Brent and I rode beside Robb; we fought and moved with the lords of the north. Welcomed by all "I hope to see a wedding" Turning my head to Gregor Forrester "I hope to see Nadine and Ethan marry"
"As do I, think we deserve some type of happiness in our lives" I nodded
"Just better treat her right, or I'll get him" Brent mocked over hearing the conversation.
WE were riding to riverrun to pay our respect to Lady Catelyn father and Robb grandfather as he had passed away. Lord Hoster Tully was a very respected man. The ceremony didn't go for to long and after that Derik and I found ourselves sitting by the fire inside whilst the northern camp laid on the grass, setting camp.
The Northern lords didn't like the move but they followed their king. I laughed as my son began reaching at me pulling himself up, only to fall from wobbly legs.
"You're too little Derik" I laughed
But he only returned my words with a smile and another attempt to stand on his own "Never to late to learn little man" Robb voice boomed taking Derik little hands as he walked backwards Derik following like a drunk man leaving a tavern.
I watched Derik he had grown so much, crawling, sitting on his own yet not one word has slipped his lips yet, I didn't push anything but it hurt to see him missing milestones. Knowing that he will live and die at that ice wall.
"Lillian you okay?" Robb asked staring at me Derik on his hip
"I am fine" I shook my head
"You're thinking of him, of Jon"
"Hard not to when I look at Derik" I shrugged
"I wish he never left, I wish none of us left Winterfell"
"I agree, but than again at least one good thing came out of all of this" I shrugged "You meet your wife Queen of the North"
Robb shook his head a smile playing on his lips "You love using the titles don't you" he shook his head "Now stop being mean and I need to have a real conversation"
"Real conversation?" I asked eyebrow raised
"So I might or might not have seen your brother pressing a certain person to a tree and if I didn't step in things would have got pretty heated"
"God talk about being a cock block" I chuckled
"Hey we have to babies we don't need three"
"I" I nodded "Robb where is Theon?" I questioned "I knew he would have came with you but his not here. What happened?"
Robb whole demeanour changed, his eyes grew angry he placed Derik down as his knuckles clenched and unclenched "I had asked him to seek alliance from his father, I sent him and he betrayed me. Marched on Winterfell and took it"
"Why?" I questioned
"What I want to know, he killed Ser Rodrik and burned Bran and Rickon" his jaw clenched
Standing up I walked towards Robb wrapping my arms around him tightly, he began to break, wrapping his arms around me tears flowing down his cheeks as his breath was choppy "Not fair they were boys"
"He'll pay, he'll pay for what he has done to our family," I whispered a tear falling down my cheek.
I don't' know how long we stood there hugging each other, how long we cried but the sound of coughing made us pull apart "Can I help you?" I asked as Robb wiped his tears fixing himself up.
"Your Grace the Frey's are here"
"I'll be back soon" Robb nodded squeezing my hand I nodded going over to Derik who was playing with Greywind and Shadow. Lying down next to the wolves, shadow licked my face.
"I know boy I miss him too" I stated "Derik sweetie want to hear a story…story about your dad" I asked bringing him over to me laying him down on the furs on the floor, my hand running through his black curly locks.
"Your father is a brave man, he was born a bastard which isn't a nice word what so ever. But due to being born the way he was he didn't feel like he belonged and after confessing out love he still kept his word" I signed
"Your father is brave, he is strong, he is loyal and honourable. I know he is doing great things and I hope you grow to be so much like him. I love your daddy but I'm mad" I confessed "I am so mad at him but I love him"
Derik smiled at me "Mummy"
My breath caught "yeah" I smiled "Mummy" bending down I kissed my little boy cheek "Derik I need you to know that I will die before anyone lays a harmful finger on you…you will always be protected"
Bitting back the emotions Derik eyes began to flutter close, his little body curling into me. I smiled this child, my boy was my saviour, he was my light because trust me I feel everything they did everyday no matter how good I am blocking it out I feel it.
"Protect him Shadow always" I whispered rubbing Shadow head.
….
"I don't trust Walter Frey" Brent shrugged "His unpredictable and would stab you in the back"
"I agree Brent Right" I nodded from the table where I was nursing under a sheet.
"It's the only way"
"I don't think it is Robb, Marrying is not the only way"
"What is it that you wish I do?" he asked
"Just be smart, it was you they wanted and you married Talisa" I stared at her "As much as she's beautiful and I get being in love you betrayed your word his going to betray you"
"Sister right his not trust worthy" Brent shrugged
"Is there any other way?" Robb signed, "I know I betrayed my word but I'm giving them someone else they wanted"
"Yep like I said I don't trust him and Talisa you're with child you shouldn't be going"
"I agree with Lillian and Brent" Lady Stark came into the room "It's dangerous beyond dangerous, it could be a great wedding or a cruel joke"
"Not meant to hurt your feelings Talisa, I wouldn't dare but I will not lie, you need to understand that" I nodded "Also Brent and I will be leaving soon"
"Leaving?" Robb frowned "But-"
"I would fight and die beside you Robb but I will not let my child grow up without parents, it's not fair"
"Lillian Falls motherhood kicked in" Brent shrugged
"So you won't be attending the wedding?" Talisa asked
"No we won't and if you'd like you may come" I nodded "You're almost ready to pop and as a mother I believe you should protect your unborn child"
"Will see" She nodded looking down at her swelling stomach, it was like a instinct and Robb hands were rubbing her shoulder, it made me smile to see it, made me miss what I could have had.
….
I stared at Lady Stark as she sat on the floor playing with Derik, Robb had King duties to attend to, Talisa went to bed and Jaymie and Brent were probably doing something frowned upon.
Walking over I smiled at my little man "Hey little guy" he just laughed playing with Shadow tail "Lady Stark can I ask you something" I asked,
"You may" she nodded looking at me
"Why?" I questioned, "You hated him, why?"
"Ned he cheated on me and brought home a baby he just wanted me to protect"
"He was but a child, it wasn't his fault" I shrugged
"Your right and I vow to write my wrongs, he was Ned son and he loved him"
"Your right" I nodded "About one thing"
"I'm sorry"
I signed "before Ned beheading he told me something, something he wanted me to pass on to Jon when I saw him" I commented, "His last name isn't Snow"
"He wanted it to be stark?" she asked
"No technically his more Stark than you are" I looked at her, she stared in confusion "It was Lyanna baby"
Lady stark stared at me "What?"
"He promised to say it was his so Robert Baratheon wouldn't kill him, its Lyanna baby she died having him"
"Oh my god I-I-I"
"Yeah but write your wrongs, because you have always been a mother to us and Derik will need a Grandmother" I whispered,
"I promise" she nodded tears streaking her face
"He told me to tell you one last thing"
"That is?"
"He loves you with all his heart and he never meant to hurt you" I nodded. Tears flowed like a river, reaching out I hugged her tightly to my chest, my hand patting her head "Shh"
"LILLIAN, MOTHER COME QUCIK" Robb yelled sliding into the room panic in his voice.
