The horrid moments of life are always thought to end at some point. The pain, the senseless emotions of having someone care for you in your time of need. Yet, that help never comes. The suffering never ends. The screaming silence always taunting. Which is only overshadowed by your own insecurities and self-doubts.
Kaneki has come to live by this notion. Jason had brought him to his playroom, a bleak checker room with high spherically ceiling. He could only rest in the small moments, in which Yamori would go out with Nico. The numbness of not knowing whether you have all your fingers and toes is scarily memorizing, but his thoughts focused on the door that opened. His torturer is back.
"How are you toes and fingers Kaneki? Or do you even have them anymore?" Kaneki knows behind that mask Yamori is grinning like a madman. The man is left with silence, which angers him slightly. "I found a friend for you Kaneki. Would you like to see them?" Yamori asks with a voice that dropped with poison.
Kaneki raises his head to see the friend that Yamori is referring to. A large red centipede is squirming in the man's hand, " He will keep you from being lonely. So, you will not mind if I put this in your ear?"
Kaneki begins to shake and struggle against his chair and chains, " Please no! I don't want a friend! Please! Someone save me..." The last phrase came off as a whisper, then turned into the screams as the centipede digs in his ear.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
"Do you like this Kaneki! Scream, beg, ask me to kill you!" The twisted tool of Yamori chomping away his fingers and toes, with each cut. The centipede squirms in anger moving inside his skull driving him mad with the pain. "Count Kaneki! Count! What's 1000-7?"
993
The bristle like kagune of Yamori slices Kaneki's pale skin leaving multiple opening wounds, as he pours alcohol on each one of the wounds. Tears stream down Kaneki's face, while the scorching pain feels like Hell.
986
"More Kaneki! More!" The twisted laughter of Yamori echoes around the walls, yet no one could hear them. Yamori squeezes his head and shakes it, making the large centipede even more furious as Kaneki screams.
979
"The numbers are my life. The numbers are my lifeline. The numbers are my friends." The chatter of Kaneki spills out, as he hangs onto the numbers for his dear life.
972
"I will be back tomorrow, Kaneki. Sleep well." The large clacking of footsteps was the last thing he heard before the lights went out, and he is left alone in the dark.
"I don't want to be alone... I don't want to be alone...Mother...Eto...I'm scared."
"You don't want to be alone Kaneki?" Soft hands clasp his face, causing him to look up slowly. "Moth-Rize..." Rize's soft eyes look into Kaneki's own gray ones. "That's right Kaneki. Why are you so weak? If you had the power Yamori wouldn't be able to trample you. Wouldn't that be nice?" Her soft voice pierces his fragile mind.
Rize hugs Kaneki from behind, letting her face rubs against his. "Why is this happening to me..." The raspy voice of Kaneki asks in passive anger and sadness.
"It is simple my dear Kaneki. You put others before yourself, therefore allowing others to drain you of everything you have. Your friends, Your family, even yourself." Rize strokes his face, while teaching him the harsh reality of life. "Didn't your mother pick someone else instead of you?" The door opening stops their conversation, as Yamori appears and the lights turn on. "Think about that for next time Kaneki."
"I wonder how Kaneki is doing?" Eto thinks out loud as her and Noro return to their home. She goes to relax in the tub, as the thoughts of the boy plague her mind. "Hopefully, Ayato is taking good care of his subordinate." She sinks herself into the hot water, pondering about the boy in her mind.
"I have something different for you today Kaneki. Your regeneration makes it so much fun to physically torture you, however you've grown resilient to much of it. Therefore, it's time for us to play a *game. The mother or the child? Who will you save Kaneki?"
"No...No.. I thought you let them go! You promised..." Kaneki looks at the duo with sadness knowing that he has failed them. "In life Kaneki, sometimes you just have to go with the best choice at the time. Now then, it's time for you to pick. The child or the mother." Yamori picks up the child first, and squeezes his throat.
"Let them go...Please." Yamori squeezes the boy tighter, " That's not what I asked you Kaneki. The mother or child." Meanwhile, Kaneki is looking in horror as the young boy he has come to know is being choked to death. "If I pick one, I will still being murdering one of them!" Yamori drops the son and mother, before walking to Kaneki and grabs his head. "If you don't choose I will kill them, and your friends that on their way to attack our base soon."
