Chapter Sixteen
"Shadow, Rouge is everything…alright?" Oh hello there Sonic all is well just having a lovely spot of coffee in the living room together.
"So a lockdown system huh, nice touch and now we all know it works too." Oh yes Sonic be very afraid of the casualness of me.
"Hello boys, you took your time, we are almost finished our coffee." Nice Rouge, really freak him out with all round casualness.
"Hi Shadow."
"Hello Tails, want a coffee?" Even Tails seems nervous, well he was the one to install all this and never once told me about it.
"That's ok Shadow I am good." Whatever more for me I suppose.
"I can explain." Sonic relax we both know you cannot think of anything that will justify what you did to our house behind my back so why bother even trying.
"Oh relax you two I am not mad ok so quit just standing there like I am going to send a rocket your way." Yeah can't do that now can I Sonic for someone removed the damn battery to my wheelchair.
"Listen I did this because…"
"Because you care, I know and I seriously am ok with this. So did whoever set it off hang around?" Come on me and Rouge are dying to know if they were dumb enough to stick around.
"There was no one hanging out front and we scouted around before resetting the system to get in." So you and Tails looked around before freeing us?
"That is disappointing, I was very curious to know who triggered the alarm. Any footprints on the ground or markings at all?" Yeah Rouge has a point, was there?
"Were there?" And by the looks of both of your faces I would say you both didn't think to look.
"Well you see, we weren't looking for that kind of thing and was more occupied with seeing if there was anyone lurking around weren't we Tails." Aw bless you Sonic, you look so cute when nervous.
"Yeah stopping any possible threat was our top priority." I suppose I cannot argue with that.
"Come on Tails, lets go have a look around while these two talk." Good call Rouge, Sonic needs some serious reassurance that I am not going to blow up in his face.
Ok they are gone and closed the front door so get your ass over here and sit next to me Sonic. That's it my love sit real close to me so I can reach you.
"Shadow I…" I love doing this to him, dragging him into a surprise kiss.
"I understand Sonic ok and I appreciate the extra security you had done. Now shut up and give me a hug, I have been through a trauma from that loud alarm." Yes, a hug please.
Ah yes, he gives such wonderful hugs, makes everything feel so much better. No, no Sonic we are hugging so no breaking this yet.
"Shadow, I am sorry I did all this behind your back. I honestly thought you would be so angry with the suggestion and refuse anything put in place." You are not wrong there Sonic but I will not enlighten you how right you are.
"Silly blue hedgehog you can be my love and thank you for keeping me safe. I do have one small, little question to ask you." Oh I may be fine with all this extra security but I am not fine with you stripping the battery from my chair.
"And that would be babe?" You made a damn good move breaking this hug because I am so tempted in squeezing you to unconsciousness.
"Oh it is so small yet such a strong question." I think I am making his very curious and nervous at the same time.
"Yeah?" Yep I think he knows I know what he did to my baby.
"Why did you remove the battery to my wheelchair?" Yeah you better get up quick and step back and I will glare and narrow my eyes at you for what you did.
"Just stay calm love ok I have a very, very good reason…that I will tell you any minutes now but you need to calm down first." Stalling to help you think of something believable will get you so far.
"You put that battery back in now. What if this was a serious emergency huh? What if the alarms never went off and I needed out of here fast or defend myself?" There would be no way Rouge could carry or fly me out of here with out some issues so don't bother mentioning her.
"But it wasn't. Ok I'll put the battery back but I did have a reason for taking it out." Don't believe you, you took it out so I couldn't use it today.
"You just didn't want me to use it or go out while you weren't here." I think I am correct, he is looking a little surprised right now.
"There was that and the fact you are getting a little too attached to it. I would use the word obsessive over that chair but I am sure you would use the term fond." Are we getting jealous over a wheelchair?
"I am fond of the wheelchair yes and you are right I wouldn't go as far as to say I have an obsession for it." Lets play along and see where this leads.
"Shadow you are totally obsessed with it. You talk to it like it's a person that can reply to you, you are always sitting in it and rarely want to sit anywhere else. I really feel it is unhealthy for you to be with that chair all the time ok so you are having a break from it and Tails is talking it away with him for a week or two." No, no he can't. I need that chair, I need it.
"No don't, please. Please don't take it away from me." Oh chaos now look what you have done, you are making me cry. You happy now Sonic, you are making your boyfriend cry.
"Sorry Shadow but this is for your own good, you are getting far to dependant on that chair."
"Or are you feeling threatened because I don't need you to keep me safe? That I can defend myself without calling for you any more. Are you jealous that I am gaining more independence by having that chair and feel safe in it?" God this is horrible and why can't I stop crying?
"Oh you don't need me huh well fine, I'll just leave since I am no longer needed. Good luck Shadow, I am out of here."
"Good, go. Just leave me and don't let the door hit you on the way out!" This just went from zero to ninety so fast, I cannot even register what is going on right now.
"Shadow hun, is everything alright?" No Rouge no it is not.
"Sonic, he…he isn't coming back. He left and has no intentions in returning." That's it Shadow compose yourself, wipe your eyes dry and sell this so she wont get worried. Show her you are fine and can take care of things.
"What happened, Sonic just ran off and he wasn't looking happy, was looking really angry actually?" Tails why couldn't you enter at the same time as Rouge now I have to repeat it.
"Sonic left and he isn't coming back. But that is ok, he is entitled to do what he wants. If he wants to leave then I am not going to stop him from going, besides it is not like I can stand up and give chase." No, don't start crying again, don't you dare start crying again.
"Tails hun, why don't you go find Sonic while I stay with Shadow." It's fine Rouge just leave and take a key to lock the door behind you.
"Ok sure, try not to worry Shadow ok. Sonic will come back he just needs to blow some steam." Yeah I don't think so some how.
