Chapter four

Here we go yet another day to my everlasting nightmare I have to call life. I'm just so bored with being indoors and doing nothing but stare at the same four walls of our living room or kitchen or bedroom…heck even looking out into the garden is getting too dull. I need some excitement, I need to get out of this damn chaos forsaken chair.

"Shadow you ok in here?" Trust Sonic to come in here at the right moment before I lose my top and just scream.

"Yeah apart from going crazy with boredom I'm fine. I don't suppose you have any ideas on what to do?" I am really hoping he does that doesn't involve just going outside in our garden area.

I watch him go into his thinking stage, he does give off a very cute expression when he does. He shows such an innocent look as he stands there deep in though, wondering to himself about the question I have just asked him.

"We could go for a walk…erm sorry I didn't…"

"Sure." I cut him off as I know he didn't mean to remind me of anything and he really doesn't need to apologise or feel bad. Although that guilty look does look a little adorable, it kind of reminds me of the look a child would give when they have realised they did something very bad and are very sorry for their actions. Again a little adorable but he really doesn't need to feel bad about the fact only he is able to walk right now and I am stuck in this chair for the time being.

"Great I'll be back in a minute." Oh good he has cheered up and I wonder what he has to do first? It is not like we really need to get ready for we are already ready to leave. Well I am and I did see that he had his shoes on. I mean it's not like it is cold out or pouring down with rain so I wonder what he is up to?

I thought he said a minute, I've been waiting in utter boredom for five minutes now, where the hell is he?

"SONIC HURRY UP!" I call out loudly as I cross my arms with impatience.

I swear if he doesn't show up in the next thirty seconds I am un-breaking my breaks and looking for him, regardless of the tight squeezes through doors.

"Just a sec Shads!" Finally a damn reply and it sounds like he is in the kitchen, but why? Ah screw this I'm leaving and going to find out. Ok I just need to flip the, yep done that and carefully move around to face the door. Ok done that and now I need to just spin my wheels and get out of this room while also avoiding crashing into the door frame on the way out.

"Shit, I crashed…damn this contraption." I really should be an expert with this thing but I am still struggling with damn doorways. I hate you chair, I hate your stupid big wheels that poke out far too much.

Finally out in the hallway and now to get to the kitchen. Right and how many times have I told Sonic to not leave obstacles lying around in the damn hallway? I swear how am I supposed to gain independence moving around the house in this thing if he wont keep the floors clear. Why the hell is that bag there anyway? No wait, is he leaving me, did he pack a bag and was going to leave me while I waited for him in the living room?

Do I really want to know what is in that bag? It's not completely out of my reach, I could just bend forward a little…there got it. Oh chaos I really hope this has none of his belongings inside. Ok calm down before you set yourself off and just open the damn bag. Yes just take calm breaths and quietly open the bag. Why are zips so chaos damn loud? Oh god no, just no.

"Shadow what are you doing?" I look up at him and stare into his confused looking green eyes, what does he think I am doing, the laundery?

"What am I doing, why do you have a bag with your things inside just lying in the middle of the hallway?" I can't help but to feel so scared and hurt right now, now I'm crying god damn emotions sometimes but screw it.

"Hey Shads it is not what it looks like ok, just calm down." Screw him.

"Calm down, why should I? If you want to leave me then fine go right ahead and just leave!" I knew he was planning this, I just knew it and now I know for real it is killing me more.

I throw the bag at him and for damn sake be bloody caught it, I was aiming for his head not playing catch the bag.

"No just wait a minute so I can explain babe." I don't care that he looks and sounds upset, I'm damn well mortified and so hurt.

"Explain what exactly that you plan to leave me just sitting in the living room while you do a runner with your things and never come back! I knew you planned to leave but the least you could have done is damn well say it to my face!" I am not even fighting the tears now and not only was my heart breaking but I am so damn mad at him right now.

"Just wait ok. I am not leaving you Shadow, why would I leave the guy I love? Do you honestly believe I would do such a thing to you?" Damn him and his damn words right now. Now I am questioning myself.

"Th-then why do you have a bag of your things lying in the hallway?" I hate the way I sound when this upset, I sound like a damn emotional girl sobbing over something pathetic. Yeah ok this is not a pathetic moment but I do wish I could calm down enough to sound more mature and less girly.

"It was suggested to me by my therapist that I should spend a couple of nights with a friend to take a break from constantly looking after you. I am not abandoning you Shadow, just plan to spend a few nights with Tails that is all." He is seeing a therapist? I did not know he was seeing a therapist, he never once said he was seeing a damn therapist. Why didn't he tell me this?

"And when you go out for a couple of hours every week you are going to this therapist? Why didn't you say anything to me, I though you were seeing someone behind my back and planning to leave me?" I am just so damn confused and numb right now, when did we stop talking to each other, when did we stop sharing everything?

"I didn't want you to get up set love, I didn't want you blaming yourself that I needed therapy to help me to cope with the big changes. This is after all, all my fault that you are in that chair and paralysed for life." No it is not your fault, I didn't act quick enough and should have been standing closer to you. I so badly wanted to say that but he will only make another argument about it, storm out and just leave me.