Kaneki eyes widen, as he hears the news of his friends actually coming to save him. Yamori doesn't miss his reaction, and smiles madly. "Still no answer yet Kaneki? Guess, I will have to pick for you." Yamori goes over to the little boy, as he activates his kagune wrapping it around the boy. Squeezing him with it, as he chokes out blood. "Is this what you want Kaneki? You want the little boy to die!"
"Stop! Stop this! I will be killing them no matter what I do... Kill me, if you want to kill someone." Kaneki cries knowing that he is failing to help anyone in his worthless life. "Fine." Yamori uses his kagune to squeeze the boy's head before it turns into nothing but mush. "Noooooooo!" The mother screams out, as her young son is now dead.
"You want to save her Kaneki? Say it. And, she will be free to go." Yamori states calmly. "I-I want her to be saved." Yamori cuts her loose, however instead of running towards the exit she runs kaneki with her kagune. "You killed my son! You bastard!" The mother screams, but before she could hit Kaneki she drops dead from Yamori's kagune piercing her heart. "Seems she hated you for your choice after all." Yamori laughs in excitement from the unexpected development.
The world around Kaneki changed to the blank white space filled with flowers. So, you failed a mother and her son. "These choices are needed in life Kaneki, but you must choose. How long will it be...before it's someone that you care about?" Images of people he cares about begin to pop up.
"Mrs. Fueguchi..." She didn't last long, however, as her head is sliced off by the investigator. "Hinami..." Kaneki calls out to her. " Big broth-" Yamori appears behind her and proceeds to brutally murder her. Bringing tears to Kaneki face, as the little girl is like a sister to him. "Hide." Kaneki says softly, as he wants do nothing more than hug the guy. "Why didn't you tell me you are a monster. I know I shouldn't have trusted you, after-" Yamori, kagune pierces Hide's chest as he drops down dead. "Eto.." An investigator stabs her through the chest killing her.
"This all happens because of one person's incompetence." Rize sits beside Kaneki's chair. "You just blame yourself over and over, yet you don't try to change it all. Is that why you mother beat you, Kaneki? Is that why you change the way you remember her?"
Rize stands up and perks Kaneki chin, " It is better to be hurt than hurt others. If you were stronger you could've saved that mother and son, yet you are weak and let it happen."
"Stop it." Kaneki protests weakly. "Why are you crying, Kaneki? You choose your future? You chose to choose both, yet you ended forsaking both of them. Just like your mother. If she had chosen to ignore her greedy sister and chose you, she would still be here."
"Stop it, please." Kaneki begs quietly. Rize rubs his hair, " If your mother loved you, she would have chosen you over a worthless sister. Isn't that what you wanted Kaneki? Someone to choose you for once." She goes and sit on the backside of the chair.
"Mother... I wish you would've chosen me. I wish you would've stayed...for me. I don't want be on my own... I wish you lived for my sake." Kaneki cries out.
"Even if that meant forsaking your aunt?"
"Even if meant that!"
"Even if it meant taking her life?"
"Even if meant that!"
"Even if that meant hurting someone?"
"Even if meant that!"
"Good Kaneki." Rize stroke his cheek and raises his head to her eyes. "Sometimes you've to forsake something to keep the other safe. Your mother failed. That's not kindness, it's weakness. Are you going to let Yamori have his way with you any longer?"
"No, no I won't."
"Aogiri Tree will come to the 20th ward sooner or later. Will you've the strength to stop them?"
"Yes, I will."
"Do you accept me Kaneki?"
"No, I can surpass you at any time."
The chains of his imprisonment snap, as he lays on top of Rize.
"Are you sure you're not making the wrong choice, Kaneki?"
"I'm not the one who's wrong. What's wrong...is this world!"
Kaneki begins to devour Rize piece by piece, as a final token of acceptance with his ghoul side.
"That will do. To live is to devour Kaneki."
Kaneki raises up, and looks down at Rize.
"Eat. Kaneki-kun." Her pale hand slides off his face, as his once black hair turns into full shade of white.
The once blank flower world, is nothing more than red flowers and broken male.
The day of raid
Kaneki sat solemnly in the dark room. Hearing the door creek slowly, and expecting the loud foot steps of his torturer. But, is meant with small silent footsteps before cold hands caress his face. "Kaneki-kun." The white haired ghoul looks up to see an unexpected visitor. "Is that you...Eto?"
