p class="MsoNormal"Mariah was on his lap, straddling him. They were both only in their underwear and she was grinding on him, and he could feel the heat of her arousal through the fabric. She was kissing his neck as Sebastian sucked on her left breast. He maneuvered his hand around her expanded belly to dip below the cotton fabric to rub at her clit./p
p class="MsoNormal"She moaned into his ear, "Fuuuck."/p
p class="MsoNormal""You're so fucking wet," he said, removing his mouth from her nipple to kiss her, "I can't wait to be inside you."/p
p class="MsoNormal""So let's stop waiting," she suggested, "It's been too long."/p
p class="MsoNormal""I want to get you off first," he said, "I've been thinking about this for the last two days I'm not sure how long I'm gonna last."/p
p class="MsoNormal""I'm not going to last either," she said, "I need you. Don't make me wait any longer."/p
p class="MsoNormal"She pulled away from him, standing up and pulling her underwear off, tossing them aside without a care. He hastily followed suit, his boxers disappearing as well. She was waiting for him on the bed. As soon as he was positioned she hooked her legs around him drawing him close. Her velvet walls enveloped him as he entered her with a groan./p
p class="MsoNormal""Yoba you feel so good," he gasped, moving slowly./p
p class="MsoNormal"Mariah let out a guttural moan, pushing her hips to meet his. She moved with him as he thrust in and out of her. They set a steady pace, Sebastian admiring the way her breasts bounced with each movement. Mariah reached a hand around the back of his neck, pulling his mouth to meet hers. They swallowed each other's pleasured noises, through their sloppy kisses. He reached a hand down and rubbed at her clit. Mariah broke the kiss letting out a "Hah!" clenching tightly against him./p
p class="MsoNormal""You gonna come for me already?" He smirked at her, "Shit you weren't kidding."/p
p class="MsoNormal""Yessss," she hissed out, "So close."/p
p class="MsoNormal"Sebastian kept rubbing her clit, pulling out completely to shift their position. Mariah let out a whine at the absence, crying out when he thrust back into her deeply. He increased his speed, holding onto her thigh with his free hand for stability./p
p class="MsoNormal""Fuck Bash don't stop," Mariah threw her head back, "I'm gonna..aaahhhhh!"/p
p class="MsoNormal"Her walls enclosed on his cock like a vice as she trembled through her orgasm, "Yoba I love watching you come," he panted, unrelenting his pounding. He eased off her clit as she came down from the orgasm./p
p class="MsoNormal"Leaning forward he kissed her roughly, his own climax growing deep in the pit of his stomach, "You're so fucking beautiful Riah," he grunted in her ear before kissing her neck./p
p class="MsoNormal""Bash," she gasped out his name, running her hands down his sides before snaking them up his back, gripping him to her, "Bash, please, please, please."/p
p class="MsoNormal""Please what?" he groaned./p
p class="MsoNormal""You feel so good love," she mumbled, kissing his cheek, "I want to come with you."/p
p class="MsoNormal"He turned his attention to her, looking at her rosy-cheeked face, a light sheen of sweat across her golden skin, "I'm close," he responded with a grunt, kissing her, "What do you need?"/p
p class="MsoNormal""Just you," she responded capturing him in a kiss again, "Just keep loving me."/p
p class="MsoNormal""Always," he said, his heart pounding in his chest. His hips stuttered a bit as his movements became more erratic, "Riah," he whispered against her lips. Wordlessly she nodded, giving him a squeeze. He pushed into her, one, two, three more times, before being overcome with pleasure, releasing into her with a wordless moan. Sebastian was unsure if the shaking he was feeling was from him or her. He watched Mariah's face once more contort in pleasure realizing that it was likely a combination both of them. They caressed each other softly as they caught their breath, before he eased slowly out of her, laying down beside her on the bed./p
p class="MsoNormal""Yoba Bash, if I weren't already pregnant I would be now," she laughed./p
p class="MsoNormal"She reached down, stroking his softening, but still oh so sensitive cock, "Heyyy," he whimpered, twitching and pulling away from her./p
p class="MsoNormal"She smiled at him, and pressed a quick kiss to his lips, "Love you."/p
p class="MsoNormal""Love you too," he said rolling his eyes, moving back over to her, wrapping her in a warm embrace./p