"I didn't want you thinking I was too weak and couldn't cope Shads. You are doing so well with all these changes and it is your life that has changed so much. I was ashamed to tell you I couldn't hack it as well as you and needed to talk to someone about how I am feeling." Whispering and looking guilty wont change the fact you kept something this important from me. And for the record I am only acting like I am coping, inside is a mess of emotions that are all over the place. heck sometimes i have no clue how I am going to be like when waking up in the morning.

"You are not weak Sonic and you shouldn't feel ashamed for needing to talk to someone outside of this situation. If it is helping you then do whatever your therapist suggests for you to do, just please do not keep it from me or lie to me about it." If he needs this then I am not going to stop him.

"Thanks for understanding babe. You should talk to her too, she is really good and it's a good way to get things off your mind." So she is that good she makes you smile huh, well thanks but no thanks.

"I'll pass." I already stated I will not talk to some stranger about this and I am going to stick to my decision. It is no ones business what and how I feel, besides I have friends and a boyfriend to talk to if things get too much.

"It helps babe, I know you are trying hard to look and sound like there is nothing going on inside of your head and…" Wow I still have the ability to shut someone up by just glaring at them, awesome. At least I still have that intact.

"I said no and I will always say no. I do not need some stranger telling me what I already know. It will not only be a waste of my time but theirs as well. What works for one doesn't always work for another." And I know this because I had therapy a long time ago to talk about what happened to me up on ARK, it was a waste of time and didn't help.

"Ok love you win. Lets just go on our walk ok then I'll head to Tails'. Don't worry I am just a phone call away and I will be back in a flash. This is the perfect opportunity to gain some independence from me and do things for yourself." How lovely of you to twist things so it somehow benefits me also, damn I love you Sonic.

"Fine but remember no bumpy paths, I am still struggling a little to control this damn chair over them." A reminder is exactly what he needs and I do not appreciate getting the feeling I am about to tip over and fall down.

"And who said you are going to control that chair huh? I am going to push ya love." I do not like that wink or that grin on his face…

Ten minutes later…

"Ahhh oh god, oh god you are going to make me fall out of this chair, slow down! This is not a relaxing walk Sonic!" I think I might be gripping onto the arms a little too tightly right now and making hand dents in the padding but who the hell cares, he is insane.

"Oh relax love and enjoy the speed!" I swear if he doesn't stop laughing I am going to seriously throw something at his head. Maybe that will knock some sense into him, doubt it but it would make me feel so much better.

"You are going to make me fall or tumble forwards out of this chair, so slow down!" I am seriously starting to question my safety here.

"I wont allow that Shads." Sonic I swear not only will I throw something at your head I will shove a chaos spear in your direction straight afterwards, try to dodge both.

Oh chaos he dares to go faster…I can barely see what is around us. Shit he is trying to break the sound barrier while pushing me, I need a seatbelt for this chair if he is going to pull stunts like this.

"Sonic please I do not feel all that comfortable right now…Ahh mind that tree!" I am now officially seeing my life flash. Sweet Maria please make him stop before he makes my condition worse and unfixable.

"Oh chill pill babe, I can see ya know." I do not care you cocky little shit, I am seriously not comfortable and want you to slow the hell down. Well at least one of us is having fun, I would prefer it if both of us were.

"Ahhh, log, log!" Oh chaos it is getting closer and he is doing nothing but heading right for it. I am going to die, I am going to die, I am going to kill you, you cocky little, I swear he did that on purpose, turn at the last minute.

Why, oh why does the universe have to torture me so? Alls I wanted was a nice calm relaxing stroll with my boyfriend and this is what I get, Sonic running at the damn speed of sound and dodging things at the very last minute?

"Sonic h-how about we slow down now, yeah?" I am struggling to find any amusement in his little stunt and I think he heard the fear in my voice too. Yeah well this is scary when you cannot walk or have control of the situation, it's not like I can just teleport and run along side him or anything. Ok sure I trust Sonic with my life but this is pushing it a little too far, he knows if I am not the one running at breaking speeds I do not like it.

Thank you, thank you, thank you, he is actually listening to me. And about time too, just you wait until my legs word again, I will have my revenge.

"We are here!" Wait are you telling me the only reason we have slowed down was because we arrived at some location you planned to take us and not because I asked you to? I swear he is really trying to piss me off.

"Ok and why have you also brought me to Tails' place as well? And why the hell did it take that long to get…you took a detour on purpose didn't you?" Now I am beginning to really think this little break will be very beneficial for us, it will give me time for my now pissed off mood to fizz away. We all know I can be angry for days at someone and Sonic knows it very well too. Can't say how many arguments we had that left me giving him the silent treatment for a record of three days straight.

"Yeah well I figured you needed cheering up and Rouge is here to take you home. I'll just unhook my bag from your handles then we can go in. say hi, have a snack then Rouge is taking you home. Unless of course you want me to quickly run you home?"

Some cheering up, your idea of making me feel better is totally...wait how did he put his bag on my handles without me noticing and what did he just suggest? Oh hell no.

"No! Er I mean that is ok my love you spend time with your brother and me and Rouge can have a nice little catch up or something." I am so not going through that again today.

(Thanks for being patient with the long awaited update, was trying to get this right and kept going in and out of Shadows POV, making this chap confusing and illogical in ways, it probably still is a little, sorry. Hope you enjoyed and a special thanks to the person who gave me the idea of this chapter, hope I didn't disappoint. Please, if you can, review and tell me your thoughts on this story so far, thanks. Next one will be soon-ish and until then…)