She smiles softly, " Yeah, it's me. I see Yamori has tortured you like one of his toys..." Her sweet voice transformed into one of anger, as she notices the damage done on him. "Will you be mine Kaneki, if I help you?"
"Help me do what...?" He inquires from the famous author. Eto sits on his lap and moves her lips to his ear close enough where her cold breath brushes his ear. "Kill Yamori." The sadistic, but seductive tone was intoxicating. As if some higher figure has finally taken pity on him. "You want me be yours?" He almost questioned himself, but the time of being reluctant is over.
"Yes, Kaneki. I want to be the only one that touches you." She caress his soft face. "You cry for." Wiping the tear marks off his face. "You love." Placing her hand on his heart. "You have a child with." Placing her hand on her stomach.
Kaneki looks at the woman in surprise. He never had a girlfriend, nonetheless a powerful one. Maybe, this could be a step in the right direction. He needed to gain power to protect to people he cared for, and what better way than a half-ghoul like Eto.
"S-Sure." His cheeks gain a tinged of red, but before he could speak on cold lips matched his own, then parted. "Yamori, will suffer but first you need meat." She reveals her bare shoulder, and before Eto could offer Kaneki was already devouring her flesh. She strokes the white strands of hair, while he replenishes his Rc cells.
A few seconds pass and Kaneki has enough to combat Yamori. As if on queue, the door is opened up and the large clanking of footsteps could be heard. The lights set on, but Eto has already hidden away.
Kaneki, you have been an excellent toy. Nonetheless, it is the end of our time together and I will grant you freedom... through death.
Yamori's kagune comes down crushing the wooden chair in an instant. However, Kaneki isn't there anymore. The chains of his prisoner strangling him stops him from focusing.
"Fuck you." Kaneki flips off his back wiping his bloody lips, " You are truly foul, on the inside and out." He fluidly doges the ghoul's kagune, then spins around it aiming his foot into Yamori's head. However, Yamori grabs his leg squeezing it immensely.
"You're not going anywhere, Kaneki." The large ghoul says. Kaneki twists his leg, slamming his foot into Yamori's face sending him skidding across the ground. The sound of his limb reverting to its original form could be heard. "You will have to do better than that, after all you have put me through."
The sounds of animalistic growling and grunting can be heard from the distant side, as Yamori emerges with his half-kakuja. "I will kill you. Turn you into a sloppy mess, and devour you slowly."
The clashing of the two ghouls is quite the spectacle to Eto. Her should bite is nothing more, as it's already healed. "I wonder does he need help." She watches as the beastly Yamori flings Kaneki into a corner. "I suppose so."
Eto drops down, bringing her shoulder blade Ukaku kagune to life gaining the attention of Yamori. Kaneki walls out from the hole in the wall, cracking his finger as he activates his kagune aa well.
Eto, rushes in slicing the exposed flesh of the large ghoul, while Kaneki works on destroying his armor. She dodges as the mallet like kagune smashes the floor before her. Meanwhile, Yamori is chasing Eto angrily as she keeps avoiding his attacks.
"Why don't you just stay still!" Eto giggles at the deranged ghouls uncoordinated attacks, "You are very weak to be the big bad Yamori of the 13th ward." She dodges the slam with ease, then slices the mallet like weapon off.
Meanwhile, Kaneki comes down with his kagune slamming Yamori into the ground. The large man all but broken now. Kaneki walks toward the large indentation, before cracking his finger.
"What's 1000-7?" Yamori doesn't speak, but screams in pain as he feels the kagune pierce his leg. " I'll ask again. What's 1000-7?" A second tentacle pierces his leg, as he grunts in pain. A third and fourth tentacle pierces both of his arms. " 993, 986." A stream of tears fall down Yamori's eyes as he counts down.
Kaneki sits on top of the ghoul, then pats his head pulling out the large centipede. "You tried to eat me, so you won't mind... if I eat you?"
Crunch! Gulp!
Eto watches as her boyfriend eats the ghoul that tortured him. It was an exhilarating and sexy site to watch in her own opinion. We should get going soon Kaneki-kun. The Doves are raiding this place as we speak.
Kaneki gets off the ghoul's back and looks at Eto, " We should be on our way then." She grabs his arm skipping to the exit/entrance door of the building happy that she finally has Kaneki al to herself.