p class="MsoNormal"Sebastian awoke to soaked boxers and pajama pants, his crotch pressed firmly against the couch cushions, "Fuck," he grunted wide eyed when he realized what had happened. em style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"What the fuck? I haven't had a wet dream since I was a teenager./em But it had been so real, he could practically still feel Mariah's warm form against his. He glanced over at the bed, Mariah was still asleep. em style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"Thank Yoba for that./em He got up as quietly as he could so as not to disturb her. He pulled the blankets off the couch, and grabbed himself a change of clothes. He hastily got dressed in the bathroom, throwing his clothes and the blankets in the washing machine. em style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"But was it real?/em/p
p class="MsoNormal""Hey."/p
p class="MsoNormal"Sebastian jumped, not having heard her get up, "Shit you scared me."/p
p class="MsoNormal""Sorry," Mariah sounded apologetic, "Laundry?"/p
p class="MsoNormal""Err, yeah," Sebastian shrugged, not wanting to talk about what had happened./p
p class="MsoNormal""Need help?"/p
p class="MsoNormal""I'm okay, thanks," Sebastian shook his head./p
p class="MsoNormal""Since she woke up last night, Morgan will probably sleep in," Mariah said heading for the bathroom, "As much as Morgan sleeps in anyway. So you can relax for a bit."/p
p class="MsoNormal"The door to the bathroom shut before he could respond. He hesitated, rocking back and forth on the balls of his feet. em style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"What do I do now? What does she mean I can relax? What would that even mean? Does she know something happened? Should I tell her? Was that a memory or was it just a dream that I came up with? No way for you to know without talking to her about it. Too embarrassing to talk about. You came in your Yoba-damned pants for fuck's sake. Maybe you could mention it without that part? Although she's not an idiot she's going to put two and two together with the laundry. But if she already thinks you're being weird she may just figure it out anyway. Would she say something? No, she doesn't seem like that type of person. But maybe? Especially if she's worried about you. Worried about you because you're being weird. She's going to want to know what's happening, if it has anything to do with what's going on. Would it be better just to talk to her about it? /em/p
p class="MsoNormal""Seb?"/p
p class="MsoNormal"He jumped again, "Fuck."/p
p class="MsoNormal""Sorry," Mariah stepped back from him, "Didn't mean to startle you."/p
p class="MsoNormal""S'okay," he said./p
p class="MsoNormal""You okay?" she asked./p
p class="MsoNormal""Um, just lost in thought," Sebastian said./p
p class="MsoNormal""Yeah. You were up early," she said, "Did you sleep okay?"/p
p class="MsoNormal""Umm…"/p
p class="MsoNormal""I'm sorry if you had nightmares," Mariah said, "Especially if it was my fault after what happened last night."/p
p class="MsoNormal""No, no," he shook his head, "Nothing like that. I actually kind of forgot about that. Just preoccupied."/p
p class="MsoNormal""With something else that happened that you don't want to talk about," she filled in./p
p class="MsoNormal""Yeah," Sebastian confirmed./p
p class="MsoNormal"A flash of a frown crossed Mariah's face so quickly that he almost missed it, "Okay. Well I'm going to get the coffee started. Gotta get stuff done before your mom gets here."/p
p class="MsoNormal""Right," Sebastian said, "Forgot about that too."/p
p class="MsoNormal""Mmmhmm," Mariah nodded, heading into the kitchen./p
p class="MsoNormal"Sebastian trailed after her, unsure of what to do with himself. em style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"She knows something is going on. Just say something. Anything./em/p
p class="MsoNormal""Did we have an active sex life?" em style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"Shit. Not that. Why the fuck would you say that? Say something else moron! /em"I mean obviously if we have two kids we have sex… and what you said about physical intimacy…and I saw there was a video….I just…you know what never mind."/p
p class="MsoNormal"Mariah was staring at him and he desperately wanted to know what was going on in her mind. After a pause she cleared her throat, "Yes. We had an active sex life."/p
p class="MsoNormal"Sebastian was a socially anxious and aloof person, but couldn't remember a time he'd felt more awkward than he did now. Even losing his virginity hadn't felt this painful, "I had a dream," he blurted out eventually, and suddenly he couldn't look at her, let alone make eye contact as his mind was flooded with the image of her naked form, "I'm not sure if it was just a dream or if it was a memory."/p
p class="MsoNormal""Oh," Mariah said, turning away from him and busying herself with the coffee. He was surprised she didn't press him for more information, but then she did speak again, "I'm guessing it was a sex dream?"/p
p class="MsoNormal""Mmmhmmm," Sebastian said, very interested with the art on the wall./p