"Now what happened?" I don't want to talk about it.
"Shadow, come on hun, tell me what happened please." No I don't want to, oh god the tears are falling down my cheeks now.
"Come here hun." And now she is hugging me and it is not making me feel any better, but hugging back anyway.
"He isn't coming back Rouge, he doesn't think I need him any more." And here comes the sob voice, oh who damn well cares, Sonic left me.
"And what gave him that idea hun." You are supposed to be comforting me not blaming me.
"He was going to take my wheelchair away for a few weeks because he feels I am far too dependant on it, too obsessed with it. So I accused him of feeling threatened by it because I don' need him to keep me safe all the time for I can defend myself, that I didn't need to call him when trouble starts." Now I am feeling like this is all my fault and I was in the wrong here.
"I accused him of getting jealous because I am gaining more independence by having that chair and that I feel safe in it. Was I wrong to say all that and react that way?" Please tell me I wasn't and that I had every right to say what I said.
So now you break the hug and why are you staying silent for?
"Did I over react to having my wheelchair taken away or not?" Come on Rouge I need your help here.
"I don't want to cause more arguments between you and Sonic over this but I don't think you overreacted by too much Shadow. That is your way of moving around and getting from place to place in a safe manner. Saying that Sonic would have given you a less destructive one to get around and not left you stranded in one place with no means in moving about. I also feel that maybe after being your caretaker for so long then watching you gain more independence makes Sonic feel obsolete in a way. Think about it hun, if you were looking after someone, do most things for them and all of a sudden they need you less and less, how would you feel?" I am in the wrong.
"Sad and unhappy that I was no longer needed as much…I'm such a selfish jerk." A big selfish jerk.
"No you are not Shadow, you are doing what you should be doing ok. You are gaining back your independence like you are supposed to. Sonic just needs to get used to you not needing him so much but what you can do is help him with that." Ok so I was right?
"How can I, I cannot just ask for his help with things I don't need help with. I would be taking advantage of him and simply being lazy on my part." That and he will think I am using him.
"There are ways to make him feel useful towards you, like don't use your baby indoors and use the manual wheelchair instead. Let him do little things for you like make coffee, prepare lunch, let him help you into bed…you know the little things." But he does do all that.
"Thinking about this Rouge, he does still do a lot for me and assists me in a good few things I simply cannot do myself without having the use of my legs." Yeah like getting in and out of the bath to name one.
"You have a damn good point there hun, maybe I need to have a talk with Sonic and find out what really is bugging him." Yeah you do that, I kind of want to be on my own anyway.
"Sure and lock the door on your way out please. I am just going to sit here, do nothing and have a think." Not lying, I cant move anywhere else for I have no wheelchair and I do need to have a think too.
"You sure you will be alright hun? I can stay a little longer." I will be fine ok just go already.
"Of course and I have your number. Rouge, thank you." Well that convinced her.
"No problem Shadow and do call, bye."
"Bye!" And…she's gone.
Now to go through that argument that made Sonic leave…is he feeling insecure or over stressed or have I really not been paying him any attention lately? Ok going over the last few days…no I have been giving him attention and not point blank ignored him for no reason. He has been very stressed and worried so that could be it.
"Me and he need a serious talk, if he decides to come home that is."
No wait Rouge said he went to see Tails about modifying my chair so would that be why he said I needed a break from it, so it can be taken to Tails' garage for modifications? If that is the reason then I truly am the blame of this spat. And here comes the damn guilt, I need to call him. Where's my…oh it's on the coffee table right out of my reach. I don't care I need to call him.
"Wow even lying down on the sofa and reaching out isn't helping. Right I am so going to regret this."
Ah damn it, the floor is harder than I remember, ok now army crawl then reach up and…got it. ok unlocking screen, finding Sonics number and call.
"Come on pick up." Pick the damn phone up Sonic.
"Oh so you finally decided that you need me huh?" Remember Shadow he is still mad at you and you need to get him to come home not make things worse.
"I think you are right Sonic and I am sorry." Damn that was a little painful to admit, I am really going to miss that chair.
"Don't care about your…say what now?" You seriously need to listen first before you reply first.
"I said you are right, I am using my current wheelchair far too much and as much as I love that chair, I love you more and I will do what you feel is right." I am seriously going to miss that chair.
"You really mean that love?" Don't sound so surprised, you know I love you.
"I do and I am deeply sorry for what I said. You do a far better job at keeping me safe and happy than any chair could ever do." Please believe me when I say that because I am not lying to get you to come home.
"Listen babe, I really appreciate you telling me all this but I am still not coming home ok." What? He is still not coming home by why?
"Oh right well you are entitled to your own space and I do not want to interrupt anything. Rouge locked the door on her way out anyway and she made me promise to call her so you go and have some space ok." Ok don't cry Shadow you will be fine.
"You are on your own?" He doesn't sound happy about that.
"Yeah and on the floor actually but please do not feel you need to come home ok, I will somehow figure this out and get back onto the sofa." Yeah more like I'll be down here until I swallow my damn pride and call Rouge.
"Why are you on the floor Shadow?" I really need to learn to keep my mouth shut, I've pissed him off further.
"I couldn't reach my phone and I needed to call you to tell you I am sorry and I love you. I know it was stupid of me but you know what I am like and I needed to call you. You are very important to me and I needed to make things right between us once more."
"I want you to stay exactly where you are and do not move, I am coming home ok." Great why am I always the reason he has to drop everything?
"Please do not feel you need to come…" He just hung up on me.
"The damn nerve of some hedgehogs." Well I might as well lay and wait, I hope he isn't too mad when he gets here.
(Hope you enjoyed this update and thanks a bunch for reading it. Please let me know your thoughts and until the next update…)
