Holding Kurt

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Chapter 1: Scared

As Kurt Hummel-Anderson sat on Noah Puckerman's lap, he was naked and shaking after being raped during a home invasion robbery. Noah's number had been called during the attack, and Kurt had refused to let anyone near him, but Noah. Blaine and their daughter Tracie were killed. The moment Noah tried to move, Kurt screamed. Quinn Fabray, Noah's ex, and Burt, Kurt's dad, convinced him to let Noah put him in an ambulance. Noah left Kurt's side only once when a nurse had to use a rape kit.

Burt and Carole arrived at Kurt's bedside in the I.C.U. while Kurt was sleeping and Noah was talking to Quinn. They didn't hear everything that was said, but they heard Noah say, in a whisper, "Because I know what he is suffering through, Quinn! He is scared out of his mind and wants someone to let him know everything is going to be okay. After, he had been attacked in the worst way possible,

Then there was a pause before Noah said, "Because I was raped, Quinn! That's why I dumped you, and that's why I haven't had sex since! Since I got home, I have been sleeping with the fucking lights on! I have PTSD and had to quit the Air Force because I had nightmares! Quinn, I'm gay, okay? The two walk up to Kurt's bedside shortly after Quinn leaves. After that, Noah says, "I was raped before Tracie was born and stopped having sex because I started having panic attacks every time someone touched me. I knew I was gay when Kurt sat on my lap." Nothing else was said as Noah brushed Kurt's bangs from his face.

Kurt moves in with Noah after being discharged from the hospital. Noah held Kurt that night while they were both wearing boxers. As they were watching TV, Noah kissed Kurt. As soon as Noah turned off the TV, he stood naked in front of Kurt. With his hands on Puckzilla, as he was trembling. Kurt then got up and pulled his boxers down before covering his penis as well. Kurt and Noah stood like this for ten minutes before Noah gently kissed Kurt and cupped Kurt's face in his hands. Within minutes, they were kissing in bed as Noah fingered Kurt's ass.

Despite wanting to do more, neither of them had completely recovered from what had happened to them. Both Noah and Kurt felt at ease when Noah held Kurt naked or dressed. In public, they acted fine, but when they were alone, they never left each other's side. It was a year before they would even sleep with one light on. Then one day, they were in the shower together. When Noah asks, "Kurt, do you trust me?" Kurt nods his head, "yes," before Noah picks him up and inserts Puckzilla into Kurt's ass. Then, Noah kisses Kurt before asking if he was ready. Kurt nods his head, "yes," again, before Noah slowly thrusts himself into Kurt, being as gentle as possible.

Noah held Kurt in his arms as they lay in bed, and he said, "I love you, Kurt. I am very glad that you were the one that helped me not be afraid of the dark anymore. I hate that you have lost so much to be with me, and I can't wait to see what our future holds. " Then he wipes a tear from Kurt's cheek and says, "She's with your mom now, okay? I doubt she would have wanted to grow up with a dad like yours, anyway. " This made Kurt chuckle before saying, "I doubt Beth would have wanted a dad like you either." Soon they are having a pillow fight, and Noah falls out of bed.

Rachel and Quinn both visited them after they had been together for another year. Rachel was the first to speak, saying, "We were just wondering if you had decided who was going to be your baby mama yet." The men look at each other and say, "Quinn. No offense, Rachel, but you were annoying in high school. " Then Noah gives Kurt an Eskimo kiss and says, "It doesn't matter which one of you is the mama; we all know I'll be like Kurt's dad if that baby is a girl." This made them all laugh, and Kurt lightly hit Noah.

After Rachel and Quinn leave, Kurt and Noah go to their bedroom. Before, Kurt stripped naked and was sitting on Noah's lap. Then Noah says, "I love it when you want to be naked as we cuddle. I feel like I'm holding a delicate little flower in my arms. I mean, I feel that whether you're naked or dressed, but I like touching your skin as I hold you. " Kurt soon pulls Noah's shirt off and wraps Noah's arms around him. Before, he says, "I like feeling your muscles when you hold me, Noah." Kurt stopped calling Noah Puck after he got raped, and Noah loved hearing his name from that first day.

Soon everyone noticed that wherever they were, Kurt was always sitting on Noah's lap, and sometimes Noah was carrying him wherever they went. It didn't bother anyone because they looked so cute together. Noah held Kurt the most on rainy days, and everyone knew it helped Kurt feel better. So, no one would say anything about it. Especially since it was raining the day Kurt got raped.

One night, Kurt and Noah were in bed. When they hear a loud crash of thunder and see a flash of lightning, Noah sings "Not While I'm Around," which Blaine sang to Kurt years ago.

(Puck)

Nothing's gonna harm you, not while I'm around

Nothing's gonna harm you, no sir, not while I'm around.

Demons are prowling everywhere nowadays

I'll send them howling

I don't care. I got ways.

No one's gonna hurt you,

No one's gonna dare

Others can desert you,

Not to worry, whistle, I'll be there!

Demons'll charm you with a smile for a while.

But in time...

Nothing can harm you

Not while I'm around...

Being close and being clever

Ain't like being true

I don't need to,

I would never hide a thing from you,

Like some...

No one's gonna hurt you. No one's gonna dare.

Others can desert you,

Not to worry, whistle, I'll be there!

Demons'll charm you with a smile, for a while

But in time...

Nothing can harm you

Not while I'm around.

Soon the storm had passed, and they were asleep in each other's arms.

Chapter 2 will be up soon