p class="MsoNormal""Ok," Mariah said, "Did you want to talk about it?"/p
p class="MsoNormal""Errrrr"/p
p class="MsoNormal""Sebastian," her voice was kind, "You don't have anything to be embarrassed about. I'm sorry if I'm making you feel that way. I just wasn't really expecting to be having this conversation. We're very open discussing these things together but not really with other people, and it just sort of feels like sharing intimate details with a stranger. It is way more complicated than that and I'm happy answer your questions if you do want to talk, you have a right to that information. I was caught off guard is all. If you don't want to talk about it that's okay too."/p
p class="MsoNormal""We don't need to talk about it," he said, "I was caught off guard too. It was a good dream. A em style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"really/em good dream. But it felt wrong. It felt like an invasion of privacy."/p
p class="MsoNormal""Well if it was a memory," Mariah began and he felt a cup of coffee being pressed to his hand, "Then that's a good thing right? I mean not really high on my priority list of things for you to remember, but still a good thing. And if it was just a dream, well it makes sense. And really it's probably a good thing too if it is. You've spent a lot of time with me over the last couple of days and your subconscious is trying to connect you to something right? I'm also going to assume that it means that you're at least somewhat comfortable with me, not that we really have much control over who shows up in our dreams, but I'm going with it anyway."/p
p class="MsoNormal"Sebastian took the coffee, and turned, sort of looking at her, though it was mostly her feet. He took a minute with his thoughts before responding, "You were straddling my lap while I was in my computer chair. We were commenting about having been waiting for it for a couple of days. Afterwards you told me that if you hadn't already been pregnant you would be now," he still couldn't bring himself to look at her and he was positive that his warm cheeks meant that he was blushing./p
p class="MsoNormal""That sounds like it was probably a memory then," Mariah said after clearing her throat again, "Yoba why are your first real memories of me about sex? For fuck's sake. I know it's not anything you can control, but shit. It's like your brain is being a misogynistic dick."/p
p class="MsoNormal"Sebastian snorted, quickly apologizing, "I'm sorry. Both for that happening and my style="mso-spacerun: yes;" /spanIt just reminded me of that joke thing that never actually happens in real life where someone looks familiar and you can't place them and then you realize it's because you've seen porn of them. Shit I shouldn't have said that. Not helping. Sorry. I'm just….awkward."/p
p class="MsoNormal"Mariah let out a laugh, "It's okay. Really. It's a weird situation to say the least. I mean it could be worse. You could have thought it was a terrible dream."/p
p class="MsoNormal""Yeah but maybe then I wouldn't have come in my pants," Sebastian blurted, "Fuck, can you please forget I said that. Shit that's so embarrassing. I'm going to go crawl in a hole and die now."/p
p class="MsoNormal""Well that explains the laundry," he could hear the amusement in Mariah's voice, but she wasn't being mean about it, "Honestly I'll take it as a compliment. I'm sorry Sebastian. I mean it is good, I'm glad you're getting your memory back. Just not the ideal way either of us would want you to. Hopefully this embarrassment is just adding to your suffering and you can remember other good things that won't make you blow your load unexpectedly."/p
p class="MsoNormal""Gee, thanks," Sebastian deadpanned, finally looking at her./p
p class="MsoNormal"She smiled at him, "Still want to go on that date?"/p
p class="MsoNormal"He narrowed his eyes slightly, before sighing, "Yes."/p
p class="MsoNormal""Good," she seemed genuinely happy about it./p
p class="MsoNormal""Can I ask you a question?" he said./p
p class="MsoNormal""Of course," she nodded./p
p class="MsoNormal""The nicknames…" he began./p
p class="MsoNormal""Oh," she said, "I'd really rather you remember than on your own. I don't want to explain it to you."/p
p class="MsoNormal""No, no," he shook his head, "I just wasn't sure if that was something I should be calling you in front of other people. Make things seem normal you know?"/p
p class="MsoNormal""Oh," she said sounding apologetic, "No. That's personal. We never called each other that in conversation with other people or anything. If we were having a private conversation somewhere public then yeah, but generally not around other people."/p
p class="MsoNormal""Okay," he nodded, "So um, is it like embarrassing or something? Is that way you don't want to explain it?"/p
