Jon POV

Since I told Grant of his sisters and brother his done nothing but stare at me blinking blankly, frowning and shaking his head, as if he was having an inside argument with himself.

I stared at Grant as he sat down Ygritte plating his hair, I could see he was having a deep argument with her. It was long until she stormed off over to me her eyes angry reminding me off all the times Lillian was mad.

"My father has questions" Ygritte frowned

"Questions?" I asked

"About Lillian and the twins" she shrugged

"Okay" I nodded

Ygritte nodded "Don't fear him, he may be strong but he is gentle" She faked a smile before turning on her heels and heading back to her father.

Grant was a big man. He was built like a bag of bricks. I watched him stand coming over to me "Lillian you love her why swear the oath?" he didn't beat around the bush another trait of Lillian.

"I made a promise to take the black before we admitted our feelings…and then before we left we spoke our truths and it was to late" I gulped back the guilt I feel.

"A man of his word" Grant nodded

"Yes" I whispered

"What did she think of you taking the black?" he questioned

Looking down I signed "A part of her hates me for it, I promised I'd always be there for her and I'm her north of the wall" I shook my head "If I am to be free its only to return to her"

"What about your family?" I asked

"I love them I do but they understood why I had to go. Lillian different story she will never forgive me for leaving her"

Grant looked down "You probably think I'm a horrible brother being over here right?"

"She missed you, she told us you died!" I stated

Grant frowned "She lied, she knew I went over the wall to be with my now wife and children, Ygritte was my first born child I have others but when I go away Le takes care of them" he nodded "Lillian lied to stop people looking for me I guess"

"She lied to the twins too they think you're dead" I stated, "She lied to me"

"She lied to protect me" Grant nodded "She was always protecting people, she's our mother all over"

"Yeah well I hope she has the strength to survive Kings Landing, they have my sister and Lillian captive"

"Where are the twins? Where Brent and Nadine?"

"Nadine is with the Forresters spending time with her betrothed Ethan"

A massive smile broke out on Grant face "Rodrik and Asher still at Ironrath?"

"Asher was exiled"

"Still in love with the Whitehill daughter?" he chuckled

"Last I heard" I smirked "You had a life and you left it was it worth it?"

"Would you die for Lillian?" He asked his hand gripping his axe

"Yes"

"Than you understand how worth it, it was" he nodded "I love my sisters, I love my brother, mother and father. I loved my home but home is nothing if you have no one to share it with…without my wife I'd be empty, I'd probably be dead" he shrugged

I stared at him it was true if Lillian died I don't think I could go on, think I'd accept death. I would no longer fight.

Grant signed "I wish sometimes Le came over the wall with the kids, I wanted them to meet my family, I wanted to live in my castle and be happy but sadly its nothing but rubble"

"You miss home?" I questioned

"What man wouldn't?" he asked, "Mance is staring at you Crow better get moving"

Getting up Grant walked ahead leaving me with a million questions, I felt as if I had protection from Grant and a part of Lillian was here with me. Looking up at the sky for all that is good in the world I hope someone is watching over her, protecting Lillian.

Lillian POV

Days had faded and weeks passed by with a blink of an eye yet everyday, every week and every month I stare down at this blue eyed, black curly haired boy in my arms. I thought he was dead I grieved his death, I was broken but here now holding my finger smiling up at me was a piece of my heart.

I had felt like I was reborn and it lay in my arms. Brent and I stayed in inns and set up camps moving slowly than we did before, due to the difficulty to move quickly with a child.

My life had evolved and I couldn't explain the over powering protectiveness that came over me for this young little boy. I felt like a momma bear protection it cub.

Running a hand through his curly black locks, he snuggled closer to me. He was Jon all over which brought me happiness yet tears because it made me miss him more.

I hated Jon for leaving I hated that I had, had this little miracle and he would never be around. Jon would never get to watch his son grow up, teach him how to be a man.

"We should probably get a proper move on now Lil" Looking up at Brent "We should reach Robb Army, see Robb you know there a bounty on your head bigger than ever now you've escaped"

I looked at Brent its like everyday he grows "You're right it is time, but we can't keep travelling on one horse Brent" I signed "It slows us down"

"So what you want to steal one?" he asked

"Borrow" I shrugged "Without payment"

"What?" Brent frowned; I smirked up at my little brother "Oh god that smile screams trouble"

"Can you hold him?" I questioned "Shadow and I will catch up"

"Sister?"

"Trust me little brother" I nodded "I got this"

Brent rolled his eyes "Come here Derik mummy got that insane look in her eyes" Brent took baby Derik from me holding him to his chest "Don't be stupid Lillian he can't grow up without you" he warned, father tone in his voice.

"I'll be with you shortly" I nodded. He signed getting up and heading out the door of the inn we were staying at.

Throwing my bow around my body I began walking out of the room seeing a bunch of man drinking and laughing. Throwing my hood over my head I slide against the wall. Hoping no one would recognise me. Reaching for the door I slipped out of the door.

The wind whistled in my ears as I crept towards the stables, a low growl coming from shadow "Shh" I whispered, Shadow just lowered himself in pounce mode. Licking my lips I stepped forward into the stables.

Finding a horse I quickly got him out "What you doing with my-" he stopped staring at me "Wait" a slow sick evil smile "I know you, you're Lillian Falls King Joffrey-" before he could speak one more word an arrow pierced his heart.

I watched him fall to his knees coughing out blood, jumping up on the horse "Thank you for your horse" I spat angrily, Letting out a sharp whistle I kicked the horse leaving the stables quickly Shadow at my side.

Turning the corner I saw Brent on his horse just talking to Derik a smile on his face "Move it BRENT!" I yelled riding closer.

Brent turned his head wrapping Derik to him and began to ride with one hand. As I reached his side we both began to ride at the same pace, our horse pumping "What have you done?" Brent yelled his breath choppy.

"I killed the owner!" I yelled over the wind

"Lillian" he groaned

"Shut up Brent, he wanted a bounty I wanted his horse, I won"

Jon Snow

Walking through the thick snow "Was it hard for you to kill the half hand?" turning my head to Mance.

"Yes"

"You liked him?" Mance asked, I nodded and continued to walk, Mance beside me "I like you, but if you're playing us false, it won't be hard for me to kill you. I've got wildling blood in my veins. These are my people"

"I understand."

"Well, how could you understand?"

I signed stopping in my tracks "You want to protect your people"

Mance glared at me "Do you know what it takes to unite 90 clans, half of whom want to massacre the other half for one insult or another? They speak seven different languages in my army. The Thenns hate the Hornfoots. The Hornfoots hate the ice-river clans. Everyone hates the cave people. So you know how I got moon worshippers and cannibals and giants to march together in the same army?"

"No."

"I told them we were all going to die if we don't get south. Because that's the truth, Shouldn't be long now"

The sound of screeching hit my ear frowning I stared at a man sitting his eyes white "What's wrong with him?"

"He's a warg. He can enter the mind of animals. See through their eyes. He's scouting for us!" Mance answered

"What, you've never met a warg?" Grant asked glaring at me, it was weird staring at him and knowing his Grant Falls the brother of the girl I have loved almost all my life.

"Orell" Mance yelled, "Where were you this time?"

"The Fist of the First Men"

"What did you see?"

Orell turned to my chuckling "Dead crows"