You could hear the sounds of howls as we rode and I knew that sound it was Shadow. Smirking we pulled up to Kings Landing and I stared at the people my hand on the dagger Jon had given me. I didn't trust this city. Jory Rode by my side and we exchanged the same look.
The girls rode in a wagon not speaking to each other, they were fighting and all over Joffrey. I didn't understand why she would love him maybe I'm biased because I'd rather Sansa be with Brent.
We came to a halt. Jory following lord Stark as he jumped off his horse. I watched as Ned came to a halt in front of a man. He nodded before turning to us "Get the girls settled in. I'll be back in time for supper. And, Jory, you go with them"
"Yes, my Lord" Jory nodded
The Pageboy stared at Lord Stark looking him up and down "If you'd like to change into something more appropriate…" I had to hold my laughter; Lord Stark didn't care what he looked like in front of the small council.
We got off our horses handing them to our soldiers to put them away in the stables. Jory walked beside me as the septa spoke to the lady showing us our living quarters.
Kings Landing is warm it felt nice but it wasn't home and at least in the North I was closer to Jon. Finishing unpacking, I changed and bathed from the ride into something lighter.
Looking at the parchment I wanted to read it Taking a deep breath I opened the parchment "Lillian" Frowning I placed the parchment down and headed to the door "Time to eat" Septa nodded
Nodding I followed her I learnt a long time ago it was easier to go than to have her come again, she was very nagging majority of the time. Taking a seat at the table I began filling my plate as Arya stabbed the table over and over again with a knife.
Septa Mordane drummed her fingers on the table "Enough of that, young lady. Eat your food" And just like an explosion she went off.
"I'm practicing" Arya snapped
"Practicing for what?" Sansa asked annoyed
Arya starred Sansa dead in the eyes "The Prince" She spat
"Arya, stop!" Septa snapped
"He's a liar and a coward and he killed my friend"
Sansa rolled her eyes "The Hound killed your friend"
"The Hound does whatever the Prince tells him to do"
"You're an idiot"
"You're a liar. And if you told the truth, Mycah would be alive" Arya yelled back
"ENOUGH" I snapped "What done is done, now eat
"What's happening here?" Lord Stark asked
Septa Mordane singed "Arya would rather act like a beast than a lady"
"Go to your room. We'll speak later" Arya signed getting up and leaving the table, rolling my eyes I shoved some food into my mouth, which I got a death stare from Septa.
"What?" I asked annoyed
"Be a Lady!" she signed
"It's a dead cause you my as well give up" I shrugged
"Never I shall get you to chew 34 times before you swallow" she bumped my arm playfully.
"That's for you, love" Lord Stark placed a doll on the table to Sansa "The same doll maker makes all of Princess Myrcella's toys…Don't you like it?" he asked I felt the hurt in his voice he was trying to make up for Lady but it wasn't his fault he had to do it.
"I haven't played with dolls since I was eight" She snapped, "May I be excused?" She asked annoyed
"You haven't even eaten Sansa!" I pointed out
Eddard Stark touched my shoulder "It's all right. Go on."
"Which one you want to deal with?" I questioned
"Arya" he nodded fast
"The easier one fine" I signed picking up the chicken leg "Good luck" Kissing his forehead I walked down the hallway eating the chicken wing. I didn't bother to knock on Sansa door I just walked inside "Hey Starky Stark take a seat" I patted her bed.
"You can't-"
"Ah shh I talk you listen understand" she nodded "Now your father loves you, he stood up for you and you lied Sansa you did this. And in doing so I had to tell Shadow to leave" I frowned "You're so caught up in being queen that you're hurting those who stand with you"
"Lily"
"No Arya lost her friend, Joffrey attacked her, Nymeria was sent away and when you had a chance to be honest you refused and when the Queen decided to take Lady life for what happed Arya stood up for you and Lady" I frowned "And to make it worse you blame your father not fair Sansa" Passing her the doll "His sorry"
Getting up I headed to the door "Lily"
"Yeah"
"I'm sorry"
"Try saying sorry to Arya or your father"
"No not what I was apologizing for I'm Sorry about my idiot brother choosing the wall"
"And I'm sorry"
"For what?"
"For you choosing Joffrey over someone who loved you"
"What?" She frowned
"Brent he loves you and I'd be dam if I don't tell you before you throw yourself into this marriage you want so badly" with that I left Sansa. Rushing back to my chambers I locked the door grabbing that Parchment.
My Dearest Lillian,
It's strange to think that I won't see you on a day-to-day basis. That I will see many moons but not see you. That I will watch sunsets and sunrises but nothing compared to your beautiful face.
I never thought you'd confess your love to me, I never thought that we share the moment we did that beautiful moment that will keep me warm in the cold nights of winter on the wall.
I need you know that I will live and die at this wall. That I am a man of my word and before I knew of you're feeling I was an outcast, a bastard and you a highborn Lady.
I never thought I would feel pain like seeing you cry for the first time, hearing that pain in your voice as you begged me to stay, leaving you is the hardest thing I will face but know this I love you.
I love you and you will forever be my love the only women I lay with the only women I care for but I need you to move on, to find a new love to marry and have children. Do not wait a thousand moons for me because I will die at this wall before than.
I am sorry for causing you such pain, I am sorry for leaving like I did but I do not regret telling you how I feel I do not regret our moment I just wish we weren't so scared to tell each other because if we did we wouldn't be apart. With you I always felt like I belonged, that I wasn't a bastard that I was Jon just Jon.
Be safe and trust no snake in Kings Landing. Smile, laugh and fight like a deranged bitch because that is whom I fell in love with. Crazy, insane, beautiful, strong Lady Lillian Falls no moment with you was ever wrong, you made my life better.
Yours Truly,
Jon Snow.
I hugged the parchment to my chest and once again felt an unfamiliar tear fall down my cheek.