p class="MsoNormal""No," she answered quickly. She didn't say more right away, but he could tell she wasn't done, "It's just…important? I guess. I mean it's not. At all. They're just nicknames, but they were special. Just for us. Personal you know?"/p
p class="MsoNormal""That makes sense," he nodded, "I noticed you weren't calling me that, expect for when you didn't realize…."/p
p class="MsoNormal""Yeah," she looked down, shrugging, "Well you're not him. Right? It'd be like if I started calling you Sam. Not who you are."/p
p class="MsoNormal""Yeah," he agreed. em style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"Not who I am at all. Well maybe not at all, just mostly. For now. Hopefully. But will I ever be him again? I mean even if I got my memory back would things be different because of this? Yeah right? It only makes sense. /em/p
p class="MsoNormal""So I've got to get to work, are you okay with dealing with Morgan when she gets up?" Mariah said, "I guess you could always just come get me too… but it should be easy. Just distract her with breakfast."/p
p class="MsoNormal""Oh," Sebastian frowned, "I'm not really sure I'm ready to spend more time with her alone."/p
p class="MsoNormal""Okay," Mariah said, "I can get her up now then. She can help me. Probably easier that way."/p
p class="MsoNormal""Should I help too?" Sebastian asked./p
p class="MsoNormal"Mariah shook her head, "Nah, you don't have to."/p
p class="MsoNormal"Sebastian frowned. em style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"She's trying to avoid you. You keep offering to help and she keeps saying no. She doesn't want you around. She's uncomfortable being around you. Maybe this date isn't such a good idea. Maybe you should suggest that she go to the appointment alone./em/p
p class="MsoNormal"Mariah started up the stairs, and Sebastian cleared his throat, "Oh um, about the appointment…"/p
p class="MsoNormal""Oh no worries," Mariah said, "It's all set up. Your mom should be here by nine to watch Morgan. I let her know we might be a little later than originally planned too, which wasn't a problem. So we're all set for our date too. I can drive and everything, all you've got to do is be there."/p
p class="MsoNormal"She sounded happier than he expected her to, "You're sure you still want me to come? You can always drop me off somewhere and pick me back up if you'd rather be alone."/p
p class="MsoNormal"Mariah turned to look at him over her shoulder. The stress of the last couple of days was etched into her face, "Seb if you're feeling anxious about it, we don't have to go on the date. I know the appointment doesn't mean much to you either, but I'd really rather have someone with me."/p
p class="MsoNormal"em style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"Someone, but not you,/em "Maybe Sam would be a better choice to go with you."/p
p class="MsoNormal""Fine," she snapped at him, "If you don't want to go and you want me to just drop you off I will. We can keep up appearances."/p
p class="MsoNormal""Did you want me to text Sam?" he asked, a bit apprehensive./p
p class="MsoNormal""No I don't want you to text Sam," she said with clear irritation, "I'll just go by myself. I asked you literally five minutes ago if you still wanted to go on the date and you said yes. You don't have to lie you know. You didn't have to say yes just to spare my feelings, because I sincerely doubt that your mind changed that quickly."/p
p class="MsoNormal""What? No, I didn't lie," Sebastian said./p
p class="MsoNormal""Oh yeah, right. Like I'm going to believe that. Listen Sebastian, I know how overwhelmed you are and I completely understand and respect your need for space. I'm fine with that, but don't lie and say you're willing to do something with me only to immediately turn around and do whatever you can to get away from me," Mariah turned back around and started up the stairs, "Now if you'll excuse me I have a lot of things to do before we have to go."/p
p class="MsoNormal""I'm not trying to get away from you," Sebastian was getting defensive, "And I didn't lie. You're the one trying to get away from me."/p
p class="MsoNormal""Excuse me?" Mariah whipped back around to look at him, "Don't try to blame this on me. You're the one asking me to drop you off because you don't want to be around me."/p
p class="MsoNormal""I only suggested that since you don't want to be around me!"/p
p class="MsoNormal""What the hell gave you that idea?" Mariah asked, eyes narrowed./p
p class="MsoNormal""Because you keep telling me to go relax. And every time I offer to help on the farm you tell me no. Yesterday you pawned me off on Sam, and even this morning you barely spoke to me and then told me to go relax because Morgan's probably going to sleep in."/p
