.
"Where's your mom now?" wonders Ken.
"She was killed by a ghoul investigator." says Hinami frowning gloomily.
"Oh...so the adults take in ghouls without parents." says Ken.
"That's partially true. Touka still has her uncle. Her brother, who knows what ended up with him. I found a home in this place with my mother who wasn't able to talk. She was always quiet but you could tell how she felt by the expressions on her face. You had that Hide guy during school hours and now you got everyone here. You won't have to feel alienated anymore." says Hinami.
"So you're like a sibling to me? That's sounds awesome if everyone treats each other like family." says Ken.
"Mhm." nods Hinami.
"That makes Hide part of the family too. But he's busy screwing around with my doppelganger." says Ken happily before huffing bummed.
"Atleast you're making progress." says Hinami.
"Touka practically gave me no choice." says Ken nervously laughing, turning his head.
"This place is gonna feel like home quicker than you realize." says Hinami.
"Questionable yet reassuring." says Ken nodding to himself.
"I'd love for Hide to be part of the family we have here but I dont want the doves after us." says Hinami.
"That's why I never bother with human contact anymore." says Ken.
"So you up for reading?" wonders Hinami.
"I'll just be distracted by my thoughts and lose my spot." says Ken looking at Hinami.