p class="MsoNormal""Because I'm trying to give you space!" She said, throwing her hands up in the air, "Sam's your best friend, and I'm just some stranger you now have to live with, so yeah excuse me for thinking that you'd rather spend your time with him or alone than with me. This has been very stressful and I'm trying not to overload you. That's why I keep saying no when you offer to help and tell you to go relax. It has nothing to do with not being around you and everything to do with trying to make things easier on you. Besides which, I've already told you how much you're already doing to help just by not totally shutting down. But I guess you do have a point. I have been avoiding you to some small degree because I'm trying really hard to not add my hormone enhanced stress and anxiety about this all to what's already on your plate. And sometimes it just em style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"hurts/em being around you when I'm feeling that way. I'm on the verge of tears for like half the day. Looking at you is not just a reminder of my loss, but also a reminder of how much you're struggling. As much as I'd love it if we could just help each other feel better it doesn't work that way. I can't get what I want or need from you and you can't get it from me either. The best I can do is try and give you space and try not to add to all the stress that you're already dealing with."/p
p class="MsoNormal""So you admit it then? You don't want to be around me," Sebastian said, "You're just trying to make it out to be about me instead of about you."/p
p class="MsoNormal""Oh my Yoba. Are you fucking kidding me?" she asked, coming back down the steps, getting closer to him, "That's what you took away from all that I just said? Seriously?"/p
p class="MsoNormal""Why wouldn't I? You just admitted that it hurts to be around me and that you've been avoiding me."/p
p class="MsoNormal""Sebastian if I didn't want to be around you, why would I be upset by the fact that you suggested I just drop you off and come pick you up later? Why would I have double checked this morning to make sure you still wanted to go on the date with me? Maybe you should take some time to consider that whole monologue I just did was all about how I'm doing what I'm doing because I actually give a shit about you. So just to lay it all out on the line and make it abundantly clear to you, because apparently that's something that you need, yes, I want you to come with me today. Yes, I want to go on a date with you. Yes I want you to come to the appointment with me. You've seen me cry plenty over the last couple of days so what the hell? You want to come with me to relearn the farm stuff go for it. You want to follow me around everywhere, fine. You can be my shadow and never leave my side. I don't care. You do what makes you happy and feel better. I tend to doubt it's that but I could be wrong about you wanting space. You might find this hard to believe, but you, just you as you are now, you're the guy I had a crush on six years ago. You might not be my husband, the man that I love, but you're a man that I like and could enjoy spending time with if there weren't so much Yoba-damned stress around it."/p
p class="MsoNormal"Sebastian's mouth hung open. He was taken aback. He opened and closed his mouth a couple of times, but no sound came out./p
p class="MsoNormal""So," Mariah said turning around, "You can do whatever the fuck you want, but I've got shit to do. I'm going to go get Morgan up so that I can actually get some of the chores that need to get done around here done before we leave."/p
p class="MsoNormal"Sebastian stood there for a moment, somewhat dumbfounded. em style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"What the fuck just happened?/em em style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"Did we really go from talking about my sex dream to having an argument in the span of ten minutes? How the hell did this day both start off so strangely and take such a terrible turn? And what do I want to do?/em Naturally he did follow after Mariah. After all of that, what would the harm be just leaning into the skid? Although it would have been nice if he could figure out if Mariah was actually mad at him or not, because he couldn't really tell. He remembered her vaguely mentioning something about anxious rambling or something similar and this could have been that, or it could have just been her having a temper. He began to second guess his choice of following her when he considered that despite what she said, she may not actually want him to follow her around as such./p
p class="MsoNormal"She did give him a small, almost sheepish smile at the top of the stairs, outside of the door to Morgan's bedroom, "You good?"/p
p class="MsoNormal"He nodded his head, "Are you?"/p
p class="MsoNormal""I am," she confirmed, and Sebastian believed her. Hopefully she believed him too./p